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30 years since The Lost Boys came out! You know when people ask you about your favorite food, color, book and movie? Well, I have three favorite movies, although I think many movies are good. Here are the three in no particular order, The Lost Boys , The Breakfast Club and Pan's Labyrinth . I freakin' LOVE The Lost Boys as do many others, everything about that movie is so good. Just everything, the cast, the music, the scenery, the story......ahhhhhhhh. I wish they played it at the local movie theatre tonight, I would so go and see it.
"Are you freebasing, Michael? Inquiring minds want to know." and “Death by stereo!”
Sadly Corey Haim passed away a few years ago. I had a huge crush on Corey and I have read what Corey Feldman said about the known pedophilia that is going on in Hollywood and I do not think he is exaggerating. I saved an article about Corey after his passing and here is one page from it, it's from 2010.



Childhood trauma can cause some severe sadness in life and many can't deal with that kind of pain and will turn to drugs and alcohol to self medicate. Look at Chester (Bennington), he was molested as a child and struggled with that and also what seemed like a rather crappy family situation in general and now he is gone too. I still can't believe that Chester is no longer here, it is unreal. Another beautiful person gone. Just WHY? I feel very, very bad for his wife and children. How does she (his wife) deal with this? I can't imagine her heartbreak. Chester seemed like a truly beautiful human being, loved by many. It is so sad that the kind, soft people with sensitive and beautiful souls often feel that life gets too hard to deal with. Those are the people that are needed here in this world. Instead the selfish loudly bellowing brutes amongst us trample on with no care about anyone else besides themselves and what benefits them.
Childhood, the formative years are extremely important, your future self gets shaped. The thoughts, emotions and memories that you have to face when alone as an adult will be there one day, that is why some people can't be alone because they can't deal with themselves and their feelings and many will numb all of that by self medicating or turn to other harmful behaviors.
The director of Pan's Labyrinth (Guillermo del Toro) is coming out with a new movie soon, I will see that on the big screen.

I know I have not checked in for a while but me and Chhaya traveled around last week, we were busy exploring. After all there are many trees to smell and climb and squirrels to chase!





No squirrels get harmed when Chhaya runs after them.....they scurry up the nearest tree and sit at a safe distance and snicker at her. Chhaya gets very excited over this.
And I found an amazing reflexology place! 90 minutes of pure bliss performed by a lady named Jun. She massaged my ears, first she put warm towels on my ears.....then she started kneading and pulling on them and then she put her pinky finger into each ear and started stretching my ear opening. Sounds weird maybe but it felt amazing.....! And she massaged my hands and my feet. OMG I love, love, love getting my feet rubbed. I was very happy. I told her that I will be back.



I got done with a hike this evening and I am in bed, ready to sleep. Feeling tired.

It's all about Chester right now. I can't imagine what his family and friends are going through. He will be missed by many. He seemed like a genuinely nice human being.
I am very sad that Chester is gone, I think he was amazing. What else is there to say in a tragedy like this? I guess his music is there still, I have spent many nights listening to Chester while driving and I will continue doing that. His voice was one of a kind.
You will be missed Chester Bennington. ❤

What is it that I am reading? Chester Bennington passed away today - suicide. JUST NO! This can't be real?! He had an amazing voice and was a true talent. Leaving behind six children. I saw Linkin Park in Vegas in 2011. I can't judge somebody that commits suicide, I don't know how that person feels, what they have been going through to feel that sad. I remember reading about what Chester said about his early days and how he taught himself to sing the way he did. I know myself how it is to have dark thoughts and feel like the loneliest person in the world. I can't believe he is gone.....he was so beautiful. I don't know what else to say, I wish this wasn't true. This is very sad. ❤ A pic of Chester from 2011.

Hello from me....I went hiking again this evening. It felt great. Let's see if I can see keep this up, I have been stagnant for too long and it is time to change that!
Came home, ate cherries and got busy reading stuff online. Came across an article talking about that Kevin Hart might be cheating on his pregnant wife. Ewwwww, noooooo! Cheating on a pregnant wife or significant other? NOT OK. Then I continued reading.....I guess the pregnant wife started out as his mistress when he was married to another woman. Well, that changes the dynamic. There is a saying, "how you get them is how you lose them". Maybe there is some truth to that, I don't know. I personally do not think it is right to get involved with a person if that person is in a serious relationship and you know that they are, whether it is a marriage or a domestic partner situation.
In Sweden many people live as domestic partners and that is looked at as serious as marriage and that is how I view it as well. I would never (never say never but I am definitely against it) get involved with a man that has a significant other.
I understand that every couple has their ups and downs and are not always happy with each other all the time but hello.....that is just reality. And every situation is different, there are excuses to why people cheat, everybody has their own story and bla bla bla.....I know. But no, I no longer feel bad for Kevin Hart's pregnant wife, if he really is cheating on her she is getting a taste of her own medicine.
OF COURSE Kevin is denying everything, denying cheating on the current pregnant wife and cheating on the ex wife with the current wife. What else should he do? Admit? No, most men don't have balls like that.



But sometimes it is probably better to be quiet. If you regret the cheating, feel remorse, got caught up in the moment or a situation but really do not want to jeopardize your relationship.....then why even bring it up? Sometimes people get involved in complicated circumstances. This is a difficult subject. I know good people that have cheated and I have also witnessed some really messed up just wrong stuff that I did not think was OK whatsoever. If cheating becomes something that happens more than once or to really stretch it....twice, then it is definitely a problem.
Now.....another "famous" person got involved with a woman and gave her herpes although he denied having any STDs. That is so disgusting, not having an STD but to lie about being clean and transmitting something knowingly. He ended up having to pay her a nice sum in settlement. First of all he can afford it, so pay up. He should pay her medical bills and for pain and suffering. I would be furious if a significant other would come home and infect me with something, there would probably be some legal consequences stemming from that misstep and perhaps a chopped off mentula. One more thing since I am talking about STDs, there is a strain of gonorrhea that is resistant to drugs. Think about that before you engage in some sort of behavior that can have some lifelong consequences, definitely think before cheating on a significant other.
Have I ever cheated? Yes...I can't talk about others and pretend to be holy myself. Yes but nothing "serious" as in going all the way with another person.
Anyhow....enough of this, I think it is time for some Depeche Mode videos now and then it will be bedtime.....Depeche Mode's Violator album has a rose on the cover. That album = amazing songs. I ❤ Depeche Mode.

A veggie burger from Whole Foods - delicious! Meat is not necessary to be healthy. Everybody can at least cut down on their meat consumption, it's about making a choice.



In the evening, a hike to see the view from the top.



It's close to midnight now, I let Chhaya outside so she can pee and after I let her in I will take out my contacts and go to sleep. I am very tired emotionally. I need rest and peace.