Welcome to Chaos !!

It was this past Tuesday and around midnight at work. Tatiana was trotting around looking extra tasty, looking for prey when a blonde girl walks up to her, asking for a dance. Tatiana sits down for a little chat and this very pretty, blonde, lithe girl precedes to tell Tatiana that she saw her 4 months ago, on stage. And that she remembered Tatiana because she had played TECHNO and wore a KANDI bracelet! That was SO cute of her to say and Tatiana was very flattered........The cuties name was Amber, and she was a raver too! She was planning on going to Freakfest in Seattle for Halloween whereas Tatiana is planning for Monster Massive, of course! And yes, Tatiana danced for Amber and it was great.....
Tatiana has the best costume planned for this year but she won't disclose it yet but there will be pics up eventually for all of you to admire......

YOU NEED TATIANA!!!!!!!

Tatiana planned on going to work at The Great Alaskan Bush Company tonight because she knows that there must be so many men that are really missing her by now.
But Tatiana is having a "feeling fat and somewhat ugly" day and that means she needs to go jogging tomorrow and to the gym on Saturday and then she will be fit and perfect again.
So she spent the day reading, cleaning, took a long walk with Chhaya and thinking about Jennifer Aniston.
Everybody feels so sorry for her because she got dumped by that wuss Brad and now recently by the creepy John Mayer. She is "of a certain age" and wants a husband and children. O wey, people feel for this woman!
WTF! If Tatiana had Jennifer's MILLIONS, this woman is RICH, she would be so happy and content with life, the last thing on her mind would be to try to find some guy to drag to the altar.
If Tatiana really wanted a kid or a few of them she would adopt. Why go through the pain and VAGINE tearing to squeeze a baby out when you can adopt a child in need of care? It should be Jennifer's duty to share those millions with people in need, instead she is worrying about yoga sessions and why she can't find a guy.
WHO CARES about that bs when you can get a backpack and travel the whole world and see and learn things and help other people? Or open up an animal sanctuary?
DO SOMETHING GOOD?
Tatiana does not feel a bit sorry for Jennifer, she thinks this chick has everything and she is using it to do absolutely nothing of worth, that's probably why that wuss Brad left her. He felt he had a duty to do besides sit and rot in Malibu.
If you have some money, thousands, millions whatever and you need to dump some, go dump it on Tatiana. She can assure you this will be a good investment on you part. This money will not only make her happy, it will do good for others that are hungry, cold, sad etc.
Share the wealth!

If you were at The Bush this past week, searching for Tatiana, you probably got disappointed because she wasn't there........Don't worry, she will be back, soon!
Tatiana went on a road trip. And now she is back. It is never fun to be back to reality from road trips but that's life for now.
It was a great and fun trip! Tatiana spent one evening at the Alaska State Fair in Palmer before heading for Chena and Manley hot springs. The hot springs were really nice.
She also thought about going to Circle hot springs but is saving that for another time.
She also visited Talkeetna, Nenana and some other places on the road and spent a few days in Fairbanks where it was sunny and warm!
Alaska is beautiful. Tatiana hasn't seen enough of it yet.
But now it's time to entertain all her current and future fans at The Bush for a while........

OH NO! Ellen DeGeneres got married to Portia! Tatiana is going to griev and wear black for a whole week! Ellen was supposed to be with Tatiana, HELLOOOOO!!!
Tatiana loooooves Ellen, she is funny (just like Tatiana), she wants to live on a farm someday and take care of every animal that needs taking care of (just like Tatiana), she likes to dance (just like Tatiana). So many things in common!
Tatiana thinks her and Ellen would make a great couple! Now she needs to come up with a plan so Ellen dumps Portia. Though Portia was Tatiana's favorite on Ally McBeal......
Next time Tatiana goes to Los Angeles she needs to make sure she runs in to Ellen and then Ellen will fall in love with and marry Tatiana.
On a serious note though......Tatiana is happy for Ellen and Portia. They are cute.
But Tatiana and Ellen would be better together, Ellen just doesn't know it, yet.......

Stayed in and watched a movie tonight, a movie that inspired me to come up with a blog. I really like foreign movies, yes they are subtitled, even better. So this one is called Russian Dolls and is a sequel to L'Auberge Espagnole . It's about a guy and his search for and encounters with women. So at the end he sits down and reflects over these encounters and he writes (this could also be a woman writing because it is fitting for both women and men). "If I think about all the girls I've known, slept with or just desired, they are like a bunch of Russian Dolls,. We spend our lives playing the game, dying to know who'll be the last, the teeny-tine one hidden inside all the others.
You can't get to her right away. You have to open them one by one, wondering, "Is she the last?"
It's kind of like that, isn't it? This love thing. Looking for it, having it, think you are having it, crying over it, obsessing over it, loosing it. Some people find their mate early on, get married........and are happy? Truthfully happy or keeping up a facade? Of course there are plenty of happy married people. But.....
I had a long conversation with a man last week that had been married for 20 years, whereas 12 of the last have been sex-less. He wished it could be different. Never cheated, didn't dare to. Can't divorce her because she will end up with half or more of all that he has worked for. I suggested that he would have an honest talk with the wife where he would explain how he feels and tell her that he will find other sex partners but still be married to her, he told me she would never understand. It was sad. I am sure she has her own version of the story but is just seemed sad.
Is this life? Love? I am sure it can happen to the happiest of couples. My latest book is
I don't: A contrarian history of marriage by Susan Squire. Goes into detail about the history of women and marriage. Oh dear.........Not a pretty story, the history of marriage is not like a Hollywood romance.
I am for relationships but I don't think that marriage is my cup of tea. But life is, oh so unpredictable, I might one day reflect back at this blog a married woman. Hopefully, truthfully happy with my choice.
I am about to watch another movie now, an Indian movie and eat some chocolate.
If you are planning on proposing to Tatiana, remember, she does NOT want a diamond ring!