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I read a snippet from a kind of funny article today based on a study funded by a grant from Coca Cola (soft drink giant) that women today are fatter than 50 years ago because they do less work around the house. I immediately pulled out the vacuum, filled up a bucket with water and started cleaning frenetically. OH NO! I can't get fat!
I need to double the time I spend vacuuming, dusting, doing laundry, mopping floors etc around here. Then again, I wonder are men too fatter than they were on average 50 years ago? Of course they are! Look around, duh! Time to get those hours in doing housework guys! Does drinking large quantities of soda like Coca Cola have anything to do with expanding waistlines? I can think of all kinds of reason that people are larger sized today on average than they were 50 years ago. I usually break a sweat when I vacuum but I would have to do a whole lot of vacuuming every day in order to get in a good work out. 30 minutes on the elliptical gets my heart rate going way more than some vacuuming. Besides......I am not a housewife, since I make a living outside the home I don't qualify to be in the housewife bracket. I am busy with my career as a DANCER - Thank You very much! Tons of opportunities for all kinds of promotions in my line of work! For example, when I started dancing I was rather shy and quiet (for about three months) now I tell others what to do, I boss people around all the time - it's FUN! Also, in the beginning my heels were not as tall, now they are 7''. Next step? 8''.
What's next for me? How about politics? If Ashley Judd and Eva Longoria are dipping their toes into the political field, so can I. I associate Eva Longoria with drama with her ex husband and some interviews where she talked about her butt and staying skinny.
If you have been reading my blog for a while you know that I have a hell lot more to talk about than my butt and my weight.
Speaking of my butt......I really do need to get in the shower and get ready for work.
All kinds of people are going to stare at my butt tonight and pay me for the privilege of doing so.........

I just finished watching a movie called The Family Stone .......it's almost two in the morning here. Now I can FINALLY return it to Sharon that lent it to me, I promised her that I would watch it since it is her favorite movie. The characters in it were actually crazier than me and I felt totally CRAZY earlier this evening. Let's rewind.......
I went to Coffee Roasters yesterday afternoon, had plans to go to the gym afterwards but felt lazy and weird so I changed my mind........then I changed my mind again and did indeed go to the gym because I knew that I would only feel good from going, which I did. Came home, started feeling slightly insane. Thought of going to work, good that I didn't, started feeling borderline homicidal later on. Didn't want to stab somebody in the forehead with my heel for looking at me for too long, so I stayed home. Laid in bed, had a weird feeling in my stomach, started crying for no real reason besides that I felt like I had the worst bout of PMS ever. If you are a guy then you can't relate, it's unexplainable, anything can make you cry, everything sucks and feels like BLEH. So I cried for a good 15 minutes, loud, sobbing. Then I ate (some more). Yoghurt with granola and pickles. No, I am not pregnant. Although I feel fat and ugly. LOL. I told you, I felt CRAZY! Then I decided to finally watch that damned movie because I promised Sharon that I would. So at least I got that done. Now I can give Sharon her movie back. Mission accomplished.
A few years ago I started taking birth control pills after a long break. After about a week on them I started feeling really emotional and unstable, like I did earlier this evening but kind of a constant feeling. It was awful! I knew it was the pills so I stopped taking them and felt like myself again right away, now I do have an occasional PMS moment but it passes. I took birth control pills on and off a few times. One day I came across and read a book about the dangers of taking hormones, because that is what birth control pills are, hormones. After reading that book I regretted that I ever took birth control pills. If I had a daughter I would advise her to never take birth control pills or any other form of birth control that releases hormones into your body (for example NuvaRing or contraceptive patch) or at least wait until about 22 or so. Absolutely not as a teenager when you are still growing and developing. Who knows what damage girls do to their physical and mental health by eating birth control pills?
Well........now my crazy ass is going to take a bath. I feel better, slightly.

After going to Coffee Roasters I had plans of going to the gym........but I decided not to........or I can't decide, maybe I'll go anyways. I am feeling unmotivated and lazy this afternoon. Instead I might go home, do laundry and make my house look nice.
Open up the front door and some windows and let the air in. Maybe gym tomorrow.
Or today? Indecisive. Maybe work tonight? Not every day can be productive, at least not for me. And that's basically all I have to say for today........this is an old pic of me and my Kaladi cup.




Photographer Mick Cukurs

Got some stuff done today - finally. My taxes. I got it all figured out, calculated and sent off, all my papers organized and filed. I keep everything in different folders. I got this years Permanent Fund Dividend filled out and sent off. Feels good, I can't relax if I have stuff looming because I keep thinking about it. While out today I ran into our waitress at the club, Teresa. She works when it's busy, so not right now since we are slow.
Teresa is so much fun. I didn't like her when I first started but then I changed my opinion about that and now I really like her, she is great.
Chhaya is eagerly awaiting her dinner. I am boiling some carrots for her, she is also getting brown rice and a can of dog food, beef this evening.
I think I am staying in tonight. Relaxing and reading. I might do a honey face mask and a moisturizing coconut oil treatment for my hair. Oh.......and I have to brush Chhaya's teeth.

I am about to try some new skin products for the first time. I have been using L'Occitane for a while but now I am going to switch things up a little and try some stuff from Santa Maria Novella. Here I have the Lipid Cream and the Papaya Gel both from the Skin Restoring Line. I love the Santa Maria Novella stores, it smells heavenly in them and everything looks and feels very luxurious. Excited over the new products!

Bound feet. Chinese foot binding, outlawed since a while.

Ballerina.

Dancer. Me.

Sources blogspot, tumblr, marie claire and myseveralworlds.com