Welcome to Chaos !!

My daily must have cravings......latte and some kind of pastry. Have to say that Two Sisters in Homer has an excellent choice in pastries and sandwiches. Plus I love Adbusters, one of my fave magazines. Pick it up, you can find it at Barnes & Noble.



Can you see what it says?
"Hey all you sleepwalkers and latte-sippers out there! So you think you know what's going on...huh?"

Yes, that includes me. I think I know but I don't. I am trying though. Have to try harder!
Maybe one day I can make some positive differences that will really mean something. Big or small, doesn't matter. You might think that I only care about gossip, looking cute and pink lipgloss. But you don't know ME then. That's ok, I don't expect you to. I am just putting it out there.......

Woke up feeling happy this gray Tuesday. Spent time on the phone with Mom and friends. Wearing this new cute blue slouchy shirt paired with some new leggings/yoga pants from Hard Tail. Heading out for my latte and some errands.......Have to download some more music, my new fave song is Lights by Ellie Goulding - it's SOOOOO me, I LOVE it!!!! ♥

So yesterday I got up at 7 AM because I had to drive to Anchorage to participate in a photo shoot. A married couple that own a (professional) photo studio contacted me a while back, asking if I would like to work with them on a project. I said yes.
We shot at a waterfall in Eagle River, a very beautiful part of Eagle River that I've never been to before, I think the name of the waterfall is Barbara Falls.



I stood ankle deep in that glacier water and let me tell you......it was freakin' FREEZING! If I had fallen into that water, I would had died from hypothermia within five minutes. My feet were frozen and totally numb, it took a while for my poor feet to feel normal again.
I also sat on some rocks, trying to look cute and dreamy while my teeth were shattering and it was somewhat difficult to concentrate on keeping a pose with nice lines when you are that cold. But the photographer was very happy with me, so he said at least. I really do hope we got some good shots, of all the shoots I've done, that one is probably the most uncomfortable I've been, due to how cold I was. But what don't you do for the sake of art?
Afterwards he asked me if I would be interested in working with them on bodyscapes. That's when you focus on a certain area of the body and play with light and shadows, the result can be quite beautiful. This for example......(not me in photo).



After the shoot I needed to eat, I was starving and I also gulped down two cups of hot chai at the Yak & Yeti.



Then - shopping.
Needed some make up and other things. Treats for Chhaya. Stuff........you know. A girl always needs more stuff......
Got home a little after midnight and took a nice, warm bath. Now I'm in bed - my eyes are soooooo heavy, time to sleep.......

Sunday........woke up at noon, drove to get a coffee and a scone. Came back home, blue skies and sunshine. Laid out. Spent about two hours cleaning the house. Got hungry. Drove to get some pizza and ice cream. Got home. Ate. Brushed Chhaya, clipped her nails, took her for a walk.
Went for a run. 28 minutes. Felt great, felt very alive. Ran towards the sun. It was very pretty. Saw a porcupine, a moose and nine caribou today.
Watched a movie. Had tea and a KIND bar. Spent some time on painting my nails, hands and feet. Also shaved, scrubbed, washed hair, put on lotion.
Need to wake up around 7 AM tomorrow and drive to Anchorage for a photo shoot.

It's 3 AM! Tatiana is home already! Yeeeeay! We started out so slow tonight, all 11 girls were sitting around in the beginning, no guys were in there. We sat and watched Hangover 2 on the big screen. Tatiana thinks that Bradley Cooper is muy caliente. And she loves Chow, Tatiana wants to be more like Chow......he is amazing. Tatiana's role model!
"We had a sick night bitches!”
"I’m an international criminal."
"It's called not your business, 'kay?"


Anyways.....there are some things that Tatiana's co workers say to the guys that come in that Tatiana finds amusing.
First of all the "I'm the BEST dancer in here, get a dance from me". Tatiana would NEVER say that. Why? Well, everybody likes different things and when a girl says this she is kind of implying that she is willing to give a very "good" lap dance (in fact the BEST in the club, LOL), as in dirty. And since Tatiana doesn't do those kinds of dances she never says dumb shit like that, because she wouldn't be able to deliver.
Actually, Tatiana can pretty much safely say that she is the only girl at the club where she is currently working that does NOT allow anyone to paw on her boobs. EVER. No exceptions. Sorry guys, if you want to squeeze on some boobs it's not going to be Tatiana's. That is NOT included in a lap dance, Tatiana would rather work at McDonald's than sink that low. The boobs include some of the body parts that Tatiana does not share with people she meets at work in a physical way. It's nothing personal, Tatiana follows the rules.
And since when should a lap dance include that anyways?
When guys ask Tatiana if she is the best dancer in there, she usually answers that she is the absolute worst and that she needs lots of practice, maybe she can practice on them? Or she just says "I'm absolutely horrible, you ready for a dance or what?" And sometimes, "Actually it's your lucky night, I took a shower today so right now I don't smell like a fish factory."
Another dumb thing and why girls say this Tatiana does not understand, "I am the hottest girl in the club, get a dance with me". We have a girl right now that doesn't shut up about this, tooting her own horn (the door lady's words), showers herself with compliments about how hot SHE thinks she is.
Ummmmm........it's usually the guys complimenting the girls, not you complimenting yourself. LOL. She is ok, average looking Tatiana thinks and she has a very annoying loud and whiny voice. Tatiana feels bad for her boyfriend, IF she has one.
If you are pretty, you get compliments from people all night long. Tatiana is so used to them that they go in one ear and out the other. She doesn't pay too much attention to the compliments, some are sincere and others not.
If you really are pretty you do not need to talk like that about yourself.
And one more thing that is kind of hilarious to watch is a girl with large fake boobs that loves to make sure that everybody sees her by lifting her arms straight up and jumping up and down, the boobs jump too. The boobs are nice for fake ones. She will stand around and all of a sudden start jumping up and down. Eeeeh, okay? Well, that's a way to try to get noticed maybe?

I got back from Homer yesterday afternoon. And went back to work last night.
Here I am on my way to work......it's getting darker and colder here.


Today though the sun is shining and I have been tanning outside. Somebody at work observed that I don't have any tan lines. Well, I tan naked, of course. Why cover up? Nobody can see me, I don't have any neighbors close by.
I don't get really dark, I am too fair. Well, I am working again tonight and tanning again tomorrow. Not much else to report.......