Welcome to Chaos !!

I have been trying to upload some pics on to here for at least two hours now.......and still nothing......you can't say that I am not at least trying!
So annoying! You know, typical first world problems.....I want to show you some pics from today's outing with Lexi, we went to a lake, had on bikinis and the internet or whatever the problem might be, is preventing me from it. Another first world problem I sometimes encounter......when my fake eye lashes don't look the way I want them to or when I want my vanilla latte and the coffee place is closed. AAAARGGGGHHHHH!!!
Anyways, I am going to give up on the attempts to upload the pics from today. I will try again tomorrow.

So yesterday I reluctantly got out of bed at 8 45 AM (way too early for me) to start getting ready for my photo shoot. It looked kind of cloudy outside, so I called the photographer (his name is Mike) and told him in my best shitty morning mood voice that it did not look promising - weather wise outside. Kind of hoping he would agree to that and reschedule so I could crawl back under the covers. But nooooooo, he sounded chipper and nice and told me he had already started driving here from Anchorage. I am not the nicest person in the morning, I can admit to that.
It takes me about 30 minutes to wake up and feel normal, this is if I have to wake up at ungodly hours like 8 45 AM. When I get to wake up at my normal time, around noon,
I am rested and nice, unless I am hungry, then I am cranky - until I get some food in me. I had stayed up until 3 AM the night before, painting my nails and showering, besides I do not go to bed before 2 AM, even if I don't work.
Anyways, I met up with Mike, drove out to Captain Cook State Park, shot in two different locations.
He sent me a file with 700 pics from the shoot to review and I am happy with many of them. So I think it went well. OF COURSE I will show all of you the results. You know me, I just loooooooveeeeeee, I can't stress this enough - loooooooveeeeeee pics of myself and showing them to all kinds of people. LOL. Yes, I do! It's so much FUN!!! Nothing wrong with being narcissistic, at least I am totally aware of this condition myself, instead of pretending otherwise.......
By 4 PM the sun was behind some thick clouds and I was shivering on a beach in Alaska, so I told Mike that unfortunately we would have to end the shoot. Next time I need to bring an assistant that can keep me warm in between posing and light adjustments with a large towel and hot chocolate and tell me if my hair looks crazy or if my outfit needs some adjustment.
From personal experience, most photographers overlook details like that and then when I see the pics I sometimes cringe because that can make or brake the picture.
I even had Chhaya with me in some of the shots, super cute! Anyways, enough yapping about the photo shoot.
Today I started out my day by laying outside in the sun. After that I met up with Lexi for some lunch and girl talk. We mostly talked about work and what's been going on there lately. We are both dissatisfied with certain things. But you already know what makes me annoyed at work, so I am not going to bring that up right now. Later on I got busy with cleaning, organizing and laundry. And now I am laying in bed........blogging and watching tv. Life is good!

I have a shoot tomorrow. Hopefully I will get some good images from it, you never know. I've had some shoots before where I basically didn't like a single pic. Annoying. And then some shoots are just ok and some I looooove many of the pics, that is a successful shoot in my opinion. For example the shoots that I've done with Barry Gallegos, I have many of his pics of me in the blog.
So......I am hoping for a few good pics tomorrow!

I have been getting so many e mails sent to me and girls commenting on my Williston entries about how they can get a job dancing at either Whispers or Heartbreakers. I have been answering every single one because I believe it is the nice thing to do. But to the girls that want to work there, if you read this......things sometimes change at those two clubs. If you have read my blog for a while or if you just now came across it, you should know that I do NOT live in Williston and neither do I go there often to work. I do not know how much money YOU can possible make there. And I do not know where you should stay or who you should contact for work there anymore, since managers, information etc change there every so often.
I can advice you of that it takes MONTHS to book a motel room in that town, the two cheapest places that I know of are The Vegas and The Travel Host. Or check on Craislist or something to find a room for rent. Whispers used to house girls, I do not know if they do anymore, it is very possible.
I also HEARD, don't know if it's true, that Whispers recently started charging $120/night in house fees to work, just as Heartbreakers does. It used to be less (at both clubs). And the amount of girls working every night at Whispers also increased and I've heard girls say that it is no longer worth going there. I don't know.
It might not be worth it to YOU but for somebody else it might be. Everybody has a different opinion and experience.
Am I going back there? It is very possible, if I do - I will let you know here, on my blog, you just have to keep on reading!
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When you have resided in the state of Alaska for some time, over a year, you are entitled to receive something called Permanent Fund Dividened. Even babies get it, so if you have five kids or so - it really pays off to live here. I've gotten a few of these once a year "bonuses" as I see it now, the amount won't make you wealthy by any means, it usually hovers around $ 1000, give or take a few hundred. Enough for a roundtrip ticket to Vegas or Hawaii, or if you have kids, you can buy yourself something nice instead of saving for the kids.......I have seen people do this, buy a tv or a motorcycle for the hubby instead of putting the money into a savings account for the kid/s.
I would never waste somebody else's money like that but you know how some people are, I guess a motorcycle for the boyfriend or hubby is more important than the child's future.
Anyways, there are commercials on tv informing people of what they can do with their Permanent Fund Dividend, like give the money to charity. I think that is a great idea and I want to tell you to what charity you should give your money to. MINE of course!!! Give YOUR (not your underage kids) dividend to me! I ALWAYS NEED $$$ for spa treatments, trips, new Stardust platform heels, Honey Dew undies, pink MAC lipglosses, a nice purse etc. At least if you give it to me you will know that the money will be spent by me on me. Not on some motorcycle for a guy.
If you give it to some other charity, most of the money will be put in the pockets of some office people and some change might end up to feed somebody hungry. If you want to feed somebody hungry, donate food directly to the local food bank or give the money in the hand of a homeless person. Or volunteer your time at some shelter or something. If not, then donate that Permanent Fund Dividend to me!

Got a text from work around 7 30 PM, asking if I was coming into work tonight, guys were already there but no girls. I was in the kitchen, busy whipping up pancakes, looking forward to a nice relaxing evening at home. So I texted back, "No, sorry". I almost wrote, "Why should I even bother? I guess charging $ 20 for a $ 40 dance, getting your VAGINE fingered for that price too and rubbing some crotch is way more appreciated lately than looking good and following the rules."
They can have the chunky chicks at work scaring away the guys. Clubs should start realizing the importance of taking care of quality girls when they are lucky enough to have them. Nobody wants some unattractive girl squeezed into some too small bikini, breathing down on you, hustling you for some money. Therefore the cheap dances and everything else that goes on. These girls that do that should be ashamed, please do not call yourself a stripper if you are getting fingered during a dance - you are a whore, that's the truth. A cheap whore too, on top of that. Take that "craft" outside of the club, thanks you!
I stayed at home, with my dog and my pancakes. Watching the Olympics, amazed over these people that run fast, jump high - WOW! I really admire them.



I have a candle in my window, it's an IKEA candle, so it's Swedish but it was made in Poland - just like me! 🙂
Every item that you can buy at IKEA has a Swedish name, this candle is called "Tindra",
that means twinkle.