Entries by TATIANA

It is going to be a hot day today here in Portland. The heat is here for this whole week. I went to the store earlier so I don't have to be outside anymore today until it cools off which will be later in the evening.
I have been eating spicy food lately. I love this hot pepper sauce from Trader Joe's.



My plans for the rest of the week......a bunch of boring but necessary adulting stuff. I am not overly excited about that. I have a to do list that I will slowly tick off items on. I guess I will have to force myself to start on that sometimes later today.
On Sunday I have to go out towards Mount Hood to take care of some stuff.
That is Mount Hood in the rearview mirror from last week when I was there.



So no Pet Pack for me this upcoming Sunday but I was there this past Sunday. My friend Mario finds all kinds of cute stuff for me. The last time I saw him he gave me this super cute ring. Does that mean that I am engaged?



And now I am going to have breakfast.

I went looking for the moon on July 13 when it was full. I thought I had pinpointed a spot where it would rise.....and I waited and waited. Looked at the clock. Well, no moon. I glanced over to the right and there it was, in between the tree branches. I was disappointed because I was hoping to see it rise above Portland. It was the biggest and brightest super moon of the year after all! Maybe next full moon I will get it right.



It has been absolutely gorgeous out. I am loving it.
I tried a Margherita from Trader Joe's the other day. Not bad. Only $5, if I recall it right.



One of my fave ice creams. Cherry was my first dancer name by the way. And please do not ask dancers whether their name is their real name or not. It is their real name right then and there, even if it isn't technically, OK? People have nicknames, some people do not like the name they were given and use another, others have a middle name they use, some pick a different name and make it theirs. You do not know the situation so do not make snarky assumptions. Like men don't lie about all kinds of things by the way.....LOL. Way more serious lies than a name. I have many stories to tell on that subject.
Maybe another time.



So I have been very busy lately. I am working on an assignment and it is rather intense. Hence not a lot of blogging.
Therefore I want to tell you about a YouTube channel that has hours and hours of interesting stuff on it that you can entertain yourself with in between waiting for new blogs from me. I discovered this YouTube channel a few years ago, I saw it mentioned somewhere and remembered the rather unusual name and looked it up.
Soft White Underbelly. There is a lot to say about it but I really do not know how to describe it. I find it extremely interesting and can spend hours immersing myself into all the life stories.

Last night I read that Shinzo Abe got shot and I was like this is not happening? Not him? Why? I was hoping he would get care and pull through but no I woke up today to the news that Shinzo Abe passed. Very sad. He had a very sweet, nice and kind demeanor. A kind face and kind eyes, I really liked him. It is terrible what happened.
When he resigned almost two years ago (August 2020) by his own choice due to health reasons I felt that many other world leaders in that position would had not stepped down and instead selfishly held on to their position no matter what. But Mr. Abe was bigger than that, he resigned for the better good of the country and the people he was serving. Truly admirable.
The Japanese people seem above the rest of us in many ways, more evolved somehow.
Since Sapporo (in Japan) is one of Portland's sister cities......and Portland is known as the City of Roses, here are some roses for Shinzo Abe.

It is July 5th, the day after Independence Day. I stayed at home last night. I have no need to see any more fireworks, I think I have seen enough for the rest of my life. I am completely OK with not seeing another firework display ever again. I heard them though, going off somewhere out there.
Plus after what happened yesterday in Chicago where seven innocent people watching a parade were executed and many other injured, that sort of thing takes away any kind of reason to celebrate. One child lost both parents. This world is sick, well humans are sick. Poor children and poor animals, how they suffer because of the fools that saturate this earth. Adult human beings are truly vile. I am disgusted with so much.
These shooting that have been happening are sickening. It is almost easier to just scroll past it, until it happens too close to home, until it happens to somebody near and dear.
Yesterday I went for a walk in the forest and enjoyed the sun shining through the beautiful trees.



Stopped and saw a pretty flower growing happily by itself.



Last night before I fell asleep I read about Vincent Van Gogh's life and this evening I found a documentary about him (Van Gogh: Of Wheat Fields and Clouded Skies) and I sat in bed and watched it and cried. What a tragic life and what beauty he left behind.
On July 21 1882 he wrote....."What I want and set as my goal is damn difficult, and yet I don't believe I'm aiming too high, whether in figures, or in landscapes, I would like to express not something sentimentally melancholic but deep sorrow. In short I want to reach the point when people say of my work, "That man feels deeply and that man feels subtly". Despite my so-called coarseness, perhaps precisely because of it. What am I in the eyes of most people? A non-entity, or an oddity, or a disagreeable person, someone who has and will have, no position in society. In short, a little lower than the lowest. Very well, assuming that everything indeed is like that. Then through my work, I'd like to show what there is in the heart of such an oddity and such a nobody."
I feel that deep inside. And that is all I have to share this evening. Feeling sad and have a restlessness in my chest.

Today's awwww moment was when I got to hold this little baby for a moment during Pet Pack. So cute! Awwwww....



Went for a walk later.....this looked like something out of a fairy tale.



I don't know if you have heard of CERN. And if you have I don't know your thoughts on it but I am moving my crystals tonight from their place in the living room to next to my bed. Just because.
And speaking of bed, I am in bed. I am tired so goodnight.

How is the summer so far? I decided to enjoy this summer. I am trying to do just that.
Went back to Forest Park today with Senna for a hike, we do a two hour loop.



We saw this beauty.



I am eating nectarines almost every day.



I go on many walks.....everything is blooming and it is gorgeous outside.



It got very hot for a few days, a friend let me borrow an AC. Thank You friend!



Me and Senna picked up a large pet food donation and took it to Pet Pack's storage.



I am driving around without an instrument cluster right now. I sent it in for repair. It has been acting up since 2016 but since March it has been acting up more than normal so I just needed to do something about it. Please come back soon instrument cluster!



And that is about it for now......tomorrow it is July 1st.