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Tuesday, May 12. 2015

Faded

I have a new favorite song to dance to at work. Faded by ZHU. Love it! I guess when I was away the computer with all of our music crashed, the DJs managed to restore most of our songs but not all. So I was racking my memory trying to recall all the songs that had been on my playlist. I think I got most of them. I find it so ironic when girls "steal" another girl's special song. Of course you can dance to whatever music you want, if allowed, some clubs do not allow a certain style of music.....like too much rap etc. But you KNOW when a girl has that special song, we all know (unless you work with hundreds of girls/night but that is not the case here) and in general it's an unwritten rule of courtesy that you respect your co workers special songs. I do. One girl made a point of starting to dance to two of my songs, one Rihanna song that I used to dance to nightly and the other night she played another one of my songs. Is this how passive aggressive people express themselves I wonder? Pathetic.
She can have both songs since they are played out and I have plenty of other songs to choose from. Plus my crush Rihanna has new stuff out now that I will check out. It's pure comedy to watch this girl dance to the songs, actually pure comedy to watch her on stage in general, she has some new jerky moves that are HILARIOUS! Looks like a belly dancer that took a long drag off the crack pipe. Some girls just never learn how to move fluid and nice on stage, no matter how long they've been stripping. What do I look like? I'm not sure. ;-)
It depends on the stage, some stages are not made for dancing, more for just walking up and down one direction and the other because there is simply no room to dance. When I'm on a stage I feel comfortable on I can relax and move freely. I was told from a couple of the waitresses at Crazy Horse Too that I was their favorite girl to watch on stage. I think that was a very nice compliment. And somebody else told me that I look like beautiful art. Besides the usual "great stage" or "you look good up there" comments. But I have also danced on stages that I did not want to go on at all cause I was not comfortable on them, whether it's bad lights or just a bad stage in general. Like the Spearmint Rhino in Carter Lake, IA.....the lights on that stage SUCKED. I don't know why clubs insist on having BAD lights. I mean, it's OBVIOUS when the lights are bad. When the girls actually look better in daylight than in club lights then you know that the lights on the stage are bad.....OK. I can assure you that I do not look anything like beautiful art then, more like a stiff and annoyed dancer that just wants to get the forced time on stage over with as soon as possible. So it all depends on the situation. I definitely prefer working in a club with a dancer friendly stage cause I do enjoy going on stage. Me and the pole do not get along. I have no pole skills whatsoever. Having said that, knowing one strained looking pole trick or two does not make you a good dancer. And there is a huge difference between stripper style dancing and going out clubbing dancing. If you go on a stage in a strip club and bust out some line dancing moves or some complicated Chris Brown moves or the moonwalk people will look at you like WTF??? And rightfully so. If I went to a regular club (not strip club) and started doing my strip club moves people would think I had some kind of a psychosis of some sort. So yes, there is a huge difference.
And this was my outfit last Saturday, which was the last time I worked - yellow bra and panty with yellow detail. I think the fire hydrant makes for a nice touch in the pic.



And of course there is already some small drama brewing. What else can you expect from a small village with one strip club and bored girls that dance every freakin' night of the week for months at an end? Get a life already! That's right, your life consists of the club and working every night, I forgot. So one crusty old fart (man) told another crusty old fart (another man) that I had mentioned something about one of the girls apparent weight gain. Well, I did not actually see her until Saturday night, so how I would had said something about her weigh gain before I actually saw her is a mystery to me. Seems like even the crusty old farts around here need to get a life. Plus I would had not said something like that to the old fart that lied and said that I did anyways, I don't talk to him about stuff like that. In fact, I barely talk to him at all. Are you following me in this village drama here......? I'm telling you, worse than a Sunday market gossip session in the old country.
I don't really give a shit about anybody's weight gain as long as it's not me sporting a big gut, love handles and rolls down my back, I'm happy. I don't need any meth, pills or be on a strict diet to stay thin. I can't even imagine living in misery like that.
Hmmm.....I SHOULD add here that I don't have any kids. I know that if I would had carried a baby and squeezed it out I most likely would not had a flat stomach like I do now. I don't know how women get thin after pregnancy, I envision myself with an extra 50 lbs after a pregnancy and my dancing days would be over.


Sunday, May 10. 2015

Selfie Stick

I got my belated Christmas and birthday gifts the other day......all the way from Sweden!
My good friend Rose-Marie sent them. So I am now the owner of a selfie stick! I have not used it yet but I will absolutely show you the results when I do. I need to figure out how to use it first. Actually everybody at work here in Alaska said that the perfect gift for me last Christmas would had been a selfie stick. Also in the package, a shampoo and conditioner by L'anza that I heard good things about. A hand cream from Weleda and some other goodies.
TACK Rose-Marie! ❤



Friendship. Should be easy and smooth right.....but sometimes it's not. Some om my friends (most of them) I get along with amazingly. I have known them for a very long time and we rarely argue. Then with others it's like a constant on and off situation. We are either friends or not. Hot or cold. I don't like that. I am not like that. I truly understand the value of friendship. Think about it, how priceless a true friend really is. You know, the kind of person that opens up their home for you when you need a place to stay for a while or is there for you when you're in time of need, THAT kind of friend. I can with certainty make the statement that I have a handful of people in my life that will be there with me until the end. Others, are no longer friends for various reasons. Sometimes you just grow apart and sometimes so much negativity is involved that it's just not worth to try to continue the friendship - too much work. For a super loyal person like me that can be difficult to come to terms with. It hurts in my heart to lose a friend. But life goes on and not all doors always completely close, depending on the situation. I want to do good with my life, time is limited after all (as we know it) and I want to move in a positive direction and grow as a person, not to get dragged down by other people's constant drama and negativity.
If you have a true friend, consider yourself lucky!



First Kaladi

I had my first latte from Kaladi yesterday in months. Oh yumminess! Besides that it was chilly and raining here yesterday, I went for a refreshing run. Today it's nicer but there are way too many mosquitoes out ALREADY and they are huge too, I can just imagine how many there will be when it warms up in a month or so, swarms of them just like last year and the year before. Awful.
Went to work. Basically sat around and made money. Could had made much more if I had tried but I don't want to make an effort, it's good that I don't really have to always. I'm trying to muster up the energy for work again tonight.....




Friday, May 8. 2015

I'm Back Bitches



Yes that's right.....I'm back bitches. I bet you are all thrilled over the news......right?! Back in Alaska, significantly cooler weather wise than Vegas and I already managed to get a few mosquito bites. Chhaya is happy that she has a large yard to roam free around instead of being chained up on a hot patio. I have a feeling (again) of not knowing where I belong. It's a strange feeling deep inside. I just want a place where I will feel HOME, I want to nest with all my things in ONE place. Wherever it might be.....I want it to happen soon.
Anyways, enough talk about feeling lost. I might make an appearance at the local club tonight. Make sure to bring the bandz......otherwise I'm not moving a finger. Yes.....that means YOU. Bring the bandz.
;-)

Captured In Pictures

Here is my life the last week or so captured in pictures.....what did people do before cameras were around? I love pictures. I collect them. Some in albums but since the arrival of my laptop and my smartphone I have to say that collecting photos in albums has not been a priority like it used to be.
This was taken at the Farmers Market at Tivoli Village last Saturday. I love the colors here. Look, I take "artsy" pictures! That MUST mean I am a photographer! ;-)



I like Buddha art stuff.





Me and the princess at Red Rock last time we were there.





It was a full moon. SEKSI selfie time!



I had a two hour massage the other night. It was WONDERFUL, I love Cathy.....the lady that massages me. She seems very happy to see me too, big hug and smile every time. I'm already looking forward to my next visit. My feet, calves and shoulders are always in need of some hands on attention.



Feeling happy. Just because.



I made a paper rose (as instructed by the girl working at Paper Source). Look, I made something "crafty"! That MUST mean I am an artist! ;-)



Thursday, May 7. 2015

Urban Turban

Las Vegas has so many great restaurants to choose from. I am a huge foodie, I love food and I love trying new places. Since I arrived in Vegas I have not cooked a single meal at home.
It's been lots of take home ready to go meals from Whole Foods since it's located 5 minutes from my house and has lots of stuff that I love, almost daily Sambalatte for breakfast and I have also eaten out a lot. Almost every place has been great, I am not super picky with my food, I love almost everything that I order BUT I have to say that my dining experience at Hash House A Go Go on West Sahara was a disappointment.
The food was served cold, you do not serve people cold potatoes and eggs OK....gross.
Overpriced and NOT tasty. I also ordered a coffee drink that came in a glass way too small for the price and not good whatsoever. I will never go back there again. I regret spending a dollar in there.
I tried Guy Fieri's on the Strip and ordered a Greek salad. It was probably the best Greek salad I've ever had. Thinking back at it makes my mouth water!
I also tried an Indian restaurant called the Urban Turban. Delicious! I LOVE Indian food. So I ordered the vegetarian curry, which you could get as many refills of as you wanted to, I have a huge appetite but could only eat one portion. I also ordered naan (of course) and a mango lassi. Best mango lassi ever! I am definitely going back to the Urban Turban, I liked the ambiance in there too and they have a riksha by the entry. Great for taking pictures with!





And since I am writing about places to eat I have to write about one more place. A while ago I happened to walk by Kerry Simon's place, KGB (Kerry's Gourmet Burgers) at Harrah's the day before it was scheduled to close. I just had to walk in and I ordered some fries. See back in the day me and Shelley kind of knew Kerry. This is when we still lived in California and used to drive to Vegas every so often and work at Crazy Horse Too. Kerry had a small crush on Shelley and instructed us to give him a call when we were in town and were hungry, his treat.
Kerry then was the head chef of Prime at the Bellagio, one of the best restaurants in town.
So Shelley would call and say, "We're hungry" and we would dine at Prime, seated at a great table, served all kinds of chef's specials until we were beyond full and happy. We were very spoiled. I will always remember Kerry's generosity......Kerry is not doing so well (health wise) and therefore KGB is now closed.



Some of the cool paintings at KGB.