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Had more stuff with me on my return trip than I had when I arrived in New York about two weeks ago. My friends will be very happy that they know me this Christmas......I love giving gifts! It makes me happy.
All the famous bloggers in Sweden always take pics of their food they get in first class, well I don't fly first class.......I am just a regular person that rather save my money than blow it on first class and get something that will last instead of a four hour "comfortable' plane ride, however comfortable that can be, even in first class. Actually the last three times I flew I had some very annoying neighbors.........I will write about that some other time.
Well, this was my snack in coach, very luxurious. And some reading material. I love the cookies they give you when you fly Delta, I had three packs.



I don't know if i will ever go back to New York for work. It has changed since last time I worked. More girls and less classy girls. When I worked we did air dances only at Flashdancers and Tens.
I even got in trouble once because my hair fell on a guy, that was considered touching! Now girls sit in guys laps and get groped, some I worked with were downright vulgar and I can't "compete" with that. Neither do I want to. I also think I worked with a few girls this time that were not even 18. At Flashdancers, New York Dolls and Private Eyes you don't need any legal papers to work, therefore the large influx of foreign girls mainly from Eastern Europe, Russia and former Russia. And sometimes they don't even ask to see proof of your age. There were some girls that looked about 15, super skinny with barely developed boobs, I don't think you can look that childish at 21. But I love New York as a city. I did have some amazing days on my trip. So I am glad I went, even if work kind of sucked and I was sick the whole time too.





And IF I do go back there to dance it's going to be at Flashdancers or some other large club.
Now I know not to go in December, there were so many girls working before the holiday that the large clubs didn't hire any new girls. So I ended up at New York Dolls.





I arrived in Kenai at 6 30 am after waiting in Anchorage for five hours for my plane to Kenai. But I made it and I'm home now. 🙂

Last night at work FINALLY over with......I'm free! I started feeling claustrophobic and like a prisoner in that club and I wanted to leave from the very beginning of the night. At one point I felt like the subject in The Scream pure despair, I just wanted to GO HOME! I only wanted to make back my house fee and some kind of a profit. It felt like it was going to be impossible but eventually I managed. And I left two hours early because I just couldn't stand it anymore. So happy to be out of there! We are not "allowed" to leave early. The dancers have to be there until the end, if you need to leave early you have to ask for permission. If I'm not mistaken it's illegal to have dancers be independent contractors, charge them $ 100 to work and then dictate a schedule for them. That makes you an employee and not an independent contractor and that means that once there is a schedule there should be a wage. No? That is why so many dancers are suing clubs now and WINNING, good for them! I hope they get a lot.

The first thing I saw when I sat down on the couch waiting to get on stage was the Swedish girl
I got to know a little last Saturday. Some guy was touching her boobs and sucking on them. WTF? Really? You need to do all that for $ 20 out on the floor? I sure wonder what she allows to happen upstairs in the "Champagne Room" or VIP or whatever you want to call it. It's $ 630 or something like that for 50 minutes of "fun". When I saw that I got disappointed, she seemed so cool and she mentioned to me that she is tempted to quit dancing because of her new boyfriend. That it feels wrong to get touched by different guys since she is into her boyfriend now. I would feel really WEIRD and wrong too if a bunch of people would be sucking on my boobs every time I would be at work. GROSS! Then some guy told me he used to date a dancer and that it ended because he couldn't deal with that she would give bj's in the VIP. Whaaaaat? And he said he wasn't going to go upstairs with me because a bj for $ 600 plus was out of his price range, although tempting.
I looked at him in disbelief. First of all I clarified to him that I don't EVER do anything remotely close to a bj at work, no matter how much money might be involved. And then I told him that his ex girlfriend definitely was taking things way too far and beyond dancing/stripping. A bj should NEVER happen in a strip club. Sorry. That is nasty! I am so happy to be out of there and that I am going home later today. I am very homesick. All I want to do is read and watch movies and cuddle with my Chhaya. In my own comfy bed.
Here are some pics from the bar stage. On that one we have to be in a matching top and bottom, the bra has to be triangle cut. There is usually nobody paying any attention to you at the bar stage, so I could sneak in a few pics.





And the me and my never ending self portraits.

Last day in Manhattan before I leave tomorrow! Met up with Bella and went to the Museum Of Modern Art, or MoMA. But first I went to Pret and had breakfast, I love the lentil soup there and today I had two almond croissants. My last almond croissants at Pret for a while.
We went to MoMA to view The Scream by Edvard Munch. If you want to go to MoMa, go on a Friday after 4 30 pm, it's free to get in there then, otherwise it's $ 25 and I think that's rather steep. Anyways, The Scream is.......well it makes me FEEL something at least, sadness kind of.
It really is an amazing painting and I am glad I had the opportunity to see it. It is probably my favorite.





There were other paintings by Munch there and I thought some were quite good. He made some interesting ones. And then I saw this which is quite fitting for the world we live in, at least my world.



After MoMA I took a last stroll around town before I took the subway to Brooklyn. I am in bed with Olive now, the super cute cat I share my place with. I have to get in the shower soon. Then I am going to squeeze out what's left of the self tanner on rub it in and go to work.
My last night at New York Dolls. GOOD! I am exhausted and SO over it. I miss home.

I had a great day today! Happy! 🙂 Went to a coffee place called Bourbon Coffee, it was really nice and super comfy inside. I took a rest, had a latte, ate and read. Look at the pretty foam ❤ I got!



Then I went shopping. My never ending daytime task here. I will show you what I got when I am back in Kenai. I don't have any time for that now. Right after I write this I am getting in the shower and then I am going to work.
A funny and strange thing happened today also......when I was waiting for the subway at Broadway/Lafayette somebody tapped me on the shoulder. It was Bella, my new friend that I had coffee with yesterday. We just somehow crossed paths today. For that to happen in New York is like finding a needle in a haystack. Weird huh?
I am super tired but I have to go to work. Rest and catching up on sleep when I am back home.......in a few days.

Today I met up with Bella in SoHo, we had yummy coffee at La Colombe. After that we walked around a bit until it was time for me to go. I met Bella through my blog, she found it when she was looking up info about working is Williston. 🙂
After that I went to Macy's, I'm looking for some black boots. After trying on the ones at Aldo I decided that I don't like them. Asked an older lady to take my picture, she was more than happy to and didn't want to stop. Turned out she was from Belarus and has been here for one year and loves it. She dislikes Belarus and Lukashenko whom she called a dictator. She even made sure to show me the "free and very nice" public restrooms. Funny!



Here are my nails for today. ESSIE polish, gold and then a coat of pink sparkle.



I'm about to leave for work soon, got my lashes glued on already and put on some self tanner. Three more nights to go! Yeay! I love New York but I can't want to get home to my bed, my bathroom, my stuff and most of all my Chhaya! ❤ I MISS HER SO MUCH!

Ok......work at New York Dolls this last Saturday. Too many girls for sure. Maybe it is like this because of the holidays. What happens in this club is that the guys are "spoiled" and expect you to sit down at talk to them for some time before they might even consider a dance. Like even ONE dance, after me putting in all that effort. Sorry honey, ICH DON'T THINK SO (like Bruno says). And a lot of girls also sit in the guy's lap and talk while getting groped or close to making out. I've seen it. Like WTF? Sorry, I am maybe spoiled but rightfully so. I don't want to sit in any lap until the dance is agreed on, that is why it is called a lap dance. There should be no sitting in laps and talking, that's why guys (some of them) think they are smart and wait for girls to sit in their lap so they can rub on them etc and then they might get one dance or some even decline a dance. I don't sit in laps. I definitely prefer clubs where sitting is laps is a no no. As far as talking goes, sure I love to talk but not about nonsense and bullshit. There is no sex talk coming from me, that's what phone sex is for and it comes at a high price. No flirting or false promises of meeting up, because that is not going to happen anyways. I prefer minimal talking, maybe a small introduction and then once it is established that there is going to be a dance, I do not mind being polite and nice and talk for a song or two, even more sometimes if I am actually sitting with an intelligent person, before I do the dance. But I am not going to be interviewed for forever before each dance I do, that is exhausting. Plus half of the guys I have encountered are either dumb or drunk or both, so carrying on some kind of interesting conversation is next to impossible and I am an impatient person that can't stand dummies, so that stuff drives me nuts. Can't do it. I like larger clubs with lots of guys where the girls move around more, Therefore I find it difficult to make money here. So yeah, Saturday was a joke. It took forever to get busy.
At 11 pm I looked around in the room and there was ONE lap dance being done, most girls were sitting by themselves because it took so long to fill up. I got my first dance at midnight. And then it was four hours left to make money, you make profit for yourself after you pay $ 130 to the club. Sound easy to make but it's not always so because all the other girls try to make a profit too. And some try in ways that I don't engage in.

Here is a picture of the main stage, the room is rather small. The main stage has four poles and is badly lit with bright harsh lights. Then there is a front area that has two small stages also.



And this is my new silver dress. I could go out in this on New Years!





And here are some of the club rules. I do like the manager here and the atmosphere is definitely better than at Private Eyes and the club is nicer but it is not Flashdancers........