Entries by TATIANA

It's Saturday, cold and gray outside with a resemblance of a sun shining somewhere far away in the gray sky. I can feel that moody winter blues slowly setting in, not good. There is snow here already although today it's heavy, wet and a little slushy today.
I worked three nights so far - work has been uneventful. There is not a lot of money to be made here now but I can't sit around at the house, doing nothing and live off my savings - that would be really dumb.
I managed to go to the gym yesterday and I am going to try to keep that up a few times a week throughout the winter. Last February or so I thought I got chunky, for me, I don't want that to happen this winter.
Right now I really miss Vegas and what I have there. 😥
My plans for today? Walk with Chhaya, gym then work. At least I have Chhaya, she makes me happy.
That's all I have for now. Boring......I know, I know but that's how I feel today......boring and gray.

Marlena Bielinska is a Polish photographer that gets published in Playboy and many other magazines......I like her. I love her nudes that she has on her site.
She should look me up so we can create some beautiful art together.
http://marlenabielinska.com/

Speaking of something else, I really need at haircut. I was supposed to get it cut around Halloween in LA but since Monster Massive got cancelled I didn't go to LA. So I have to find some place here in Kenai, going to get a trim, around one inch I think.
This lady had REALLY long hair, she was PMOY in 1978, Debra Jo Fondren.





Image Source Page http://www.stronacentralna.iscool.pl/1977.htm

OMG, I just saw this! Kate: The Kate Moss Book. Author Kate Moss. ❤!!! I LOVE Kate, she is absolutely my fave model, though I love and appreciate many models, who doesn't appreciate drop dead gorgeous women? But Kate......there is something about her.....she is also a Capricorn like me, so I know she is a fierce and temperamental girl.......I NEED Kate's book! ❤

Here are the last pics I am sharing from the waterfall shoot a few months ago. There is snow here now and winter is here. I hope I will be able to manage the winter ok, it's easy to become unmotivated and stagnant during the winter months here in Alaska.
Maybe I have to occupy myself with the gym and some swimming a few times a week. And work.





Photographer Gutierrez Photography.

I just watched Obama's acceptance speech. I think it was a good one with a great message, no matter where you stand in the political spectrum it is important to work together for the greater good. My opinions will differ from yours, we all come from different backgrounds but that doesn't mean that we can't get along. And respect each other.
Here are some snippets from the speech that I especially liked......

".....the belief that while each of us will pursue our own individual dreams, we are an American family and we rise or fall together as one nation and as one people."

"That’s where we need to go -- forward.
Now, we will disagree, sometimes fiercely, about how to get there. As it has for more than two centuries, progress will come in fits and starts. It’s not always a straight line. It’s not always a smooth path."

"But that doesn’t mean your work is done. The role of citizens in our Democracy does not end with your vote. America’s never been about what can be done for us. It’s about what can be done by us together through the hard and frustrating, but necessary work of self-government. That’s the principle we were founded on."

"I have always believed that hope is that stubborn thing inside us that insists, despite all the evidence to the contrary, that something better awaits us so long as we have the courage to keep reaching, to keep working, to keep fighting."

"......it doesn’t matter who you are or where you come from or what you look like or where you love. It doesn’t matter whether you’re black or white or Hispanic or Asian or Native American or young or old or rich or poor, able, disabled, gay or straight......"

I like the part about that a citizens role doesn't end with a vote. I believe that every adult here on this planet has a personal responsibility to try to be a good person and do their part in the collective good for humanity, no matter where you live. You can always do SOMETHING good. Every effort, big or small counts.
I like that Obama seems to love his wife very much, he has a beautiful family. And I also like that he is open-minded to gay issues. A president should be open-minded and forward thinking.
That whole mumbo jumbo about abortion and rape that came out of some stuffy old confused mans mouth is just ridiculous.
I belive in womens rights and pro choice in case you wonder.
I also believe in population control, animal rights, peace, the urgent need to address environmental issues, that people need to stop littering, the legalization of drugs, the importance of education, personal freedom, free health care paid for by taxes, much less pro-corporate, the importance of human rights, not too much government interference and an honest government that works for the people and wants the good for people in general with no hypocricy, lies and much less emphasis of the love of money.

And no, I didn't vote. I can't, I am not a citizen. But I did make sure to take somebody to vote, so I think I contributed somewhat.
Who would I had voted for? Hmmmmmmm, I would had probably voted Independent.
That's all from me for now......GOOD NIGHT!

Finally my pics from Halloween......because I know all of you are just DYING to know what I did for Halloween. Right?! I usually go to LA but that didn't happen this year since Monster Massive got cancelled.......again. 😥
So I went out in Vegas instead. As a bad kitty. I did not have anything prepared outfit wise besides a pair of cat ears that I threw into my suitcase last minute when I was packing for my trip weeks ago. So I painted on some black make up, a nose and whiskers, put on the ears and became a kitty cat, a bad one of course. My pink claws were out.
MJAAAAAAAUUUUUU !!!!!



I went to Surrender at Encore with Mikey and my new Swedish friend Ulrika that was a sexy cop.









I usually don't care for clubs in Vegas nowadays, too crowded, no place to sit, I don't like the music etc etc. But I had a great time! The dj was Steve Angello. He is part of The Swedish House Mafia, they should not use the word House to describe themselves at all, their style is too trancey but towards the end he managed to bust out some good songs and played some good ones throughout his set too. But I much rather prefer some darker, real house but I still had fun.
The bad kitty was very popular that evening. Like always.
When I go out I want to DANCE, have fun, take pictures, look at all the cute girls and boys and let loose. I usually want to stay until the end and if there is a fun after hours I do not mind going there to check it out either. I can sleep later. This is the girl who danced until the music ended at noon at a club called SpiderGalaxy in Zurich. And I came out of there full of energy and super happy. You might think, drugs. No honey, I don't need drugs.
I did have ONE drink on Halloween, Mikey made me like Mandarin Vodka and Seven Up - very yummy.





As all kitties, I am vain and love to primp.



I don't mind giving out compliments and make people blush by being very forward and fun but that's where the fun ends........I am unavailable and unattainable. Even my crush Chester Bennington would have to put in some effort to get some Tatiana.





Unfortunately another person that was with us ended up ruining the whole evening for me and Ulrika with his violent, angry and crazy behavior. I really regret leaving early to take his dumb ass home, I should had stayed and continued to dance and enjoy my Halloween.
But whatever, lesson learned and it won't happen again since that was the last time I am going out with him. Good! I can't surround myself with people like that anymore. And I am not talking about Mikey.



The next day I was walking around with a smile on my face and felt great. It is amazing what some dancing can do! Like I have said for a long time - dancing is therapy. At least my kind of therapy.