Entries by TATIANA

Last week we were sitting around talking at work, things had slowed down for the evening, we were about to close and a bartender from another place in town was there talking about some girl that worked at the club before. Last Summer she met a guy up here and got married but I guess things got a little tough for them financially and she went back to her town, New Orleans to dance. And he said you heard that there are so many girls dancing in New Orleans and it is difficult for them to make money and many of them do whatever to make money. Sounds familiar, that is how it is in Vegas, the larger topless clubs have too many girls. And then he said that she leaves the club crying a lot because of the things she does to make money. I HAD to chip in at that point and said that I NEVER go home crying because I feel like I did something at work that I am not ok with. That's right, NEVER. Because you don't have to! No money is worth it and there is not enough money circulating in a strip club anyways that a girl should be doing whatever for $ 20 or $ 100 or even $ 500 or $ 1000, that is NOTHING. $ 1000 is not that much money. I mean, if you really are willing to compromise yourself like that, at least make it worth it and go for the big money. Go to Dubai and entertain some rich Arabs and come home with some serious cash, jewelery and nice hand bags. That is how I look at it. I would personally never do that, I'd rather have nothing but for the girls that do I think that makes more sense in a way. It is always amazing to me, the stuff I have witnessed girls do at work for paltry sums of money. Cheap dumb strippers.
I never liked this girl the guy was talking about anyways, she has a shitty attitude and changes her voice at work. She talks normal in the dressing room and then when she is out in the club talking to guys she has the most annoying whiny "little girl' voice. She sounds like a total idiot.
I am allergic to girls that dumb themselves down or change they way they act or talk, to be more "pleasing" when they are around guys, that is so annoying and I do not see the point in that.
I quickly assessed my personal limits in this line of work. In the beginning I was a little unsure and nobody explained much to me. But I decided early on that I would not do things that I am uncomfortable with. I saw things and I got confronted with situations and I made up my mind fast. And I stick to it. Also, the first club I danced at guys were not allowed to touch the girls so that too set the standards for me. Another thing is that I don't change who I am when I am around guys at work. I am never going to act like I am "worshipping" some guy at work just because he might spend some money on me. Fuck that. YOU worship ME, if anything. If you act like an ass to me at work, you have a bad attitude or something then you can shove your money up your culo cause I don't want it. I have expressed this many times in my blog and this issue will be on repeat now and then.......so if you don't like girls that stand up for themselves find another blog! Do not assume that you are smarter or better than me in any way just because you are a guy with money in the strip club. You don't know me. I am a feminist first of all and I am not going to bend over backwards to please any guy at work. And guess what! Surprise! I make plenty of money without having to do anything that compromises my beliefs. It is one thing to cry because you feel sad over some small stuff but to cry because you are letting strangers violate you, that is not good at all for your mental well being. If that was MY husband, that girl is married like I mentioned earlier.......I would not be ok with coming home to my husband at night crying from something like that. He would have to step it up somehow. Get a better paying job, or work two jobs. I am not married. Yet. And I would not work as a dancer anymore if it meant crying every other night. And to the girls that do work as dancers.......really, you DO NOT have to do anything that you are not ok with. There are RULES in the club, all the clubs I have worked at do not allow certain touching to go on, DON'T do it, stick to the rules and then you don't have to go home crying at night or feel shitty the next day when the alcohol wears off and you have to face yourself.

I LOVE Sheldon from Big Bang Theory . The first few times I accidentally saw that show I would get annoyed with it and change the channel. But Sheldon quickly grew on me and
Tatiana ❤ Sheldon now. He is sooooo funny and I love his personality. I wish that Sheldon was my friend in real life! I hope that he and Amy breaks up because I want to be Sheldon's new girlfriend. That would be funny, Sheldon dates a stripper! I need a dose of Sheldon everyday. BAZINGA!

Today I had latte from Kaladi twice. Hmmmmm, I have been thinking about getting a nice espresso machine so I can make lattes at home but I don't know if that would be a good idea,
I'd probably slurp down ten lattes per day.
It was snowy and gray here today, I felt like a slug. Felt so good to cozy up at home.



Anyways, sat at home this evening and watched the Grammys. Let's see......Tatiana's take on the Grammys......from what I watched, some of the stuff was boring so I went downstairs and made myself some food, mmmmmmm - fruit and yogurt.



I did not like J Lo's dress, that Angelina Jolie leg pose is over and done with, it made J Lo look bad like a copycat although her legs are nice and I didn't like that tight top knot on her head. Adele in her red dress reminded me of Mrs. Doubtfire. Taylor Swift, I am so oooooover her song about never ever getting back together with the latest boyfriend that wronged (dumped) her. She has too much drama with guys. I wonder what it is she is doing because none of the relationships are working out longer than a few months, it would be interesting if all her exes get together and write a song about her.
Justin Timberlake, I thought his song sucked and that he was trying to be like Bruno Mars with the band and everything. I suspect that his best days as a singer are behind him, the shrill high notes sounded bad and the crotch thrusting looked sad. I think that Bruno Mars did a good job like usual, I like his voice and he always looks happy and he is a cutie. Rihanna looked beautiful but I am bias to that cause I ❤ her. And they performed my fave Bob Marley Song, Could You Be Loved . Record of the year, Gotye Somebody That I Used To Know ? I absolutely agree! Oh and Sting.....search in the blog to read about the time I met him.
Now I am going to read my book. I love Sunday evenings at home!

It was 41° F here today, sunshine and melting snow. What if we will have an early Spring this year? I still haven't been to Alyeska to ski this Winter because the snow report has been mediocre so far, I hope to go at least once......preferably twice.
It's amazing what some sun, latte and food can do for my mood! I feel really happy today. YEAY!

I am glad I went to the gym yesterday because after getting sweaty I felt so much better. And later on I went to work. I am reading a book called * As She Woke * by Hillary Jordan and it's really good in case you want a book tip. I always welcome book tips because I love to read. This book touches on abortion although it's fiction and takes place in the future, I recommend it. I'm rereading it, got it a while back.

Last night I asked a few girls at work about their opinions about dragging your children with you on anti abortion rallies. And they totally agreed with me, that you should never do that. Kids have better things to do than stand on street corners with anti abortion signs in their hands. They agreed with me that it is an example of bad parenting. I was pink and black last night. Bra, Betsey Johnson. Panties, Honey Dew (like usual).

And here is a random ass crack from last night. Some eye candy for all you ladies that read my blog. SEKSI!!

I have been feeling like a zombie all day today. It was difficult to get out of bed, walking Chhaya felt like I was walking in slow motion. I know it's the weather. A lot of people that live here have a hard time with the winter, the lack of sun makes it difficult. I am not in the mood to do anything today, maybe cry and feel sorry for myself but what good is that going to do? I don't even have anything to cry over. LOL.
So, I am going to force myself to go to the gym and later I am going to work. I think I have PMS too so that makes it even better.

On another note. I still get comments and e mails about Williston and work there. If you read my blog you should be able to tell that I'm not working in Williston right now, I do not live there.
I live in Alaska. I have not worked in Williston for a year now, so I can't tell you whether the money is good or not or if you should go there and dance or not. Sorry. I have probably answered over 60 e mails and comments about Williston in the last year. And I do not mind being of assistance at all. One thing though......it is a common courtesy to say a simple Thank You when somebody helps you with something. Not everybody seems to be aware of this. I'm just saying.......

I can't wait for summer so I can be out and about and do fun things like camping and hiking!