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I sometimes like to do something nice for somebody that I don't know personally,
you know.......just to show that I appreciate them. Valentine's Day is the perfect day to this. So I went to Kaladi today for my latte, I have been starting to drink 20 oz lattes instead of my usual 16. And since the people that work at Kaladi here in town are super nice and make awesome coffee, I thought they deserved some chocolates, right?



And some chocolates to the staff at Planned Parenthood. And if you think that I appreciate them because I am a frequent visitor there, you are very wrong. I recently wrote a blog entry about my thoughts on abortion and it seems like there are lot of narrow minded people here in town that think Planned Parenthood stands for something bad. You know small town mentality, go travel a little I suggest, that might cure it........hopefully. Therefore I think that the staff at Planned Parenthood deserve some positive recognition.



I still have two more chocolate box hearts to give, one to Maria's. They make delicious food and they are super nice too. And one for my girls at work.
Besides that I love my Chhaya very much. I can't even explain how much. Here are some pics from our kissing session from last night when I came home from work.

Before I wash my face and fall asleep next to Chhaya I want to wish YOU a Happy Valentine's Day! I think it is cute to have an extra sparkly day to show somebody special, friends and even random strangers some extra kindness. That is what I am planning on doing today, well a little later, first I have to sleep.

Photo by Barry Gallegos.

After thinking about going and talking about going for YEARS now.......I got my ticket for Burning Man 2013 today! Finally! I tried to get one last year but I waited too long and the tickets sold out. I am so happy that I am finally going, I almost cried some happy tears earlier when the online transaction went through and was done. If you do not know what Burning Man is you can search in my blog for my previous entries about the event or look it up online. Burning Man 2013 art theme - Cargo Cult. And that is all that I have to say for today. I need to take Chhaya out now. ❤

If you do not know this yet, I love animals. I do eat meat, once in a while. I am a FLEXITARIAN, yes it is time YOU learn a new word. Basically I eat meat occasionally.
I have talked about this in the blog before, for example in a blog called Meat Free Monday that you can read here .
People are selfish, they feel that they can do whatever they want just because they exist - pollute, trash, eat meat every day, kill off animals in danger of extinction, collect ivory and the list goes on. The "it's all about me and what I want" mentality. Sure I can be selfish too but I try to not be too much like that, I have a hard time with people who are blatantly uncaring for others and that includes animals and nature too. Deep down I believe in the greater good and I think that we are all somehow connected like an invisible universal puzzle. Therefore I am against animals performing acts for our entertainment, like circus animals. How sad. If you want a circus, go see Cirque du Solei.
Yes, I have been to a few circuses in my life, a long time ago now and I would not go again because I do not want to support the captivity and abuse of animals. Do you think those elephants enjoy being locked up in cages, transported to different locations and performing tricks for crowds of people? No. Elephants do not belong in a circus or a zoo either for that matter. I am just bringing up the elephant as an example, I mean all circus animals of course. Same goes for zoo's. Also a sad place for animals. And a place like Sea World. Yes, I went but never again. I remember feeling bad for the dolphins and the killer whales. You know that dolphins live much shorter lives in captivity and that they sometimes commit suicide because they are captive right? Because they are sad, they do not belong in a concrete pool, they belong in the ocean. So think twice before you go and see the cute dolphins and pay big bucks to pose for those "adorable" kissing pictures with them. You are contributing to the problem when supporting this. Be part of the solution instead!
I did swim with dolphins once. In the wild in Hawaii. I was fortunate to be invited to go out with a couple of marine biologists on their boat, they were doing some studies on dolphins and knew where they were. So I swam with the dolphins , they were curious and beautiful and I was ordered to not reach out and touch them, which of course I obliged. Same goes for things like bull fighting and running with the bulls. To me it's barbaric and dumb. Who cares that it is some kind of a "tradition"? There has been many "traditions' here on Earth but that doesn't mean that they were right or good.
As we humans evolve so should our traditions and some practices do not belong in today's society. Or should we maybe bring back such practices like keeping slaves, witch burning, dog fighting etc? A circus or Sea World to me is a place where the masses are kept entertained and happy, same practices that the emperors of ancient Rome had. They kept the public distracted and happy by putting on violent shows for them, involving gladiators, slaves and animals. But we have "evolved" since those dark days, have we not? You might think that animals are here for your disposal. But actually, they are intelligent being with feelings. Have you read about the injured dolphin seeking help from the diver because it had a hook stuck in it's fin and was tangled in a net? There is a video of it too.
I am all for rehabilitation places for animals that have been injured or abandoned or lost their Mom are kept and nurtured. But not taken from their natural habitat to be suffering for the rest of their lives in captivity so humans can watch them.
Certain animals do not make good pets. I don't think any exotic animals do. Have you ever seen a macaw fly free? If you have, then (if you have a working brain) you should know that it doesn't belong in a cage in your living room.
It's easy to go to work and come home, stuff your face, piss, shit, watch tv, trample through life. Ignorance is bliss - absolutely! Then there are people like me, big mouth,
I think, I don't do much - yet. I do small things, I know I can and should do more. Hopefully one day I will make a difference. I am still halfway stuck in the trample through life like an idiot category. And then there are the activists, those are the people I admire, they are out there changing the world, making it a better place. I love animals. Do you?

I got out of the bath not too long ago, spending this Monday evening at home. Having a bowl of split pea soup, some chocolate and reading blogs -FUN! There is a big black fly in the bedroom and Chhaya is very excited. Where do the flies come from in the Winter? I do not know this, I have to find out. So I scrubbed myself all over in the bath, put a clay mask on my face and some thick cream on my feet. The clay mask to clean my skin and the cream on the feet to care for my feet. I mean, how SEKSI would it be if I had some crusty lizard feet and toes jammed into my heels that I wear at work? I sometimes have chipped nail polish, I will admit to that and that doesn't bother me but there is not a thick layer of dead skin on my feet. So a nice cream, massage it in and put some socks on overnight. Or this works too if you have dry feet, first of all.......use a foot file in the bath and take some layers off. Then coat your feet in vaseline, stick them inside thin plastic bags and put on some thick socks overnight. Feels kind of funny to sleep like that, I have tried it maybe twice but some people swear by it. I use a foot file on a regular basis and a quality cream. The platforms I wear at work will give you calluses but they are no worse than "regular" high heels I think, actually the platforms are more comfortable.
Anyways, enjoy my pretty pics. I have size 8 in feet in case any foot lovers out there are curious.......

Last week we were sitting around talking at work, things had slowed down for the evening, we were about to close and a bartender from another place in town was there talking about some girl that worked at the club before. Last Summer she met a guy up here and got married but I guess things got a little tough for them financially and she went back to her town, New Orleans to dance. And he said you heard that there are so many girls dancing in New Orleans and it is difficult for them to make money and many of them do whatever to make money. Sounds familiar, that is how it is in Vegas, the larger topless clubs have too many girls. And then he said that she leaves the club crying a lot because of the things she does to make money. I HAD to chip in at that point and said that I NEVER go home crying because I feel like I did something at work that I am not ok with. That's right, NEVER. Because you don't have to! No money is worth it and there is not enough money circulating in a strip club anyways that a girl should be doing whatever for $ 20 or $ 100 or even $ 500 or $ 1000, that is NOTHING. $ 1000 is not that much money. I mean, if you really are willing to compromise yourself like that, at least make it worth it and go for the big money. Go to Dubai and entertain some rich Arabs and come home with some serious cash, jewelery and nice hand bags. That is how I look at it. I would personally never do that, I'd rather have nothing but for the girls that do I think that makes more sense in a way. It is always amazing to me, the stuff I have witnessed girls do at work for paltry sums of money. Cheap dumb strippers.
I never liked this girl the guy was talking about anyways, she has a shitty attitude and changes her voice at work. She talks normal in the dressing room and then when she is out in the club talking to guys she has the most annoying whiny "little girl' voice. She sounds like a total idiot.
I am allergic to girls that dumb themselves down or change they way they act or talk, to be more "pleasing" when they are around guys, that is so annoying and I do not see the point in that.
I quickly assessed my personal limits in this line of work. In the beginning I was a little unsure and nobody explained much to me. But I decided early on that I would not do things that I am uncomfortable with. I saw things and I got confronted with situations and I made up my mind fast. And I stick to it. Also, the first club I danced at guys were not allowed to touch the girls so that too set the standards for me. Another thing is that I don't change who I am when I am around guys at work. I am never going to act like I am "worshipping" some guy at work just because he might spend some money on me. Fuck that. YOU worship ME, if anything. If you act like an ass to me at work, you have a bad attitude or something then you can shove your money up your culo cause I don't want it. I have expressed this many times in my blog and this issue will be on repeat now and then.......so if you don't like girls that stand up for themselves find another blog! Do not assume that you are smarter or better than me in any way just because you are a guy with money in the strip club. You don't know me. I am a feminist first of all and I am not going to bend over backwards to please any guy at work. And guess what! Surprise! I make plenty of money without having to do anything that compromises my beliefs. It is one thing to cry because you feel sad over some small stuff but to cry because you are letting strangers violate you, that is not good at all for your mental well being. If that was MY husband, that girl is married like I mentioned earlier.......I would not be ok with coming home to my husband at night crying from something like that. He would have to step it up somehow. Get a better paying job, or work two jobs. I am not married. Yet. And I would not work as a dancer anymore if it meant crying every other night. And to the girls that do work as dancers.......really, you DO NOT have to do anything that you are not ok with. There are RULES in the club, all the clubs I have worked at do not allow certain touching to go on, DON'T do it, stick to the rules and then you don't have to go home crying at night or feel shitty the next day when the alcohol wears off and you have to face yourself.