Entries by TATIANA

I was thinking about going to work tonight and even got invited to meet some friends out for a Mardi Gras party Alaskan style (we make bead necklaces out of moose dropping here) but decided to stay home and cuddle with my armpit hair instead. I mean wouldn't you too if you were me? It's soft and getting longer, I love it!
Actually, I stayed in because I was not feeling 100 % well from that headache I had earlier and I know that even a small amount of cigarette smoke will bring back that headache and I don't want that. So I am being boring, laying in bed and watching TV. I put coconut oil in my hair and smell like suntanning oil on a beach in Hawaii.
This might be the last pic you see of my armpit hair, I think I am shaving it tomorrow. I found a buyer for the hair, he is going to glue it to his face and offer ladies mustache rides. And I proved to myself, I guess, that I don't care if guys like hairy armpits or not. What matters for me is what I like on me. The hair doesn't bother me but I did feel more moist/wet at times in the armpits. And from an esthetical standpoint I prefer my pits shaved. So bye bye armpit hair for this time around. Besides....I pretty much stopped caring a long time ago what guys like or don't like.

I had a headache yesterday.....it started out lingering and when I went to bed last night it just escalated and I finally had to get out of bed, go downstairs and drink two mugs of water and I took a headache pill. I feel really bad for people with frequent headaches.....I can't function when I get them, well if I have a barely there lingering one. But last night it was pounding and my ears were aching too, it felt like my brain was too large for my head. This morning I woke up to a wet start. Because I drank that water late last night I peed in bed! Yes. I had a dream that I went to the bathroom and the dream somehow felt like reality and I woke up feeling something wet and warm. Great! After that I had to get up, strip the bed of the the sheets and clean up and I have been up and going since then. Nothing like waking up while peeing in bed.
Besides that I don't have much to report. Spent a few days at home, I think I feel up for going to the gym today and that's about it. It's Friday but for me it's like any other day of the week.

I had a busy day today and got a lot done, it feels good to get stuff done.....doesn't it? I had to make myself a list this afternoon to look at my tasks in writing.....besides the usual stuff I do everyday. Like the daily latte and take care of Chhaya etc.



I am saving the leg waxing, hair coloring and pedicure for next week.....those things are not urgent. I have not had nail polish on my toes since October now, I decided to let my toenails "breathe" after having them painted for years. Of course I don't walk around with talons hanging over my heels......kind of like this.....not so SEKSI maybe?



I still keep my toes neat and clipped, just not painted but next week it's time for some pink to get slapped on them.
So I got my taxes and lots off other things done today.....what a burden off my shoulders! Now I am watching Jimmy Fallon (he is so cuuuuute!) and writing this. So I'm basically relaxing.
I took Chhaya on two long walks today and this pic is from one of them, she is my little daredevil, always willing to do whatever I suggest. She is sleeping and snoring in bed right now.



The Iditarod race is going on in Alaska right now, several of the participants have scratched during this years race, meaning they dropped out for various reasons. I am against this race and I wrote about that last year. I don't care that it is a "tradition". That doesn't make it right, like plenty of other traditions. For example FGM (Female Genital Mutilation), Bull Fighting and other traditions that hurt innocent people and animals. I think that the dogs in the Iditarod race get subjected to cruel treatment, they run 1000 miles (I think actually over 1000 miles) in cold and harsh conditions, I feel bad for their little legs and paws.
And to point this out even more, I picked up the Redoubt Reporter today, a local weekly paper. Somebody wrote in a letter to the editor about the Iditarod race. This is what she had to say, "A few years ago I visited Alaska to explore the possibility of one day pursuing my dream to participate in the Iditarod. I went home with memories of glorious vistas and the warmth and courage of most of the Alaskan people, but my opinion of the Iditarod was radically changed. I watched with my own eyes a dog being repeatedly punched, kicked and slammed to the ground by a top-10 Iditarod musher. As hideous as that was, what haunts me most is knowing that dogs spend the majority of their lives on the end of a chain running circles into the frozen soil. To think about the senseless numbers of dogs who pay with their lives in the quest to breed a champion. The "slow" puppies and shotgun fodder. It is 2014, and it's time to acknowledge the stark truth of the Iditarod's cruelty. We can and must all work to change this inhumane mindset - please have the courage to speak up with me."

I absolutely agree with this person. The musher that wins the Iditarod gets a new truck and money. The race also brings in revenue for Anchorage and the villages that the Iditarod goes through = $$$. So it's all about the car and the cash. While the dogs suffer for however long it takes for them to reach Nome. If you want that truck and the money so badly, why don't you walk to Nome in the snow and cold yourself? Or go to work and buy a new truck. I would never subject Chhaya to that just so I could maybe win a car. I think the Iditarod is animal cruelty. I don't care that a lot of people say that these dogs "love to run". Really? How do you know this? They love to run for 1000 miles with almost no rest, get to sleep outside in the cold, fed some raw and frozen fish? Live their lives outside chained up? I don't think so.

So I got some vitamins, in case I need to adjust my iron levels and whatever else I might be lacking. It's not easy to know of any deficiencies unless you get your blood checked. I am not super consistent with taking vitamins but I am going to make an effort. I haven't tried the Floravital (the bottle) yet but that one has lots of iron in it. Since I don't eat meat I don't get iron that way and meat is the highest dietary source of iron. But I'd rather be a vegetarian than eat meat. A bloody chunk of steak seems disgusting to me.

I got my ticket and I am happy, excited and emotional! I have been reading about this years theme and it's going to be AMAZING! I am so grateful and feel very blessed that I can do things like this. I went last year (my first time) and it was one of the best things that I have done in my life. I love Burning Man! Read more about Burning Man on www.burningman.com



"This year we will create a caravansary that occupies the crossroads of a dreamland: a bazaar of the bizarre wherein treasures of every sort, from every land and age, flow in and out to be flaunted, lost, exploited and discovered. This is not a tourist destination, but a home for travelers who come here bearing gifts. Amid the twisting and the turnings of its souk, participants will come upon an inexhaustible array of teeming goods and unexpected services. Anyone may pose as 'merchant' here, and anyone may play a 'customer', but nothing in this strange emporium shall have a purchase price — no quid, no pro, no quo — no trade at all will be allowed in this ambiguous arcade. According to a rule of desert hospitality, the only thing of value in this 'marketplace' will be one's interaction with a fellow human being.

Our desert inn will also be a scene of luxury and cultivated ease. An apron of fine carpets will spread out beneath the shade of portals that surround a courtyard. Here travel-wearied pilgrims may relax, inventing pastimes as they watch the whirling world go by. Workers of great wonders will be welcome here; fakirs, dancers, sadhus, seers and potentates will throng through this performance space, like figures that adorn the fabric of a silk brocade.
Finger cymbals, chimes, and music of acoustic instruments will fill the air. By night, bathed in the lambent glow of lanterns gently swaying overhead, fire spinners will perform around the Burning Man. This year's Man will rise directly from the desert floor and tower many stories high. Its massive torso will evoke a tiered pagoda; its ornate head will be a lamp that welcomes people home."

"Much travel is needed before the raw man is ripened."
—Proverb of the Caravan of Dreams



Me at Burning Man 2013. Photographer Michael Helms.

I'm laying in bed and waiting for SNL to start.....I called work and told them that I am going to be late. I have to watch Sheldon (yes, yes I know it's really Jim Parson) at SNL tonight, that is much more important than work. Actually, I might just not go to work tonight...... I think it is time that Sheldon and Amy break up. Their relationship has run it's course. Sheldon needs some fun and excitement! The break up should be amicable or perhaps Amy can move and they can reach a mutual decision that they are better off not dating any longer. Then Sheldon is going to find a new girlfriend. Who? TA-DAAAAA, SURPRISE! ME!!! But there is a twist! After talking to Julia we discovered that we both love Sheldon just as much, so instead of one girlfriend he will have two. We are going to take him on crazy adventures to strip clubs and raves, maybe a trip to Burning Man where Sheldon can expand his mind and come up with even better theories. We don't need to have coitus, I am totally OK with that. Cuddling, reading books and comics together will be enough. Also a weekly Halo session and creating superhero costumes will keep us busy. And a vacation to Sweden. I think this would make for a great storyline. BAZINGA!!