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I don't know why people fuss over moms breastfeeding their babies while out in public? That does not offend me whatsoever. Most likely, your mom did that to you when you were a baby and hungry. How is that offensive? It is completely natural. People here get offended so easy, over nothing.
I am going to start getting offended when people walk past my table with their huge asses in my face while I am dining out. Now that's offensive! Turn your ass away from my plate please!
If the baby is hungry, it needs to eat. DUH! The process is always done discreetly, I don't think that the breastfeeding moms are trying to put on a show and be sexy. Well, if somebody would dare telling me anything, let's say if I was the mom, I sure would let them know what I would find offensive about them. And I can be pretty mean when I want to......

And what is up with not wanting to breastfeed your baby? Sure, if for some reason you can't produce milk. But hello, that milk is there for a reason - the baby. I would never solely give my baby, if I had one, some formula. Maybe after a while as a supplement but my baby would get breast milk first. Wasn't there a formula recall a while ago? I think I heard something about that.
Believe it or not, those fatty lumps that get so much attention, boobs, are there for babies. Weird, I know.
Do some women not breastfeed because they don't want the mom boobs? Or because they actually think that store bought formula would be better for the baby somehow? I am not sure.

But I do know that the day I would, not that I think that I would want to.....but IF I would have a baby, I sure hope that my dancing days would be over. At least for a while, hopefully for forever maybe? I would be a huge pregnant woman, I can guarantee that. HUGE! And my boobs would be used for feeding my baby. Mom boobs. After that I wouldn't want to display them in a strip club anymore (only if they still looked good, I am vain).
Unless circumstaces would absolutely force me to do so.
I have worked with pregnant girls and girls that just popped a kid out.
You can tell when a girl is pregnant, well a while into the preganacy you can. (Some are not pregnant but look like they are.) Most clubs will let you work until you start showing. You can hide the bumb by wearing a flowy baby doll style dress in darker colors. Or a corset. I once saw a girl wear a skin tight shiny dress that really put her obvious baby bump on display. It looked very strange, in a freaky way. I also heard of clubs that had girls work basically until their due dates. Weird. Not MY cup of tea.
As far as the girls that come back to work shortly after giving birth.....wow. Those I really feel bad for. They would pump milk in the dressing room in between stage sets and dances. Milk would leak through their outfits. Maybe the daddy wasn't in the picture? Or maybe they were together with a guy that depends on the woman to keep them up on the rent and the bills? Because I can't imagine that a woman feels that great about coming to work (in a strip club) with swollen leaky boobs, a floppy belly and a little infant left at home. She can't be that bored with staying home.....yet. Is she missing the loud music, the random interactions, the dancing, the shoes, her coworkers - or does she need the cash?
My friend Rich told me about this one time when he went to a club somewhere in New York. A mature woman went on stage, her name was EL Dreama, pulled her bra off and started squeezing her boobs, milk squirting in every direction. Nice show!
YUM.

Took a nice walk this evening with Chhaya. The snow is melting, you can see the ground in some spots now. Yes! Can't wait for all the snow to be gone already. Staying in tonight......

There are a few things guys say at work that really irks me. No, not saying no to dances. That's fine. You are allowed to do that - still.
I might not be your type and I am totally ok with that. Or you might not be "ready" - though you should, always - lol. Or you might not have any $ left. There are all kinds of reasons. But I do think that everybody, upon entering a strip club (unless you are a frequent regular) should have to buy one ticket/voucher that would go towards a dance. If you do not find any girls in there to be attractive then you can use the voucher next time you come in, give it away to your buddy or just give it away to one of the dancers. It should not be ok for people to come in, hug one lukewarm beer all night and just sit there and take up room. You can't walk into a restaurant and not order something to eat. Or a coffeshop and use the free wifi without ordering something to drink. Same should apply in a strip club.
The club where I saw the most of this phenomenon was at The Bush Company in Anchorage. I actually heard one of the managers tell all of us girls at an employee meeting that she did not care whether the men coming through the door tipped us on stage, even while sitting at the stage (!) or bought dances, all that mattered to her was that they bought at least one beer or drink. Yeah.......talk about catering to the girls! Sure, charge us to work there, collect YOUR tip and don't care if the girls make money or not. If it wasn't for the girls willing to get naked in there every night, that place wouldn't exist. There are plenty of bars in town.
Needless to say, that was my last employee meeting there. I think that the club used to be great but the last year or so I was there the quality of the people coming in and the quality of the girls that got hired started declining alarmingly. Maybe the place has gotten better but I've heard that it's still pretty bad nowadays.......but don't take my word for it......
But back to what I really wanted to say......I can't stand when guys come up to me while I am sitting by myself and blurt out "SMILE!", "why don't you smile, what's wrong?", or "why are you sitting here by yourself, are you not having a good time?".
First of all, who the heck sits around with a permanent smile plastered on their face? I don't. Actually I do not know anyone that does. Just because I work in a strip club doesn't mean that I always have to sport a dumb smile. I smile when I WANT to, thank you! Do you go into a bank/coffe shop/store and ask/demand to know why the person helping you is not smiling? No, you don't. So spare me that treatment.
Also, the sitting by myself. I do not mind talking to people at work. I've had countless of great/interesting/funny conversations without expecting or getting any money, neither do I want to. But if I see an individual or a group of people that seem annoying, inebriated or if I am not in the mood to talk at the moment, then I will sit by myself and enjoy the quiet time. There is nothing wrong, I like my own company. I just don't want to talk to you and neither do I have to. If somebody in the club has nothing to offer me besides some highly irritating drunk talk that makes no sense, then why should I even bother? You want to talk? Talk to your friends. I am busy. With myself.

I can have a bad day but when I watch Ellen I ALWAYS smile. Not that I am having a bad day or anything, I am watching Ellen right now while drinking a latte - so I am having a good day so far actually.
When I woke up today I felt frozen, so I took a hot bath with some salt mixed into the water.
Ellen is amazing. Really. Lucky, lucky Portia! Today Ellen is wearing brown pants paired with a matching brown shirt and jacket and some white tennis shoes. She danced with the audience, as always, to "I've Got The Power" by SNAP. I looooove that song. Yeah, I've had a crush on Ellen for years, I think she is beautiful as a person and pretty cute too. I love you Ellen!

Well, it is almost 3 AM and I am finally getting tired. Been up reading other people's blogs, fascinating. To sum up what I did this Sunday (technically yesterday)........I ate, lots and lots. I am the food monster, really. Looking forward to curl up and go to sleep. I love sleeping, it's pure pleasure.
Good Night!

We have a very comfy couch at work, my fave piece of furniture in there. If I am ever bored or want to rest, I curl up on the couch wrapped in my soft blanket, read, observe or take a nap. Every strip club should accommodate the dancers like this! Last night I was lightly napping while we were slow. I heard two loud, already drunk guys come in, so loud that I woke up from my nap. Which was fine but then they started cracking jokes and the jokes turned into insults. After a while they had insulted almost everybody in the place. I got up from the couch and sat down on a bar stool, they stared at me and said something about my hair. Then one of them loudly asked if I was a man. HA! Ok......let's see.....you said something nasty about everybody, then you think you can get away with calling ME a man? You woke me up and I have PMS.......!
I don't care if people think I am pretty or ugly. Too tall or too this or that. But a man? Everything on me is totally natural (except the lashes), I am probably as far from resembling a man as you can possible get. I have worked with trannies in strip clubs before, they don't look anything like me. My curves are real baby. I know that the twerp who blurted this out was trying to be funny. But.......
I took off my shoes and walked up behind them and told them that they were going to get a fucking beatdown from me, and asked "which one of you two motherfuckers wants to go first"? Cause I am not going to tolerate some dumbasses berating my friends or me for their own amusement.
I even smacked one of them in the back, called him a dumb twerp and said "what are you waiting for"? They actually looked scared for a while, their eyes all big and mouths agape, didn't have anything smart to say anymore. Here is this stripper acting all CRAZY! Well, they got kicked out and I got a round of applause. Don't know what got into me.....lol.....it's the Polish temper mixed with PMS, watch out!

Stretching out my gams.

On the couch in my blanket.