Welcome to Chaos !!

I just got home from a super slow night at work. It's July and the club should be busy, back in the day this club used to be busy and the dancers were making a lot of money and the money was easy to make. Business has been steadily declining and I am not the only one that says this, basically all the girls agree on this fact. I have myself noticed that is has gradually has gotten worse and worse and I didn't even work here when it was great and busy every night in the summer. This year the fishing restrictions are to blame for the slow business.....last year there were fishing restrictions also but this year they are stricter. Not even catch and release. This is what I read a few months ago and besides that I only know the stuff I hear others talk about. Us girls at the cub also have a few theories to why the club is suffering but I am not going to discuss that right now.
So another slow night at work.....that's OK, I can entertain myself perfectly fine, me and the selfie machine plus whatever I can come up with. So we have some very interesting props by the bar stage that I decided to take pics with.



Spotted dick pudding.....what is this stuff? People actually eat this? Must be some sort of a delicacy in Britain or some place like that......I actually know that it is dried fruit but the name for it is kind of funny. Makes for a perfect stocking stuffer at Christmas!



And yes there is also a penis made of marble at the little ledge by the stage. And no, nobody is doing anything funny or kinky with it while we go on stage, so don't get any strange ideas in your head. It's just there as decoration. Nobody pays it any attention hardly. Poor little penis.





A sign at work. The club is full of stuff like this. Boss Lady did a good job with decorating the place and giving it lots of character.



Well......I'm going to peel off my lashes now, wash off the eye shadow and the mascara and go to bed. I made latte money tonight, so I am going straight to the coffee shop when I wake up. It's nice to have something to look forward to.

Good Morning all my fans!
At night I wear bra's from Victoria's Secret and cute boy short style panties by Honey Dew (if I'm working) at home it's usually a soft tank top and pajama pants. In the daytime during the summer I dig out my Havaianas and live in them until it gets too cold to wear flip flops. Well, I don't know what's going on but for the last year or so I had so many of my Havaianas break on me......they just keep breaking. What is going on?
Yesterday this dark purple pair broke when I was out walking Chhaya, so I kept on walking with one bare foot.



I'm glad they didn't break while I was walking around in Stockholm. I think I had five pairs break since last spring. Really now? Not OK. Is the quality of the Havaianas flip flop going downhill? I've been wearing them for years and it just now started happening, that they are breaking. I actually found a cute pair in Stockholm, gray and silver. I will show you next week after I get my pedicure.
Speaking of foot attire. I left these old and worn sneakers belonging to me by a soup kitchen in Anchorage when I was there. They are old but still usable and comfortable, maybe somebody that needs a pair of shoes can wear them for the summer. And if not, oh well.



Ugh.....I miss my Mom and my brother today. I'm sitting here and thinking about them.
I'm never far from tears when I think about and miss the people I care for. But besides feeling slightly emotional I feel great. Time to go and get stuff done!

I'm in bed, showered and put lotion on my feet. Some people fantasize about sex.....I fantasize about acupressure and foot rubs that last for at least an hour. Work was an improvement from last night. I guess I got fans in Louisiana, some guys came in asking for me. I had never met them before, somebody they know told them that Tatiana was it.
The Pippi purse did OK tonight. OK....not fantastic, better than last night.



The bath I took after work felt great......again I am very grateful for my tub and the luxury to have hot and clean water available with the turn of a knob.



I got this new serum in Sweden from the Body Shop, Nutriganics Drops of Youth. I love trying new products. This one is supposed to make me look like 12 years old and it's derived from natural ingredients and not tested on animals. Perfect!



And this is the body in the body shop.....it's kind of complicated to take an OK looking full figure selfie. Am I not doing something right? Maybe there is a selfie tutorial online that I should study? So yeah....don't pay attention to my face in this pic (bleh), I only took one pic, didn't have the patience for any retakes so this one will have to do.....Look at the outfit instead! Bra - Victoria's Secret, panties - Honey Dew. My work uniform.



Well, it's sleeping time. Kaladi again when I wake up.....and pizza too.

I'm at Kaladi right now, just finished my latte and went over old Nordic names with my friend Traci that works here. She has a baby Great Dane puppy and wants to give it an old Nordic name. The favorites right now are Saga and Torgny - cute! I love Saga. And if I had a horse I would name it Fjalar.
So I worked last night. I have no interest lately of even trying to make money in there, I guess I'm over it. For now. With me that can change from day to day. I could go in tonight and feel totally different but lately (since a while actually) I don't have any motivation. I just sit there and wait to go on stage. I'm over asking for dances. I'm not going to bend over backwards to get a dance. Really now! Either you want one or you don't. I don't do that whispering bullshit stuff in some guys ear and promising some dirty stuff to happen during a dance. YUCK. I did one dance last night. I made OK money still.....meaning OK for only having one dance, close to $200. That is not OK money when I travel for work but here it is. Some guy asked a few times if I would dance for him, I declined. Why? Well, I have danced for him before. Twice if I remember it right and I am not going to subject myself to his groping hands ever again.
I don't need the money. He is very grabby and in an aggressive way, I don't like that. In fact I prefer no touching at all. It makes it fair. I don't need some guy thinking that he can touch me ALL OVER (which is not going to happen anyways) because some other girl he did dances with let him do that to her. I don't need to live that nightmare for however many minutes the dance lasts until it's over. Torture! In fact me an another girl were wondering if he (the grabby guy) has a wife last night. If so, we feel sorry for that poor woman. We said that if that was our husband or boyfriend (cruel fate, I'd rather be without a man for the rest of my life than to be with somebody like that) we would have to kill him and make it look like an accident.
Oh, one more thing. This summer is predicted to be a slow one money wise. Boss Lady told me that herself last night. And the owner said it to somebody I know earlier this week.
He said that business is down 25% from last year.
When I got home I ate cherries and read my book about gnomes, trolls and princesses.
It's really good. Then I fell asleep with my lashes on. When I woke up I reprimanded myself for that crime, I have been so tired lately that I'm too lazy to wash my face after work.
Well, I'm off now. Need to get some food and spend time with Chhaya.

Phew.....I had a loooooong day today but I'm finally home, back from Anchorage......I had an errand to take care of there today. I got up at 7 am this morning with only about four hours of sleep, I didn't sleep well last night. Weird dreams and mosquitoes buzzing around. And I pulled into my driveway a little after 11 pm. I am tired. It takes about 3 hours to drive to Anchorage (give or take 30 minutes depending on the season, traffic, road construction, pee stops). It was GORGEOUS out today but I didn't take any pics of the mountains, water and the green hills. Instead here is the sandwich I had at Middle Way Cafe - the avocado melt.
Listen, you need to go there (if you ever visit Anchorage) and have that sandwich.....it is soooo good. I have fantasized about that sandwich since yesterday. I love Middle Way Cafe! When I lived in Anchorage I used to go there several times a week.



While enjoying my sandwich and sipping on my delicious Sattwa Chai I read the Savage Love column. I love Savage Love (I love all kinds of things in case you haven't noticed yet, I'm easy like that) and I learned about UNICORNS. See a unicorn is not only a horse with a horn projecting from it's forehead. It's also a woman that is willing to have sex with a couple (like a woman and man couple, not a man plus man couple or woman plus woman couple) fulfilling their threesome fantasy. I guess women willing to do just that are so rare they are called unicorns. I learned something new today! A new meaning for the word unicorn. I've been asked to be a "unicorn" (LOL!!!) a few times, I said no. I might say yes if Rihanna and Bradley Cooper team up and ask me, until then.....NO. Or Rihanna and Chester.....that's also a yes.
I know I'm tired cause I'm rambling now.....
So I believe in signs. I've been seeing so many signs lately.....that make sense to me. Last night I thought that the pink unicorn in the RAV4 Toyota ad was very cute, I thought that I needed that car because it had a cute pink unicorn on it's roof. If something is cute and pink, I need it. Then today I learned a new meaning of the word unicorn. My conclusion? It's a sign that I need a brand new RAV4 Toyota!



When I drove through Soldotna this evening I had to stop and get something to eat. I had acute cravings for yogurt and sauerkraut. No, I'm not pregnant, I am European. People were in line buying beer, soda and meat. It's 4th of July tomorrow after all. And I got this.....



When I got home I devoured some sauerkraut straight from the jar.....it's good for you!
My Mom makes sauerkraut soup, it is sooooo good. Kapuśniak it's called.
One more thing. Here are the strip clubs in Anchorage.....The Great Alaskan Bush Company, Fantasies on 5th and Sin Rock. Well, there is one more.....Crazy Horse. But they don't advertise in the Press (weekly free paper that comes out in Anchorage). Which one should you go to? Try all four. Then decide on which one you like the best. I used to work at the Bush Company. I might go back again for two weeks or so, I have been entertaining the thought......I think it would be fun. If I can deal with the schedule that is.....



Well, I have to take out my contacts now and go to sleep.....I am TIRED.

My friend Jim gave me a mosquito zapper the other day (Thank You!) and I put it up. I don't know if I have seen any reduction in the amount of mosquitoes yet, there are plenty out there still. I live in the forest with many areas of standing water surrounding the house, the water is a breeding ground for mosquitoes. When I let Chhaya out after sundown she comes back home with so many mosquitoes on her, it's absolutely gross, I swat her with a towel and then I walk around the house several times a day and swat the walls with the same towel, there are dead mosquitoes all over the house. BARF! First I felt bad for killing them, because I take out all other insects (even flies) but now I just kill them. I don't care anymore. I even got bit on my eyelid twice while sleeping in the last couple of months, woke up with a swollen eye. Sometimes I can hear them at night, the bzzzzzzz noise coming closer and closer. I think they are so gross!