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I am sitting at Madhouse Coffee killing time while Chhaya is getting an eyelid tumor (from my understanding) frozen and taken off her eyelid. Horrible! Poor baby! I noticed some stringy eye discharge coming out from her eye a while ago. I thought it would go away by itself, then I though maybe it was a sty (yes, dogs can get those) but it's an eyelid tumor. Tumor sounds scary but it's not as bad as it sounds, more uncomfortable and of course scary because Chhaya needs to be put under anesthesia which makes me very nervous. Plus I can't be there with her and that too makes me nervous. I don't like people handling her because I simply do not trust others to care for her the way I care for her. We met with the eye specialist yesterday, a very knowledgeable man that I am confident knows what he is doing. But I was crying basically the whole time I was in the office, not bawling loudly but my tears kept coming and I can't help it, my heart aches when I feel Chhaya is not doing well or has to go to the vet. I dropped her off this morning and I will be picking her up later this afternoon. I have to say that I am so impressed with how brave and good she is.
Having strangers poke in your eyes with fingers, instruments, ph sticks and getting eye drops all while enduring it without any fuss. I love Chhaya so much, I can't even put it in words.
So I'm just waiting.......sigh......

New week, new latte adventures! I'm feeling like I don't want to work ever again! And that's all I have to say about that for now. I've been getting asked by my friends in Soldotna and Kenai when I am planning on returning. The answer is.....I don't know at this point. I even ran into my old manager from The Bush Company here in Vegas of all places, talk about a small world! She asked me when I am coming back to work there. So now I am toying with the idea of working at The Bush Company again for a while. But like I said, I'm not really wanting to work at all. Maybe me and Chhaya get an RV and just travel the US instead. I can support myself on "modeling" and begging for change outside busy stores. Seems to be working for others.
I want to show off my new brush today. I have not brushed my hair in I don't know how long......YEARS and I mean several years. I've been combing it. Well, I got a brush and WOW.....after I used it the first time my scalp tingled in a good way. I don't really use it on the length of my hair.....just the scalp and I use it like twice/day. If you don't have a good brush, get one! Great for scalp maintenance. Speaking of hair, I think I am going to trim about three inches or so next month. The brush handle is made from bamboo and according to the info that came with the brush, bamboo is one of the most sustainable resources and environmentally sound plants on Earth. Therefore my new brush is considered to be a GREEN product. That is nice to know. So this is my new brush with the pretty bamboo handle.

Years before people were obsessed with taking selfies of themselves and posting them on social media, me and Julia were doing it. We did the original selfie! I have pics of us snapped with my old Nokia flip phone that are like 10 years old. Here are just a few samples of mine and Julia's selfies from the good old days when we would go to raves in Los Angeles, I miss those days!



I have more albums in my storage unit here in Vegas but they are put away in some box somewhere and I haven't been too motivated to rummage around in the dust to located them. So these albums are the only ones that I have at hand right now. Looking in photo albums is a very bitter sweet experience I think. I get nostalgic and emotional easy when I see pics from all the fun things I've done and beautiful places I've been to....moments gone only captured in pictures and in my memory. If I'm lucky enough to remember......



Selfies are supposedly (???) sooooo 2014 by the way (not for me though). I still take them but what I really need to do is fix my selfie machine (phone) cause the screen is cracked. The new thing for 2015 is the belfie. Pics of your butt in all it's glory. Although we have been barraged by butt pics for a while now I feel. There is even a belfie stick you can get so you can capture the perfect belfie of your behind. OMG what is this world coming to? LOL. The belfie stick is from what I gather "only" $80 and sold out. And it's not always easy to get that perfect belfie shot.....no it's not but a belfie stick is not on my things that I need to get list. Anyhow.....me and Chhaya are laying butt to butt RIGHT NOW. So here is a picture of that.....BELFIE!

I don't have Instagram or Twitter but I do look at two people's Instagram, first my girl crush Rihanna and I also look at Christy Mack's Instagram. The other day I noticed that she had a recent photo shoot with the same photographer I did a shoot with a five years ago, Marcos Rivera. I think that's pretty cool! I loved the pics Marcos took of me, he was nice and easy to work with plus he made me look very pretty. What else could I ask for from a photo shoot? Here is one of the pics. And.....I can't believe that five years went by in a flash! This feels like yesterday, well kind of.....






And here is one of Christy's that Marcos took. Pretty! I like looking at her Instagram because she seems like a nice person that likes animals and she has two pitbulls.
Christy's Instagram is instagram.com/christymack
Marcos Instagram instagram.com/mriveraphoto

The last three days I have been feeling slightly handicapped. I've had limited mobility in my neck and it also kind of hurt. Not sure why but I think it's linked to a small cold that I also had at the same time.....nose and throat. I mean I could not lean my head back or turn it to the side yesterday, super stiff. But today I feel much better and I think that I should be fully recovered in a few days. I started my day with a 20 min run in the park today and now I am sitting at Sambalatte. Then I have to do some errands and just go on with my day.
So last night I had to get something new to read. I've been itching for a new book and was curios about The Girl On The Train by Paula Hawkins. So I plowed through it last night and this morning, it was good but now I want to read some Swedish crime novels......something by Lars Kepler I think. Somebody gifted me an Amazon gift card recently (THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!! HUGS!!!!) and I will put that to use. I love to read, best quality time spent there is.



I saw the 50 Shades Of Grey trilogy laying out at Barnes & Noble last night. Somebody asked me if I had read those books. No and I have no interest in doing so either. Well, actually I skimmed through the first book one rainy afternoon in NYC when I ran into a bookstore to take cover from the rain. The first book had just came out and I wanted to see what all the talk was about. I think I spent 30 -45 minutes looking through it. I was not impressed whatsoever with the story and the language. And I'm not going to see the movie either.
On the other hand, I am going to go and watch Chappie on the big screen. Yolandi Visser (aka Yo-Landi Vi$$er) and Ninja from Die Antwoord are in it and I love Yolandi and I like Die Antwoord, so therefore I have to see Chappie.

Yesterday me and Julia had a girls night out. What does that mean you might wonder?
For some it means going to Thunder From Down Under or The Chippendales to watch some oiled up beefcakes gyrate awkwardly while hoards of women scream, or perhaps go to some bar or club and have annoying guys approach you because they want something that I am not interested in delivering. OK.....I went to Thunder From Down Under with a male friend once, it was interesting but kind of like meh......When I worked at Sapphire and Olympic Garden they would have male strippers entertaining the ladies so I have seen that and sure it's fun but not really my thing. Now there is a gay strip club around here supposedly (unless it closed down)......meaning men entertaining men. THAT might be fun.
No, me and Julia are way more sophisticated than to bother with guys. Especially drunk, clingy and annoying guys, the kind often found at bars or clubs.....YUCK. We wanted to have late night latte and macaroons (or macarons whichever way you prefer to spell it) so we went to The Beat downtown Vegas.
I wanted to go to a different coffee shop first but they were closed. The Beat is OK, there is an art gallery in the same building and I find that very interesting. We met a photographer that was preparing a room for his work and he did have some amazing photography there.
So yeah, late night lattes and macaroons = girls night out. Then we went for a walk to Container Park and went up in the tree house and admired the view. Although I am very scared of heights but Julia forced me to go all the way up to the top.