Entries by TATIANA

First of August is here already......NOOOOOOO! I am feeling panic inside. Panic that it is August ALREADY and that means that this summer is almost over.
I sat on a bench located on the Sellwood Bridge this day of August 1st 2021 and watched the sky over Portland change colors as it got later in the evening, feeling nostalgic thinking about the summers of my life that went by (too fast as summers often do) and also feeling sadness. Sadness over the state of the world which is terrible.



I feel like we (and when I say "we" I mean humans) are destroying this planet. It is happening. I feel bad for all the teenagers and children that have to take on this mess. What is their future going to look like? I feel bad for all the innocent animals that suffer every day because of us and experience their natural habitats shrinking and getting progressively polluted.
Things are getting more and more out of control. This COVID thing. It doesn't make any sense, what's next in this constantly evolving virus? People's crazy is coming out more and more. The ugliness of human behavior is all over. Increasing random violence. For the first time ever I am thinking that being outside in public might not be safe because there are too many daily random violent acts committed everywhere now. Like everywhere. If you dare flying there might be an episode of rage by somebody fueled by some substance cause sobriety seems to be rare.HOW SAD! I know I am not the only one feeling this way.
Please everybody, face and take on your personal responsibility when possible. No need for more stuff if you already have enough. No need for a new cellphone every year. That new car on a regular. No need to jet off on far away vacations every year. No need to flaunt massive wealth, do something good instead! Do NOT litter. Pick up other people's trash.
Consider the animals. NO it is not your right to abuse them, kill them and eat them. Actually it is NOT. People are complaining that the price of bacon might go up because new animal welfare laws are going to take effect. The new legislation establishes a minimum space requirement for breeding pigs, calves raised for veal, and egg-laying hens, and bans the sale of eggs, pork, and veal from producers who do not comply with those minimum space requirements. Finally I say! Eat some salad you selfish assholes. You are OK with eating veal? A BABY calf? Or eating an animal that lived its whole life under terrible conditions? Some people can't even understand that animals should AT LEAST be humanely treated before slaughter. No wonder this world looks like it does. There are so many delicious things to eat besides meat. Wake the fuck up and evolve into a more compassionate human being. I honestly loathe humans. Ye I know I am not perfect and free of faults but I TRY to better myself and do my part when I can. Some people are so deeply selfish and do not care about anything besides their own wants and needs, I guess those are the ones I loathe. I know there is good out there. But sometimes I feel like the good that is out there is not enough.....that the bad is taking over.
Some of my thoughts on this beautiful summer evening while watching the colorful sky slowly turn dark over Portland.

This month's full moon is called the Buck Moon and I decided to go outside tonight and let the moon shine on me. A long walk.....me and my friend Allison walked for about two hours and twenty minutes and she keeps a pretty fast pace. I can definitely feel it in my tired legs now.
It is so gorgeous and so nice outside. Balmy and warm. The summer is in full bloom and I don't want it to end.
Walking and talking about life with a friend.....one of the better things one can do.
It is getting late and I am tired and as usual I have a busy day tomorrow. Here are some pics from tonight's walk with the moon. Portland is beautiful.

It is already past 6 pm this sunny Monday in July. I finally had some time to spend on the blog. Let me tell you about last week.....
I did a bit of self pampering, I have been so lazy on that front for years now actually. Perhaps I should just invest a large chunk of money in some ablative laser sessions, a large dose of botox and sit back and relax for a few years?
My friend Jen gave me this very soothing sheet mask with spirulina, I liked it. I need more. Another face mask I do on occasion when I feel motivated is slather my face with Manuka honey and leave it on for at least 20 minutes.



Another super exciting event in my life is that I got a new shampoo and conditioner. Yeay! Hydrate Me Wash and Hydrate Me Rinse by Kevin Murphy. I have been wanting to try this hair care line for years and I finally did something about it. You can find Kevin Murphy in some hair salons or get the products online. I also want the Hydrate Me Masque and the Angel Masque.



Yesterday I had Pet Pack. I do that 2-4 Sundays a month. My friend Mario that I see during Pet Pack has given me all of this so far. So nice! I told him that I want a pink sapphire as well. Give me moooooore!



Then I went to my friend Richard's memorial. He used to drink White Russians so I sipped on one for him. Richard you are very missed.



There was food and the cupcakes had decorations that reflected one of Richard's passions - trains.



When I got home I sat down and tried this non alcoholic Rosé by Töst. Very yummy.
I highly recommend it!



Let's see what this week brings.....I am getting exhausted just thinking about it. I am planning on sinking into my couch and watching some Netflix tonight, I haven't done that for a while. The plan is to check out Cat People, I heard that the first episode features Portland's Cat Rapper - Moshow.

I had to escape the city and go back up into the mountain area for cooler temperatures. And it wasn't much cooler there either but better than being in the city. Most restaurants were closed in Mount Hood due to the unusually high temperatures. It was 115 degrees F in Portland yesterday. That is 46 in Celsius. Unreal.
It was unbearable in my apartment Saturday during the day and way into the night. I felt like I was trapped inside a hot box with no moving air, I could not see myself suffer in there for two more days and nights. So.....back to Mount Hood.
Had a huckleberry shake at Huckleberry Inn at Government Camp.



Ahhhhhh nature! The sound of the river kept me company throughout the night.











And I brought a book. I have not been reading books at all lately. All my reading is online so it was nice to actually hold a book and turn the pages. I really like this book.....
When Plants Dream by Daniel Pinchbeck and Sophia Rokhlin. I think that I am ready to start exploring plants on a deeper level soon.

Yesterday I escaped Portland's heat and went up to Timberline Lodge on Mount Hood to watch another moon rise. Last time I was there was on 4th of July for that full moon.
Mount Hood is a potentially active volcano (so mostly dormant) and there is still snow up there and a few people were skiing.



I don't know the name of this flower because I think I never noticed it before but I really like it, it was everywhere and grows in clusters and the clusters look like groups of little beings standing around. Super cute!



The moon is showing itself.





The exterior of Timberline Lodge was used in The Shining. Kind of spooky actually.



So we have a heat wave arriving here starting tomorrow. An excessive heat warning is in effect from 10 am tomorrow until 11 pm on Monday. 107, 114 (that is 45.5 degrees Celsius by the way) and 110 the next three days. I was thinking about getting an AC a few months ago, now the same unit is about $130 more. I do not like feeling like I am getting bamboozled, which to me that is an example of so I am most likely going to escape the heat and go somewhere cooler tomorrow. Or find an AC somewhere.

Today it was Britney's day in court and I have been reading most of the articles that came out about it so far and her transcribed statement. She spoke for 23 minutes and was asked to slow down a few times by the judge because she spoke too fast. I get it, she had a lot to say and it is time that she gets heard. Long overdue. I bet she felt relived afterwards.
If you been reading my blog you know that I love Britney, she can do no wrong in my eyes. Well.....I do think her latest dance video she posted to her Instagram a few days ago was totally cringe and it has been obvious that things have not been ok with her since a long time judging from some of her pictures and the sadness in her eyes but I get it.....she has not been feeling good. And I am not surprised a bit. Her truth is finally coming out and I feel truly bad for her, what she had to endure for so many years. I do hope the conservatorship comes to an end. Like now. Free Britney for real! It is great that she has so many devoted fans that are speaking up on her behalf and demanding justice for her.
Funny how when Charlie Sheen was talking about his tiger blood, admitting to spending millions on sex with random ladies for pay, indulging in hard drugs on a daily basis, got arrested for domestic violence but was still allowed to see his kids, spawn off to make more kids and make decisions for himself. Not even a suggestion of a conservatorship for him and people that are like him.
But Britney should have her life controlled for 13 years? Her parents, yes even her Mom are awful. I would never do this to my child. They are such leeches. Get a job on your own and stop taking advantage of your daughter.
And that car that Britney hit with an umbrella back in the day that people are so focused on......? She asked repeatedly to be left alone and then she had enough. Trust me, I want to bash in cars and walls with an umbrella or a bat on a weekly basis cause I feel fed up with shit and I feel rage. Does that mean I am crazy? No. That means I have feelings. If you don't have feelings perhaps work on that ok?
Britney is amazing and she so deserves to be happy and feel free. I don't know much about her boyfriend Sam but I hope that he is with her for the right reasons. I don't like Justin at all, never did and Kevin was no good as well, another leech.
Anyhow.....I hope things will start to turn around for Britney now. ❤️