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Tatiana has a hot tip for all the bird enthusiasts out there. The best bird viewing in Alaska is at the dump in Soldotna. There are thousands of birds hanging out there, lots of eagles too - though none in this pic. Tatiana has never seen so many birds gathered in one place before. Chhaya loves that place, from inside of the car of course. Why does Tatiana go to the dump? She recycles. Do you?

Woke up to sunshine. Finally. Besides that I am too tired and too unmotivated to have anything else to say here. About to jump in the shower, brush my teeth, put in my contacts and go and get my breakfast - my latte. After that I am going outside to soak up the sun, like a lizard.

It is so cold and gloomy out - I am ready for sunshine and warm weather. I am so beyond over the cold.
It doesn't feel overly inspiring to spend time outside, whether it's with Chhaya or going for a jog when it's cold outside.
Friday night at worked SUCKED. I do not usually complain about that because most of the time I do not care too much. But we have two new hires at the club that I hope do not stick around for too long. Why? Because they both look like some washed up druggies that got all their tattoos made in prison. One of them would probably not get hired in too many clubs. And that is the reality. I am not the owner or the manager but I believe that the girls kind of represent the club and therefore there should be a certain standard held. Nobody is perfect - me included - though you shouldn't be scared or repulsed when you look at the "talent" in a strip club. Quality over quantity. Definitely.
Also, I do not sit with people just so they buy me a $ 10 drink. Some girls might, like the ones that just got hired or the ones working on getting wasted. I understand that the club makes $ 10 from every glass of ice mixed with soda water and cranberry juice that I drink. But I do not make anything from that. So from now on, I am not going to suffer through painfully boring conversations and having cigarette smoke blown in my face and all over my $ 100 bra just so the club can make $ 10.
I am not putting myself through that. What did I get? NOTHING. Besides acute second hand smoke poisoning. Smoking at clubs and bars should be banned, not everybody wants to be exposed to that poison, put in smoking areas and let the non smokers breathe clean air.
I do not mind sitting and talking to people for free, I do that a lot - because I want to. But when I am being told what to do and get NOTHING in return, no thanks - no more. Other girls might be ok with that. I am not. I'd rather sit by myself.
Therefore I stayed home last night, I was not in the mood to work. Friday night was such a disaster that it totally made me unmotivated to go in there yesterday.
Instead I took a nice, long bubble bath and relaxed. In my beautiful solitude with air smelling like vanilla and caramel.

I am having some serious New York withdrawals, it feels weird to go from the busy scenery of New York and everything that place has to offer to quiet little Kenai. I don't have many plans for my day today, the usual, I need to clean a little, get my latte and take Chhaya for a walk.
Later tonight I am working. Maybe something interesting will take place at work so I can write about it here tomorrow.
I also did a phone interview this morning with somebody from a Canadian magazine that is writing about the oil boom in The Bakken. Meaning North Dakota. They want to know if it's really possible for dancers to make $ 2000/night. So I chatted a little bit with the person that called me this morning. Once again, I did NOT make $ 2000/night in Williston, not even half of that. I was happy with what I made, I am sure some girls made more than me, since I am not aggressive in my approach. And a lot of other things that I am not going to talk about now. And some girls made less than me.
But to the girls that think that they will be making $ 2000/night or more, hmmmmmm.......probably not. But try for yourselves and good luck!
Oh, one more thing about that and the dancing in Williston. I get e mails and comments on a previous blog I wrote about Williston from dancers that want info on how to get hired at the clubs there. I have been nice and answered each one with the info and some of them, some - not all, don't even have the decency to respond to me with a thank you. Whatever! That is lame, I am not going to try to raise a grown person but if somebody does something for me, I say thank you. Just saying.

Thursday evening. I am at home on the couch, watching TMZ, I love my little Harvey..... About to fall asleep soon, so tired. I was planning on working tonight when I was reciting my plans for the reminder of the week to myself yesterday. Right.....I can barely keep my eyes open and it's only a little after 10 PM. Can't wait to curl up in my bed with my head on the pillows.
I am probably dragging myself to work tomorrow, have a new bra from Victoria's Secret to show off, got in in New York. It's white/beige and covered in small sparkly rhinestones. Don't worry, you will get a pic of me in it sometime soon.......
And this is a sparkly brand new pic of me, less than a week old.



Photo by Mark Wiggins.

My new necklace that spells out Chhaya, sooooooo cute, got it from Rose-Marie, I love it.
Here are some pics of me and my Chhaya. Pics by one of my fave photographers WOLF189.



This one he took of me getting ready, putting on my make up, it's a surprise pic, I am at my place in Las Vegas. Chhaya next to me, watching.
Chhaya means shadow or shade in Sanskrit. In case you wonder why I named her Chhaya.....
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chhaya