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When French-Iranian journalist Freidune Sahebjan published The Stoning Of Soraya M it became an international bestseller, focusing attention on the practice of stoning in Iran, as well as the lack of women's rights there. Despite official denials, untold numbers of people, mostly women, continue to be put to death by stoning in many countries around the world.

It's been raining all day, rain, rain, rain. What to do? Watch a movie. I just finished watching The Stoning Of Soraya M a movie based on a true story. It was difficult to watch because I know atrocities like these happen all the time, death by stoning - mostly women - even innocent women, not that it matters. You know, in some countries your husband can get rid of you like this if you become a nuisance to him. How people can stand by and watch a stoning or even participate in one is mind boggling to me. Mob mentality and feeble minded people. Very scary to know that they are out there. I am not pro any religion but I know what's RIGHT and WRONG.
Women are just as valuable as men, women should have the same rights as men. Equality. It seems like some religions don't look at that issue the same way as I do. I don't know why anyone would want to be part of a religion like that. The acting in The Stoning Of Soraya M is exceptional, it must had been mentally difficult for the actors to put themselves through that process. The movie is difficult to watch and yes, I cried. I cried for that poor woman, her children, her loving aunt Zahra and everybody else that has been found guilty when innocent.
It happens in the US too. Though here people don't get dragged to the town square, bound, put waist deep in the ground and stoned to death by anyone willing to participate.
One more thing, this movie is based on a book. The book has been banned in Iran........


Don't act like the hypocrite,
Who thinks he can conceal his wiles
While loudly quoting the Koran.

- Hazef, 14th Century Iranian poet

I have to start getting ready for work. I am kind of drained and not motivated. It feels kind of meaningless. But you never know, I might have a fun night!

I should add here that I am far from free of faults. But I usually know when I do something wrong and I can admit to it and also apologize.
I am just a girl that has moments of almost permanent self-assuredness that thinks people out there actually care about what I have to say.

Woke up to pouring rain and no power in the house - fun! Hopefully I will have power back on when I get home, showering in cold water is awful.
Hot water coming out of the faucet is a luxury most of us take for granted. When I was little and still lived in Poland....even though we lived in a large city (Gdynia) we didn't have hot water. So when it was bath time my Mom heated up water on the stove and poured it into a large tub that she would take out and put in the main room. And then we moved to Sweden and everything was different but still the same......if that makes sense.
Of course Poland is totally modern and developed now unless you seek out that rustic experience which can be interesting though I much rather have hot water coming out of the faucet, makes life easier. I try to appreciate what I have but I forget often. We have it good in the westernized countries, remember that.

Last night at work we had two "regular" girls go on stage and entertain us for a song. When girls that have no experience stripping go on stage they usually move fast and jerky, kind of like when they are out in a club dancing. Usually they are nervous and tipsy too so the way they move is exaggerated due to that too. Once you start working in a strip club you tend to slow it down some. I've heard I move kind of slow, smooth and sensual. Hey, just what I've heard more than once - ok.
Though some girls never get it and jerk and flop around like a fish out of water - not so attractive.
Anyways, one of the girls that went on stage, her name is Ashley and she lives here. To me, she is the prettiest girl I've seen around here, she has a large tattoo that covers her whole back and goes down on her butt cheeks. A beautiful face and a nice body. We always compliment each other and flirt when she comes in. I like Ashley. She is thinking about starting to dance (strip) but not here, she knows too many people and she wants to get good on the pole first too, so she she is going to take a pole dancing class first.

Another thing. A girl just left the club and moved out of state. She brought her dog with her but left her 13 (!!!!) cats to fend for themselves.
WTF!!!! How can anyone do that? That should be illegal and punishable, that is animal abuse!
First of all, SPAY or NEUTER your animals so they do not reproduce like that and also TAKE CARE of them. I don't know how a person can do something like that? I am thinking about starting a collection at work, the proceeds I will donate to a local spay and neuter program that helps people do this for their animals. It is WRONG to be a careless animal owner. BOOOOO and shame on you if you are!!!
People like that should be outed, their picture should be on the front page of the local paper, together with everybody else that abuses animals or children.

It's time for Tatiana to get in the shower and wash her dirty butt, shave her stubbly legs, wash her hair and bla bla bla ........glue on the fake lashes and go to work! Check back tomorrow for more news from your fave girl Tatiana. Remember.......YOU NEED!!!

So it's time for Tatiana to go back to work tonight.......noooooooooo!!!!! She has not been since last Saturday and from what she's heard it's been rather uneventful in there, not surprising. Once the summer is over things die down here out in the boondocks.
Well, at least it will be fun to go on stage tonight to the new fave song by Ellie Goulding Lights .
The worst is when you work in a club where you can't pick your music, it can be awful and even embarrassing. When Tatiana worked at Shotgun Willies in Denver she was stuck on stage to Crazy by Gnarls Barkley more than once and Two Princes by Spin Doctors - a song that Tatiana thinks should NEVER be played in a strip club. So NOT sexy. Same goes for MMMBop by Hanson and Baby by Justin Bieber. Tatiana also remembers one time when a girl played Heal the World by Michael Jackson.......while strutting her stuff on stage. That just does not go together......

Here are some pics from a few months ago........
Photographer Mark Wiggin.




One more thing while Tatiana still remembers.....last Saturday work started out very slow. So the bartender told us to "call our customers" and tell them to come in. Tatiana has heard that before, from the owner, on slow nights.
First of all, that's kind of pathetic. The girls should not have to call anyone to get people to come in. And Tatiana very rarely gives out her phone number. She can count on one hand the times she given out her number to anyone she met at work, those people became a friend outside of work too. The number thing is absolutely nothing personal but if Tatiana would be giving out her number to everybody then all she would do would be either answering calls, texting or avoiding calls. Night and day.
Tatiana knew a girl once that would give out her number to anyone that asked, her phone would ring constantly, she would never answer or call anyone back. Tatiana rather NOT give out her number than avoid answering, she considers that rude.
Also, today you can email Tatiana if there is something you need to tell her, she is very good at answering e mails or you can read her blog to keep up with her. There is no need for any numbers.
Some girls also give out fake numbers. Not nice either. Another girl Tatiana knows gives out this number 867-5309. Do you get it? It's Jenny's number, you know the song! LOL.
Then there are girls that have two phones, one for work and another phone for their other life. Kind of like a business phone.
Plus Tatiana doesn't have "customers" - she has fans. Or friends. A customer is somebody that is buying something, it just sounds so weird Tatiana thinks. So no, Tatiana doesn't get on the phone, ever, to beg anyone to come in and spend money on her, she doesn't have to.
Yes, of course she has bad nights, most girls do - unless they look like Irina Shayk, Barbie or doing something nasty that they shouldn't be doing in the first place. Bad night happens, not a big deal, it's life.

Tonight I sat home and watched The Cove . It's a documentary about the slaughter of dolphins in Japan. September is when the season for slaughtering the dolphins begins. So it's going on right now - unless people can stop it.

http://www.takepart.com/cove
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Cove_(film)

You can sign an online petition

http://www.takepart.com/cove/takeaction

I am not sure if this petition is outdated, the movie was made in 2009. But I still signed it.
You should too, it only takes a minute!
In the documentary you can watch the dolphins get slashed while the ocean is red from their blood.
I would rather beg for money on the street than make a living like that. And dolphin meat is high in mercury, enjoy eating it.
People are disgusting. But what else is new?
And yes, of course I am against dolphins being used at aquariums world wide, like Sea World for example. Even when the excuse is made that we can "learn something" from them. How would you like if somebody caged you up for the reminder of your life and studied you? Ponder that for a minute.

Anyways, I am at home tonight. Thinking about the evil things humans do to animals, the environment and each other. I am glad I don't have kids. I wouldn't want my offspring to grow up in this world.

According to the FBI Uniform Crime Report both Anchorage and Fairbanks are two places were the threat of sexual assault against women is clear and present. Yes, that includes rape.
Both are high up on the FBI's list of the 10 most dangerous cities for women. Too bad. Alaska is one of the least populates states in the US but it's two largest cities are on that FBI list.
That's creepy. There must be a lot of sexually deviant men creeping around here.
But there is an app you can download to feel a little more safe. It's called StreetSafe and has one feature called "Walk With Me" that will allow the user to stay in touch with an advisor while for example walking home alone at night. Or walking through a parking garage to a car.
Another feature activates a silent alarm in case of an emergency, the operator will call 911 and track the phone down.
Or you can, like me........put a bullet through anyone trying to harm you in any way.