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Sunday, May 11. 2014

Racist

Here is an example of what racist is....since I brought up the Donald Sterling brouhaha the other day. To me, Sterling is probably not a racist (if he is dating black women). Here is a good example of some statements with strong racist undertones. And this is referring to Barack Obama, "shape of a monkey" and "It would be better for him to live with other monkeys at a wild animal park in Africa ... and licking bread crumbs thrown by onlookers." This was released from North Korea, a place that I am extremely grateful that I wasn't born in. It must be sheer HORROR to live there. Where do I even start when it comes to discussing a place like that? I feel bad for the citizens of North Korea.
Some sexist remarks were also made about South Korea's president (Park Geun-hye), that happens to be a woman. It will be interesting to see what sexist remarks there will be when or if Hillary becomes the next president of the US.
Regarding Obama.....that is just wrong to say shit like that. To me he is a very handsome man with a beautiful smile. But I don't want to compliment him too much, I'm scared of Michelle!



I got woken up early this morning by an earthquake. The whole house shook for a while....I even thought about going outside for a second. But then it stopped. I guess it was a 5.8 and it lasted for a long time (earthquake wise). Kind of scary. I fell back asleep and got up around noon, another beautiful day, felt very happy. I tanned outside.....slowly working on getting a tan on my pale body. Got a latte. Went to the gym. Here is a rather useless fact.....it takes 30 minutes to walk (briskly) 2 miles on the treadmill. Now you know......



Got home. Ate. What did I eat so far today, besides the latte? Three sandwiches with butter and oregano, heated in the oven. Lentil soup.....mmmmmm I love lentil soup. Marinated artichokes. Later I will have some almond macaroons and tea.

Saturday, May 10. 2014

Angry Barbie

So my nickname at work is Angry Barbie. Barbie because that is what I hear on a regular basis.....as early as last night a Mexican man with a heavy accent told me that he thought I looked like Barbie. It's nothing that I go around thinking about myself...."OMG I look just like Barbie!" No, I can think of a list of things that I don't have in common with Barbie. I have brown eyes, Barbie has blue. Barbie's thighs are thinner, her boobs are bigger, her waist is impossibly narrow, I would need to remove some ribs and do corset training to get her waist. Her hair is very blonde and her teeth are bright white. Mine are not - LOL. What else......? I get ingrown hairs and the occasional zit on my butt....I'm not sure if Barbie gets that, does she? Barbie is plastic and you can say what you want to her and do what you want with her. I am 100% real and you can't do what you like with me or say what you want and get away with it.
I will talk back and beat you if you step out of line. That's why I am Angry Barbie, because I talk back.....A LOT! I like Angry Barbie....it's cute! And no....I didn't give myself the Barbie nickname.....Cricket did after overhearing some people talk about that they thought I looked like Barbie. We decided to add the angry because it's more me.
The first time I heard the Barbie reference was when I went into some store at a mall in CA, a girl working there came up to me and said that she and her co workers thought I looked like Barbie. I was like......HUH? Another time at work some people decided I was Barbie and begged me to play Barbie Girl by Aqua for my song on stage, that was kind of fun. That's just a few examples I can think of.....
So guess what, I found the PERFECT cd for myself yesterday. Barbie - My Fab Playlist World Tour Party Mix! Now I can swing around the pole to Selena Gomez, Justin Bieber and One Direction all night long.

My Barbie CD!




And my Barbie body! :-D




Friday, May 9. 2014

That's Done



I finally went to the post office yesterday....one more thing scratched off the to do list for this time....now that's done. Next!
I do have to say that my visits to the post office usually get rather expensive, it's the stuff that I send overseas. I had two packages to Sweden this time, one for my Mom and the other for my friend Rose-Marie.....it was $ 105 for those packages, that is insane! I can get a two hour facial for that price! I can be quite frugal at times, like I pay attention in the grocery store....if they ring me up for a higher price, even a dollar or less higher than the marked price, I will question that and make sure I don't get overcharged. If for some reason I do have a coupon for an item, like juice or whatever - I will use the coupon and feel a sense of accomplishment. I can just imagine the feeling the real coupon clippers have after they walk out of a store with one or two shopping carts full of stuff and it was all free or really cheap because they used coupons. I think that is great. One coupon master queen that comes to mind in Mama June, she know her shit! I am impressed by her couponing skills and have you seen the room in her house that is full of laundry detergent, paper towels, all kinds of cans and stuff - all from couponing! WOW! I would like to hang out with her for a few days so she could teach me her craft. Maybe we could do a craft switch, Mama June can teach me extreme couponing and how to talk country and I can teach her how to give a bad ass lap dance so she can entertain Sugar Bear at home, I can just imagine that.....Lynyrd Skynyrd blasting and a bonfire going. Me and Mama June gyrating our hips in sync.......YEEEEEHAAAAW!



Wednesday, May 7. 2014

Made Order

I had every intention of going to work yesterday but when I was driving home from the gym I felt sick. I don't know what happened but I ended up with a headache yesterday and was close to throwing up. So no work for me. Instead I got all my packages done, wrapped, labeled etc. Then I started going through long overdue paperwork and after that I went through all my books, decided to put a few aside for donation. I basically made order, it probably took six hours because I am meticulous and everything has it's place. Some things I got nostalgic over, like finding old memories like movie tickets and personal notes and stuff, so I got a bit teary eyed too. Chhaya kept me company.
I found some books that I will reread, that made me happy. Now I can occupy myself with that for a while.....here are the books.



And I found this pretty journal bound in pink suede that I totally forgot that I had. It's perfect timing because I have another journal that is full, cover to cover. I don't write anything in the journal.....I have the blog - ha ha.....this is my journal although it's public. What I do is rip things out of magazines that appeal to me, it can be an article, a pic, a quote, a word and then I add that to the journal. Kind of like a scrapbook full of inspiration. The old journal is full, I've had it for a long time. I went for years without adding anything to it. And the new one will fill up as time goes by. I will show you some examples of what I have in my journals soon.
I also found this, that is me.



The painting is called "In a strange land" and it's made by Edwin Muller, a friend of mine. He is an artist and a photographer. I had it put away but I will find a frame for it. Most of my stuff is put away. I have statues, crystals, pretty rocks and six (I think) Olivia giclees that I need to frame and hang up. But I'm still in limbo. So I am waiting. One day!

Tuesday, May 6. 2014

Hi Rain

It's been pouring down for a few hours now - hi rain! What should I occupy myself with this afternoon? Maybe a visit to the gym, although I'm feeling way too lazy for that. I need to drink a lot of water, I feel dehydrated with a small headache lingering in the back of my head that I know means my body needs water. What I should do today is sit down and organize and finish a bunch of packages and stuff I am planning on sending out to friends....I have been procrastinating with that for a while. That is a good thing to do on a rainy day, I am going to tune in the radio to some music and get that done so I can finally go to the post office this week. I even have some rocks I picked up at the beach the other day for a chameleon named Steven that lives in Michigan. He is waiting for his rocks so I need to get my ass in gear and send this off. Also, stuff for my Mom for Mother's Day, we celebrate Mother's Day the last Sunday in May in Sweden. What else, maybe I should work tonight? Right now I don't want to work ever in my life again. That's the mood I'm in. But that doesn't mean that I will be in the same mood tomorrow.
Oh look, I found a selfie from the other day, I was laying outside in the sun......being lazy as usual. I wonder if that is a job I can do and get paid for? Being lazy, just drinking lattes and writing an occasional blog. Well, time to do something productive with this rainy day......






Monday, May 5. 2014

Gossip

If you are an easily offended person.....don't read this post. ;-)
I used to get all the latest gossip magazines on a regular but I kind of don't anymore.....I still read a lot of different magazines though. I just had to get these magazines recently and do I have some opinions......oh yes. Where do I start? Let's start with the good and positive.....Kate Moss on the cover of Harper's Bazaar. I absolutely LOVE Kate, she is my FAVE model.
And after two decades in the modeling business, she is still on top. To me, she is very very beautiful, it's her face - I LOVE her face. The only thing that I don't like about Kate's recent appearance in Harper's Bazaar is that Terry Richardson took the pics, he seems to be a perv with some issues that might be looked at as pedophilia. But then again, when Kate started her modeling career there were several pics of her in magazines that raised some questions regarding the same issue. That's modeling for you. The sexualization of young girls is rampant.



So then.....Tori Spelling and her embarrassing tell all about her disgusting husband cheating on her. What is she doing? Is she that money hungry that a camera crew needs to be with them on their couples "therapy" sessions, providing the whole world the information that they maybe have sex every two weeks and according to Dean (her Neanderthal idiot for a husband) the sex isn't that good? WTF is wrong with you Tori? I understand that her show (that I don't watch) is her bread and butter, that is how she pays her rent, bills, pays off Dean to stick around and provides him with spending money and feeds their four kids (two kids too many, she should had stopped at two.) But there should be some limits to what people do for money, the same with those Housewives shows, that is how those women make a paycheck and they are so embarrassing......and people talk bad about strippers. LOL, I'd much rather be my OWN freakin' boss than humiliate myself like that on national TV. Yes, I have been around some less than exciting and proper situations and people at work but I can remove myself from that, those people don't share my everyday life with me and most importantly they don't share my bed. Dean (Tori's husband) is such an unattractive cretin. People like to point out Tori's awful looking face, yes she does look like a horse with a too thick layer of make up on, more make up than the drag queens on Ru Paul's Drag Race. She would be so much cuter more natural I think. But look at Dean! No money in the world would persuade me to spread my legs for that thing......YUCK. No wonder Tori doesn't want to have sex with him! Plus WTF does he expect, four kids and she is supposed to serve and please him sexually while he is doing nothing and cheating on top of that? Fuck that.
When men pull shit like that, women should be able to cut their dick off or beat them senseless with no repercussions. Yes, stupid guys need and deserve a good beating every so often, it's the only thing that will get the message through to them. No wonder Candy Spelling cut Tori off. When Tori came home dragging that mooch Dean with her, Candy froze the funds. Good. I would too. Dean needs to get a job and Tori needs to get rid of him.
Soulmate my ass, if Dean was Tori's soulmate like she thinks, wrapped up in her own delusional thoughts (it's called "love"), he would not had treated her like garbage. And think about those four kids that are being dragged through their parents dirty business. Awful.

Then we have the Vogue issue with Kim and Kanye on the cover. I am no fan. I never understood Kanye's "talent". He never smiles, dresses very lame for the self proclaimed fashion guru that he is. Unattractive, claims to be some sort of a misunderstood genius, seems to have a constant bad attitude. Whatever. He makes music too? Nothing that I listen to but we all have different taste in fashion, music and beauty.
Kim.....only in America. Really. That whole Kartrashian family is embarrassing, the only one that was educated was the late Robert Kardashian. Kim had sex on camera with Ray J and sold the tape. She is famous for that and her humongous ass, which I don't find attractive at all, it looks like a growth that is attached to her body. She can say what she wants, I suspect (no, I don't know for sure.....obviously) that she is getting ass injections, it's not that uncommon. There are girls openly talking about their ass injections......they are called "shot girls". I don't see the appeal. I am myself a big fan of a NICE butt, NICE is the key word, not some oversize infected looking swollen lump. YUCK. I do not get why girls would pay to get butt implants or butt injections.....stop it already! Do squats or something instead. So in the issue of Vogue with Kimye on the cover, you can admire several photographs of them looking sullen, probably Kanye's idea of artistic expression. Strolling through Paris (I'm sure the French are très impressed), having a sexy time moment draped over Kanye's Lambo. Oh la la! In the interview they talk about draping their offspring in Kanye's thick gold chains, accesorized with a little Louis bag and some Jordans. Très chic! Kim's ring is a 15-carat diamond that she stares at all day. How romantic!
Does anybody remember her wedding to Kris Humphries, I mean it was as recent as a few years ago, covered and paid for by People magazine and that ring.....20.5-carat? She was in love too then, only to file for divorce shortly after. That was her second marriage btw. Nowhere in that Vogue interview do they talk about anything of real substance, on the other hand there is mention of the obsession with the perfect t-shirt neckline, their take on fashion and bla bla bla and that they like to yap on their cellphones about anything and everything for six or eight hours a day sometimes. In between changing diapers and taking care of the baby I'm guessing? What else can you expect from two morons that according to themselves are the first in breaking new frontiers in this world? You know......such new frontiers as t-shirts and dressing up their baby in dumb shit, oh and giving interracial dating a face. Yeah.....seriously now? Not thinking about too much else besides themselves, it is very evident in this interview. It's laughable and barf inducing. NO WONDER.....these two morons are voted the most hated couple of all in the "celebrity" world. When you have the opportunity to do a fashion spread in Vogue coupled with a lengthy interview you can take advantage of that platform and talk about something of IMPORTANCE I would think. Seriously, if Anna Wintour would give me a shot I could pose for some way more beautiful and glamorous pics than they managed to get from Kimye plus cover some serious topics. People that are impressed by Kimye and the Kartrashians have issues. I decided.

Now to George Clooney and his recent engagement to Amal Alamuddin. Finally the old George is settling down after a long dating spree. I personally do not think that George is anything to brag about, he is like a used up mattress, kind of gross actually, he has been around a bit too much for my taste. I think Amal is way too sophisticated and educated for George and she should dump him. She might realize her superiority soon and do just that.
I suspect that George is feeling his age and decided to settle down so he won't have to pay attractive women to keep him company as he ages. Amal is an educated woman with some interesting and eyebrow raising choices in defendants. She is involved in human rights, which I like and admire, finally Angelina Jolie will be able to discuss some serious topics with one of George's girlfriends. Although Angelina might not be siding with Amal on everything, I am referring to Amal's recent client list now.

And finally the Donald Sterling debacle. I don't know what racial remarks he did in the past.
Is he a racist? I don't know. People say things they don't really mean all the time, it doesn't matter who you are and what race you consider yourself belonging to. That girlfriend sure don't appear white, so Donald don't seem that racist to me, the girlfriend that he spent time with for years should be proof enough. See this is what old George wants to avoid, paying young hot things for company when he gets to be a certain age. It looks rather pathetic and obvious, if Donald Sterling did anything funny it was to associate himself with a girl that definitely took him for a ride. I think it is very strange that you can't say whatever the fuck you want, in the privacy of your own home, even if it involves something negative about somebody that is of a different race than you are. Well hold on.....you might be held accountable for a perceived negative statement about another race if you happen to be white talking about any other race, ESPECIALLY if you DARE say something negative or funny about blacks or African Americans or whatever word you have to use to be politically correct.
And especially if you are a public figure making any such remarks. Or there will be loud protest and plans for demonstrations and riots.
But black people can say whatever they want and that is totally OK, just look at the joke Al Sharpton. He should hide somewhere or retire already, that is not a good representation of black people. He seems racist to me. There has been some stories about Michelle Obama and her feelings towards white people due to some thesis she wrote while in college. Does that mean that Michelle Obama is racist? What if she is? She might be bitter behind closed doors and have some strong opinions about people from different races? Should she step down from her position as first lady and pay a fine too? Has she ever said something negative or funny about a non black person? What do you think? I'd say, most likely. That does not make her a racist. At least not in my book.
Should I be mad at the Germans and Russians for what they did to Poland since I was born there? Cry and feel offended because there are Polish jokes? Like I give a shit! Should people from India forever hate the British? Should the Japanese always hate the Americans?
How about people in African countries, should they hate their neighbors because of the constant war and genocide going on all over the continent? Look at the recent kidnapping of hundreds of girls in Nigeria by Boko Haram. That is scary and newsworthy if anything.
I respect everybody pretty much - unless they are no good, low lives, mooching pieces of shits and those come in every color and gender. But the obvious double standards on the black and white race issue in this country are baffling. No, I don't owe any black person in the US anything, I have no part of old US history and even if I did, it is HISTORY, the past .....time to move forward and evolve with the times people, otherwise there will never be any change for the better. The history should not be forgotten, because it happened but to dwell on it and use it as an excuse for hate or being overly sensitive (when not justified) bringing up the race issue every time, that is wrong and it's time to stop that.
Were Donald Sterling's rights to privacy violated? I don't know but I can quote some random person that wrote this online, "This is America, I am allowed to tell my girlfriend that I don’t want her to appear with certain races on instagram or be in public with certain races. It may be distasteful in your eyes but its my preference and right! How would you feel if at your job tomorrow they set up hidden microphones to record every employee to make sure they did not have any racists or bad people at work?"

Anyways......my thoughts for today. I have to eat now....I'm starving and Chhaya needs a walk.