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.....in the tabloids right now are Lindsey Lohan and Samantha Ronson! Sam just took Lindsey on a shopping spree and gave her a Cartier Love bracelet.....awwwwww.....
I would take Sam in a heartbeat too! She is cute and she is a dj, what could be better? Lindsey is a lucky girl!
Actually I had a run in with Sam's brother Mark Ronson a few years back. That was when me and Julia would prowl around Crazy Horse Too as The Fargosisters. I think it was rather late and kind of empty in the club. Me and Julia were praying to the Baby Jesus that luck would change and we would run in to somebody that would donate some money to us in exchange for some prime Fargosisters grinding and funbag slapping.
Well indeed...there was Mark sitting by himself. He wanted to go in to the VIP. We had the best time with him and on top of being nice he is really, really cute! Me and Julia both wanted to marry him right then and there and though he probably wanted that too he was being very faithful and respectful to his girlfriend that was back in New York. I wonder if he is still with her? If not, I need!
Mark said he would always remember the time he spent with us because most of all it was FUN! As most experiences with The Fargosisters.
Me and Julia saved Marks plastic water bottle and empty pack of cigarettes as a memory of him.........

Mariah Carey says that she is eternally 12 and I have to say that I totally identify with that statement...... It really is about how young you feel. I still love pink, Hello Kitty, raves, mermaids and faeries and I don't see that changing anytime soon.
When I get myself involved with adult "responsibility" issues I usually regret it. Being all grown up and serious is just not me.
So in case you wonder I am between 12 and 20.

I was outside about one hour ago and sprawled across the sky was a big beautiful, colorful rainbow with another smaller one beside it. Breathtaking! Maybe it meant something special? I think it did. It had a positive message for me. I am feeling happy now though I felt a little sad throughout the day today.
My plans for next week are work a lot, have fun with Chhaya and go to the gym.

For those that have not noticed......Julia does not write on this blog anymore, she hasn't for a while. So all blogs are written by Tatiana unless it specifies something different.....

Ciao for now!

So exactly one week ago now I was dancing somewhere at the Coliseum in Los Angeles to some great HOUSE music. And now I am back in Anchorage....
I have rave depression.......meaning I want to be back in Rave Land - badly. 😥
EDC 2008 was fantastic, so many people were there, watch it on YouTube if you are curious.
And I put together a great outfit. About a month ago I tore out a page of some fashion mag that showed a really cute white top with a smiley face on it (Acid House style) from Miss Sixty, one of my fave stores. So when I arrived in LA I went to Miss Sixty and found that top, lucky!!! I paired it up with my Diesel jeans and a yellow, studded, thin belt I found at Stash in Vegas and some appropriate Hello Kitty decorations.
If I was in Vegas I would go to at least two more raves this summer. But since I am in Anchorage my next one will be Monster Massive, I will probably be back in Vegas by then....maybe.....
Rave depression is factual, I feel so sad that it is OVER, it should last at least two days - so people have enough.
I really want to go to Lighting In A Bottle and Burning Man too next year. And all my regular raves of course........ 🙂

I made a friend at work, her name is Kennedy and she is very nice. Today we went and saw Sex And The City.
A while back, years ago, I had a little ritual for a while. Get the Sex episodes on dvd, sit at home with yummy food, curl up on a couch and marathon watch.
I liked the movie. It made me want to go back to New York City, and stay there for a while. Twice before I went to NY for work and it was great, just being there made me feel alive. That energy people mention when they talk about NY, it is real.
As far as the movie. I totally agree with the whole wedding hoopla scenario. I have never harbored a dream of that perfect day, with that perfect white dress, and that sparkling diamond ring. I don't think a wedding is necessary to have a committed relationship with somebody. I mean, how many guys do I meet at work with ring on their finger that would cheat on the drop of a hat. A few too many...... But maybe they have an open marriage? I don't know.
I'd rather go on a trip around the world with my guy, explore other countries and make beautiful memories. A diamond ring is just a waste of money and no real indication of true love. Women have been brain washed since a young age to buy into all of this, because it's all about spending, spending, spending.
Having somebody, a partner in life's ups and downs is a beautiful thing. But it is just as important to be happy and fulfilled alone. Alone is not negative. Great friends enrich life. All kinds of things do, like a dog (Chhaya). Finding that special someone is a bonus.

After waking up I decided I needed to go and be in nature today and breathe some fresh air. So me and Chhaya hiked up to flattop today, a mountain on the outskirts of Anchorage. The view was spectacular and it was a pretty intense hike that took my breath away a few times. Might do it again next week. I need to be outside, away from the city every so often so I can keep my sanity. There can only be so much of Bush Company noise I can take weekly.
That noise needs to be balanced out with peace and quiet and nature.
There are studies made that suggest (very accurately I, myself believe) that the growing disconnection between humans and nature is an increasingly serious social problem.
And from time to time I need my housemusic, otherwise I go totally crazy, dancing is my therapy.......
~T~