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Tatiana really likes going to China Ranch once in a while. That is technically in California, right outside Nevada.
It's a nice drive out there, you really get a feel for the Nevada landscape.
China Ranch itself, is like an oasis in the middle of nowhere. When you are there, you HAVE to get a date shake! So yummy!
There are a few hikes you can go on. Tatiana always does the slot canyon hike.
Then she drives to Tecopa and gets into the mud bath. She recommends this little outing for everyone that has a day in Vegas when they want to do something, but don't know what......and The Strip feels like too much or boring and you just want to do something different........
Going to China Ranch is something you do in the fall, spring or winter. Summer would be too hot. This is an all day adventure, so take your time.
And don't be too scared to get into the mud bath, just do it! It's fun! You can always shower when you get home. Live a little!
Another fun thing to do is take a drive out to the small town of Rachel and Area 51. You will travel on the "Extra Terrestrial Highway". Exciting! On the way there or on the way back, stop at Ash Springs and take a dip in the hot springs.
What to do in Vegas when you want to do something in the summertime besides spend time inside, with airco?
Drive to Mount Charleston. Always cooler than Vegas. Nice hikes. Rent a cabin and spend the night. You can also go skiing there in the winter time.
Or you can drive to Boulder City, right outside of Vegas and go zip lining.
Tatiana has not done that one......yet.
So besides hotels, gambling, nightclubs, strip clubs, restaurants........etc........there is plenty to do in Vegas.

So Christmas is over since a month almost....weird.....so much anticipation and planning, buying gifts, decorating and then it's over in a blink of an eye. Tatiana feels weird about that. It's kind of sad......
Anyways, Tatiana had her Christmas tree up until last week, then she finally put everything away, the tree and all the decorations around the house, neatly in some boxes. Until next time. Tatiana thinks that she will have a taller tree next year. A plastic tree btw. She would feel bad to use a real tree for Christmas and then just dump it when it's all over. She can always donated her current plastic tree when she gets a taller one for next year.

Today Tatiana's day consisted of some laps in the park with Chhaya. They ran two laps and did some uphill sprints. It felt great afterward. Tatiana's ass is on the larger side right now, it needs to shrink a little.
There was also a few loads of laundry done. A meet up with Mikey.
A trip to Fashion Show mall. Two new bra's. A girl can not have too much lingerie.
Tatiana saw a pair of black skinny jeans at Diesel. Maybe in a couple of weeks.......maybe.....she just remembered that she already has a pair of black skinny jeans.....there is really no need for two pairs then.
But Tatiana still needs two new pairs of stripper shoes, the old ones probably need to retire soon. Stinky. Lol.
Tatiana is going to open a museum and display her retired shoes and outfits. That's a great idea! Or maybe the Hard Rock Hotel here in town wants to display all or some chosen pieces of Tatiana's outfits?
So anyways, anyone want to buy Tatiana some new stripper shoes? It can't hurt to ask. If not......Tatiana will get them herself. Eventually.

Here is Tatiana's cute tree.
It's getting late. Time for a shower and some sleep.
XOXO

Tatiana is aware of that there has not been any new blogs here lately for you to read. Poor readers of Tatiana's blog, you must be suffering so much from this!
Tatiana had to entertain visiting guests for a while. It was great, lot's of sightseeing, Vegas stuff and eating out. Tatiana probably gained 6 lbs of extra fat. Funny how eating out almost every day and no exercise makes the jeans feel a lot tighter after just a few days. When Tatiana works on a regular basis it is easier to keep thin, Tatiana usually does not eat at work. But as soon as she spends longer stretches at home, she gains some weight.
It was fun and great to be a host. Now Tatiana is by herself, with Chhaya of course, things feels quiet and weird.
So it's time to get back to the normal day to day life and there will be new blogs soon.
Meanwhile you can read all of Tatiana's old blogs. If you haven't done that, you really should!

Tatiana loves it when she has a great day full of productivity. She has cleaned, done laundry, still has to vacuum and mop the floor in the kitchen and hallway. It's nice to have a clean home.
She took care of all kinds of errands today too. Now she is about to take Chhaya to the park for a walk and a long run.
After that she is going to take a bath and wash her hair. Then do some more errands.
And later on this evening she is going to the airport to pick somebody up.
Tatiana is feeling light and elated in her heart today.
: )

Tatiana had a couple of exhausting days due to a person causing problems for her.
Very unfortunate. But things are moving forward and Tatiana feels somewhat better and relieved.
This was just another experience and it will only make Tatiana stronger.


Nothing fun and crazy to write about at the moment. Days are nice and lazy. But it's time to step it up a notch and get busier, get things done.
Doing good, looking amazing.
: )

Today my Moms friend and dog Widget passed away. So it's a very sad day. I can't even imagine how my Mom is doing, she had Widget for almost 12 years, he was her best friend. Widget was SO good and I wish I could had seen him before this happened but I didn't. But I wish.
Then I got that book Oogy today and just started reading it, the book is happy and sad because this dog went through so much abuse before he finally found a safe and loving place. So reading the book made me cry again. So I have been crying on and off today since a few hours now.
I feel so bad for my Mom, I wish I could go over and give her a hug and just be there for her, but the distance between us is big, I am in Vegas and she is in Stockholm. I love my Mom very much, though I don't tell her that, hardly ever. And I feel bad for that too. That makes me even more sad.
I think life in general is basically suffering. That's actually one of the noble truths of Buddhism. This is what it says,

"Life means suffering.
To live means to suffer, because the human nature is not perfect and neither is the world we live in. During our lifetime, we inevitably have to endure physical suffering such as pain, sickness, injury, tiredness, old age, and eventually death; and we have to endure psychological suffering like sadness, fear, frustration, disappointment, and depression. Although there are different degrees of suffering and there are also positive experiences in life that we perceive as the opposite of suffering, such as ease, comfort and happiness, life in its totality is imperfect and incomplete, because our world is subject to impermanence. This means we are never able to keep permanently what we strive for, and just as happy moments pass by, we ourselves and our loved ones will pass away one day, too."

And that is true. One day I will see every being that I love and care for pass away. Sad and difficult events happen constantly. I think the bright and happy events that we occasionally experience exist just to make life bearable to live for us. This sounds like I am a pessimist but I am not, I am a realist and in general a very happy person.
But these are the facts of life. I actually sometimes wish I could die before everybody else so I don't have to go through the pain, it would make it so much easier.
I tell Chhaya that I love her and how much she means to me several times a day.
I dreamed of Widget this morning, he was running in the snow and was happy. I think he is somewhere good. He showed me in the dream.
I hope and believe that when we die we go somewhere where we reunite with everybody we have loved, family, friends and animals. I am not sure if we need to live several lives first, to better ourselves with each life and learn until we finally can go to the big, blissful place and rest. I am not sure, but I hope.
I don't think that we just live this life, die and that's it. There's more.
Anyways, I have to go.

Here's my beautiful friend Widget, I have many wonderful memories of him. I love you Widget.