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I am in bed eating Nutella out of the jar with a spoon, yummy. But Nutella makes my teeth ache sometimes so I have to make sure to brush them before I go to bed. I don't want any cavities.
I felt too tired, lazy and comfortable to go to work tonight. And I think I will actually go to sleep soon instead of staying up until 4 am. Have to do the dishes first, take a bath and put away some clothes. I did four loads of laundry last night and I hang dry a lot of my clothes so I have to put them away tonight. I am very particular about my laundry, so happy I have a washer and dryer now, going to the laundromat can be kind of freaky. I always get slightly grossed out when I think of what was being washed in the machine before I put my dainty Hanky Panky undies or flimsy tank tops in there. I once spotted a pubic hair on top of a washer at the laundromat in Soldotna, YUCK! I know we all have pubic hairs but I don't want random people's pubes in my laundry.
Do you? I hand wash my Honey Dew's I wear at work and all my bra's. I had a slave doing that for a while but I had to get rid of him, he got too cranky when I didn't give him enough undies to wash. I don't have energy to deal with attitudes. The only attitude allowed around here is MINE.
So......I am really looking forward to watching two movies, Silver Linings Playbook and Side Effects . I so hope they will be showing here! It takes a little longer for movies to make it to my neck of the woods.
I am still thinking about ordering that super pretty bracelet from Henri Bendel with the purple rhinestones, I have been thinking about it for a while now. The only thing is that my hair sometimes gets caught in the rhinestones......These are the bracelets that are on my bedside table right now.

It was difficult to get up and get going today, gray out. Funny that the weather can have such an impact on a person. All I wanted to do was to pull the covers over my head this morning, well noon is morning for me and hibernate like a bear. But I got up, it snowed some more last night........my car had a thin layer of new snow on it.



I went to Coffee Roasters for a vanilla latte and a blueberry scone and my day miraculously improved instantly!



The snow will be melting soon enough......like at the end of April. ONLY about three more months! Yeay! Meanwhile I can look through all my pics of warmer climates, like this one on an empty stretch of road in the desert........



Photographer Barry Gallegos. You want to see all the other pics that Barry took of me in the blog? I know you do because they are AMAAAAAZING........Barry is that good! Just type in his name in the search bar in the upper right hand corner. And voilà!

And I laughed today when I saw
this
Those are some funny pics of Beyonce! And yes, she is very talented and beautiful but I find her kind of boring and predictable. She always does the same marching, stomping and head jerking dance. The same for years now. I don't think it looks good. Rihanna is so much more interesting! And HOT!!!!

So most people that live in the US heard about the horrific rape that happened in India back in December, unless you live under a rock or do not care about any kind of media, well good that you read my blog at least.
I felt SO bad for the girl that suffered through that and have thought of her pretty much every day since I heard about that rape. If you do not know about it.....the girl got gang-raped on a bus by six men and brutally sodomized, she later died from her injuries. She was only 23. As I am writing this I am fighting back tears. I know that there have been other rapes in India and all over the world since then. It happens all the time.
The problem with India and countries where many view woman as property or second class citizens is that rape often goes unpunished when reported. The men get a slap on the wrist, they might pay a bribe and get away with no punishment. Many of the women are ashamed that they got raped, many do not report it because they do not want to bring shame on their family.
I even read that the scumbag defense lawyer appointed to a few of the so called human beings that committed the rape made a public statement in where he put some of the blame on the victim. You know, she was asking for it type of mentality. Really? She was asking for it? This poor girl, OMG my heart aches for her. Yeah, she asked to get her intestines pulled out, to get a metal rod shoved in her, to have six nasty strangers taking turns gang-raping her.
" The lawyer representing three of the men accused of gang-raping a student aboard a bus in India last month blamed the victim for the attack, saying "respected" women in India are not raped.
Manohar Lal Sharma said 23-year-old Jyoti Singh Pandey and her male friend were "wholly responsible" for the horrific torture they suffered in the Dec. 16 attack in New Delhi because they were an unmarried couple on the streets at night, the Sydney Morning Herald reported.
"Until today I have not seen a single incident or example of rape with a respected lady," Sharma told the newspaper. "Even an underworld don would not like to touch a girl with respect."
WTF????????!!!!
Or how about a statement made by some obviously delusional self proclaimed Indian "spiritual" leader.
"Asaram Bapu told followers in a sermon that the victim was as responsible as her attackers, and that she should have "chanted god's name" and "fallen at their feet" to beg for mercy. "Guilt is not one-side" Bapu said in the sermon. “She should have called the culprits brothers and begged before them to stop," he added."

I am sure she did BEG THEM TO STOP!!!!! I want all six to die, execute them! Why waste any money on keeping them alive, feeding them, giving them space. Kill them. Of course they are all pleading not guilty and might get out of this free. But you know what, if even one of them did not want to participate in the rape or felt against it, I guess he could had gotten off that bus!
But none of them got off the bus.

I am not saying that rapes do not happen here in the US, yes women get raped here too. But the majority of the public's ATTITUDES towards rape differs. You are not going to have some defense lawyer making a public statement in a case like this saying that the victim asked for it or that respectable women don't get raped. I mean, that would cause huge protests and I don't even think a defense lawyer would dare say something like that here (in the US), he would get fired and shunned by society. And rightfully so. Or dudes walking around thinking that raping somebody is not a big deal and that they can just rape and most likely get away with it. Yes, men rape women here but I suspect most of them are aware that rape is punishable and not accepted.
You know, I thought about it when I was at the gym last week. I was walking on the treadmill, in the same room as me were five guys also working out. I was the only girl. Not even once did I feel afraid that even one of them would dare put a finger on me, let alone that all five would gang up and hurt me in any kind of way. I feel that I can move around freely and do whatever without some man acting in a threatening way towards me. Sure there have been times when I have looked over my shoulder, walking home alone at night for example. Or to my car. I rather make sure I am safe. I've had confrontations with dumb asses that mouth off to me at work but I am not afraid that they are going to rape me. And I do not feel that a woman should EVER feel shame if a man rapes her.
But I guess in places like India and many other countries as a woman you can't ever feel safe. You live in fear or you just stay away from society and stay inside or hide under a burqa when doing errands because men supposedly can't control themselves when around women that show some skin, even if it's just some arm or a lower leg or form fitting clothing.
FUCK THAT! It makes me so pissed off! Women should carry around tasers or guns and blast perverts in the nut sack if they even step an inch too close for their comfort. It is not the women that should avoid going about their business in society. If men can't control themselves and their sexual "urges" or whatever it is that makes somebody commit a rape then it is the men that need to avoid being out in society. Impose mandatory chemical castration on men that show a behavior that might lead to rape.
And don't think for a second that I am some kind of an angry man hater or think that all men are no good rapists. Absolutely not. I would never be around men as much as I am if I hated them,
I could never torture myself like that.

I found a blog called www.whiteindianhousewife.com
It's really interesting and Sharell, the woman writing the blog touches on the rape issue slightly, you can read that entry here
And make sure to read the comments too!
Well, with having said all of this, I am going to take out my contacts and try to sleep. It's almost 4 am and dark outside. I feel sad for the Indian girl and her family......... deep sigh . I hope she is in a beautiful place now. And I am grateful that I am free and that my snoring baby Chhaya is laying next to me in bed. Kicking me and showing her teeth, she is dreaming. So cute!

The sun is out and shining today! I have lots of energy and in a bit I am going to take Chhaya for a walk and then I am going to work on some projects around the house. I love getting things done and some days are great for that - like today!
I don't have a lot to write about right now, check back later. If I stay home tonight I will probably write a blog later......cause I know that YOU NEED!
❤



Photographer KANE

I read that Chris Kyle got shot dead at a gun range, I actually have his autobiography at home, * American Sniper *. I have a gun, when I lived in Sweden I would had never pictured myself with a gun and now I have one, although it scares me and I barely know how to shoot it. I thought of going to a gun range to practice but those places really freak me out because I think that there might be some psycho there at the same time as me, exactly what happened to Chris Kyle. And yes, that is my gun on the pic, I don't have the clip in on purpose, like I said - it scares me.

I need some more great books to immerse myself in........preferably a thick novel that will take me longer than two days to finish. Or I am going to have to dig around in my books here at home and re read some of them.

I met Lexi for lunch yesterday.......we ate at Fine Thyme cafe inside River City bookstore, it was good. The town was dead because most people were at home watching the Super Bowl. I had to stop by Kaladi first and get my vanilla latte though.
I got a brilliant idea, next time somebody asks me for my number at work I am just going to give them the number to the club! And they can call that all they want. LOL.
It's perfect. And kind of funny too! Me and Lexi were laughing about it.
Speaking of work........here is some news in the stripping world regarding a club in Fargo called The Northern that I have been thinking about trying out for a while now......

"FARGO, N.D. - Three dancers have settled a federal lawsuit against the lone strip club in North Dakota's largest city.
The dancers from North Dakota and Minnesota sued Ferny Properties LLC in December 2011 in U.S. District Court in Fargo, alleging they were owed more than $188,000 for work at The Northern Gentlemen's Club between 2008 and 2011.
The dancers' attorney, Leo Wilking, tells The Forum newspaper that the case has been resolved out of court and details are not being released."

Interesting and I am happy for the girls. Maybe The Northern is a good place to work at, I don't know. But at the same time, the rules that are in effect at all the other places that employ people apply even for us girls that dance. It seems like the majority of strip club owners seem to forget this small detail and that will not hold up in court. I need to sue!
$ 100 000 or more would not be bad. I have worked at some clubs where I had to pay anything from $ 50 -100 if I was sick on a scheduled day. Really?