Welcome to Chaos !!

Got some stuff done today - finally. My taxes. I got it all figured out, calculated and sent off, all my papers organized and filed. I keep everything in different folders. I got this years Permanent Fund Dividend filled out and sent off. Feels good, I can't relax if I have stuff looming because I keep thinking about it. While out today I ran into our waitress at the club, Teresa. She works when it's busy, so not right now since we are slow.
Teresa is so much fun. I didn't like her when I first started but then I changed my opinion about that and now I really like her, she is great.
Chhaya is eagerly awaiting her dinner. I am boiling some carrots for her, she is also getting brown rice and a can of dog food, beef this evening.
I think I am staying in tonight. Relaxing and reading. I might do a honey face mask and a moisturizing coconut oil treatment for my hair. Oh.......and I have to brush Chhaya's teeth.

I am about to try some new skin products for the first time. I have been using L'Occitane for a while but now I am going to switch things up a little and try some stuff from Santa Maria Novella. Here I have the Lipid Cream and the Papaya Gel both from the Skin Restoring Line. I love the Santa Maria Novella stores, it smells heavenly in them and everything looks and feels very luxurious. Excited over the new products!

Bound feet. Chinese foot binding, outlawed since a while.

Ballerina.

Dancer. Me.

Sources blogspot, tumblr, marie claire and myseveralworlds.com

I had a great Sunday. I'm in bed, belly full of food, feeling kind of tired. Last night I told Sharon (the bartender at work) that I would most likely work tonight but I fell asleep around 7 pm and when I woke up an hour later it was dark outside and my bed is warm and comfy so I am staying in.
So every day when you read or hear the news you find out about bad stuff. There are some nasty people out there. More rapes in India, the latest three young girls, sisters raped and murdered. More priests raping boys. Some man in Ohio played the part of the loving and concerned adult, taking in three boys as foster children and ended up raping all three. Even let a few friends in on the "fun". He was in the process of adopting a few more kids. Just lovely. When I read that I got really upset. I get very emotional when I read about innocent children and animals that get hurt. To me, there is only one good solution. One bullet in the head. Sounds harsh? Perhaps. But I don't want trash like that taking up space and sharing the air I breathe with me. I have no excuses for filth like that. Taking in children, pretending to be caring and concerned only so you can torture them and destroy their soul? Abusing animals. Raping women. Just take the perpetrator out with a bullet. Why spend money on keeping them alive in some prison? They are no good for society anymore.
When I raise my hand my dog does not cower, she is expecting me to pet her or throw her toy somewhere so she can play. How an adult can beat an animal is incomprehensible. Only a twisted coward does that. Only a seriously sick individual rapes children and women. AND what about the women that gave up their children, got them taken away due to being unfit parents. How about you THINK before you decide to become pregnant and give birth to a child that you obviously were not prepared to provide for in any way. Having kids should NOT be any idiots right, it should be a privilege. Some people truly disgust me.

Do you know somebody that has been catfished? I mean besides the dumb looking football guy that made the news a few weeks ago when he thought he had been dating some imaginary girlfriend and then she died......although I think he was lying. Or he really is THAT dumb.
Well, I actually knew somebody that got conned like that. LOL. To me it is funny. To fall head over heels "in love" with somebody online, that you haven't even talked to on Skype seems strange to me. You need to have some kind of a communication besides
e mails. At least I would need that. The person I knew met some girl on Myspace years ago. She lived in France. She only had a few pictures of herself on Myspace and I thought there was something very fishy about the whole situation and told him this several times. This was way before I knew there was a word for this - catfishing.
Well, his dumb and blinded by "love" ass bought a ticket to Paris, he was almost broke to begin with so a round trip ticket between Vegas and Paris definitely put a dent in his finances. When he got there, the girl that he loved......I guess she loved him too......oh how romantic......was nowhere to be found. Huh? What? And then she died! And he blamed himself somehow. It was a mess. Instead of enjoying Paris he sat at some internet cafe, frenetically awaiting to hear from this never existing girl. When he got back home he was devastated that the love of his life had died and he was convinced that somehow it was because of him. Talk about crazy! I repeatedly told him the whole thing was fake and eventually he did realize that he had been fooled. Catfished! Well......time showed me that he was crazy indeed. His relationships with many women were imaginary, even with me. I was his friend - ONLY. But in his mind I was supposed to be more than a friend and the ways he expressed his anger and jealousy over that were psychotic and delusional. Therefore he used to be my friend, not anymore. I am a very loyal, understanding, forgiving person and a great friend but I finally had enough of him. Even though he was a friend for a long time, well at least I though he was a friend......he had some positive qualities but enough is enough.

I am at Kaladi coffee in Soldotna right now, having my latte and munching on an apple fritter. I love Kaladi coffee, so far it's my fave although I have heard that Corner Cafe has good coffee too, me and Lexi are planning on going soon. My second fave coffee place around here is Coffee Roasters and once in a while I go to the coffee carts that are all around here. There are usually cute girls working in those, dressed in something revealing and tight, trying to make as much tips as they can. I always tip a dollar, more if they flash me some boob or butt.



So I picked purple for my toes yesterday, I matched with my purple bra that everybody always compliments and a pair gray Honey Dew's with purple trim. It was a good night. I had lots of fans.
But some nights are awful, like last Monday when I made a whole $ 3! That doesn't cover my gas back and forth to work. That doesn't even cover my daily latte. Or the week before I made a combined $ 20 Tuesday and Wednesday. That is how is it, but it usually evens out - you have bad nights, some ok and then you have the good ones sprinkled with a few amazing nights here and there. Unless you are lucky to work at a club where almost every night is good, that is how it was for me when I worked at Flashdancers a long time ago. It was great. And when I went to New York last December to try it again I didn't get rehired because they had too many girls. Now I am kind of missing New York again, maybe I'll go in the fall for a few weeks......
The plans for the rest of my day, some errands, about one hour at the gym, grab some Mexican food to go, eat and relax and then go to work.