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I am not done with my Kodiak adventure here in the blog yet, I still have some more to share with you. Lucky you! Lap it up, I know some of you are so very thirsty to find out every detail you can about my time there (this is directed to all the dancers that read my blog but never have anything to say about it). Hi ladies, continue reading.......!
So all dancers stayed on the boat (when I was there). I did check prices with Best Western out of curiosity, it's rather steep but they are pet friendly. In case I would go back and bring Chhaya, she can't stay on the boat. That staircase is way too steep for a dog her size and then she needs to be able to relieve herself on a regular basis. Housing in Kodiak is pricey in general and they seem to have a shortage of places to stay. Kind of like Williston. The rooms where we slept were small but I had all I needed. Basically a bed, that was very comfortable by the way. Plenty of covers to keep me warm and pillows. And a place to put my stuff. I like sleeping on boats in general, it's cozy with the waves and all. I felt safe on the boat too, never had a moment of feeling scared.



I got a text message from somebody I know saying that a friend of hers is going to work on the boat and would like to know where I kept my money. Well, I kept my money in a lock box that was attached to a rope and a weight, I would drop down my loot into the ocean every night. My money was safe with the fishes. I also made regular deposits into my Swiss bank account, by the assistance of my personal accountant and banker residing in London. I mean what serious business minded dancer does not have an off shore bank account? Although I am considering switching mine over from Switzerland to Qatar.....another great tip from me to you! Some of the girls kept their money permanently attached to their thigh in a garter belt. Not for me. I don't care for that look at work.
Those garter belts (especially the larger frilly kind) remind me of some old cowboy movie with a foul mouthed hooker in a brothel, with a cigarette permanently dangling from her lip, snapping her garter. I only wear a garter belt at work if that is a rule and I absolutely have too. But my money stays in my purse. Some very observant man with a sense of style that was on the boat one evening said that the practice of keeping a wad of money in your garter belt looks tacky, I absolutely agree.
It's also totally outdated. Just like neon green thongs that you hike high over your hips and that too bleached crispy big 80's rocker hairdo. A cute and/or discreet purse is the way to go or keeping the money in your locker (if you have one that you can lock). And do not shlep around a large bag, I see dancers carrying large handbags around. Really now......! What's in there? Your Summer's Eve, a sewing kit, a taser, an extra pair of thongs and some spare shoes?
That large handbag dangling off the arm just looks awful! Reminds me of a scene out of Cops when they zoom in on the working girls on the corner.
Another place you can keep your big bills you earn at the boat is in the toilet tank, nobody will look there. Tatiana knows all the great spots for hiding money. Be grateful and happy I am so willingly sharing my secrets with you. Also popular by dancers for money transactions - PayPal and those Square credit card readers. Another question I am getting and that I know I will be getting now that I am writing about dancing in Kodiak is, how was the money? Well, it was good but not fantastic. I had a few bad nights. I never lie about my income, even if it's shitty. And I never exaggerate my income to boost a low self esteem (not that I have a low self esteem, quite the opposite). My self worth and confidence has nothing to do with the money I make. I did better in Williston (keep in mind that that was over two years ago now) actually but I had to spend more money on getting to Williston from Kenai. So if you live somewhere close to North Dakota it might be better for you economically to go to Williston to try your luck or to some other club/s in the country, there are plenty of spots to choose from. I am keeping in touch with the girls on the boat, so I know about the money. If you expect something amazing, pray for luck and great timing when you are out there. Sometimes that is all it takes, to get lucky. Unless you are a hooker and make your money that way, then you don't need luck. I know girls that still make $ 500 - 800 plus in Vegas several times/week. Because it's Vegas in a busy club.
You don't need luck there, you just need to be motivated and go to work. It also helps if you look good. Or just be one of those dirty dancers (works everywhere) but that does not apply to me, I never resort to those gross practices. I'm way too good for that. Call me a stuck up bitch if you want, I'm used to it. I'd rather be perceived as a stuck up unattainable bitch (by the people that don't know me) than resort to some of the things I have seen go on in some strip clubs. If I was going to do stuff like that I would be a high class escort making the big bucks. Thank you very much. I am very well aware of my options and my potential.......
One afternoon tanning on the deck. The big boat in the background is the M/V Tustumena ferry that I took from Homer to Kodiak and back a few years ago.



Beautiful view of Kodiak. On a nice day that place is magical.

I was gone for a few days in case anyone noticed......or missed me.
I went camping but I'm back now - alive. Mandy told me before I left to have fun and not to get eaten by a bear. I made it back alive. I saw only birds, a porcupine and some white mountain goats or sheep. I went camping at Cooper Lake. At a place where you have to either fly into or take some form of a motorized vessel. Absolutely gorgeous! Nobody around, just water, tall mountains and trees with the wind rustling through them.
First I packed and brought the essentials, Chhaya, my gun, bear spray, reading material and toilet paper. What else do you need? A man too perhaps? To do all the heavy work while I work on my eyebrows?



If I was ever stranded on a deserted island I would need a tweezer, cue tips and a comb. That's all I need as far as personal items go. I have been wanting to share this fact for a long time with my readers and I'm glad I was finally able to!



Some scenic pics and Chhaya in her life jacket. The water here is so cold that you better make sure you wear a life jacket in case you would be unlucky and fall in. This is not Florida!
Glacier water here in Alaska, freezing. If you look you can spot my canoe and my tent in the pics.











My food when camping consists of fruit, yam, corn, chips and juice. I love yams when camping.....yuuuuuum. And Chhaya loves yams too, in fact when camping she wants to taste everything that I eat. And she wears herself out and enjoys napping in the sun, soaking it up like a lizard.







Well, I'm safely back at my comfortable house in Kenai. Now I need to wash the camping grime off me and brush my teeth thoroughly, I brush them when camping but it's not the same as at home. Maybe a moisturizing honey mask on my face too?

I did not have time to open up my laptop all day yesterday. I had people over Friday night and we stayed up around the fire until about 2 am.....then I was busy all day yesterday with stuff and then I actually went to work too. I just got home from work, washed my face.....it's 5 16 am.
So rules.....I love rules at work as long as they're not silly. Like you can't wear black, you have to have your make up done by the in house "make up artist" so you end up looking like a drag queen, or you can't wear shoes without an ankle strap (a problem I encountered at a club in NYC) and stuff like that. I'm talking about rules regarding how to conduct yourself. The clearer and stricter the rules and the more they are actually enforced the better I usually do better, because I never ever compete with any nasty stuff that goes on (doesn't happen in all strip clubs but yes it does happen in some). I don't even think that using the word compete is right. It's not about "competition", I don't have to compete and I won't and I don't do anything wrong or yucky. I like to feel good about myself when I wake up.
The place I worked at in Kodiak had rules. They owners told me that their plan is to run a classy place and build up a good reputation (usually a smart way to run an adult oriented business in a small town). I am all for classy and clean. Hands to the side during lap dances, that worked well. I had no problems whatsoever with anyone trying to grab me and I did not see any of the other girls allow touching. Sure a hug but no groping whatsoever.
We did have an issue the first couple of nights with people having their phones out, trying to and actually taking pics. I did see that some pictures got taken of the girls and one guy tried to be sneaky and film me while I was on stage and then tried to deny that he did it when I confronted him about it. Well, he did film and it got taken care of. Look, do not take pictures or video of the dancers, just don't. I have a ton of pics of myself from work and in all kinds of environments in the blog but those are pics that I post myself, hence I am consenting to the pics plus if I took the pic of myself it belongs to me. Copyright you know, it clearly states that at the blogs start page. Any other pics of me taken by a photographer belongs to either me and/or the photographer depending on our agreement.
When people I don't know take pics of me, I also do not know or have any control over where the pic might end up and in what context and I'm not OK with that. Some girls keep the fact that they are doing this line of work a secret from family and friends for whatever reasons, so for them it is very important that no pictures of them at work appear anywhere. This has to be respected and most clubs take the no pictures very seriously. You might get asked to leave and in a not so friendly way either. It took a few days and us girls pressing the issue to get this point across but it worked.





No illegal drugs. I absolutely agree. I am for the legalization of all drugs actually. But you do them at your spare time. I have done drugs but never at work. I am at work to work and I feel that I need to be in control of the situation, plus why would I waste my fun drug moments (that does not happen often) at work when I could be somewhere else dancing to great music or staring at the stars and communicating with nature? I do not want to work with girls that are high and act crazy due to drug use. It's one thing if they smoke weed (I don't) but when you work with people that abuse stuff like meth, then you are asking for trouble. Sure, some people are really good at hiding their drug use but others.....not so much. And when it starts to show in your appearance and in your twitching face, well then it's just bad. And it also looks really bad to have girls like that working in a club, especially if you want to be considered a nice place. So yes, drug test all you want. It's a great way to keep the every day habitual druggies away. I don't care if you do drugs, just don't do them at work.

So if you have been reading my blog for a while you know that when I travel I use my platforms as a prop in pics I take. I got a few good ones I think (with the Las Vegas sign, on the subway in NYC, the Williston sign, empty road etc). So of course I did the same when I was in Kodiak. Here they are with the Welcome To Kodiak sign.



I was hoping to be alone when I took the pic with the shoes dangling from the St. Herman Harbor sign because I don't want to draw unneccesary and unwanted attention to me when I'm out and about in the daytime. I am not ashamed over the fact that I'm a dancer (I prefer the word dancer when referring to what I do, although stripper is widely used) at all since I am not doing anything wrong. Wrong is being a scum like a child molester, rapist, animal abuser, serial killer etc and those kind of losers come from all walks of life, even from the best families and from the best schools. I support myself in an honest way plus I'm not hurting anyone. Well, there was a guy filleting his fish close by when I took this pic. I tried to wait him out but after 15 minutes of waiting I had to get going so I just went ahead. "Nice catch" he blurted out. Then when I was walking away some girl sitting in a car (I didn't see her) told me that it was a cute photo idea. I think so too.
Why do I not want unwanted attention? Well, I do my thing at work. But during the day I am a "normal" person that is going on with my day just like everybody else. I don't thrive on male attention during the day, neither do I want it. Plus not everybody wants to get subjected to certain behavior, meaning I'm not going to advertise myself all over Kodiak or other places during the day and maybe upset or offend some people in the process. There is a time and place for everything and if people want to go to the strip club they go there because they want to, not because I'm putting on a free show while I'm sipping on my latte at the coffee shop in the afternoon or whatever I might be doing.
Catch of the day.



On a rock at the beach. The boat I worked on is in the background.......

I am back home in Kenai. Since I didn't sleep last night, packed and caught the 9 am flight from Kodiak, via Anchorage then Kenai, I am super tired now. My baby Chhaya is sleeping stretched out and happy next to me. I am going to go to sleep myself soon.
More pics from my Kodiak adventure tomorrow. That feels secondary at the moment.
My thoughts are with the people that got shot down earlier today on the Malaysian Airways plane that crashed in Ukraine. I don't understand this. I feel so bad for the victims and their families. Every time something similar like this happens I think about how their last moments were. Did they know? Were they scared? Sad? Oblivious? The passengers and crew on that flight that got shot down occupy my thoughts today. It's just wrong. I don't get this. Why?
I flew out of Schiphol myself last month, twice. The thought that the plane you are on might get shot down en route didn't even cross my mind. I called my Mom to check with her what they say in Sweden about this tragedy. The stories differ there and here in the US. There is no excuse for this. I'm sad. I don't like this world right now.

Yesterday evening we got an unexpected visit from the Coast Guard (yes, I'm on a boat) they barged in clad in full uniform with all kinds of weapons hanging from their belts and one of them even had a machine rifle of some sort out. I think it was like 7 or 8 of them.
Routine check to make sure the vessel had all the appropriate safety regulations on board, like life jackets and stuff like that. Completely normal you know. Plus we all had to show our identifications, I'm glad I'm not an illegal! It would had been deportation time otherwise perhaps. Or not. So that was quite interesting. Just one more interesting experience.
I did get some sun yesterday but not much, planning on laying out on upper deck today because we are having another beautiful day here.





I saw this eagle today on my walk into town. The water here is crystal clear too. Again, Kodiak Island is a gorgeous place!