Welcome to Chaos !!

A very unfortunate tragedy happened last Thursday morning at Burning Man. A girl died after she fell off an art car and either got hit by it or got under it somehow. Her name was Alicia and she was described by her friends as "a ray of sunshine in every situation, and an amazing artist who radiated wonderful vibes." Alicia has been in my thoughts and I can't even imagine being on the receiving end of getting horrible news like that about a friend or a family member. This makes me sad. It was not fair. A tragedy absolutely. Poor girl. I'm so very sorry. Why???



When entering Burning Man you get a book called "What Where When". It tells you everything going on at Burning Man, hour by hour from the start until the end. Well, not really everything......there is a ton of other things happening that are not in the book but What Where When is a great tool and start and gives you so many choices on how to fill your days at Burning Man. There is also a map of all the art on the Playa (this year 233 pieces) and other useful info.
Here are some examples of stuff going on and the book is 160 pages......so there is a LOT to do at Burning Man......it's impossible to do it all and see it all.

Sybian O's Young Sluts
Ride the worlds best vibrator. Enjoy a sensual massage and an assisted orgasm. (No boyfriends).

Traveling Shangri-Lounge
Find us in the deep Playa and we will serve you the best martini you ever had! Relax with soothing sounds by Frank Sinatra and be charmed by our staff.

Daily Yoga and Meditation at 8 am.

Life Coaching.
Professional life coaches available to advise you on any of your life stuff - relationships, career, bad habits, money, body...you name it, we fix it!

Pussy Day Spa
Ladies, are you thirty, dusty, or tired? Come to the Spa for champagne and a refreshing body wash, custom pubic hair styling and a pussy massage.

Hiney Hygiene Station
Our highly professional staff will use baby wipes, warm shea butter soapy water, moisturizing lotions, aloe vera, vitamin E, A, B5 and minerals.

Interactive Chakra Altars
Enjoy your own chakra journey through the 7 chakras in your temple dome. Feel yourself become whole and aligned throughout the journey.

Morphing Pain to Freedom
Explore accessing your deepest presence, energy, love and pleasure through mindful awareness. Investigate wounds, realize freedom.

Entheogens, Ego & the Akashic Field
How can entheogens most help us and why are they important today? This talk will cover a new theory from James Oroc, the author of Tryptamine Palace.

Anandapond Speaker Series: Paul Staments
Paul Stamets, plant biologist will give a talk,: "The Fungi Revolution."

The Power of Human Attention
Come see what it's like to tell your life story to a complete stranger. Search deep, explore, then return the favor. There's no limit to catharsis.

Twerkin fashion Show.
Get on the stage and shake your rump.

All Things Burning Man
A day dedicated to exploring and developments taking place within our community of Burners around the world.

I could continue for hours writing down stuff from What Where When......that was only a scratch on the surface. I was busy dancing at Planet Earth and other places, enjoying my time in Center Camp, biking around on the Playa feeling so very ALIVE (sometimes in dust storms battling through sand and enjoying every second of it) admiring art and engaging in people watching, talking, taking pictures etc. I did go to a few events that I looked up inside What Where When. Of course I rode the worlds best vibrator and had VAGINE washes and massages daily. I miss the Playa.......
I have 800 plus pics to sort through and pick out for the blog......so bear with me. My Burning Man experience will continue.

~ Alicia......may you fly with the angels ~

I'm back home......and I'm tired. I was planing on writing a longer post about Burning Man but my eyes need to sleep, I've had a long day and a long night. I'm very grateful.....I've had an amazing time at Burning Man. I'm so glad I got to experience this again......and I'm already looking forward to next time. But now I'm going to sleep......

I'm packing for Burning Man tonight! I have two boxes of KIND bars. Belts. Sunglasses.
My goggles from last year. Bandanas. My new Fjällräven Kånken backpack (a Swedish classic). Two pairs of fringe boots that have been waiting for the occasion. Lights to put on my bike and on myself so I'm visible on the Playa at night. I'm not done with the packing yet, I have to take a shower and wash my hair and the toiletries go in last. I got a new memory card in my camera and I'm planning on taking lots of pics. As always I'm packing more than I will use.
Oh well. I'm not bringing my laptop......there will be no blogging from Burning Man.
Most likely a short entry tomorrow at some point and then I will be busy until I leave the event. I just read some reports that it's been raining hard in the area of the event and people have been turned away at the gate because the road is mucky mud and not safe for driving.
It looks like the weather will be better tomorrow. Wow......I sure hope so.

Sorry my friends that I've been low on the blogging this week. Life has been hectic, I can feel the tension in my shoulders and my neck and I rarely do......I need a massage from the only woman I fantasize about, my massage lady in Las Vegas - Cathy. She is amazing.
The other day a friend came over to my house with a delivery of these super cute and very delicious cupcakes and donuts from a new cupcake place in Kenai called Iced and Sliced.
Very very yummy cupcakes and the donuts were actually mouth watering good.



I've had a rather crazy night last night. Not fun at all. I can say this, alcohol is a very destructive and evil vice. A bit too much of that and a good time can quickly turn into a very bad time, even a tragic time. I am so tired of people that drink too much and that can't behave themselves normally when intoxicated. I think that my home from now on will be a sober only home. Anybody that wants to drink can do so somewhere else, there are plenty of bars to get hammered at in town, my home is not a local bar. I've had enough. I want my home to be.....serene.
Or like this one guy that is opening up a completely sober nightclub in Stockholm, Sweden of all places, imagine that. The clubs name? SOBER. I love it, I would definitely go. Here is some of what he (Mårten) had to say, "Swedes need to wake up and stop glorifying booze in the way we do. Life is too short for us to be wasted all the time. I want to inspire people and show them that you can have a bloody great time without alcohol. I want to offer an alternative to just getting hammered. Yeah, I’ve had enough. I've been sober for six months. It’s great—I’ve never felt better. I’m so much calmer these days. I feel better, I look better, and my self-esteem has never been this high. I’m proud of myself in a way I’ve never been before."
I need a nap if I am going to make it to work tonight......so tired.

I am a total giver.....if I might say that about myself. I love surprising people with gifts, cards, something small but thoughtful, to show that I care and remember whomever it is that I am giving something to. It doesn't have to be a birthday, the occasion can be Just Because.
The joy of giving is the joy you feel in your heart when you know that you might be putting a smile on somebody's face and give them a good feeling inside. It's enriching for my soul to give. Of course I like receiving too (who doesn't) but giving really makes me feel good.
A friend's birthday is coming up, a very dear friend. She lives in Sweden. I miss her so much. In fact I miss all my friends in Sweden so very very much. Especially tonight. I'm going through a difficult time right now, something happened but I don't want to write about it yet (or ever). I'm unharmed physically but my heart hurts and I feel helpless, very sad and very lonely. I feel like I only have Chhaya here, my TRUE friend. I hope everything will be OK soon, it must be.
Tomorrow I might go to the post office and send this. The girl working at Northcountry Fair wrapped the stuff I got there so nicely. It looks beautiful!



I hope all of you are OK and happy out there, wherever you might be.

Me and Boss Lady don't see eye to eye on a few things (related to work) but when it comes to animals she has her heart in the right place. She has three very loved and spoiled dogs of her own and we both agree on that dogs should be loved and spoiled. Unfortunately not everybody agrees. A large amount of dogs recently got rescued here and found a new home at Alaska’s Extended Life Animal Sanctuary in Nikiski.
Here is some of what was said in the Peninsula Clarion last week about the rescue.
"With bellies still swollen from a lack of food, 35 dogs are on their way to recovery after being rescued Monday. The dogs had been housed in a 10--by-20-foot room and most of the animals likely had never been outside. The crew lined up kennels and loaded the dogs with little hassle and the owners were grateful for the help. “They were doing the best they could,” Whipp said about the owners, who willingly surrendered the animals. Of the 35 dogs — primarily a mix of miniature huskies and border collies — nine are four weeks old, 11 are 1-week-old puppies and two of the dogs are pregnant."
Boss Lady read the article and had a small fund raiser at work Thursday night. Boss Lady is a natural at getting money, she is a better hustler than a persistent gypsy at the market in Istanbul. In no time she had collected $300 and that was on a slow night too. She wrote a check and asked me if I could make a trip out to Nikiski the following day to deliver it.
Of course I could! Boss Lady knows how I feel about animals.



I met the two people running the sanctuary - Sue and Tim, very nice people. They appreciated the check and the treats that I brought along and got very happy when I told them where the money came from. I was there for a while talking to them and petting the dogs. They told me that there is a lot of animal abuse and neglect in this state. As well as rape and child abuse and neglect (that was also discussed amongst us). For the state with the least population the numbers are very high when it comes to violent and cruel acts against women, children and animals, pretty disturbing. That people think it's normal, don't know any better or "were doing the best they could" is something that I don't buy. I am more realistic in my approach to certain situations. You know damn well if you abuse or neglect an animal or a child and IF for some reason you don't, then you should not be allowed to breed your off spring (mandatory sterilization) or have the privilege of being a pet owner. I'm tired of inexcusable behaviors getting excused time after time. And don't fucking breed your pets! Your dog is not some kind of a money making machine for your greedy ass. Have you stopped and worried about what happens to those puppies or kittens that get sold on Craigslist, do you even care? Selfish assholes.
I am going to suggest to Boss Lady that we have a few more fund raisers for the animal sanctuary, they are in need. Here are some pics of the dogs that were rescued.....all of them very sweet.





Then there was this boy that just wanted to be close to me and give me kisses. His "owner" had shot him in the leg and just left him. That exact treatment should be bestowed upon whoever did this to that dog. Well, he was happy when I saw him, wagging his tail and smiling. He has a rod in his hip that will be taken out and he should be good.



A statement I very much agree with. I actually think that people that have kids and can't take care of them for whatever reason, neglect them or abuse them should be sterilized.
That should be the law. Don't make babies until you know that you can be there for them in every possible way. Until then, keep your legs closed, your dick in your pants, use protection or have an abortion - you have options.



I felt a bit sad when I left the animal sanctuary......Chhaya next to me in the car as we drove off. I need to pay that place another visit at some point. And while browsing the Peninsula Clarion tonight I came across this article that I agree with.

http://peninsulaclarion.com/opinion/letters/2014-08-13/borough-must-open-eyes-to-animal-abuse-neglect

There is a mention in it about the Kenai Peninsula being the armpit of Alaska and I have myself thought that on a few occasions. I have seen some very questionable examples of parents here. Drinking is out of control. Drugs. People are throwing their trash all over.
All that bad stuff, it's like a very trashy episode of Jerry Springer. Of course not everybody is like this but many are, too many. GROW UP and TAKE RESPONSIBILITY for your actions!
And step up those parenting skills.