Entries by TATIANA

It's almost midnight and I had a really nice day, I need to squeeze in a blog entry before this Sunday is over.....I went to Peterson Lake earlier. It has been so nice out lately, very warm for January, I love it and I hope it stays like this. I don't want any more snow, I wish that the snow will melt away and that we will be snow free by mid March. That would be nice! As you can see there is still ice on the lake, thick enough to walk on. There were large patches out in the forest around the lake that were clear of snow, it smelled like wood and earth. I want to go camping! A gorgeous, gorgeous Alaskan afternoon outside! I felt alive and happy to be alive.













When I got home I made potato soup. No, not heated from a can. I found a recipe on a blog that I have been wanting to try for a while. The soup turned out delicious, I will share it with you tomorrow. I don't cook often but when I do, I like to try out recipes, experiment with stuff that I have not cooked before and it usually turns out yummy. And then it was Breaking Bad time again. Walters and Jesse's adventures give me severe anxiety, I yell at them. I don't know about Jesse having a girlfriend, (I am a bit jealous, Jesse is cute in his own way, he is kind too)
I think the girlfriend is really pretty but at this point making money should be the only priority. More Breaking Bad tomorrow. I gotta go YO.

I have to tell you about my dining experience at Maxine's Fireweed Bistro last week when I spent a couple of days in Anchorage. There was a Maxine's in Girdwood (I guess it closed down?) and I loved it, the food was always amazingly good and I liked the inside, especially if you got a window seat. I heard that they opened one in Anchorage and I was curious if it would hold up to the original. The plan was to go with two of my friends but they both cancelled on me.....ehhhhh.....OK....I was disappointed at first, for about 30 minutes or so but that's life, doesn't always work out as planned. I turned the frown upside down and went to Maxine's by myself and my new book. I have no problem dining alone or going to the movies alone, I'm totally comfortable with that. I must like my own company or something. It was Sunday and I guess they have a fixed menu every Sunday. There were several dishes to choose from as the main course but only one was vegetarian, the risotto. But first there was some bread with a really yummy olive oil dipping mix on the side and a small salad with a horseradish dressing that was delicious. The risotto was good too but the salad was actually better, very memorable. I had the creme brulee for dessert and it was yummy, only because what creme brulee is not? But it didn't blow me away. My choice of beverage? Coffee.
At Maxine's in Girdwood they actually served the coffee with real cream, thick and soooo good but at the location in Anchorage it comes with milk or half & half. They should stick with the old concept.....much better. The service wasn't the best, it was OK. I have found that some (actually many) waitresses tend to be somewhat dismissive if they wait on a single woman or a pair of women because they think that we will tip less or maybe have less money to spend than a man. I can afford to dine at the best places and pay for it with my own money, so it is annoying when I see the waitress put on a show and give extra good service to a table that includes one or several men and act totally different when she interacts with me, usually less attentive and not as friendly. I pay attention to details like that. Note to waitresses out there, it's a restaurant, not a strip club. And I can be rather generous when tipping but I don't like getting obvious worse service than the man sitting at the table over gets. I think the inside was OK, nothing special, the Girdwood location certainly had way more charm. Would I go again? Yes, I would but not on a Sunday. Next on my dining list is The Marxs Bros. Cafe in Anchorage. I should be a food critique or a personal shopper.....n'est-ce pas?





That book is great by the way. Difficult to read at times because it is sad but a really good read. I have another book by the same author, it's called Red and it is worth reading too.

As you all know.....marijuana is basically legal in Colorado and Washington State now. You can go into a pot shop and buy happiness without a prescription written out for an imaginary
(in many cases) ailment or illness. It's still a federal crime though....so it's not without complications. I don't fully grasp the legalities and loopholes of that so I am not going to elaborate any further on that aspect of it.
Several other states are looking into legalizing marijuana, including Alaska (might be the third state to legalize). As soon as that happens I am going to get baked every day, sit at home, watch movies, eat pizza and chocolate. My size 29 Diesel leather pants will not fit on my big ass anymore the day pot becomes legal here. I will have to donate them to somebody with a skinny ass......NOOOOOOO!
Actually I'm joking. I have said it before, I'm not into weed, it makes me feel sick. But I am absolutely for legalizing it. I think all drugs should be legal. People do them ANYWAY.
And that's reality. Make it legal already, all of it. Of course tweak the laws somewhat. Educate the masses. When I did E I educated myself as much as I could about it and all kinds of other drugs too. I sat and read a plethora of information about that stuff for hours. No, I don't think that kids should do drugs, that includes teenagers. But I don't think that teenagers should drink and smoke either. But they do. I did. Smoked when I was 12, for a month. Had my first drunken episode when I was 13 and a few more after that. I don't smoke now, I hate smoking and I very rarely drink.
Even Obama made a statement recently where he said that he does not think that marijuana is any more harmful than alcohol. And I think he is right about that. He does think it's a vice and a waste of time and I agree with that too. And so is alcohol. If you get drunk or buzzed several times a week you are indulging in a vice and you are wasting your time and ruining your health. You are probably a major pain in the ass too (speaking from personal experience) if you are around others that are sober and have to deal with your drunken shit.
I can say this with fairly strong conviction, I am sure that I am healthier than a person that smokes and/or drinks on a regular basis even though I have experimented with several illegal drugs. Alcohol and cigarettes are drugs too albeit legal. The key is, I don't do drugs on a daily basis, not even weekly. More like once a year or every other year. I know, I am such a daredevil! I think certain drugs, if used with some finesse and sensitivity could be beneficial for personal growth. I have studied that enough to be convinced of it. And I am definitely interested in expanding my knowledge in that area. I want to KNOW. If you know what I mean.......
Some say that marijuana is a gateway drug. Being BORN is a gateway to all kinds of bad things. It is UP TO THE INDIVIDUAL to figure that out. We are born with everything we need. Unless we are born severely handicapped or into negative circumstances. But even some handicapped people become successful in many ways and showcase great examples of the strength of the human spirit. I ADMIRE them, the "unfortunate" (for a lack of a better word) that make IT happen, because I am myself a rather lazy human being.....so it's probably better that I stay away from pot! I mean, the last time I ate a pot cookie (like almost four years ago) I laid in bed and laughed like a madwoman for hours, at least I had a fun time!
So yeah, being born in itself is a gateway to all the temptations we are faced with in life. We all make mistakes and hopefully we grow and learn.

Hey, I ate the potato pierogis last night. Food is another gateway to possible disease. We all know that. The pierogis were OK, much better than the ones that you can buy at Fred Meyer but not as good as the ones at the Polish Deli in Vegas. Pierogi party at Tatiana's!

My new beauties arrived! SO PRETTY, lots and lots of rhinestones.....supposedly 10 500 on each pair. I kind of don't want to waste them on work. Maybe I just put them somewhere in the living room as artwork to be admired. I used to have one of my heels as decoration in my bookshelf when I lived in Vegas, that one had large pink rhinestones on it. I also love the box the new beauties came in, the color and the butterflies. The shoes are by Pleaser.

A few days ago while at work I got asked if I have ever done meth. You know, just one of those random questions I get like all the time. Because all dancers are high or drunk all the time, right? Well, I am not shy to talk about my experiences with drugs. Have I tried meth?
Yes, once. In Vegas before I went out to a club (a regular club). I was my usual high energy self at the club but when I got home around 9 am and wanted to sleep......I couldn't and I also felt weird, antsy and angry. That was it, no more meth for me. So sorry, I can't say that I am a member of the local Girls On Meth Club. Because let me tell you, who is not doing that shit at the club here right now? Really? It is so obvious that they do it from their behavior, although they pretend that they don't do it (of course). It also explains why they stay so freakin' skinny although they seem to eat normally and don't exercise. That works when you are a teenager but not when you get to be in your 30's. I don't think that you are a bad person if you do drugs but I think that you need to rethink your lifestyle if the drugs take up more room in your life than certain priorities. Like if you have kids that depend on you or animals. Rent and bills that have to get paid, you know common sense stuff. Duh!
I don't regret any of my experiences with drugs but I prefer stuff that bring me something positive, meaningful and hopefully something I can learn from. MDMA and mushrooms.
I really want to try ayahuasca and iboga, maybe peyote. I don't smoke weed, it makes me sick. But I wouldn't frown at the occasional brownie or cannabis lollipop. I have never done drugs at work, I save those rare and special times for when I am around people I know and trust.
What I do want to warn you about though are these yogurts! I am totally addicted, they are dangerous!



It started with me having one a day and now I am eating two a day, soon it will be three, I can't help myself they are so delicious. Because of my daily yogurt habit I now have an extra layer of chunk on my thighs, hips and butt. Stomach is still flat. This all happened in the last month, after I discovered this yogurt and scarfed down everything in sight around Christmas time. I know some guys like phat (fat really) asses but I don't care what guys like. I only care about what I like for myself and I like myself on the trimmer side. I have been toying with the idea of going on a cleansing/detox diet. That would mean cutting out all dairy for about ten days or so, eat good protein (although no meat for me) lots of veggies and fruit, add some milk thistle to clean the liver, drink green tea and make a spirulina smoothie in the morning. This is a thought only at this point, I still have two bags of pierogis in the freezer to enjoy.
I have never been on a diet, ever. Well, I did the Atkins diet a long time ago for one day and it ended with me vomiting - gross. I am curious if I would be able to stick with a diet? If I would feel healthier? More energized? Would I get angry? I am a total foodie and I love my lattes and sweets.
I would never do meth or diet pills to lose weight or stay skinny, only the natural and healthy way for me. Besides anybody can get skinny on meth, so that's cheating.
My plans for tonight and tomorrow night, Breaking Bad. I absolutely love that shit. I have been telling everybody I know that they have to watch it if they don't already. I am addicted!
I love Walter White. If anything I am more of a Walter when it comes to meth. I have been trying to find somebody to start cooking with but no luck so far.

I had a facial yesterday with Anastassia. She is changing the name of her spa from Anastassia's to Adagio Day Spa. She has taken on more employees, even an apprentice that was present during my facial, and therefore wants to change the name of the place. And she is expanding the business, opening up a spa inside Captain Cook, I told you she was good!
I am a facial afficionado, I know what I want and like and I want quality. I've had facials at Opulence and Allure in Anchorage before, the facials were terrible. I also had a pedicure once at Allure and it was so bad that I honestly thought for a minute that it was a prank of some sort and I didn't think that I should pay for a sorry pedicure like that. Especially since Allure claims to be voted the top 5 salon in the country. Not what I consider the best, not even good - overpriced, overrated and bad quality. Anastassia gives an amazing facial, I walk away feeling great and that I did something good for my skin. And after every time I can't wait to come back for more. The facials are long, meticulous and thorough, only quality products are used and there are plenty of small important touches incorporated, like essential oils, the heated bed you lay on and warm Himalayan balls that get placed under your neck. Also the face massage is THE BEST, Anastassia has that magic touch. I've been to some high end and great spas in Los Angeles, Las Vegas and New York, so I think I can say that I know what I'm talking about.
Anastassia has been complimenting me on my skin the last couple of times I have been there. I am not doing anything unusual, still using L'Occitane day and night cremes. I have been using Josie Maran argan oil on and off for about a year now. Only at night, sometimes alone and sometimes under the L'Occitane night creme. Since a year now I have been using the Clarisonic Mia face brush between one - three times a week, I love it and many people swear by it. If you are into skincare and don't have a Mia face brush I think you should invest in one. To the men reading this, give one to the woman in your life (makes for a great gift).
Besides that, I rarely use sunscreen (I'm lazy in that department) and I do a clay or honey mask once in a while. I have oily skin and slightly large pores and I have noticed a few sunspots around my eyes, so maybe I should start using sunscreen after all. Either that or undergo Fraxel. I don't like that I work in a smokey environment because that is so very bad for your skin and overall health but according to Anastassia.....my skin looks great.
Here I am with a face mask underneath and a hydrating and great smelling cloth mask on top.