Welcome to Chaos !!

I'm at Kaladi sipping on my latte and writing. I was supposed to meet Marlene for coffee but she didn't show up. WTF Marlene.....I am going to spank you when next time I see you!



I miss Vegas.....my life is so much more....full, I guess would be a good way to describe it there. Don't get me wrong, I live in a BEAUTIFUL house in Kenai, I'm surrounded by nature and forest but the weather sucks (most of the time) and this is the most boring and unfulfilling (for me) place I have ever spent a longer stretch of time in. That's how I feel.
Thank goodness I have a house in Vegas also and can escape to civilization when I have to. Here I am with a latte from Sambalatte in my hand, on my way to DO something.....instead of sitting at home (in Kenai) gaining ten lbs doing NOTHING. LOL. Well, "nothing" as in all the stuff that I do.....take care of stuff, like myself, Chhaya, work, my house, go camping, hiking occasionally and bla bla bla.....



So I have discovered a bunch of wonderful blogs about dancing on tumblr. Some are full of cool and beautiful pictures of fellow dancers and everything that attains to stripping and others have great writing and many words of wisdom. I'm addicted and I have to explore them some more! I like this.....it's from fuckyeahstrippershit.tumblr.com



One more thing. One of the girls that makes my coffee, actually one of my fave baristas asked me the other day if I'm a dancer. I said yes and we talked a bit about it. She told me she kind of wants to start dancing, She is a very beautiful young girl but too young.....she is only 19.
I personally think you should wait until you are at least 21-23 to start dancing (depending on personal maturity level) although some clubs have girls as young as 18 dancing. I think that's too young, those girls are still children in my opinion and many of them are too vulnerable to anything negative that might come their way. I'm going to go back to the coffee shop tomorrow and we are going to talk some more about it. She doesn't know about my blog, I might not tell her about it but I'm going to show her something that I think all dancers should read, full of great advice and wisdom and I agree with most of it! Good read for non dancers too, that want to understand a bit more about this line of work. Here are some examples......

"Being in a clear, sound mental state is required to make solid money as a stripper. Not just suggested. REQUIRED. I don’t want any of this “I’m desperate for money so I’m gonna strip!” bullshit. Clubs don’t need thirsty girls. They don’t need addicts. They don’t need girls with problems who have “no other options”. They need sane, responsible, intelligent women. If you are ruled out through these minimal qualifications, please, for the love of my sanity, turn back now."

"If they try to haggle your prices, tell them this shit isn’t a flea market it’s a strip club."

"Don’t do anything you aren’t comfortable doing!"

"If you can’t do it sober, you shouldn’t be doing it at all."

Whoever Stella is that wrote that.....I love her! Read the whole thing
HERE

I saw a pic like this of a dancer suitcase on a tumblr blog dedicated to dancers (strippers) a while back. I can't remember which one now but the pic that I saw inspired me to create my own pic, with my own stuff, inside my own dancer suitcase. You like?





There are some really cool blogs on tumblr dedicated to dancers! I enjoy looking at them.

So since Mandy (girl that reads AND comments the blog....thank you very much) informed me that the full moon aka pink moon is happening tonight, I decided to venture out right before sunset to see the moon for myself. I watched the sun go down somewhere behind Mount Redoubt that I can see from the road leading up to my house, the sky was pink and pretty.....then it slowly turned grey and finally dark. I was outside (with Chhaya of course) for at least one hour looking up in the sky and all around me, searching for the moon. But there was no moon in sight. Last night when I drove to work right after sunset the moon was out and it was big and beautiful but no moon tonight. Weird. There were clouds in the sky tonight but not in the area where I saw the moon while driving to work last night. I thought that the moon would be somewhat in the same place tonight as it was last night at the same time?
So I'm in bed, ate some chocolate, Chhaya is sleeping. I'm going to start a new book.
All Woman and Springtime by Brandon W. Jones. It's about the life of a girl growing up during bad circumstances in North Korea and that eventually ends up being forced into sex work in the US. Since trafficking is an issue that I feel very strongly about, I know that I will find this book interesting. Unfortunately, the book about the Russian orphan Tatiana wasn't as good as I had hoped for.....it left me felling like.....EH?
Since I left work so early last night and still had lots of energy when I got home I decided to try my new French Rose Clay mask from evanhealy. It's different from any other clay mask I've tried before because you mix the clay (looks like a terracotta pink powder, very pretty) with equal parts of water and then you apply the paste onto the face. I liked it a lot, worked well on the impurities in my skin that I wanted to get rid of. Of course I put the selfie machine to work. It's all for you....you who read this.

This Sunday is coming to an end. I'm at work.....I have been very ambitious lately, focused and full of energy. There is nothing going on here but I'm happy because I'm watching Rihanna music videos, fawning over her, loudly telling nobody in particular that she is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen and fantasizing about her coming into a club I work at and falling in love with me.....because I'm totally in love with her. YUM!
I usually do errands in town on weekends and that means a stop at Kaladi for a latte.



Found these two cards.....they are so me - I'm fabulous and amusing. Right?! You are too, don't let anybody tell you anything different!



I also started on a new book I got earlier this week when I had a layover at LAX.
Mind Of Winter by Laura Kasischke. I had to get it, it's about a perfect fairy princess named Tatiana. How fitting! 🙂



Remember to go outside and get a glimpse of the full moon this Tuesday....it's supposed to be a rather unusual one, might turn orange or red if I understand it right....and there will be a lunar eclipse. I hope for a clear evening so I can take some pictures.

Just did a load of laundry.....stripper laundry. A few thongs. I just wash them in the tub while I'm washing myself. The other night some kid was in here begging to get hired on as security......yeah, so he can try to talk to us all night long/work. I told him that there are lots of obligations that come with working as a security guy at a strip club. I mean, I can slap the guys around myself if and when they annoy me, I don't need a security guy for that.
If somebody gets too out of line I just maul their crotch with my heels. Anyhow, what are the obligations you might wonder? Foot rubs when required, even if the feet are stinky. Also hand washing of our underwear - thongs, boy shorts.....clean, crusty, smelling a bit fishy....you name it....the security guy has to do the stripper laundry. Clean our shoes with baby wipes. He also needs to offer a shoulder to cry on or be available for angry tantrum outburst when we are having a bad night for any reason. Once I explained all of this to him he said he wasn't interested any longer.....his friend on the other hand said that he would gladly take on all the responsibilities. Now that's a real man! He got hired on the spot.

You might wonder how the baby is doing? Like the princess that she is. I love Chhaya so much and it wasn't fun to be away from her for so long while I was in Vegas but I only bring Chhaya on trips where I can drive to whatever destination I'm going or when I am away for several months. Flying with Chhaya is traumatic for me and I'm sure for her too, so Chhays only flies when absolutely necessary.
I am feeding her well, here she is about to enjoy rice, steak, boiled carrots, some avocado and a little turmeric sprinkled in there. And her glucosamine pills. I should probably take some of those too.....for my old brittle bones.....LOL.



Then she gets to take a nap, looking like cutest puppy ever. Yesterday I woke up with Chhaya plastered against my body, I was on the edge of the bed barely hanging on. Typical Chhaya. She can do no wrong in my eyes.....the baby!