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Tuesday, October 7. 2025

Harvest Moon

October's full moon which is called the Harvest Moon is the first "supermoon" of the year, first out of three. The next two are in November and December. Two more full moons and then 2025 is over. I love watching the moon rise. So today I drove across the Megler Bridge to the WA side to watch the full moon. Such beauty. But I missed out on the moon peeking up from behind the mountains because I did not pay enough attention and I was parked in the wrong spot. Lesson learned for next time.
My camera (cell phone) is far from good so these pictures of the Harvest Moon will not end up amongst the chosen photos of October's supermoon at Associated Press. But whatever.......good enough for me.

I was actually going to attend a "spirit seance" this evening. A first for me. Well unless you don't count the times I played the Ouija board which is too a spirit seance in ways. And I will not do that again.
I arrived at the loaction of the seance and was informed that the medium had to cancel tonight and that the seance will happen at some point in the future. It was OK with me. It can wait. Maybe until next month's full moon? I went home and walked Kaya instead. Under the light of the full moon.
And before I go......today, two years ago on October 7 hundreds of innocent people got violated in horrific ways at the Nova music festival in Israel. I have always been strongly against Hamas and other terrorist groups that commit destruction in the name of a God they so fiercly supposedly believe in. I feel really bad for all the victims of the Nova music festival that were spending time dancing and enjoying life, not harming anyone and I hope for the release of the hostages that are still alive (if they are any). In my opinion Hamas should be destroyed. No more Hamas. I am not saying that Palestinians should be going down with Hamas. I am not talking about Gaza either. I am talking about the Nova music festival victims here and Hamas.
October 7th 2023 was a terrible day.

 

Sunday, October 5. 2025

Week 36, 37, 38, 39 & 40

What? I have FIVE whole work weeks to catch up on? It has been pretty uneventful. Boring and slow to sum it up in two words. But then again, I am bored like 70% of the time at work because I am a very impatient person. I do not do well if I am just sitting around. I can sit around and do nothing at home for hours at an end, no problem. But if I am forced to sit around and do nothing for hours at an end at work where it is cold and uncomfortable and loud, I start climbing the walls.
I sometimes feel like I am losing my mind when I am there. I am sure a lot of people feel like that when they are at work.
What is good with what I do is that I can curse, make weird loud sounds, loudly talk about how bored I am (which I do constantly), act crazy and blame it on my imaginary mental illnesses (I have many), stomp around, act out, take naps, read on my phone......Yea basically behave like a cranky toddler without any repercussions. Try doing that in some stuffy office somewhere, you would probably not last long. 
I don't know how I could ever have a "normal" job. I don't know if it would work. I will need to do something that does not involve being locked up in some sort of an office or room. Unless I am busy, then it is no problem. 
Week 36. I do recall talking to a local man that has become a regular visitor. He is nice but sometimes annoying because almost every time he brings up that I do not eat meat, that I do not eat fish. He does not comprehend how a person does not eat meat or fish. HELLO??? I do not eat meat and fish and somehow I am alive. It is STILL, in 2025 difficult for some people (especially people of a certain age) to understand and even accept that there are people that are vegetarian and/or vegan by choice. It truly bothers them for some reason. Like if anything it should be the other way around. Unacceptable that there are people that still eat meat and fish. For real.
An older guy came up to me and declared that Led Zeppelin should had written a song about me. Really? Yeah.....they should had. Long Legged Blonde would had been a good title. 
Week 37. The new regular got on my nerves. He decided that I should go clamming with him. Like without asking me first. Caveman mentality. Me digging for poor clams? Never. Also I was not in the mood to again explain that no, I do not eat fish. So I avoided him to teach him a lesson. Talk to the other girls, bother them. I sometimes spend a majority of my night in the dressing room. One can only be around annoying people for so long. 
Week 38. Sitting at the bar, counting the minutes until I can go home and do nothing in peace.
I made a whole $7 on Wednesday after house fee and tip out. It was a bad night for all of us. In fact Friday and Saturday this week were bad for me as well (not as bad as $7 though), I think it was one of my worst weeks ever. You just never know.
One day you go in and make like $60 total. Then next time you go in you make $100 in the first 30 minutes of being there. Looking just like you did the night when you made $60 total.
Week 39. I had a fun and good Wednesday night. And I do recall that people were extra moronic either Friday or Saturday night. We deal with a lot of drunk, loud, challenging to be around individuals. Sometimes they get a bit out of hand. And we need to yell at them to get the fuck out. Like the inebriated animal sound making dude that tried to break a pool stick at least three times (that I counted). One fun guy sitting at my stage said, "Welcome to America, the land of the drunks". He is not wrong.
Week 40. This was my mood when I arrived Wednesday for my shift of community service. Not at all enthusiastic. The night turned out ok.
 

October 1st line up.

Saturday was fun. I declared at the very beginning of the night that I was feeling extra crazy. I decided a while back to sometimes just act like I am unhinged crazy. To observe people's reactions. And they are very accepting. I think they come in not knowing what to expect, some already are under the impression that dancers in general are crazy, so when you act crazy they just go with the flow. It is actually hilarious to act insane. I have said it before, we should have a reality show in the club, it would be a success. I wonder if those people go home and are like.....that poor woman she is NOT well. I should mention that my co workers do not act as insane as me, once in a while I come across another dancer that just DGAF like myself. Most of my co workers play the part.
I do not. It usually makes more money to play the part. I am aware that playing the part would be better from a financial standpoint but I just can't do it. I don't sit in a corner and make loud sounds while rocking back and forth all night long.
I usually read on my phone or hide in the dressing room in between going on stage and spending time out on the floor.
Being a dancer is so unsatisfactory from an intellectual standpoint to me that I cope with being bored by "acting out", the acting out results in a lot of laughter. I have been told I should be a comedian many times. I am a comedian. Stand up comedy at the strip club three times a week, if my mood is right.
Swedish word. Hjälp, that means help. I mean it. Therefore the "for real" underneath.

 

Friday, October 3. 2025

Fort To Sea

Last Friday me and a few of my girlfriends went on a hike that I have been wanting to do for a while......the Fort to Sea hike. Finally. It was a gorgeous day, have I mentioned that Oregon is beautiful? I am sure that I have, well again Oregon is beautiful. I felt happy and alive on the hike. One way is six miles, some leave a car at one end of the trail and another car at the other end of the trail. We did that. One car at Fort Clatsop and the other one at Sunset Beach Trailhead. Come check out the hike with me!
The landscape started changing from lush forest to this the closer to the ocean. 
 

After about three hours of walking the Pacific Ocean appeared........

Dipping the toes in the ocean is a must.
 I wanted to continue and go back to Fort Clatsop but my friends were tired. Now I want to find somebody to do the roundtrip with me......or I will have to do it on my own. The hike is easy in my opinion and well worth doing.
 

Thursday, September 25. 2025

Hair Trim

One week ago I got a hair trim at Aveda in Portland. I like going there because it is ONLY $ 15 for a hair cut. My hair is so easy to trim. Since Aveda is a school you get one of the students (hence the price) to cut your hair so you never know what you will get. But you also never know what you will get if you walk into a random salon either, unless you see the same stylist all the time. And I trim my hair once or maybe twice a year so I do not have a regular stylist. Last time I was very impressed with the girl that I got. This time I was not. Everything from the shampooing technique to the haircutting skills were poor and lackluster. I would not go back to her. It was so bad that I was surprised that the supervisors have not called her out on it.
But I will go back to Aveda in the future for hair trims. 
I started my day with a FREE latte from Stumptown. I love their coffee. My hair was a bit too long in my opion. So I decided to go with about four inches off.
Got some new products., all Aveda. Cherry Almond shampoo, Nutriplenish shampoo and Botanical Repair masque. I have a few more products in mind that I would like to try. I think next time I go I will have a facial as well.

 

Monday, September 22. 2025

Fall Equinox

Summer is officially over, it is fall equinox today my friends. My summer went by extremely fast, it feels like Memorial Day and the beginning of summer was just like last month when in fact it was almost four months ago. My summer was also full of angst and sadness. And I am acutely aware of that I have majority of my summers behind me at this point in my life, it is a countdown to death now basically. 
Me and Kaya went back to Sunset Beach again today, we arrived a bit after sunset. A few people still at the beach.
Achingly beautiful outside. Oregon is absolutely breathtaking. The coastline of the Pacific Northwest and down through California to San Francisco is just spectacular.
I felt alive while walking with Kaya and like one small person amongst the billions sharing the same planet, simply trying to survive and go through this life. When you stand on the beach under the vast sky and the enormous ocean rolling in towards you, you feel how small you are. I should go to the beach more often, it is close to where I live after all.
That way to the beach.

 

Sunday, September 21. 2025

Started Today With A Latte

Started today with a latte at Rusty Cup (oatmilk vanilla half sweet latte).

Then me and Kaya went to the Lewis and Clark National Historic Park, we go there a lot. Forest, trails just beautiful. There is also an interesting museum where you can learn about the Lewis and Clark expedition that happened over 200 years ago. One woman was a part of that adventure, Sacagawea. I can't even imagine what life was like then and how difficult that journey must had been. No thank you would had been my response back then if somebody would had invited me to travel by foot from one end of the US to another. 

And there was a dog too - Seaman. 

Continued my day with errands and a stop at Sunset Beach before I finally got home around 6 to feed myself and Kaya.
The other day another one of my Havaianas broke. I have one whole pair left now. This is a blog about all my broken flip flops.......perhaps a reflection of me, I am like a broken flip flop.