Entries by TATIANA

I don't know what you like to eat but I am TRYING to make good choices when it comes to food. That doesn't mean that I always do but I TRY. And in between the trying I do need my daily vanilla latte and I have a weakness for pastries, desserts and ice cream. I like KIND bars and the teas by Honest Tea. Both products made in the US and contain no GMO's and organic only ingredients. And I love the taste, very good, makes for a great snack.





I do have weak moments (cravings or hunger) and occasionally get some apple pie or ice cream from McDonald's but it can be years in between my McDonald's visits. I avoid fast food places in general. I would never eat a McDonald's burger. I used to when I lived in Sweden then I tried one here in the US and thought the meat tasted really weird. Like not right.
Plus the animals used for the meat for fast food places are treated horrible. 😥
In fact most restaurants will serve you GMO food and non organic. It's cheaper and they are trying to make a profit. Unless you happen to live somewhere where people are picky, educated on these issues and demand quality food, like LA, New York, Miami etc. I love Urth Caffe in LA but here in Kenai the quality restaurants are limited and it is probably smarter and healthier to cook at home. And I am not a very enthusiastic cook, I love eating out. I think Veronica's is a good choice for a place to eat here. I have to go there again soon. I am concerned about the milk used in my lattes. Organic milk is always better than regular and almond milk is a great alternative to cow milk. The best would probably be to have my own espresso machine and make it my way.
If you put some thought into it, it is obvious that most of our health issues are food related. Back in the day people ate healthier and cleaner food. Life was harder in many ways but people were (in general) healthier. I am not talking about the Black Death days centuries ago in Europe now, more like 50 -100 years ago. Sure there were less comforts and luxuries back in the day but cancer wasn't as prevalent as it is today and other modern day diseases like Parkinson's, Multiple Sclerosis and diabetes just to mention a few. So we really should live to at least a healthy 100 + today (I believe) with the health care and comforts that we have available to us but we don't. And I do think a lot of the problem lies in the food we eat.
And the stuff we drink. I would NEVER (knowingly) drink any type of diet drink. The stuff that is sweetened by Aspartame (aka NutraSweet and Equal). First of all is tastes nasty and it is SO BAD for you. So stop drinking the diet sodas already, I am TELLING you to! Aspartame started to get added to food and beverages in the 80's. There has been a significant rise in various cancers in the last 40 years or so. Coincidence? I don't think so. Of course other factors play a role too like pollution, pesticides, hormones, some people say chem trails, personal unhealthy habits and even getting exposed to second hand smoke. So think about that next time that you feel the need to blow that gross cigarette smoke next to a non smoker.
Knowledge is power. Educate yourself and make better choices. You can't count on anyone taking care of you but yourself.

Well, the camping trip didn't turned out the way I was hoping it would. It was actually almost like torture at times. Why? Mosquitoes. All over. Relentless. I have never experienced anything like it before. Awful. Everything else was perfect. The location. A rustic cabin on Engineer Lake. The weather, sunshine and warm. But the mosquitoes were everywhere. Even though I used herbal mosquito spray, DEET, sticks, coils and there was a camp fire going. Tried to go on a hike through the forest, had to turn around cause there was a large buzzing cloud of them surrounding me. I felt bad for Chhaya, they were all over her and I sprayed her down with chemicals too. At night there would be a few in the cabin, trying to suck blood and keeping me up and annoyed. I could not lay out and get a tan and read my books for long. The other night when I took a bath I counted 45 fresh itchy bites on myself. That is not counting the bites that had already went away. At one point I had six red and swollen welts on my face. And they are here too.....around the house. WTF! And GROSS!
But it was still very pretty at Engineer Lake. Chhaya had fun and I did too at times.

















I am never again going camping when there is a crazy mosquito outbreak like this. I can take some bugs that goes with being outside but I don't want to get eaten alive by them.

I am actually out in nature, camping and enjoying life right now. The last two entries were written on Saturday but I scheduled them to appear later. I should be back here writing by Wednesday. So a day or two without Tatiana......can you handle that? I am probably reading a book somewhere in the forest right now with Chhaya sniffing around and exploring close by. Talk to you again on Wednesday no later Thursday. XOXO 🙂

Check out my new cute bras. All from Victorias's Secret. The black one is from their Designer Collection and it is covered in sparkly small black stones but you can't really see that in the pic.



New Honey Dew's. I want the blue ones with the light green trim too. I am going to have to order those, hopefully they are still in stock.

Here is some new stuff that I got. The new Juicy perfume, VIVA La Juicy La Fleur. It is a flanker meaning it is a play on the original, VIVA La Juicy. I love the way this one smells..........mmmmmm. And the bottle is so pretty as all the Juicy perfume bottles. I save the bottles. One day I will do something cool and artsy with them.
Then the Josie Maran Argan oil. So far I have been using it on my face and in my hair and I like it. Also Kiehl's Midnight Recovery. Haven't tried it yet but when I do I will let you know if it lives up to it's promise.



A super KAWAII Hello Kitty mirror. Love it.

Here are some pics of the hair I pulled out when I waxed. I don't think that waxing the legs hurts at all, in fact I kind of like the feeling. Waxing the bikini line stings a little and as far as waxing the whole VAGINE, getting a Brazilian - NO WAY. I would probably faint from the pain and get about 100 ingrown hairs as a result. Can you be a feminist and still wax, shave, like pink and be a dancer (stripper)? I think so. I am definitely a feminist. But I also like to keep the hair on my various body parts shaved or trimmed, except for the hair on my head, I like to keep that long. Even before I had any knowledge about stripping I shaved and trimmed.
Not to keep some guy happy but because I like it like that and I think it is cleaner from a hygiene standpoint. Even on guys, I don't like it when a guy has a huge growth of sweaty armpit hair or a large moist bush down there. Trim that! And that is my opinion. Some people would never shave or trim, they think the hairier the better or that we have hair on our bodies for a reason.
Being a feminist has nothing to do with shaving your VAGINE, if that is what YOU want to do. Sometimes I let my hair grow out a bit. Because I want to, I like to take a break from the shaving once in a while. Being a feminist is believing and demanding the same rights and opportunities as men in society. Yes, there are differences between men and women, from a physical aspect. But come on with that crap that some places get away with, not letting women have any or limited rights. That is bullshit! Get with the times already!
Can you be a dancer and a feminist? Well, I have some moral struggle with that at times. Do I think that strip clubs really bring anything important or valuable to society? Probably not so much. We could probably get rid of all the strip clubs and keep on existing well without them. They did in Iceland.
On the other hand, I think that I do my job without letting anyone talk down to me, degrade me or treat me in any way I am not comfortable with. I am definitely not afraid to speak up, talk back or put idiots in their place. Because once in a while my path crosses with some douchebag and I have to deal with him and sometimes it's a her, accordingly. You can dance and carry yourself with pride and respect yourself, absolutely. I have no huge hangups with nudity, I am totally comfortable with nude beaches, hot springs etc. It is what you choose to do and how you act in any given situation that matters. I work topless and naked but I won't go home with you or let you touch me wherever you want to. Why? Because I don't want to and I also do not bend the rules we have at work. There are women that work in "respectable" fields that do things that I would never even consider doing from a moral aspect. I don't even think that I need to give any examples, you can probably think of some things yourselves.
I also love it when I can change people's stereotypes about dancers. You know......dumb, uneducated, drunk, druggie, slutty etc. Those things do not apply to me whatsoever and I am proud to say that. A dancer and a feminist, it works for me.

And let me add something. When I say slutty I do not mean to do any slut shaming. Hey, if you sleep around with a lot of guys or girls and are happy, go for it and good for you. As a feminist I think men and women should be able to sleep around and have sex without any slut shaming or stigma attached to it. What I meant is that dancers often are looked at as sluts, many times from other women that do not understand or have some kind of negative stereotype attached to dancers. I am more a relationship kind of girl......no relationship, no sex, I take that stuff kind of seriously. But if other people want to sleep around, whatever go for it. Whatever floats your boat.