On Repeat

Last week we were sitting around talking at work, things had slowed down for the evening, we were about to close and a bartender from another place in town was there talking about some girl that worked at the club before. Last Summer she met a guy up here and got married but I guess things got a little tough for them financially and she went back to her town, New Orleans to dance. And he said you heard that there are so many girls dancing in New Orleans and it is difficult for them to make money and many of them do whatever to make money. Sounds familiar, that is how it is in Vegas, the larger topless clubs have too many girls. And then he said that she leaves the club crying a lot because of the things she does to make money. I HAD to chip in at that point and said that I NEVER go home crying because I feel like I did something at work that I am not ok with. That's right, NEVER. Because you don't have to! No money is worth it and there is not enough money circulating in a strip club anyways that a girl should be doing whatever for $ 20 or $ 100 or even $ 500 or $ 1000, that is NOTHING. $ 1000 is not that much money. I mean, if you really are willing to compromise yourself like that, at least make it worth it and go for the big money. Go to Dubai and entertain some rich Arabs and come home with some serious cash, jewelery and nice hand bags. That is how I look at it. I would personally never do that, I'd rather have nothing but for the girls that do I think that makes more sense in a way. It is always amazing to me, the stuff I have witnessed girls do at work for paltry sums of money. Cheap dumb strippers.
I never liked this girl the guy was talking about anyways, she has a shitty attitude and changes her voice at work. She talks normal in the dressing room and then when she is out in the club talking to guys she has the most annoying whiny "little girl' voice. She sounds like a total idiot.
I am allergic to girls that dumb themselves down or change they way they act or talk, to be more "pleasing" when they are around guys, that is so annoying and I do not see the point in that.
I quickly assessed my personal limits in this line of work. In the beginning I was a little unsure and nobody explained much to me. But I decided early on that I would not do things that I am uncomfortable with. I saw things and I got confronted with situations and I made up my mind fast. And I stick to it. Also, the first club I danced at guys were not allowed to touch the girls so that too set the standards for me. Another thing is that I don't change who I am when I am around guys at work. I am never going to act like I am "worshipping" some guy at work just because he might spend some money on me. Fuck that. YOU worship ME, if anything. If you act like an ass to me at work, you have a bad attitude or something then you can shove your money up your culo cause I don't want it. I have expressed this many times in my blog and this issue will be on repeat now and then.......so if you don't like girls that stand up for themselves find another blog! Do not assume that you are smarter or better than me in any way just because you are a guy with money in the strip club. You don't know me. I am a feminist first of all and I am not going to bend over backwards to please any guy at work. And guess what! Surprise! I make plenty of money without having to do anything that compromises my beliefs. It is one thing to cry because you feel sad over some small stuff but to cry because you are letting strangers violate you, that is not good at all for your mental well being. If that was MY husband, that girl is married like I mentioned earlier.......I would not be ok with coming home to my husband at night crying from something like that. He would have to step it up somehow. Get a better paying job, or work two jobs. I am not married. Yet. And I would not work as a dancer anymore if it meant crying every other night. And to the girls that do work as dancers.......really, you DO NOT have to do anything that you are not ok with. There are RULES in the club, all the clubs I have worked at do not allow certain touching to go on, DON'T do it, stick to the rules and then you don't have to go home crying at night or feel shitty the next day when the alcohol wears off and you have to face yourself.