Welcome to Chaos !!

Tatiana doesn't know if you have heard of the term "microlending" before......
Basically it means that a person lends money to another, usually another poor person, with not much money but with a business idea. And then when they can, within a certain time frame, the borrower will repay the lender. It is a much nicer system than getting a loan from a bank (with sky high shark interest rates, also many countries might not lend money to poor people etc. So you are basically helping somebody out to hopefully better their life. It is NICE!!!!
Tatiana has decided that she will help, and lend to two people this year. A man and a woman. She has not searched for them yet but there is info about this if YOU are interested in helping on www.kiva.org and www.microplace.com

Now Tatiana NEEDS YOUR help!!!!! She NEEDS to find somebody that is willing to lend her money so she can pay off her condo in Las Vegas. And she will work out a payment plan with you, with much more reasonable interest rates than the ones she has. Tatiana's interest rates should be illegal!!!! That's how bad they are! So if you want to help another person out, you should do some good and do some microlending to Tatiana. She will repay you and everybody will be happy!!! Your karma will improve and Tatiana will be SOOOO grateful and in return she will be able to help more people!!!
Yes, YOU NEED to help Tatiana!!! E mail her for details.
XOXO

Sunday, day off. Decided to go to Thunderbird Falls with Chhaya. On the way out there it started raining, then snowing. I guess winter is here, it feels good, it was so nice out, really happy I got out today. Thunderbird Falls is a great little hike and the waterfall at the end is strong and impressive. Have to go there again soon.
I love the nature! I can't stand people that think it's ok to discard their empty cans, bottles, cigarette butts etc etc when they are finished consuming their stuff out in nature. That's gross and so low life. Pick up your trash!
Not that I saw a bunch of stuff laying around on my hike today. Only a can and a plastic bag. Just wanted to let you know how I feel about this subject.
Now go hug a tree!

Have you ever, or do you know and/or care for somebody with a substance problem? Have you heard about ibogaine? It is a Schedule 1 drug here in USA, meaning it is illegal to possess and use. But it is an actual treatment for substance problems in some places. And it can also be used to reach greater insights about your own personal self. Something that is extremely fascinating I find. I would love to try ibogaine, maybe one day, if the timing is right. I don't have any substance problems but I want to know myself and "the great unknown" better.
There is some very interesting and educational stuff on YouTube about ibogaine.
Start with Ibogaine, Rite Of Passage a six part introduction on the subject.
Also www.ibogainefilm.com
Must also add here that I am totally against restricting adults from using, if they wish, things like ibogaine. This can help people. But the pharmaceutical companies would not benefit from this and since we live in a society that is for capital gain instead of happy, healthy people, a root like iboga is illegal.
But by all means, just feed people Methadone, Prozac, Adderall, Zoloft and all that other crap. At least they will have to spend $$$ on doctor visits and prescriptions.
This makes me mad.

Tatiana was supposed to work tonight but decided to stay home and rest her arm that is hurting. She hugged way too many people last time she was working and needs a break. What better way to spend her off time than to enlighten you with her valuable wisdom? Soak it up!
The first lesson will be in RAVES.
Many people do not understand what a "rave" is, many think and believe due to faulty media information that it is some kind of a drug fest, full of underage kids running around, high off their minds.
Yes, there are some high off their mind kids at raves (and they are very cute and harmless btw) but there is also SOOO much more. Raves are really a neo hippie movement, something that stands against the rat race society. Many highly educated and interesting people have attended and spoken at raves, for example Terence McKenna and Albert Hofmann. People that harbor very valuable knowledge that should be shared.
PLUR is a word that is associated with the rave movement. That stands for Peace, Love, Unity and Respect. What is wrong with that?
The music is the key at a rave, people are dancing everywhere and if you think about it, dancing is very primal. Humans have been dancing to the drum beat since the beginning of time. Dancing is a form of communication, healing and therapy, it makes you feel better. And the music at raves is SO GOOD, you have to experience it to understand it.
Many people that turn to raves will be ravers for life if they are open to comprehend the full meaning of a rave. Tatiana will be a raver for life.
What about the drugs? Yes, drugs are prevalent at raves. But you need to understand that there are plenty of drugs everywhere in everyday life. Such as cigarettes and alcohol. Doctors prescribe sk legal drugs generously, even to young children. Tatiana would rather "damage" her body with Ecstasy and magic mushrooms once in a while than get drunk every weekend and smoke a pack of cigarettes every day. Guaranteed the later gives you more damage. And we as a society do not fully comprehend the results of prescription drugs yet. People are gobbling up anti depressants, Adderall etc like it is the answer. Surely not beneficial for most.
Tatiana believes that drugs can do wonders but it is important to educate yourself about them and use them in moderation instead of abusing them. Sure drugs can have a devastating effect, unfortunately, but so can driving a car if you are unlucky.
Drugs in nature such as magic mushrooms, iboga, ayahuasca have been used for spiritual enlightenment by groups of people. Don't you think there is a reason for the government to outlaw drugs that can enlighten us and allow drugs like Zoloft to zombify the masses? Be careful to buy in to the illusion that we are truly free as humans. The fact is that we are more or less controlled by the government.
Raves are movements against this control. They are happy gatherings, Tatiana has never witnessed violence at raves and that nasty meat market behavior that is prevalent at most nightclubs where alcohol is usually the first drug of choice.
Raves are some of the highlights of Tatiana's life, she is constantly looking forward to her next one.

They just showed on tv that senator McCain is suspending his race for presidency to concentrate on the financial crisis fallout. America might be heading for a great recession. This might be the worst economical crisis since the 20' and 30's.
Tatiana is worried.......No more buckets of money after her stages at The Bush?
No more guys needing a therapeutic chat and lap dance? Say it isn't so!!!
Well, Tatiana doesn't know how much you know about the year 2012, the end of The Mayan calendar. Only a few years away. Major changes might be coming depending on what you believe. Some believe in doomsday and that could very well be the same thing. The Earth might be going through some huge changes, these are interesting times we are living in. We, as the human race should and need to come to an understanding and get enlightened on many different subjects. These changes could be vary scary and violent and there might only be a few humans left on Earth fending for themselves. Or there might be a spiritual, happy ending, hopefully.
Tatiana definitely believes that women need to become fully just as important in society as men, the feminine is just as important as the masculine, hence Yin and Yang, there needs to be a balance. That is of utter importance, right now and since a very long time the masculine has been prevalent and that's why the planet is suffering with wars and problems.
Back in the day women were not allowed to vote, buy property and were even burned alive for any reason at all. We, at least in the Western society have overcame that but true equal status have not been achieved, yet. But we are moving in the right direction. Rifle toting Palin is not a good example though.
Women are natural nurturers (not all, but most) and this planet needs to be nurtured right now because it is suffering. Each and every one of us can make a difference in the right direction. So go out there and do something good today!

Tatiana changed her schedule and is now off on Sundays, that's a good thing.
Actually Tatiana often feels a slight hint of sadness on many Sundays, it probably stems from childhood, that whole "oh no, the weekend is over and school starts tomorrow" thing. But yeah, Tatiana often feels a little down on Sundays.
So Tatiana watched her new guilty pleasure on VH1, "I love money". Do you watch it too? Who do you think will get the money?
And now Tatiana wants to share some of her great opinions with you.........ready?
Tatiana does not like Sarah Palin, the republican lady from Alaska. Tatiana does not like any ladies that pose with dead trophy animals, yuck. And even more, ladies that want to bring women's rights back to the middle ages with backwards views on abortion.
Sara Palins 17 year old daughter is pregnant. What's really funny is that the boy that impregnated the daughter, had a Myspace page (not anymore) that stated that he did not want kids, and that he is a redneck that likes to shoot things and that if someone messes with him, he will fuck them up. Nice. He definitely needs to do diaper duty.
Now he is forced to marry Bristol Palin, good luck. Kids having children. Why?
People are focusing in way too much that Barack Obama is "black". Really?
Tatiana recalls that he had a white mom, that passed to cancer. His dad is black, so he is mixed. Right? That should be a pretty good representation of America. What more do people want?
Who cares what the next president looks like, it is what that person can do that counts. But even a moron should be able to figure that out.
Tatiana thinks that health care should be free and available to everybody. When people are healthy they can be productive. If America wants to get out of the current economical situation they need productive people. Productive is not somebody sick, that needs to file bankruptcy due to sky high hospital bills. Productive is not another dead or injured soldier overseas. War is wrong. Where does the Hippocratic Oath fit in to the health care business nowadays? If you are not familiar with The Hippocratic Oath, Tatiana is suggesting that you look it up.
Tatiana read that the people that bought their own home and now have trouble with their mortgage payments are "greedy". Interesting. First you get fed all this propaganda about "The American Dream" of being a home owner. That it is better to own instead of renting. And then when the market crashes and people are stuck with a loan that makes them sick, they are called greedy. Maybe they too thought they should have some of that "American Dream". Or is that too much to dream for? Is that dream only allowed to be lived by a selected few of the population?
But the bankers that got millions upon millions in severance pay, they are not greedy. Oh no....... Now they are retired with more money than they could ever spend.
Tatiana thinks this is unfair and disgusting.
Ok, enough of opinions for now. Tatiana is getting tired. She is going to put on her new pink and white Juicy pajama and go to bed.