Entries by TATIANA

Sunday today.....some Sundays I do errands.....going to the grocery store and exciting things like that. So today when walking into a store I saw a guy sitting outside the front doors with his two dogs. I have seen him around here before, sitting outside the stores or walking around town. The reason I pay attention is because of the two dogs that are with him. I also noticed that he was rather loudly reprimanding his dogs. I felt bad for them. So on the way out of the store instead of passing them by I walked up and asked if I could pet his dogs.
They were very friendly, wagging tails, coming close and licking my hands. Sweeties! I noticed that they were skinny, not scary bony but not well fed. I asked the guy if he was homeless and he told me that he lives in his car. Then I asked him if he would be ok with me getting his dogs something to eat and he was. So I got them canned food and some chicken jerky. As far as the guy goes, he is not old or handicapped, at least not visibly disabled. I can only hope that he gets food stamps so he can feed himself. But the dogs.....well they depend on their caregiver for food and I just couldn't walk by today pretending that I didn't see or care, I had to feed those dogs, they were hungry. All pets deserve a good life with care, love and respect.
I don't take my life for granted, at least I try not to. I might very well end up homeless one day, who knows?



I had a great conversation with my friend Juliana today. Most of my friends live far away.
I wish I could see them on a regular basis because I miss them. We were talking about men, relationships and sex. How so many guys don't understand how important it is to pay attention to their wife of girlfriend, after a while it's like you get taken for granted and yes that will affect the sex life for most couples (yes?). Totally understandable. I blurted out something that made us both laugh, "Don't point your erection in my direction expecting to get affection." It takes a bit more effort than that! Another friend of mine that recently got married has written up a form of contract/guidelines for their relationship with her husband.
I think it is great. Basically, he is not allowed to whine and sulk if he is not getting sex when he wants to. Acting like a toddler and throwing tantrums is not sexy when you are an adult man. Definitely NOT a turn on. Also, if he wants sex he needs to put in some effort and pay attention to her by either giving her a good foot rub or a massage. And if he does a half assed job he will get half assed sex, you get what you put in. This might not sound very romantic for some but I think it is a great idea. Intimacy is so much more than an erection that needs attention. Most women can actually take it or leave it. Don't be fooled by porn, that is not reality and that is not how women work, especially not if you have been together for a while. I am tired of listening to or reading about guys complaining about sex, not getting enough sex from their partner. Boooooohoooooo! Guess what buddy? Shut up and pay more attention to your partner, I promise that it will lead to more sex. Unless she has already grown resentful of you and your shit and is planning her escape.

There was also some drama at work last night. I am going to refrain from saying too much about it for now but I guess I am DEFIANT. Hell yes, I am defiant and proudly too! I'd rather be defiant than a sheep. Rather be defiant than some nasty hooker at work or one of the girls that steals guys wallets or leads them on, pretending to be their girlfriend and shit. I actually need to write an entry about that......there are many gullible men in this town, it's sad or rather comical actually. Is it possible for men to think with their real brain, you know the one on top of their shoulders when it comes to promises of some random vagina? Or does the small brain located in their member that is in between their legs take over?

What an honor it must be to be awarded a Nobel Prize......just imagine! This year one of the people receiving the Nobel Prize in Chemistry is a man that together with his wife designed a sculpture for this years Burning Man, called UNITY. His name is Michael Levitt and her name is Rina. I love this! So many people think that only good for nothing freaks and druggies gather at Burning Man for a week of basically bullshit mumbo jumbo. Just a great example of a preconceived opinion many have. Burning Man is actually full of brilliant creative freaks. Besides since when is being a "freak" something bad? So next time you start to smirk condescendingly when you hear something about Burning Man, get off that high horse of yours. Where is YOUR Noble Prize, huh? Yeah, I didn't think so. I myself would love to one day get two prizes, one for Peace and that one I would have to travel to Oslo to get. Hey, if Obama somehow got a Peace prize, so can I OK? And then one in Literature....of course! And that prize I would travel to Stockholm to receive, in case you don't know.....I grew up there. I might write some amazing stuff one day and blow the whole world away. Very few people have been awarded two Nobel Prizes but Marie Skłodowska-Curie (nee Maria) received two, in Physics and Chemistry. And Marie Skłodowska-Curie was born in Poland, just like me. She was a remarkable woman! Really.

Photographer Michael Helms.

Photographer Michael Helms.

Photographer Michael Helms.

Ever since Chhaya was a little baby I have been taking her to playgrounds, she loves to climb up on stuff, she is agile like a mountain goat and she bravely runs don the slides. I stand on the sidelines and cheer her on soccer mom style, super proud over MY kid. My doggie kid.







A story just came out about a disgusting couple that kept four little boys in horrible conditions in an apartment. The boys were found malnourished, filthy and communicated by grunting. The apartment was beyond dirty with flies, feces and reeked of cat urine. Even more unbelievable is that these "people" had three OTHER children taken away from them a few years ago for basically the same reasons. Not much upsets me more than abuse and neglect of the defenseless, children and animals. I am absolutely for strict laws on who can or cannot become a parent and even for forced sterilization of anyone found guilty of any kind of abuse of a child. The authorities should had sterilized the couple in this case after they proved to be unfit parents a few years ago, instead these sickos had four more kids. For what? If you are a drug addict or an alcoholic I don't think you should be allowed to have children until you get sober. If you can't take care of yourself you can't care for a child. If you want kids badly enough then sober up and get your shit together! I also do not think that people on welfare should be able to have kids until they can support themselves. That would probably cut down on the people that only give birth so they can collect more money in form of handouts.
How are you going to feed and clothe your children if you can't feed yourself? Newsflash.....the kids should not support you, it is the other way around. People with serious mental issues should also not be allowed to have children. If you are crazy you can barely concentrate on yourself and keeping track of the meds you have to take every day. I suspect there were some sort of mental issues in this case, at least the so called Mom looks like she lost all her marbles a long time ago and the Dad looks like Charles Manson. Creepy.
Same goes for pet owners. If you abuse or neglect your pet then you should not be allowed to have any animals ever again.