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So today I have slowly been preparing for my trip. It was definitely time to wax my legs. I wait until my hair (on my thighs) gets long and furry, well to me it feels furry at least and then I rip it out by waxing. I shave from the knees down.
I also rented and watched The Human Centipede . It wasn't that scary, I will be able to sleep fine after watching it. I wonder if similar experiments were done on humans back in the concentration camps by Dr Mengele and his team.....you know during World War II. Actually.....I think I read somewhere that he sewed two children together to create conjoined twins. It's really mind-boggling the evil humans are capable of.



Now to a different subject. I still keep on getting comments on my blogs I wrote about the two clubs in Williston. And emails.
Recently a girl from Texas wanted to know how to get hired at one of them and she mentioned that she makes about $ 600/night during the week at the club she works at and no less that $ 1000 on weekends. So what should I tell her about Williston?
I do not have the answer to that ladies. You have to decide if you want to invest in the airfare there and find and pay for a place to stay. Last time I worked in Williston was back in March. Some people seem to think that I live there? I suspect they only read like one isolated blog that I wrote about either Heartbreakers or Whispers. No, I live in Alaska of all places but I do travel for work once in a while.
I think that making $ 600 - 1000 every time you go into work is good, actually VERY good.
I have girlfriends that dance in Vegas at some of the large topless clubs and sometimes they have a hard time making their house fee. So if you make a minimum
$ 600 every night you work, you are doing good. Should you go to Williston? I don't know, YOU decide but don't expect too much - that's my advice. You can read all the blogs I wrote about Williston and the two clubs there by searching for them in the tool bar in the upper right hand corner of my blog. Maybe that will help some.
On October 2 I wrote a blog called "3 AM and Tatiana just got......." and in it I talk about being upset that I only made $ 420 that night.
I was joking of course, as I often do in the blog, I can't help myself. 🙂
To me $ 420 is decent, I work at a small club and it is slow right now so I am not counting on or even expecting any $ 600 nights though they do happen once in a while. Like last Saturday, I did really good. And sometimes I have nights when I make $ 100. That's the reality of things. And it's ok, I can live with that, I make my money in the most honest way I can without ever compromising my personal boundaries. Even if that means that I will have a "low" income night here and there. And I remember when I worked in Vegas. At Crazy Horse Too, Sapphire and Treasures. Did I make thousand of dollars every night just because I happened to work in Vegas? Some people seem to think that stripping in Vegas equals big bucks. Far from it.
Well, maybe if you do more than just strip........The large topless clubs usually have hundreds of girls every night of the week. Sure I had good nights but also many bad ones. And the same went for my girlfriends that I worked with.
One of my friends that used to work at a large club in Anchorage back in the day when the club was busy and the money was flowing more freely than nowadays counted 59 no's before she finally got a yes when she asked around for dances. 59 no's! And she is a good looking blonde with curves in the right places. A knockout.
I think that if you work at a club in a decent size city, a club with heavy traffic, you should, as a dancer take home no less than $ 300/night, if you are at least ok looking and have a fairly good personality. And of course have some really good nights too. BUT that is not the reality for majority of the dancers. That is just how I THINK it should be. Some girls do not work in busy clubs for whatever reasons. Or live in large cities. Like me. And even in a large, busy club you are going to have shitty nights.
Of course some dancers would never admit to having a bad night. I have heard plenty of girls exaggerate their earnings, not sure why?
Maybe to feel better about themselves or something? And of course, some break all the rules and do WHATEVER to make money.
I can't compete with that and won't - EVER. Yuck. Those are the girls that give stripping a bad name. It's a shame. I have written many blogs about this topic. Why? Because it bothers me. They basically ruin everything for all the other girls.

But I am getting tired now. Sleep time - lots of stuff to do tomorrow!

So guess what I found in the dressing room on a small shelf where we have all kinds of communal items girls can help themselves to.......some Summer's Eve! That made me very happy, I immediately made myself some impromptu Summer's Eve headgear so I am always prepared at work. A girl can never be diligent enough with her personal hygiene.....and you never know, somebody might snatch me up and get a bunch of dances and instead of running to the dressing room, I will have my VAGINE spray ready and handy. Efficient is what I am.
I sprayed some guys pants with that stuff.....it stinks! Summer's Eve is a very overpowering smell, who would want their VAGINE to smell like that? I's rather mine smell like NOTHING at all, the way it does - instead of some Summer's Eve skunk spray.
Then I asked loudly (of course)....who this bottle of Summer's Ever really belongs to. It is still a mystery.
I am home and in bed now after working to 4 AM. I am not working again until Friday and I will be somehwhere in South Dakota then.
Where? That I am not telling yet, you have to read the blog to find out......


Oh, one more thing......there is a girl at work that's been wearing what used to be a white skirt and bra. Note that I say the outfit used to be white. It's like grayish and dirty looking now. She has been at the club for about four months and she works pretty much every night. I think I have seen her in a different outfit three times at the most. That is kind of gross, especially since I suspect that the now grayish outfit doesn't get washed very often, or at all. Bleh. Maybe she needs some Summer's Eve? I wear things over and over again too but I rotate my stuff and wash it.
Grayish panties that used to be white? You'll never catch me like that, I am not homeless.....I am a dancer.

What does Tatiana do at work......besides actually work? You know asking for lap dances gets boring sometimes......
Well, she reads other times she sits around and tells funny stories and sometimes she gets creative and does artwork a la Tatiana. Like decorate the soles of her stripper shoes. And yes, Tatiana is the NUMBER 1 with this idea and she has a patent. Soon all the strippers will wear shoes with messages, names, images etc on the soles of their stripper heels. And Tatiana will rake in the ca$h because she has got the patent. 🙂
So don't even think about stealing Tatiana's idea you sneaky little creatures!
Here are some early prototypes that Tatiana is sharing with ya'll.

It's late here in Kenai - pitch black and 46 degrees outside. After working six nights in a row, I decided, after some hesitation to stay home tonight.
Halloween is coming up and I can't wait to go to one or a few Haunted Houses in Vegas, I love that feeling of being scared. I scream really loud when I go through Haunted Houses, it is so much fun. Only been to one here in Alaska, back in 2009 and that one was in Wasilla. And it was a good one!
Speaking of scary, I remember watching some kind of a Dracula movie when I was little, it made me so spooked I couldn't sleep for a while. I thought Dracula was going to come and get me.
The Hulk tv series also made me scared, I used to imaging that the Hulk was lurking in the dark corners of my room even though I knew that he really was a nice monster, but he looked really scary to me back then.
When I was 13 I watched Evil Dead with a friend at her house, well about 30 minutes of it, then her Dad came home and made us turn it off - I STILL have flashbacks to that movie, talk about a scared 13 year old!
Now I do like to watch scary movies, well part of me does, I am fascinated with them and part of me thinks that I shouldn't subject my mind to them because they somehow affect me on a deeper level. I also think that certain movies like the Hostel movies and the Saw movies can fuel already disturbed people and actually trigger them to go out and do something similar.
At least it worries me.
Now I am kind of tempted to watch three movies that I have heard about, don't know if any of you have heard of them or seen them.....
A Serbian Film - this film is banned in a few countries. I am tempted to watch it but that doesn't mean that I will. I am scared that I would be too traumatized by it. It has extremely graphic, very disturbing and sickening scenes in it, rape, raping of children, even infants, necrophilia.
At the first ever screening of the film a couple of years ago, audience members were coaxed to go on the stage — "where they jointly snorted lines of salt, squeezed lime juice into their eyes and took shots of tequila in order to "understand what Serbians have been through to create a culture of A Serbian Film".
That makes me remember when the war in former Yugoslavia was going on. I heard many stories from people I knew in Sweden, some Serbs, some Croatians, other Macedonians or Bosnians, a few had some violent and crazy horror stories about the war in former Yugoslavia where people seemingly had lived peacefully and coexisting and then when the war broke out they turned on each other in the most horrific ways.
Yes, I heard my share of stories......my boyfriend for some time was Serbian, although born in Sweden and I always thought that Serbians sure knew how to lay in on thick when lamenting on and on about the war, making sure they were always painted out as the victims. And to be fair, many Serbs did suffer during the war. But they were also committing some serious harm. The notorious Serbian Mafia is known for spreading it's filth and scare tactics around Europe, the were absolutely present in Sweden, mentioned in many novels, for example in Stieg Larson's books about Lisbet Salander - on of my personal heroes.
As far as The Serbian Film goes, I believe it is legal in the US, though it was pulled from Netflix. I am wondering if the scenes with raping children and even a baby would somehow make the movie illegal to watch? I know that they could not possibly have really raped a child and a baby on camera but I guess it is depicted like they do by the actors.
Another movie I want to watch and that I am going to watch is The Human Centipede . There is a sequel to it too, might watch that one too depending on how I react to the first one. Two very controversial movies as well.
The third movie is Cannibal Holocaust . Actually the director was charged with making a snuff film right after the movie premiered but was later cleared on the charges, that it pretty crazy! The only reason I most likely will refrain from watching it is because they did kill some animals on purpose in the film, some of the actors cried during the scenes. I know I won't be able handle that.
I should probably clarify here that I would never watch a real snuff film or any footage with real child pornography/rape. Of course not!
I wouldn't know where to find such material neither would I want to. The films I have mentioned are all available for viewing in the US -legally.
But you should keep in mind that some of the porn out there is basically rape. At least that's how I see it. Sure the girls are supposedly 18 but I think many of them hardly know what they are getting themselves into. Some get drunk or drug themselves to be numb and loosen up. To me that's rape even though I guess legally it would count as consensual sex. I think it is a rape of your soul. Not to mention a violation of your body. But to each their own. I have said it before in discussing porn, I think they should up the age for girls from 18 to about 23, so the girls that get involved in that business are more mature to make a decision regarding if they should subject themselves to all what the porn industry entails.
Enough gore for now. It's Sunday and I will say my prayers before I go to sleep tonight.

It's almost 5 AM and I am about to take a warm bath and relax in it for a while. Got home from a night of work that felt like it was dragging on forever. But it's over now and I am back at home, munching on a salad.
I had a lingering headache all night long and then somebody blew some nasty cigarette smoke really close to me while I took a breath and I inhaled that smoke and got super nauseous and was close to throwing up the last hour I was at work. I must have looked miserable because guys were acting very "concerned" asking the other dancers and the bartender why I looked sad/upset/sat by myself and bla bla bla. Exhausting! A few sent over drinks. I only drink soda water and cranberry juice at work (occasionally coffee) so it's not like I am going to have a shot and feel much better right away. Well, the miserable look must have been popular tonight because I left with close to the amount of this years Permanent Fund Dividend, or maybe they just felt sorry for me? Oh well, either way.
I wish work was smoke free, I do not like to be subjected to cigarette smoke - it's gross and unhealthy. When I was 13 I smoked for about a month, thinking I was a cool little girl or something. Well, I felt ill every time I took a drag of a cigarette, I am happy that it didn't become a bad habit.
It is time for that bath now.......I feel like a tired ashtray.

"In the city of Syracuse in Sicily there is a spring called Arethusa that has an interesting story. Once, Arethusa was not a spring but a beautiful young Greek huntress and a follower of Artemis. Like the goddess, she would have nothing to do with men. She loved running and hunting in the forest. One day after an exhausting hunt, she came to a crystal clear stream shaded by silvery willows. She decided to take a swim, and slipped into the water and swam about in utter peace for a while. Then she seemed to feel something beneath her in the water. Frightened, she scampered out of the water, and heard a voice that seemed to come from the water. "Why are you leaving, fair maiden?"
Now terrified, she ran into the forest as fast as she could. She was pursued by one stronger, if not swifter than she. The voice of the unknown told her that he was Alpheus, the god of the river, and that he was only following because he loved her. She ran on, but she could never escape; a river, after all, can run longer than any mortal. Finally, completely exhausted, Arethusa called out to Artemis, and the goddess answered by changing her into a spring, but not an ordinary spring. Aretmis cut the earth so that an underground channel was made from Greece all the way to Sicily. Arethusa plunged down and emerged near Syracuse where the spring bubbles forth today, on land sacred to Artemis. Alpheus, being a river god, turned himself back into a river, and plunged down the same channel. Arethusa was not free of Alpheus. Their waters mingled. Even today, you can believe it or not, that Greek flowers are sometimes seen in the Sicilian spring, and if you throw a wooden cup in the Alpheus river in Greece, it will reappear in Arethusa's spring."
(Source - Wikipedia)



"A nymph in Greek mythology is a minor female nature deity typically associated with a particular location or landform. There are 5 different types of nymphs, Celestial Nymphs, Sea Nymphs, Land Nymphs, Wood Nymphs and Underworld Nymphs. Different from goddesses, nymphs are generally regarded as divine spirits who animate nature, and are usually depicted as beautiful, young nubile maidens who love to dance and sing; their amorous freedom sets them apart from the restricted and chaste wives and daughters of the Greek polis. They are believed to dwell in mountains and groves, by springs and rivers, and also in trees and in valleys and cool grottoes. Although they would never die of old age nor illness, and could give birth to fully immortal children if mated to a god, they themselves were not necessarily immortal, and could be beholden to death in various forms.
Nymphs tended to frequent areas distant from humans but could be encountered by lone travelers outside the village, where their music might be heard, and the traveler could spy on their dancing or bathing in a stream or pool, either during the noon heat or in the middle of the night. They might appear in a whirlwind. Such encounters could be dangerous, bringing dumbness, besotted infatuation, madness or stroke to the unfortunate human."
(Source - Wikipedia)



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