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Grrrrrrr.......this makes me mad! The article talks about a strip club in Oregon that was under investigation for sex trafficking involving two underage girls, only 13 years old. Two men are arrested, one of them the manager of a strip club. Read the article for more details (click on the highlighted "this" above).
The club issued a statement, "We are aware of the recent assertions connecting Stars Cabaret with alleged prostitution. We categorically deny any suggestions that any entertainer is engaged in such activity or that management somehow endorsed or condones the same. Stars ownership takes the threat of such illegal activity seriously and has, over the years, taken measures to prevent such conduct."
Yeah....is that why a 13 year old girl was allowed to work there? Yes, I know that young girls nowadays can look older than they really are but COME ON! I know that this is a fresh case and has not went to court as of yet but according to a few online articles I have read about this, the club was under investigation for a while, so I guess the FBI and the police must have had some kind of proof there were illegal activities going on. Actually, I told a friend about this case and she told me that a friend of hers that lives in Portland heard that Stars Cabaret had 16 year old girls working there. Now this is just hearsay but still.....where there is smoke there is fire.
Trafficking is awful. Forcing young girls to prostitution is awful. That statement issued by the club is just BULLSHIT. That is something club owners ALWAYS say to protect their own ass when they get in trouble for illegal activities going on in their club. The club owner/managers are very much aware of the illegal sex stuff that goes on, in too many clubs. But they don't do anything about it because they are GREEDY. I have seen a lot of bad stuff. It makes me sad, frustrated, tired, angry. After I brought this issue up to management at Sapphire in Las Vegas they switched my schedule on me, just like that. As a form of punishment. Fucking assholes.
I quit. Unfortunately there is a lot of nasty stuff that goes on is strip clubs, or "extras" as it is called. The clubs in Houston Texas are notorious for this. I hear you can basically get a BJ for
$ 20. It does not surprise me, I remember a girl at Sapphire, she would walk around offering hand jobs for $ 20. The thing is this, a strip club is not supposed to be a brothel. Upon getting hired you usually sign some sort of contract where you agree to follow the rules of the club. And the rules adhere to the law. No prostitution. But ironically enough, once you start working you might notice all kinds of nasty stuff that goes on. At least I notice it, because I'm a clean dancer so obviously the nasty stuff that goes on really bothers me. Does that affect my money? Of course it does! A lot of guys come in looking for extras only. The girls that do that stuff will let the guys know one way or another......and then they disappear into the VIP room. That explains why some girls make money basically every night, no matter what. It's not because they are more beautiful or better, more enthusiastic dancers that the rest of the girls (in general), it is because of what they do. And that is a fact. I see it go on all the time. I have good and bad nights. I'm not a hustler in the aggressive sense but I do make rounds asking for dances. But I definitely do not offer any extras, ever. Sex to me, is something private that I share with one person. Yes, I am a dancer and I show my body but I am OK with that, I don't have any issues or hangups with that. If I was OK with having sex with people for money I would had maybe worked in a brothel, but I'm not. So it really makes me upset when I see the rules get broken on a regular basis. And from experience I know that complaining doesn't do any good. If anything I get looked at as a "trouble maker." But I still complain.
I wish more clubs would get investigated so shit like this stops and that only clean dancers can work. It would make things so much better I think. I personally have not been aware of sex trafficking at any club I have worked at. But you never know. And while I'm sharing some of my thoughts on this subject.....I don't agree with 18 year old girls being allowed to work in strip clubs either, even though no alcohol is allowed. According to recent findings, the human brain does not reach full maturity until at least the mid-20s. If you really want to do this (strip) then you should wait until you are 21. I don't think an 18 year old is mature enough to make smart and educated decisions, even though there are plenty of smart and mature 18 year old girls out there. But not all of the smart and mature ones end up dancing. And another thing, girls with obvious drug problems should not be allowed to dance either. A strip club should not function like some sort of a halfway house or church where the broken and wounded can go and hang out and make money. It looks really bad when a girl with an obvious drug issue is working. It looks scary and gives a bad impression of the club, feeds the stereotypes that surround this profession. There are plenty of normal and healthy girls that dance and I personally do not want to be associated with the negative stereotypes. Being a drug addict doesn't mean that you are a bad person but at the same time, I don't know what you are capable of doing when you need a fix, when you need to make that money no matter what so you can get more drugs. Sorry but that is reality.
Basically, as a dancer I'm sick tired of the extras that go on. I think that clubs (the owners and managers) are very much aware of most of that stuff and if you sign some paper upon getting hired that says that no prostitution is allowed but then it still goes on......then who do you blame? I think that there needs to be a serious clean up in every strip club in this country.
To make sure that no trafficking goes on, no underage girls are employed and that all the nasty stuff stops.

I'm feeling the spirit of Christmas today! I have been decorating......how are you going to decorate your dog this season? I can't decide if Chhaya is going to have blue or multicolored lights this year. What do you think? She looks good in both.





Tonight? Rented movies and staying in. I'm going to go upstairs in a bit and start watching the first one, Blackfish . I know it will make me cry and get upset but it is depicting the truth.
The truth about how we humans use beautiful, innocent and sentient animals for our entertainment.

I had a busy day today and got a lot done. Shopping. You can never have too much of the good stuff, toilet paper, as you can see!



I also bought an electric blanket. My first. Am I officially an old lady now? Something for me and Chhaya to enjoy and cuddle under. I did some cleaning. Laundry. Put up Christmas decorations. Right now, I'm watching the Nelson Mandela memorial service spectacle from Johannesburg on TV out of the corner of my eye while writing this. Nelson had a kind face and a warm smile. I read up a bit on Winnie Mandela, one of his ex wives, she seems to be a mean old lady. But the Secretary-General of the United Nations, Ban Ki-moon is super cute! I think I have developed a new crush, too bad he is married! In the spirit of Nelson Mandela.....let's spread some Ubuntu for the remainder of 2013! ❤

And on that note (or not) one of the things that irk me right now is that strange trend of waitstaff that make up lies about not getting tipped due to them being fat/gay/black/ugly or whatever else nonsense they can come up with. It turns into a national sob story. Then people with soft and big hearts donate to these people and then it turns out that it was all a lie. Listen, if you want to make good tips then take these tips from Tatiana (free of charge too!), loose weight, become good looking or at least somewhat attractive (thick layers of MAC studio fix and fake lashes work wonders for even the homely looking), wear something skimpy and sparkly and go strip somewhere. I guarantee that you will make tons of tips. I can barely take a step in any direction at work without getting bills in every denomination thrown at me. See the fake lashes really do work!
But seriously. I should start my own national sob story. Poor dancer didn't get tipped while on stage. She now feels awful and deeply hurt. She feels ugly/fat/not worthy! This traumatic event might have scarred her for a long time. Please good and generous people of the USA, let the spirit of giving flow and donate to this poor dancer/stripper in her time of need.
I wonder how much money I could make? I have been on stage plenty of times while some smiling yahoo with no money has been sitting there. Sometimes I say something and sometimes I don't. Sometimes I just kick the stage hard where the yahoo is sitting and glare at him (sometimes it's a she). That will usually generate a few dollars. Look, waitstaff.....I know you work for tips, so do I.....I understand ok. At least ya'll don't have to pay for the pleasure of working at whatever restaurant you are at. And you get an hourly wage, I don't. But come on now. Tipping is for the most part a voluntary activity. As I think it should be. The employers should increase the hourly wages so it becomes a fair living wage.
That lame former "marine" gay woman that made up that pathetic story about not getting tipped while working as a waitress due to an objection to her chosen lifestyle (gay).....how freakin' lame is she! All "minorities" that are employed as waitstaff, cash in before it's too late! I would rather donate my money to somebody that really needs it (like animals in need) than some greedy waiter or waitress crying over not making any tips. I made $ 15 total the other night. It was a slow night. But I'm still happy. No national sob story/collection here. But I really should start one just to see what I could get out of it........

It's about 3 30 am and I'm in bed after working. I've been home for a while already, a rather uneventful night tonight, except that I got a new compliment to add to my list of "unusual" ones......."People fought wars for a beauty like you." Yeah, I know - the last one that comes to mind this early in the morning is the Trojan War, Helen of Troy. Maybe it's time for a new war like that, the war over Tatiana of Alaska. I wouldn't mind a giant wooden horse either.
One more thing. A while back some production company came across my blog and thought that I was in Williston. They contacted me and were talking about filming a reality series or some kind of a show/documentary. I informed them of my whereabouts (Alaska, not North Dakota) and I recently found out that they called the club here in town wanting to arrange to film here. One more brush with near fame. 🙂 But the owner said no. He wants to keep a low profile. I myself think it would had been great to film here, actually quite hilarious and a guaranteed hit, I can promise you that much, we get some fun characters that visit the club. Plus the girls......and everything else that goes on. So besides reading my blog every day, you could had seen me in action on TV once a week.
Did anyone drink their morning coffee yet? When I wake up I'm going to have mine. Kaladi is my fave here. Why? I like the taste. Also they have the option of natural vanilla flavor instead of regular vanilla. And they have dog treats there, Chhaya know this very well and expects a treat after every trip we make to Kaladi. That's my new coffee mug btw. One of my other ones went missing, it's gone and I have no clue to what I did with it. Weird.
Well......I'm going to wash my face and go to sleep. So good night to me and good morning to you!

Help, I have a problem.....my bra collection needs more room, the cups are runneth over!



There are now 19 bra's somehow crammed into the two top bins. Then there are two bins loaded with panties. And the bin on the bottom contains triangle bras and some g-strings. What am I going to do with all this when I quit dancing? Auction off some of the bra's and panties to my fans? Store it all away somewhere and forget about it? Maybe go through it 50 years from now and think back of the days gone by? I have several old outfits in Vegas that I would never dream of wearing at work again.



These are my latest Honey Dew's. On the door to my locker some of my fave ladies. Rihanna......I love her. I think she should be my girlfriend. Oh yummy! Kate.....I love her too,
I love everything about Kate, her face is absolutely exquisite and flawless. I need to get the latest issue of Playboy, Kate is on the cover and on several pages in the magazine.
Laetitia, just because I like the way she looks, gorgeous. I am very drawn to the aesthetically pleasing, well my interpretation of it. We all have our own ideas of what we like.

Here I am.....tired again. I feel like a zombie. Maybe I am a zombie? Maybe I am just like this .


Pic borrowed from adbusters.org

I need my latte every day, I buy stuff, I work, I pay bills, gas, food.....I do this, I do that. I just DO. Am I a consumer desensitized, latte-drinking, tv watching zombie? I don't know. All I know is that I am preparing for Christmas, I have about ten more days of doing and getting before I am done. I can't help myself, at least not this year (again).
I love Adbusters. It brings up stuff that is true but not so comfortable to confront and think about, always. If you have never read Adbusters, look for it at Barnes & Noble. You might take a liking to it.

I've been working too. I hate being bored and idle at work, it's the worst. I try to kill the boredom by reading, joking around, singing loud (my pipes can rival Christina Aguilera's if you catch me in the right moment), practicing my pole tricks (I'm going to have to show them off here soon and brag to all of you), take selfies and sometimes (if it's really boring) I take a nap. I would DIE if I worked in a clothing store, it seems so extremely boring to me, like a nightmare but you can't curl up and take a nap when bored, you just have to suffer through the workday.....fold clothes and stand around looking happy and whatnot. What horror!
Yes, I'd rather dance than work at some boring clothing store, thank you very much.
But another thing I hate at work, on a night when I feel extra annoyed, is stupidity or guys that think they are so sexy and suave and think that I should see this in them too and they hit on me and I'm like, "Ewwwww, just go away and leave me alone!" If you are not Rihanna or Vladimir Putin then I'm not interested. The other night some poor guy even admitted his own stupidity, he said that he was not that intelligent. I couldn't do much else than feel kind of bad for him. He was dumb, yes he was. A total bore. Do NOT expect me to try and engage you in some kind of a giving conversation, some people have limits on how smart they are, you can only bring out so much in them. I am a very impatient person and I can't stand being subjected to somebody daft. My body gets a restless feeling, I lose interest and start concentrating on other things. I'd much rather sit in serene quiet than talk about absolute nonsense or try to talk to somebody that is just dumb. And yes I know, dumb is not always a bad thing. You can be dumb but very kind. And kindness is a virtue. But I am kind and intelligent. Therefore, I go insane when I sometimes get subjected to the not so bright ones. On a night when I don't want to be bothered.
Last night some repeat idiot came in (meaning he was at the club not too long ago). Just like last time he was drunk and mean. Talking trash about the girls, we are ugly, whores, some are fat, gross bla bla bla.....girls in Seattle are better looking bla bla bla.....Guess, who finally told the asshole to shut the fuck up or else? Me. Of course. Do not come into my place of work and loudly insult me or any other girl working in there (regardless of if I like that girl or not).
I just won't have any of that. You think the girls in some other club are better? Good then get the fuck out of my place of business and go to that other club. How rude! After telling him what's up, he apologized several times. Of course. They all do. I told him to shut his mouth, go sit away from me and spend money or go home. He ended up falling asleep all alone by some table, a taxi came and hauled him out of there. Kind of sad, to get drunk like that in a public place, all alone. I felt a bit bad for him. But hey, don't take your issues and frustrations out on me, ok. Then some guy said, "But you are as good as it gets, in any club." Yes, thank you but I know this already. Even Clay (the dj) thinks I'm a goddess (his own words) and he has seen many ladies come and go over his 20 years working in the club. I know what I look like. That is not the point. You do not come into any club, sit down and loudly start spewing your nasty opinions around. Some girl might actually get sad. Me? You can think I'm ugly and this or that all you want, it doesn't bother me. What bothers me is your behavior. So shut the fuck up or I will shut you up real quick. Thank You, that was all from me today. This zombie is going to take a nap now.