I think I joined the officially insane club today. The reason I was feeling sad the last couple of days is because I was planning on leaving Kenai. I had packed up most of my stuff and was heading for Vegas. BUT today I changed my mind, the timing just didn't feel right, I felt like I was rushing things. Life gets complicated when you have stuff to take care of in Alaska and Nevada. It's not like I can just jump in my car and drive for a few hours and be in Vegas. It's a long journey. I don't know what else to say besides craaaaaayzeeeee. I hope I made the right decision. Because OF COURSE, now I am second guessing myself, I'm like that. Now I am sitting here feeling overwhelmed, I have an empty closet and clothes in suitcases and boxes. All my toiletries are out of place. I like things in their place and a clean house, that's when I feel good. If anything good came out of this it's that I realized that I do not need any more things until I decide on were I will live. I'm hoping to reach some sort of a decision about that soon. So, I am going to give away some things and throw away others, like old beauty products that expired. Stuff I just don't use. Somebody else can take it, or not.
And I also realized that I get very attached to people and places, some people leave a place and never look back. They don't stay in touch with the people they met ever again, they turn a completely new page. I'm not like that. So leaving/moving/saying goodbye etc, all of that is kind of traumatic for me. I remember one time when I visited Sweden and came back to the US, I cried so much on the plane.
The best is to be lucky enough to have one steady place. I have been in limbo for a while. And now I am in limbo and in a chaotic house. It will take me a while to get organized again.
But now it's time for a bath! And then sleep.
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Took a bath with bath salts, now I can't sleep.
Hope YOU are well! Hugs!
Jim Walters on :
Your friend and admirer,
Jim
TATIANA Post author on :
One of the reasons I had a difficult time leaving were the people I care for (like you) and my routines.....I feel safe here I guess. I don't know how I feel anymore. It's INSANE!!!!
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Annette on :
When your were on that boat didn't the coast guard come on board with guns?
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