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I thought I was going to work last night but the later it got in the day the lazier I felt so I ended up staying home. I'm always like that.......plan on working and then around 5-6 pm I start feeling tired, maybe in need of a nap, or in need of reading a book or cuddling up with Chhaya, so if I'm still undecided by 8 pm and don't have one foot in the shower by 8 15 the latest I'm ending up staying home. When you don't have a schedule it's so tempting and so easy to stay home instead. When I travel for work though I'm really focused and good at working every night.
Instead I took a nice evening walk. Need to take advantage of the late night light while its still here. I love it. I get asked all the time if it bothers me. The light until late that is. Not at all, I wish it was like this year round.



Anyhow, I did work the weekend and believe it or not but my horoscope for Saturday was right on the money regarding the income. Stages were decent. That is $100 plus laying on the floor right there before I made order of the bills, mostly one dollar bills and some fives.



In some clubs you don't get tipped anything on stage and by that I mean zero. But you usually make up for it by doing lap dances. If you don't, I suggest you find a different club. Here in AK stage tips are decent. Sure, some nights you don't make much if there are not many people in the club but in general you get OK stage money, which is good. I went to work before and did stage only, meaning no lap dances and went home with a few hundred. But I also went to work and left with NOTHING and with nothing that is exactly what I mean. And yes, that has happened more than once. And then there are clubs where the dancers make a lot on stage. With a lot I mean A LOT. Hundreds.....sometimes thousands of dollars. Well, at least that's what the dancers claim. But those clubs are from what I understand some black clubs in Atlanta and some other club in Miami where only (I think?) black girls dance. I could never work there because they would kill me and rip my hair out to use for a weave, cause I'm not black. God forbid a white girl takes a black guys money in the strip club. The black girls HATE that but it's OK if white guys give black girls money. The typical accepted racism prevalent on an every day basis here in America. Also, I do not know how to shake my butt, at all. My twerk don't work and I don't have a PHAT behind, so no rich rapper with money to throw around would like me anyways. But that's OK, I am completely happy with that fact. Ass shaking is NOT my style. And lastly, getting my backside slapped hard all night long would get annoying really fast.
Anyhow, let me see if I can recall anything noteworthy that happened at work over the weekend......
So after I got off stage and put my money away and went out on the floor a guy that was sitting and chatting with another girl comes up to me. Looking really serious and with an intense stare in his eyes he proceeds to tell me that he gave me a $5 bill when I was on stage and that he thinks that I should smile at him and sit down and talk to him after that. The first thing I did was to offer him his $5 back, I really do not have energy for that......please just take your money back and leave me alone, I really don't need your $5. I told him that there were a lot of people on the stage, I can't always keep track of who gives me money and how much. And I also told him that he was sitting and talking to a girl already. Since I am polite I will not go and sit down and butt in on their conversation. I am usually really good at saying thank you for my tips I should add here but sometimes I can't keep up with everybody. This man was really offended. OK then......whatever.
Some other "funny" type told me after putting up ONE dollar on stage that I was only allowed to pick it up not using my hands or my mouth. So that leaves what exactly? My ass cheeks?
I quickly informed him that the last time I checked we were in the US and not Thailand.
Also that he needed to shut his trap and not give me any instructions. You can put a $100 on stage and I would not take that bill with my mouth (tacky and gross) and certainly not with my private parts. Really now! I am not trained in those fine picking up money techniques.
But the winner was the guy from Switzerland that sat down next to me. Talked to me for a few minutes, he was very polite, looked around the room, shook his head and said, "Men have problems". I started laughing, nodded my head in affirmation and said, "YES, men DO have problems!" GREAT observation on his part and so very true!

There are still a ton of people in town butchering fish. Party time on the Kenai for the fishing enthusiasts!



While getting my latte today I checked my horoscope. This is what it said for today July 25.



I'm going to translate that. Today is a 6 - that means that I will make $600 something tonight. Keep digging for the truth - I am hearing a lot of lies from somebody I work with but we all know the truth about her anyways. I don't know what the next line with the Venus retrograde means. Some people are really into planetary retrogrades and read into it a lot, I don't care. But the retrograde starts today and lasts until September 6. And for the people that are really into stars and astrology, a Venus retrograde basically means that you need to tread lightly and be cautious. Plus a bunch of other stuff, look it up yourself, I am planning on going about business as usual......Don't trick new tricks - that means that I can't teach the hookers at work anything because they really don't care, they do what they do and it is what it is. The club is full of nasty girls and more are rolling in. I just shake my head in disbelief and feel bad for their husbands and boyfriends at home and hope that people know that not all dancers are like that.
What else is going on? Not much, I'm in bed resting. I did some laundry as you can see.....



I have e few hours to spare before I need to take a shower and get ready, so I am going to walk this little rascal and then come home and play with her.

How fucking cowardly it is to sit and wait for animals to step out of a protected area so you can say you "legally" shot and killed them. People do it here in Alaska too, sit and wait for wolves to step outside of the protected Denali National Park. Animals do not have a sense of where the border is drawn. FUCK YOU all of you fucking bloodthirsty cowards. Is that person that killed this gorgeous lion going to eat him cause he was starving or is he going to stuff the lion and display him in his home? This makes me SICK. You are not my friend if you think this is OK.



(Photo: Zimbabwe National Parks & Game Reserves/Facebook)

Read the whole story
http://www.takepart.com/article/2015/07/22/zimbabwe-famous-lion-now-hunting-trophy

Well, since some smart person or people, hacked Ashley Madison and some other douchebag site called Established Men I thought I should add my two cents to the mix. Ashely Madison is like a meetup site for married people looking to cheat, over 37 million members in 46 countries, give and take a certain number of fake profiles. Established Men is a site where men that consider themselves wealthy (money wise) search for money hungry sugar babies to feed. Whoever hacked the sites is threatening to expose all the profiles. I think that is GREAT ! Expose all of them!
In general I am absolutely against cheating. I know that every couple has their own story and stuff happens, life happens and sometimes people cheat. Every single person has their own reason. I don't want to judge anyone but yes, in general I'm against cheating.
I have seen and heard many different stories. The woman married to a man that doesn't want to have sex, they do it perhaps twice a year and she cheated. The married woman that enjoys herself with others around here in this small town when her husband leaves and goes to work on the Slope (Prudhoe Bay). The married men that I encounter at work that are willing to do whatever and give up everything for some "fun". Gross, get away from me!
The woman that I met and talked to last week with the husband she left after she found out about him paying rent for a girl that used to work at the club here, they have two children together I should add.
Oh I too have cheated. As a teenager I cheated on a boyfriend. It was actually quite dramatic and I really hurt him (we both cried a lot) and you know what, to this day I feel guilt over it and it's my biggest relationship blunder ever and that was a long time ago. We were both teenagers, he was a year and a few months younger than me and I though he was immature but later I realized he was "perfect" but then it was too late because he found out about the cheating. The guy I cheated on him with went and told my boyfriend about us after I decided that I wanted to end the little affair and continue on with my boyfriend. The guy thought we were going to be together but I didn't want to, so he decided to get even I guess. That's how my boyfriend found out. Lots of drama. I am still to this day friends with my ex boyfriend.
He is married with two kids and actually very successful and I am happy for him. I am friends with all my significant ex boyfriends, I think that's a good thing.
But back to cheating. If you put that much effort into cheating on your spouse or significant other (if not married) that you create profiles online so you can meet up with people for some meaningless and possibly risky sex, then I think you are putting too much time and energy into it. It seems very deliberate and manipulative and just simply wrong. People make mistakes all the time, like I said I have heard and seen some stuff therefore I do not want to judge but creating a profile with the intention to cheat.....that is too much. And women that only sleep with married men, also a huge NO NO. So not cool. It's one thing if the guy lies to you about being married but if you purposefully seek out married guys then you are a cunning cunt. But then again, I know of a circumstance where the married man left his wife and got married to the other woman and everybody seemed happier afterwards.
I'm sure marriage isn't easy all the time, especially once you have kids. I feel that women sacrifice the most when starting a family. So when a guy cheats on his pregnant significant other or the woman that just gave birth to his child I want to strangle him. Not only do women risk their health (sometimes) with a pregnancy but carry another person inside of them for nine months of their life plus the lifelong responsibility once the kid comes out, give up a possible career and "ruin" their body. The quest for that young and tight body is out of control, you are supposed to bounce back really quick to your pre pregnancy body.
Perky boobs, flat stomach, no stretch marks, tight pussy. I mean it's crazy the pressures society puts on women, it's really sad actually. On top of it your significant other might be ogling other women or going to bars and strip clubs getting way too excited. Seriously if that was me, I would end up on Dateline cause my husband/boyfriend would be found dead somewhere with a severed dick, chopped up and stuffed deep down his throat and a baseball bat jammed up his ass. Yeah, I'm THAT crazy psycho bitch, OK. And proud of it! So yeah, do not talk bad about dancers, contrary to popular belief most of us are not that morally flawed. Cause I have ZERO interest in dating a married guy (I never have), I am against cheating (I learned my lesson) and I know of plenty of NON dancers that cheat. And my favorite kind of guy that comes into the club is actually the guy that is in there by chance (not a frequent visitor at all), that tells me he does not want a dance (and actually doesn't get any all night and sits away from the stage) because he is committed to his girlfriend/fiancee/wife. I think those guys are great.
Much respect to them and I never ever push the issue with some bullshit like, "come on she is not here and bla bla bla". No, I don't do that.
I also know somebody that told me he compares every girl he meets to me and that they never hold up. I only know him from the club and he is young, cute and usually single. It's a nice compliment but.....Just as much as you might be tired of your girlfriend or wife, she is tired of you and your shit too OK, don't fool yourself. Everything is more fun, interesting, hot and heavy and bla bla bla in the beginning - that's normal. Give it some time. There will always be somebody younger, better looking, richer etc. And not every relationship is meant to last forever and some are better off to end sooner than later. But we are not talking about shorter meaningless hookups now, I'm talking about committed, serious relationships. When two people supposedly love each other.
So yeah, people cheat.....millions of people apparently. Different circumstances, sometimes I guess people stay together for the sake of the kid/s or for the joint finances and not much else and they are pretty much OK with extramarital affairs. I can't judge them. I don't know what's going on in their lives. But when the other person is left in the dark and then gets devastated to find out about the cheating then I do have a problem with it. So YES, I think it would be GREAT if everybody on Ashley Madison would get exposed. I don't think sites like that promote anything positive. I mean if you are that unhappy you can separate or divorce right? And let your significant other be able to find happiness somewhere else.
Cheating can be discussed for hours, everybody that ever cheated or been cheated on have their own story, explanation and excuses. Since I have other things to do today I think I am done with my two cents for now.
But here are some public messages from me and Mandy.......I put this up on the announcement board at work.



And Mandy sent me this from somewhere in Nebraska......

Last night's line up. Let the scramble for the dollar begin! We actually have fewer girls than normal for this time of year. It's just not worth it for girls to travel all the way here if they can make the same money or more wherever the live or at least not as far away. Makes sense.
This year most of the girls from somewhere else are from Florida. A few lasted a night or two and decided they did not like it and went back home, another one left and started working at the Bush Company. And a few have been up here several times and are back.



I received a message from $atan earlier today.



How do you like THAT?

I love spicy food! My latest addiction is Sambal Oelek (sauce/paste made from chili peppers). I've had it before but now I'm on my third jar in about a month and a half. I'm gorging on Sambal. My Mom used to tell me that spicy foods and also sauerkraut are really good for your stomach because they balance out the good and bad bacteria. I eat sauerkraut once in a while, I'm Polish after all. Speaking of sauerkraut, I am craving some pierogis stuffed with kraut right now......so good!



I looked up if too much Sambal might be bad for you but it seems like there are only benefits to it, I think you too should look into adding Sambal Oelek to your diet. Listen to nurse Tatiana, I want what's best for you! Spicy is GOOD.
Anyhow, I am glad to say that the club was really busy last night. All three stages going for a while and standing room only, that doesn't happen too often. I guess back in the day and we are talking like 10 years or so ago (before my time) it was always like that throughout the summer and girls would make crazy money but not anymore. I mean about a month ago I had the worst Saturday night I've ever had.....$50. Sure, I'm not the super aggressive hustler type but $50 is shitty for a Saturday night in any strip club, although not unheard of. Well, I've got to get going. I have stuff to do!