Welcome to Chaos !!

I've had a stressful week. I have a lot on my plate right now. GAAAAAAH!!!!! Chhaya went to the vet as you know, she is on antibiotics and I'm doting on her and making sure she is OK.
I have an extremely annoying and crazy person in my life that I have been dealing with for years now but I think our "relationship" might be coming to an end soon. Thank goodness! Right now she is creating problems and being her psycho self and annoying and no, it's not some insane lesbian you might think I'm involved with, it's not THAT kind of relationship......
I also had a bunch of stuff lying around at home that I have slowly been digging into, paperwork and such. I like my stuff organized, put away and my house clean. That's how I am. I don't like messy. Then all the drama with the Wild Alaskan boat in Kodiak that's been happening. I still haven't said much about it here, besides when I was there I put up pics and stuff. Well, things have taken a rather interesting turn since I got back from that adventure but like I said I haven't said much......yet.
Tomorrow I am going to Kaladi. Then I have to send out some stuff, write a letter and hopefully get a break from the crazy person I've been dealing with. I am actually looking forward to working tomorrow night so I can have other things on my mind. Sometimes working is like a break from reality, when my reality is too much.
Having said all that, I got back from a long walk with Chhaya not too long ago. It's almost 11 pm here and dark, no more going jogging around midnight unless I run with a headlamp. Chhaya is good, I woke up with her laying back to back with me, very close. That made me happy. She is a snuggly cuddler. I am going to be up for a few more hours, I am a night owl.
I get creative and want to do things at night.
I do have something AMAZING to look forward to this month......BURNING MAN! I looked through my pics from last year and wow.....no words can describe it, really. I will be talking to God again, telling God how thankful I am to be able to have this experience again........and just enjoy every minute on that playa to the fullest. Plus I am going to DANCE! OMG......DANCE,
I so miss dancing to good music!!!!!

So here are some bears that were minding their own business (I'm guessing) when some guy (most likely) shot and killed them and now this one can be viewed at the Best Western in Kodiak.



And this one at the airport in Kenai.



This is not OK in my opinion. I am against all trophy hunting, I get upset and saddened by it.
I love animals and because I love animals I eat next to no animal meat, I do drink/eat milk products and eggs, I do wear animal products although I try to be increasingly aware on that point. So I'm not perfect. Giving up meat was not difficult, I very rarely crave it or miss it. Everybody can and should cut down on their meat intake, I think we are brain washed to believe meat should be on the menu daily.
What was the point to put these two beautiful bears in some glass monters? Bragging rights? What good do they do stuffed in a monter?
I don't get it. I will never have any kind of animals hanging on my walls or on my floors as decoration, unless it's a picture or painting. I know that animals have feelings. Who are we to kill and destroy everything on this planet? One day we will deeply regret these actions, just like this Native American (I think) tells it, "When the last tree is cut, the last fish is caught, and the last river is polluted; when to breathe the air is sickening, you will realize, too late, that wealth is not in bank accounts and that you can’t eat money."
My new moose friend. I hope he will roam the forest and live unharmed. You want some moose antlers on your wall? Whatever. Do something useful with yourself instead of hunting for innocent animals.

What a day! I am TIRED, mentally. First me and Chhaya had the vet appointment, I like my vet here, her name is Doctor Mary. Doctor Mary has a pitbull mix, a boy that is the same age as Chhaya, he too gets himself into trouble sometimes, she calls him her problem child and that is exactly what Chhaya is to me, she is my beloved problem child. That is what Albert Hofmann referred LSD as, did you know? Chhaya got a week's worth of antibiotics and a few days worth of pain and anti inflammatory meds, she is already doing better. Jumping around, being funny and full of energy on our walk earlier. She can do no wrong, I look at her and my heart melts.



Being at the vet is kind of sad. There was a poor dog with a broken back there. I heard other dogs barking anxiously. Then there is this hanging on a wall. I can't even read it without crying. I have asked God/The Higher Power several times to never separate me and Chhaya, I want to find Chhaya when I die and be with her, wherever it might be - forever. I feel the same way about my closest family and a few other people that I love. Now I am thinking about life and death again and the meaning of this struggle on Earth we call living life......
After the vet I had a bunch of other rather stressful things to deal with, therefore I am tired now. I am glad today is over. I'm going to go to sleep soon and I'm looking forward to getting some rest.

Here are some pics from that photo shoot I did in May (?) at South Fork Falls in Eagle River.
I am not that happy with the results, these two pics are the best and they are not exactly my best pics I have taken......but whatever, that's how it is sometimes.







Besides that, I have been cleaning tonight. Chhaya is not doing good. She was fine yesterday (Sunday, I am writing this early Tuesday morning), playing and being normal and today (Monday and until now) she is just not well. We are going to the vet this afternoon and I am feeling SAD and WORRIED because my baby is not well and I don't know what's wrong.
There is also a ton of small flies in my house......no, not fruit flies or dirty house/rotten garbage kind of flies. I don't let it get too dirty. These flies come this time of year from the outside, the light from the house attracts them at night. I have a lamp by the bed and right now there are a ton of small flies crawling on the wall by the lamp, dying underneath the lamp and flying into my face, hair and the laptop. Gross.
The Wild Alaskan boat in Kodiak has turned out to be the biggest drama club I have ever encountered, I haven't said much about it here, I've been waiting, listening and pacing myself. Some more stuff took place on that boat yesterday, yet another dancer left in a hurry (two total now). I did not have anything close to the experiences as those two girls but I am not happy with what I am hearing and some of the stuff I saw and heard while on that boat. Although I did overall have a good experience. And that is all I have to say about that for now. My Chhaya is not well and that is my priority right now.

I just got back home after meeting up with Genesis and Madison for lunch at the new place to eat in town.....The Flats Bistro. I am a foodie and I love to eat out but I like quality, not just any food that somebody scraped together on a plate and placed in front of me. So far I have not been impressed at all with the selection of places to dine at on the Kenai Peninsula. I like the pizza OK at Pizza Boys and at St. Elias Brewing Company but it's pizza, how hard can it be to get that wrong? Well, there are some places around here that I ordered pizza from and I will never make that mistake again. I also had good vegetarian sushi at Froso's, made with sweet potato but that was last year and I don't know if they make sushi there anymore. One of my hands down worst food experiences was at Harry's in Soldotna, I had regular breakfast and an apple pie and it was just AWFUL. I was surprised they had the nerve to serve garbage like that and charge people for it. It should be a crime to serve people shitty food at a restaurant. I used to go to Odie's Deli for sandwiches but I noticed the quality of my sandwiches dwindle the last couple of times I went there and the very last time I handed them back my sandwich and asked for the money back. I will not go back there again. I can make a better sandwich at home. I have tried basically every place in town for either lunch or dinner and most of them are not my cup of tea. I am used to dining in Las Vegas or New York City, don't take me for a snob but I think if you go out to eat you should get quality. Or you can go through the drive-thru at some burger place. If you never been away from the Kenai Peninsula you don't know what good dining at a great restaurant means. If good to you equals a slab of meat or some bacon and egg.....well, then we have way different taste and expectations.
So......The Flats Bistro for lunch. First of all, the place is very nice and clean inside. I liked it a lot. The view is spectacular, you can sit outside and on a nice sunny day or evening......it must be gorgeous, especially if you go close to sunset. It was raining today so we stayed inside.
The service was good, the waitress was very nice. I think a fireplace would be great in there to add some ambiance, like at Glacier Brewhouse in Anchorage or like the one they have inside The Peppermill in Las Vegas. A fireplace in a nice restaurant in Alaska is a must I think for those dark and cold winter evenings.
Since I don't eat meat (that includes chicken and fish) I did not think that the lunch menu had much to offer. I had french fries, they were OK (like regular fries) and a salad which was eatable but overpriced for what it was. I asked to look at the dinner menu and it looked way more interesting. If you eat meat you will have better options at The Flats Bistro. I am definitely going to go back for dinner but I doubt I will go back for lunch anytime soon (maybe they change up the menu on a regular?). I also brought an eclair home with me, it was good.
Tatiana, the well traveled food critic has spoken.

I was out and about all day yesterday......when I got home around 11 pm I ate ice cream and fell asleep, now it's 7 am and I'm up, although I think I will try to go back to sleep after writing this. What am I supposed to do this early in the morning? Chhaya is still sleeping and I have nowhere to be.
I started yesterday off with a latte at Kaladi and I also met up with my friend Jim. A while ago he made me a beautiful hair bone that keeps my hair up and in one place, it works great.
The hair bone is made form a shed caribou antler and the smaller dark piece that you can see in the piece is fossilized walrus. The heart (that he also made) is mastodon ivory and the earrings (also Jim's creation) are fossilized walrus ivory. The ivory is probably over 10 000 years old, pretty cool I think!









Today's plans? I might go to lunch with some friends later and I should do some cleaning. Should is the word.....that doesn't mean that it will actually happen. But I think it's time for more sleep now.......