Crazy

I just finished watching a movie called The Family Stone .......it's almost two in the morning here. Now I can FINALLY return it to Sharon that lent it to me, I promised her that I would watch it since it is her favorite movie. The characters in it were actually crazier than me and I felt totally CRAZY earlier this evening. Let's rewind.......
I went to Coffee Roasters yesterday afternoon, had plans to go to the gym afterwards but felt lazy and weird so I changed my mind........then I changed my mind again and did indeed go to the gym because I knew that I would only feel good from going, which I did. Came home, started feeling slightly insane. Thought of going to work, good that I didn't, started feeling borderline homicidal later on. Didn't want to stab somebody in the forehead with my heel for looking at me for too long, so I stayed home. Laid in bed, had a weird feeling in my stomach, started crying for no real reason besides that I felt like I had the worst bout of PMS ever. If you are a guy then you can't relate, it's unexplainable, anything can make you cry, everything sucks and feels like BLEH. So I cried for a good 15 minutes, loud, sobbing. Then I ate (some more). Yoghurt with granola and pickles. No, I am not pregnant. Although I feel fat and ugly. LOL. I told you, I felt CRAZY! Then I decided to finally watch that damned movie because I promised Sharon that I would. So at least I got that done. Now I can give Sharon her movie back. Mission accomplished.
A few years ago I started taking birth control pills after a long break. After about a week on them I started feeling really emotional and unstable, like I did earlier this evening but kind of a constant feeling. It was awful! I knew it was the pills so I stopped taking them and felt like myself again right away, now I do have an occasional PMS moment but it passes. I took birth control pills on and off a few times. One day I came across and read a book about the dangers of taking hormones, because that is what birth control pills are, hormones. After reading that book I regretted that I ever took birth control pills. If I had a daughter I would advise her to never take birth control pills or any other form of birth control that releases hormones into your body (for example NuvaRing or contraceptive patch) or at least wait until about 22 or so. Absolutely not as a teenager when you are still growing and developing. Who knows what damage girls do to their physical and mental health by eating birth control pills?
Well........now my crazy ass is going to take a bath. I feel better, slightly.