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Thursday, March 13. 2025

Painful Cough

Ok so I have been sick for a few days now. Today my cough was so painful that I had to take a headache pill in the morning and one in the evening because the cough is rattling my brain around. I lost my voice too and could only whisper for three days. Sore throat as well.
On top of it I had an appointment yesterday to see the dermatologist and got a skin biopsy done. The site of the biopsy? My left boob, so now that has to heal. I need to keep the biopsied area (looks like a small crater) clean, moist and covered with a band aid for now. Last year I got a biopsy done on the underside of my left boob and that turned out to be basal cell carcinoma. I had a time for Mohs surgery but I cancelled and was kind of hoping that the carcinoma would just go away. No, I do not really want any cutting into my boob, the thought of that makes me a bit queasy.......Anyways the dermatologist looked at the area with her dermatoscope yesterday and told me that it is still there and recommended that I just go in for the Mohs. I guess I will just have to do it......I hope it can wait until December.
And I hope that this cough will be gone tomorrow so I can start feeling normal. I do not like having a headache.
The moon is about to be full. Me and Kaya had a great walk this evening.

Sunday, March 9. 2025

Week 9 & 10

The Tuesday before last I recall that I showed up at work tired and not in the mood at all.
Did not want to talk to anyone, no energy whatsoever. The mood can change though. I can be not in the mood to shortly after feeling that way being in a much better mood depending on my interactions with people. Anyhow, we had four girls. I was the only one not doing much, I spent most of my time in the dressing room, the other girls were kind of busy.
Compliment of the evening the following shift, Wednesday came from a very nice man that discovered that we (the club) exist a few months ago, he comes in about once a week. He said, "your elegance is mesmerizing". 
We also had a new girl start Wednesday, never danced before and towards the end of the night she told me that she thought my dancing is sensual and very beautiful. 
The weekend was busy and Saturday somebody again told me that my dancing is very sensual and then he said that he has five cats and that the way I move reminded him of a cat.
I like that. I am not a fast twerky dancer. And it is nice that there are people that appreciate the more slow sensual style dancing in the sea of fast movements focused on twerking. 
And since I do NOT like the stage at the current club, it might be the worst or one of the worst stages I have ever danced on, I feel that the girls are not made justice. The lights are so bad, the stage is just ugly. Half of the time that I go on stage here I do not put in a lot of effort. I have definitely danced better in other clubs, the stage layout and lights are important.
Last week I can't really recall much. Same same. Slower on Tuesday and Wednesday and busier on Friday and Saturday. The last guy I danced for Saturday asked if I could spit into his mouth. That was a first. Of course I declined.
I left the club a bit after 2 am Sunday morning. Well, the time had moved forward due to daylight saving time, so all of a sudden it was 3 am.
One of the girls I work with said that she gets tired within five minutes of arriving to the club. 
I replied that I understand how she feels. We both used to work at Riverside Corral in Portland and we both agreed that we miss that place. It was just so calm there and comfortable.
Great stage too. This place is hard, not appealing, loud, edgy and exhausting. 

 

Wednesday, March 5. 2025

Busy Days

I went to Portland and had a couple of busy days. Pet Pack on Sunday, then non stop until I returned to Astoria.
For example, I did not eat anything at all (too busy) all day Monday until 10 pm in the evening, besided the latte I had in the morning. I love this Kale salad from New Seasons and this dessert called Swedish Dream (also New Seasons). I miss the grocery stores in Portland......New Seasons, Zupans and Trader Joe's.
The local magazine Portland Mercury had a sex survey a while back that I actually participated in. I said that I am asexual. That is how I felt l since a while. So I have no wild sex stories for you. You will have to read the Portland Mercury for those.

I did have time to meet my girlfriend Eve for coffee Tuesday morning.

Then more errands before the two hour drive back to Astoria. And then I had to work Tuesday evening......

Saturday, March 1. 2025

Outfits & Peptides

I had been eying these two outfits for a while, so I decided to get them. They arrived the other day. No this is not ordered on Shein or Temu. Although made in China, so who knows how this stuff is manufactured.

Then some peptides. For my face.

I am thinking about getting a microneedling device for my face (like Dr. Pen) and the Omnilux. But I want the Omnilux Men because it has deeper wavelenght than the Omnilux Contour Face. I need!

Friday, February 28. 2025

Blackout

I just saw this on Reddit. I love Reddit by the way.
Today February 28 total blackout. No purchases period. If you must, shop local.
I have no plans on buying anything today anyways so I will comply with the request for total blackout. I can do the Amazon blackout from March 7 to March 14. I don't shop Amazon often but I do now and then. Nestlรฉ blackout later in March no problem either. Same with the Walmart blackout in April. And then there is a second total blackout on April 18.
Deal! Are you going to participate?
 

Thursday, February 27. 2025

This Thursday

This Thursday I mopped the floor in the kitchen and in the bathroom. I mop the old fashioned way. So I don't really mop then actually.....since I do not use a mop. I hand clean. Bucket with HOT water, some rags, cleaning solution, protective gloves and go.

My initial plan was to go to the laundromat afterwards and wash the bath mats but it got late, so instead of the laundromat I went to the grocery store and got some food, came home and made myself dinner and took Kaya out for a walk afterwards. It is fun to walk around Astoria in the evening. We saw boats out on the river. The fog started to come in so the boats are using their fog horns. I like that sound, a bit eerie but comforting.

And then we came upon a pile of sea lions. I have never seen them basically up on the ground like this before. There are many sea lions in Astoria and they like to hang out in different spots around the area, like in the water. I can hear them pretty much all day and all night. 
These crawled up a hill full of large sharp rocks to get to this location. They are loud and large, Kaya did not want to get too close to them.

Now I am home, in bed, Kaya sleeping next to me. I love being at home - solitude, quiet. I am going to read and watch stuff online for a few hours before I go to sleep.