Entries by TATIANA

Are you ready to cry? A while back I wrote a blog about a little girl pitbull that was found in a park in Boston, badly tortured. Somebody took her to a vet and the vet said that they had never seen an animal abused that badly before.
That little innocent pitbulls name was KIYA, she was about two years old. I so wish I could had saved her, that SOMEBODY could had saved her! What happened to KIYA is that her original owner had to get rid of her due to breed restrictions. Breed restrictions means that dogs of a certain breed, usually pitbulls, rottweilers, dobermans etc are not allowed to live in a certain area, so people end up getting rid of their dogs. Little KIYA ended up on Craigslist a few times and she finally met her brutal fate in the hands of some disgusting Polish guy that beat her so badly that she could not walk and cut her tongue in half. EYE FOR AN EYE I say! Beat his fucking ass so he can't walk and cut his nasty tongue in half. This disgusting excuse for a human lousy Polish fuck should be executed. I would love to do it. I hope he gets tortured to death in jail. I feel HATE for him in my whole being when I read about what he did to that innocent dog. This asshole was supposedly in the country illegally and even stole checks from a church. There you go, that is a nice Catholic Polak for you. Act like a criminal and then go to church on Sunday and pretend you are all innocent and shit and then do a confession once a year and your sins are washed away. Bullshit hypocrisy, it makes me SICK!
Look, I was born in Poland and let me tell you, my patriotism only stretches so far. I love Polish food, I have a hot Polish temper and I guess I must look Slavic because sometimes people I have never seen before will come up to me and ask me if I'm Polish/Ukrainian/Russian. I do enjoy visiting Poland and hear others speak in my native language. But that's about it. I've had the pleasure of meeting some highly educated, well spoken and intelligent Polish people. One that I will always remember was my Polish teacher that I first met when I was ten, Leszek was his name. He was the first person that told me to question things in life and think for myself. When I was ten, the last thing I wanted was to be the different kid in class and be forced to take Polish lessons, I was soooo embarrassed by that but my Mom insisted. Now I am grateful for that experience and knowledge I obtained. Also as a ten year old I didn't really understand what he was talking about when he told me to question information and even authority, he was highly educated, a true intellectual and I am forever grateful to him.
Then there are the Polaks that waste their lives away drinking copious amounts of beer and vodka, talk shit about everybody because they themselves lead miserable lives and every other word that comes out of their mouth is "Kurwa.". Those Polaks I have NOTHING in common with and neither do I want to. Yes, when I get pissed off I do use profanities in Polish and other languages but I don't throw kurwa around when ordering coffee or engaging in regular conversations just because I have nothing better to say. It's just trashy and low class if you ask me and I was not raised like that. Yeah, I am a snob like that.....! And that I am thankful for, THANK YOU Mom! ❤
Growing up in Sweden there was a Catholic church in Stockholm that me and my Mom would go to (me reluctantly), I did the Confirmation and all as a kid. But my Mom, she is a pretty cool lady, decided to stop going to that church because she didn't like how some of the churchgoing Polaks acted. You know, dressed up in their finest clothing with every ring and necklace on display to show everybody else just how well of they now were in Sweden.
Polaks can be very noveau riche and extremely gaudy.....BLEH! Also LOTS of gossiping.
Too much. Especially for church. You do not need church to be religious or spiritual as we all know.......An yes, I do talk about other people too sometimes, I mean you have read my opinions about FUGLY and her sidekick The Bulldog. I talk about real stuff, things that are blatantly wrong AND also true. But I'm not going to sit around and tell random people about a friends STDs or other things she or he might not want the rest of the world to find out, or be glad when other people are going through a hard time in life. You know, trash talk others just so I can feel better about myself and my miserable existence that I try to forget by getting drunk five nights out of seven.
I am a Global Citizen anyways, Polish mixed with growing up in Sweden and I think I could probably fit in pretty much anywhere.

Back to KIYA. You know.....I have a pitbull......Chhaya but her name is pronounced KAYA.
When I moved to Anchorage I lived in a pretty bad part of town in a crummy one bedroom apartment, because it was the ONLY place that I could find that allowed pitbulls. I would do anything for my Chhaya and I hope that KIYA's first owner, some woman, feels really bad that she put her dog up on Craigslist now that she knows the outcome. There are too many pets out there that get abused and neglected. Again, spay and neuter you animals or DO NOT breed them and then put them up on Craigslist just so you can make some money. The same thing that happened to KIYA could happened to your beloved dogs puppies, how would THAT make you feel? STOP and THINK!
There needs to be tougher punishment for people that abuse animals, it is proven that a large number of the freaks that engage in this will also do harmful things to humans. Read up on zoosadism and see for yourself, the numbers are staggering.

Beautiful, sensitive and innocent. I am thinking about her. ❤



Read more about this case http://shine.yahoo.com/pets/man-arrested-animal-cruelty-puppy-doe-case-211100031.html
Read my old blog about this here

And yes, I am aware of that it is supposedly "derogatory" to call somebody of Polish decent a Polak (or Polack depending on how you spell it) but guess what.....I don't care. I'm Polish and yeah.....there are some lousy Polaks out there, no doubt about that. Just like there are some lousy excuses for humans of every other nationality out there also.
One more thing.....I write pitbull instead of the correct way, pit bull. I am aware of that also.

A while back I found a site called etsy.com, it's a wonderful market place where you can find unique handmade items. I was on the hunt for a body chain and I found a really pretty one made by a lady, Tatiana that lives in Florida. Her Etsy shop is called TatiRocks and I am thinking about getting three more items from her, a beautiful pair of long, dangle earrings (my favorite) with some turquoise beads, a super cute ring with a heart and another body chain.....because I love my first one so much. See my very pretty body chain on me here
I did notice that Tatiana has a necklace for sale that she calls Supernova necklace. I don't know if I can take any credit for the name of the necklace or not.....Tatiana knows that I got my body chain a few months ago, I did send her a link to my blog with a picture of me wearing the body chain.
Here is the Supernova necklace.....it is described as " A sexy and brilliant supernova star necklace set on a rose gold filled chain. The eye-catching star is made with genuine diamonds, set in oxidized sterling silver." Sexy, brilliant and eye-catching......sounds just like me!



Image borrowed from TatiRocks on www.etsy.com

What's on my mind today......animals. And how we treat them. Overall they are treated awful. We eat them, use them and abuse them.
Let's start with the fur industry. I have nothing made of real fur. Fake fur is just as nice and nobody (unless you are an expert) can tell the difference. To wear a coat made from the fur of some animal that was only brought up to be slaughtered for it's fur is just horrible. Or how about the coyotes that are trapped so their fur can be used for Canada Goose jackets?
After seeing these pictures, could you bring yourself to wear a Canada Goose jacket? The pain and suffering is written all over those poor animals. Don't you agree after looking at these pictures?



Canada Goose claim that they use real fur instead of fake fur because real fur is warmer and their product is intended for colder weather, like in North America where you would want to protect your face from frostbite. OK, I live in Alaska and I have never experienced frostbite even when walking Chhaya in - 20 and - 30 °F. I just bundle up and cover my face with a scarf, sure I have been cold, even very cold but it's not like I am climbing Mount Everest or anything. Even the guys that work up on the North Slope here in Alaska during the cold months don't wear fur jackets.
Canada Goose also claim that their use of fur is ethical and responsible. To me it looks like those animals are suffering A LOT. It's one thing to shoot an animal dead on the spot and a completely different story to trap it and let it suffer until it slowly dies in pain. If you had to pick a way to die, would you rather die quickly and somewhat painlessly or drag it out for days while trapped somewhere?



I do not want to be a hypocrite here. I do have stuff made of leather and I own a down jacket. But I am not going to buy another down jacket now that I know more about that industry.
I got my last down jacket in 2006. There is a product out there called PrimaLoft and it is a great alternative to down. I also have shoes and pants made of leather. That leather is a by product of the meat industry, so basically the animal was killed for it's meat and after that the leftover skin was made into a leather product. I wonder if there is a manufacturer out there that makes leather products of animals that die from natural causes? I need to look into that.
As far as eating animals, I have mainly not been eating animals since more than 12 years now. Yes, I do make exceptions now and then but I have went through periods of years without a bite of meat. I am not a vegan, I do eat milk products and eggs. It is proven that most of the slaughtered animals that end up at your table or when you get that KFC or burger in the drive through have been pumped full of hormones and antibiotics. That is poison that you eat too. Their lives are miserable and they go through enormous stress and are treated horrible. I can also tell you this.....when I first arrived to the US I went to McDonald's and ordered a Big Mac. It tasted so weird and off to me that I couldn't finish it, that was my last Big Mac. There was something with the meat, it tasted different in the US than it did in Sweden, it tasted BAD.
People that claim they need meat to survive don't know what they are talking about, they base their opinion on some facts they haven't even bothered to look up. I think that I look perfectly healthy and I also feel healthy and I can get plenty of protein from yoghurt, nuts and grains like quinoa. I can get my iron intake from vegetables and fruit, no need to get it from the blood of an animal.
Also, most vegetarians are indeed healthier than meat eaters. Just some examples, lower BMI, lower cholesterol, lower blood pressure and lower incidents of colon cancer. There you go!
There was a Greek philosopher and mathematician that lived in the 6th century BC, Pythagoras. A very intelligent man, he called himself a lover of wisdom and I think that is beautiful. He did contribute to a lot of important developments, read up on him and marvel at his intelligence! He was also a vegetarian. Actually before non meat eaters were called vegetarians they were called Pythagoreans. He believed that non violence towards animals was the first step towards the same amongst humans. Kind of makes sense, doesn't it?

Here are some quotes by Pythagoras that I found.

"When you place the flesh of slaughtered cattle in your mouths, know and feel, that you are devouring your fellow-creature."

"Alas, what wickedness to swallow flesh into our own flesh, to fatten our greedy bodies by cramming in other bodies, to have one living creature fed by the death of another! In the midst of such wealth as earth, the best of mothers, provides, nothing forsooth satisfies you, but to behave like the Cyclopes, inflicting sorry wounds with cruel teeth! You cannot appease the hungry cravings of your wicked, gluttonous stomachs except by destroying some other life."

"As long as man continues to be the ruthless destroyer of lower living beings he will never know health or peace. For as long as men massacre animals, they will kill each other. Indeed, he who sows the seed of murder and pain cannot reap joy and love."

"Animals share with us the privilege of having a soul."

"If men with fleshly mortals must be fed,
And chew with bleeding teeth the breathing bread;
What else is this but to devour our guests,
And barbarously renew Cyclopean feasts?
While Earth not only can your needs supply,
But, lavish of her store, provides for luxury;
A guiltless feast administers with ease,
And without blood is prodigal to please."

I wonder how a person that lived in the 6th century BC held so much wisdom and compassion in a time when people survived without the comforts and distractions that we are accustomed to and take for granted today, while so many of us today in "modern times" are so barbaric towards animals. Why is that?

I am getting sad and upset in my heart while writing this. I'm at Coffee Roaster and I don't want to cry. Let's leave this discussion with a fitting quote by Mahatma Gandhi.



I wrote a blog a while back that I called Meat Free Monday. I think that everybody can make an effort in eating less meat. Read that blog here
One of my very nice readers say that I have a sphere of influence. Maybe I do.....I hope that I have influenced at least SOMEBODY with this entry to stop and think and make a better and more compassionate choice from now on whether it's about not wearing fur or eating less meat or perhaps maybe becoming a vegetarian. The Golden Rule is to treat others the way you want to be treated, that includes animals, they are our friends! ❤

It felt frosty out tonight, the grass around the house was stiff and had a coat of silver frost on it. The dark sky was lit up by beautiful stars and I could see the Milky Way. I wish I could show you a picture but I don't have a camera good enough for those kinds of pictures. Here is Chhaya instead with stars in her eyes.



Chhaya had another meeting with her two doggy girlfriends today. It went well and she is snoring away by my feet right now. She also got a brushing and a toenail trim. And here she is showing off her new supplements, K-10 Glucosamine & Chondroitin, to support joint health. Besides doting on Chhaya I had a rather uneventful day. Pizza for dinner. Pistachios afterwards. I'm in bed now and feeling sleepy.

I got up early today (for me) and took my car in to get new tires. When I was driving through Kenai I was surprised to see so many people out and about at 7 15 am, then I remembered, those people have regular jobs. 7 15 used to be when I stumbled out of Crazy Horse Too in Vegas after a long night at work or going from one afterhour club to another or finishing up a rave. Dancing until the sun rises is amazing. That is what you are supposed to do at 7 something in the morning in my opinion. I think that it is way too early to start work or school at that ungodly hour, I think a good time for those kinds of activities should be 9 am at the earliest. And end at 5 pm at the latest. Work should not be taking up a large chunk of your time. There needs to be time for other things that are more important. Like living your life.
While my car was in the shop I went to Kaladi for a latte, I could possibly see myself working as a barista that early in the morning though, it seems like fun and I would love making coffee drinks for people and sending them off with a smile in the morning.



Later today I am going to do some self appointed community trash picking service. I know that will make me feel like I did something good today. And since it is kind of warm here still I might as well get it done before it freezes. Maybe another blog later......

I'm feeling a bit better today.....well I started feeling better this afternoon. I met up with a girl I know, Honey and we went and had coffee at Kaladi (they have the yummiest latte I think) and we talked and talked. That made me feel so much better, Thank You Honey! Then I got Chhaya a toy and took her for another walk and now I'm home. It is only 7 30 pm but it is pitch black outside. I'm in bed already.
So The Frozen Ground made me feel uneasy, that guy murdered so many girls......if you watch the whole movie, at the end they show real pictures of some of the women that disappeared from Anchorage and other surrounding cities, some were found (dead) and others were never found. It made my heart ache for them. I can't even imagine the terror they felt. I think about people sometimes that die like that, I hope they are in a good place with no pain and sorrow. I could not recognize any of the girls that got cast for this movie as the extra parts as dancers, they mainly showed half naked and naked bodies and only a few girls were close to the camera with their faces. But I did notice in the after credits that Kaladi provided the coffee for this movie production......a fun fact (for me at least.)
There was another incident in Anchorage almost two years ago now, a barista got kidnapped from a coffee shop off a busy street. Her name was Samantha and she was only 18, she got raped and murdered and found in a lake. They caught the killer, turns out he was a serial killer also, he ended up committing suicide in jail. What I want to add here is that the killer (Israel Keyes) admitted to torturing animals as a child. Therefore I think that people that torture animals should be thoroughly examined and the punishment for that should be more severe than it is. You never know if that person (most likely a man) is a future serial killer.
Then there was a case involving a dancer at the Bush Company a while back, Mechele. I wrote a blog about that. Looking now, at the over three year old blog I can see that I expressed myself somewhat insensitive (sorry). But I know what many women say about dancers, some of it might be true but much of it is not and I heard how they were talking about Mechele on TV, that fueled me to make some of the remarks I did.
She was basically convicted beforehand already by people that were convinced she was a bad person and manipulative only because she was a dancer. That is wrong in my opinion.
www.fargosisters.com/styx/archives/381-Mechele-Linehan.html
Anyhow, Mechele got accused and convicted of the murder of a guy she met at the club.
She did some time. There was a retrial and she is now free. I had a feeling she would be set free.

Speaking of something else......One night at the Holiday House some guys asked me who my dream man is, I quickly said "A priest!" They thought that was hilarious and so did I and we had a good laugh. And then I said that it actually is Vladimir Putin. Yes, I think the Russian macho bear wrestler is very SEKSI and I like his new laws about anti-terrorism, Putin doesn't mess around! I think that the US should take notes on these anti-terrorism laws as well, before all hell breaks loose over here. I am aware of Putin's backwards views on homosexuality and he probably has some backwards views on feminism and women that voice their opinions. But that is nothing that Tatiana can't change in him, I just need to charm him a bit (he will fall in love/lust), beat him in chess five consecutive times (he will see that I'm smarter than him) and hit him in the head with a hot frying pan (Polish temper style and he will be scared). After that he will be eating out of the palm of my hand. Women out there, take note of this and do the same to the man in your life!