Entries by TATIANA

Help, I have a problem.....my bra collection needs more room, the cups are runneth over!



There are now 19 bra's somehow crammed into the two top bins. Then there are two bins loaded with panties. And the bin on the bottom contains triangle bras and some g-strings. What am I going to do with all this when I quit dancing? Auction off some of the bra's and panties to my fans? Store it all away somewhere and forget about it? Maybe go through it 50 years from now and think back of the days gone by? I have several old outfits in Vegas that I would never dream of wearing at work again.



These are my latest Honey Dew's. On the door to my locker some of my fave ladies. Rihanna......I love her. I think she should be my girlfriend. Oh yummy! Kate.....I love her too,
I love everything about Kate, her face is absolutely exquisite and flawless. I need to get the latest issue of Playboy, Kate is on the cover and on several pages in the magazine.
Laetitia, just because I like the way she looks, gorgeous. I am very drawn to the aesthetically pleasing, well my interpretation of it. We all have our own ideas of what we like.

Here I am.....tired again. I feel like a zombie. Maybe I am a zombie? Maybe I am just like this .


Pic borrowed from adbusters.org

I need my latte every day, I buy stuff, I work, I pay bills, gas, food.....I do this, I do that. I just DO. Am I a consumer desensitized, latte-drinking, tv watching zombie? I don't know. All I know is that I am preparing for Christmas, I have about ten more days of doing and getting before I am done. I can't help myself, at least not this year (again).
I love Adbusters. It brings up stuff that is true but not so comfortable to confront and think about, always. If you have never read Adbusters, look for it at Barnes & Noble. You might take a liking to it.

I've been working too. I hate being bored and idle at work, it's the worst. I try to kill the boredom by reading, joking around, singing loud (my pipes can rival Christina Aguilera's if you catch me in the right moment), practicing my pole tricks (I'm going to have to show them off here soon and brag to all of you), take selfies and sometimes (if it's really boring) I take a nap. I would DIE if I worked in a clothing store, it seems so extremely boring to me, like a nightmare but you can't curl up and take a nap when bored, you just have to suffer through the workday.....fold clothes and stand around looking happy and whatnot. What horror!
Yes, I'd rather dance than work at some boring clothing store, thank you very much.
But another thing I hate at work, on a night when I feel extra annoyed, is stupidity or guys that think they are so sexy and suave and think that I should see this in them too and they hit on me and I'm like, "Ewwwww, just go away and leave me alone!" If you are not Rihanna or Vladimir Putin then I'm not interested. The other night some poor guy even admitted his own stupidity, he said that he was not that intelligent. I couldn't do much else than feel kind of bad for him. He was dumb, yes he was. A total bore. Do NOT expect me to try and engage you in some kind of a giving conversation, some people have limits on how smart they are, you can only bring out so much in them. I am a very impatient person and I can't stand being subjected to somebody daft. My body gets a restless feeling, I lose interest and start concentrating on other things. I'd much rather sit in serene quiet than talk about absolute nonsense or try to talk to somebody that is just dumb. And yes I know, dumb is not always a bad thing. You can be dumb but very kind. And kindness is a virtue. But I am kind and intelligent. Therefore, I go insane when I sometimes get subjected to the not so bright ones. On a night when I don't want to be bothered.
Last night some repeat idiot came in (meaning he was at the club not too long ago). Just like last time he was drunk and mean. Talking trash about the girls, we are ugly, whores, some are fat, gross bla bla bla.....girls in Seattle are better looking bla bla bla.....Guess, who finally told the asshole to shut the fuck up or else? Me. Of course. Do not come into my place of work and loudly insult me or any other girl working in there (regardless of if I like that girl or not).
I just won't have any of that. You think the girls in some other club are better? Good then get the fuck out of my place of business and go to that other club. How rude! After telling him what's up, he apologized several times. Of course. They all do. I told him to shut his mouth, go sit away from me and spend money or go home. He ended up falling asleep all alone by some table, a taxi came and hauled him out of there. Kind of sad, to get drunk like that in a public place, all alone. I felt a bit bad for him. But hey, don't take your issues and frustrations out on me, ok. Then some guy said, "But you are as good as it gets, in any club." Yes, thank you but I know this already. Even Clay (the dj) thinks I'm a goddess (his own words) and he has seen many ladies come and go over his 20 years working in the club. I know what I look like. That is not the point. You do not come into any club, sit down and loudly start spewing your nasty opinions around. Some girl might actually get sad. Me? You can think I'm ugly and this or that all you want, it doesn't bother me. What bothers me is your behavior. So shut the fuck up or I will shut you up real quick. Thank You, that was all from me today. This zombie is going to take a nap now.

I'm 12 years old. I love horses. The best thing I know is to be around them, pet them, clean them and when I can afford it......ride them. I want my own horse, that was my dream when I was 12. Life was easy. I was happy most of the time.



Shortly after that picture was taken, we moved from Stockholm to Växjö. I was not happy at all about having to say goodbye to my friends, start a new school and make new friends.
Say goodbye to my favorite horses at the stable Skutan that I would go to all the time. But I made new friends, good ones too......the kind you have for life.

Spent the afternoon at the movies with Lexi, we watched Catching Fire . And we both liked it. Now I am at home and I feel so tired, I don't know why.....it must be the weather, serious lack of sun today. I just want to hibernate. Wake up in the springtime. I also wiped out today, fell straight backwards right outside Coffee Roasters, the whole parking lot is just ice. Might as well ice skate to get my coffee instead of drive. Yaaaaawn.......I'm tired. Can't decide on work tonight......

My latest addition to my jewelry collection has arrived! A new body chain from TatiRocks, you can order Tatiana's jewelry on Etsy.com, look for TatiRocks. This is my second body chain, it's in sterling silver. I also got some earrings and a ring and Tatiana gave me a ring as a gift, how sweet! I will show you the earrings and the rings another time. The body chain came with a matching necklace. I like it! Pretty! I wore the body chain and the necklace last night. It is not easy to try to get a good picture when you take the pics yourself. I have already figured out that most of the girls that I work with don't do a better job at taking pictures (shaky hands, no clue on how to operate the camera/cellphone, don't know what looks good etc), so I just do it myself.





I love my bra, very sparkly as you can see. Victoria's Secret.

It's Monday and cold! I am fully recovered from what I figured out was food poisoning! YUCK!
I don't know if I ever had food poisoning like THAT before, I was out a whole day and night.
It grosses me out to think that I ate something that made my body react like that.
Today I woke up to sunny but cold weather. I took Chhaya out for a long walk. Do I want to venture out in the cold? Not really but Chhaya does. I cope by putting on lots of layers and Chhaya wears a sweater and boots, otherwise her little paws get cold. And I never regret the walk afterwards, it is always good to be outside. With a few exceptions. It is due to warm up here in a day or two and I'm looking forward to that. What else did I do today? Plucked my overgrown eyebrows, located a few blackheads on my nose and got rid of those. Squeeeeeeze! SEXY! At least I don't have a beard! LOL. In a bit I am going to the gym to sweat out whatever might be left of the nasty food poisoning germs in my body.
The other day a friend called me after reading that recent blog I wrote about being a total narcissist and taking a ton of selfies of myself and carefully told me that she does not think that I am a preoccupied-with-myself-narcissist at all. I laughed and said that it was written more as a joke. Yes, I do take lots of pics of myself but I have no problem owning up to it.......like some other people that pretend that they are not into themselves at all. A few months ago when I was taking pics of myself (for the blog) some lame girl in the dressing room was like, "What are you doing?" I said, "Taking pictures of myself, what else does it look like I'm doing?" DUH!!!! Then she proceeded to tell me in a snarky tone that she takes maybe one pic of herself a year. Ok, so very interesting, I will note that down......I thought to myself. Funny thing is, her Facebook is full of pics of herself and notes about that she is amazing and sexy (written by herself). What? LOL. She looks like a pregnant goat to me but we all have different taste.....I'm rather picky with my ladies. Next time I see her I will ask her about that. One thing I can't stand is hypocrites. I have a great memory (probably highly annoying for some, ha ha) for that stuff. If you say something or criticize something and then you do it yourself, I will be the annoying person that will hold you accountable for your past statements. It would be like me preaching about not letting guys ever touch my boobs during a lap dance but then do it anyways, that would make me a hypocrite, right? We are all full of flaws, at least I know I have a few.
Own up to them instead of pretending that you don't have them. Speaking of boob touching......Last time I worked some perv (a nice perv but an annoying perv still) kept on offering me more $ if he could touch mine. I kept on saying NOOOOO. He usually dances with FUGLY and The Bulldog, so I can just imagine what kind of dances he is used to.
After spending $ 300 on dances from me he finally understood that nothing more would happen and decided not to get anymore dances. No problem. I said a long time ago that if anyone catches me LETTING a guy touch my boobs at work I would give them $ 500 and that offer still stands. The key word here is "LETTING" as in allowing them to paw on my boobs without slapping their hands away or moving out the way. Sometimes (very rarely but it has happened, I'm not going to lie) people try to cop a feel. I am usually on top of things and see this and can avoid it but a few times it has been unavoidable. And I don't like it. A long time ago my friend Sara danced in Tokyo, I heard from so many people that I should had worked there (back in the day when it was good) because I could had made so much money there
(I guess my look is "popular" in Japan?). But at the club she worked boob touching was included in a dance, it seemed to me that if I wouldn't allow it I wouldn't make any money so I did not want to go and get subjected to that. I have always wanted to go to Japan and especially to Tokyo. Now I kind of think I should had went and tried it and seen if I could had worked without allowing any boob touching. And then just quit and tried a different club if I was uncomfortable with the situation. Getting your boobs milked and squeezed by a ton of different people on a regular basis, I could NOT handle that. BLEH! That's why girls drink or do drugs at work people. To cope. I don't. And then some of them are just alcoholics or druggies in general. Sara also told me that on average one girl a week would break down. Why I'm not sure. Too much to handle I guess? I know that they had a tough schedule, six day a week for three months.

One more thing before I go. I can see in my statistic what keywords bring people to my blog. Most just type in the blog address but others come across it by certain search words. Somebody typed in "men prefer fds spray or summers eve spray." LOL! I wrote a blog or two about girls at work frenetically spraying down their VAGINES with that stuff. It smells like grandma perfume to me. And if you need VAG deodorizer then WTF???? Usually a shower before work (which SHOULD be a given if you are a dancer) should take care of any possible odors in that area. So I don't think men prefer neither fds or summer eve ladies. In case you wonder......
And here you go, a freshly new selfie of me and my adult sippy cup. Amaaaazing and SEKSI! LOL!