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I just read about some Russian millionaire that entertained himself with an act of altruism, at least I consider it altruism.......He was throwing money out of a window in St. Petersburg. I am used to men throwing money at me but I do not encounter any millionaires that spend money freely too often, actually never, lol.
I know that there are plenty of millionaires and billionaires in Russia. If some of them want to throw money around like that some more they should get in touch with me! I don't need a lot, I'd be happy if one of them throws about $ 300 000 on me, a paltry sum for a multimillionaire or a billionaire. That would take care of my mortgage in Las Vegas, I really do not want to stress about that anymore and the rest I would invest very wisely, I would even do some altruism myself, of course. You need to give back, always.
So to all you Russian rich guys out there.......HELLOOOOOOO, Tatiana NEEDS some of your money!

These were taken about a month ago, I can't believe how fast time goes by!
Booooohooooo, I want to go back to New York!!!!!
While I was in New York I did three photo shoots. I could had done way more, like three a day or more but I am somewhat selective about that.
A photographer with an amzing portfolio contacted me but in the end he must have decided he didn't want to collaborate. Too bad because he had some great work. Then I had another shoot scheduled that cancelled due to travel and I corresponded with a great photographer about a shoot but we could not piece together our schedules. I had some offers to do (paid) shoots for some kind of a video, a foot fetish site and some other random shoots. The photographer with the foot site just loved my arches (his words). He must had seen some photo of me where my feet are visible. But in the end I only scheduled three due to timing, schedule and my pick of who to collaborate with. I was hoping for five shoots but that didn't work out. Out of the three I did, two were ok and I did not like any of the pictures from the first shoot. Oh well.




Photographer Steve Antonelli

I am up early today......sitting around thinking about Sweden. The best time to be there is the summer time, I love summer in Stockholm.
My dream living arrangement is to live somewhere (nice) where I will settle, spend about four to six weeks in Stockholm in the summer time and about two consecutive months in New York City each year to get my big city fix. And take a few other vacation related trips throughout the year.
I miss going to cafe's in Stockholm for delicious latte's and sweets. And of course I miss my friends......

So I went camping on Swanson River Road. There are plenty of lakes there and room for camping. I got lucky and found a spot all to myself by a cute little lake surrounded by beaver dams. Went around the lake once to check it out. Felt like Bear Grylls when I was navigating through the swampy areas. Swanson River is a popular place for canoe enthusiast, it has a canoe river trail connecting seven lakes I think (?) and takes about a week to complete depending on how long time you need.


Well, the first thing that happened is that the pump to the air mattress broke so I had to blow up the air mattress, good that I have some strong lungs but it still made me a little dizzy.
Then during the night, the air somehow seeped out of the mattress and by the time I woke up I was laying on a deflated air matress. The following night I just slept on the ground basically and that resulted in every bone in my body aching, I thought I would have to have hip replacement surgery in the morning. Still, it was a good time, lots of sunshine and chirping birds, a warm campfire. Chhaya was a happy puppy when camping and a very tired puppy when we got home. She is on high alert when camping, every strange sound in the night gets a growl. And that's a good thing.


Almost midnight and still light out, I love that!


The lonely tree.



Chhaya is reay for bed.


Bear spray is good to have just in case you get a furry visitor, bear or man.


So anyways, it's Memorial Day today. I can tell you that I would not have the physical strenght to be in any form of combat (meaning war), I can run but my upper body is weak. And I would be too scared and probably try to hide somewhere.
As always, I am wishing for peace and understanding because I am a neo hippie. And in the end, the pen is mightier than the sword.


I am laying outside enjoying the weather, I am bundled up because I get cold easy. About to take Chhaya for a walk.......I hope everybody is having a nice day. PEACE! 🙂

There is no place like home! Got back from my camping trip today, one day earlier than I had initially planned. But that's ok.
I am super tired, laying in bed listening to Coast To Coast. I always listen to Coast when camping and also at home once in a while, it's a four hour long radio talk show on AM radio. I have been a listener since 2004. It's a really interesting and entertaining show, great for curious night owls like me. They talk about all kinds of subjects - UFO's, MIB, politics, the Illuminati, ghosts, vampires, conspiracy theories - super interesting and executed in an intelligent way. Really makes me think sometimes, even though I suspect that I am a sleeping human zombie, far from being enlightened unfortunately.
I will put up some pics from my camping tomorrow. I suspect some of my reader are out in nature too, away from their computers because my reader statistic is cut in half since Friday.
One of the first thing I did when I got home was to take a long bath, I had to wash away the grime and soak my achy bones......really. Ouch.....!
Let me tell you, I am extremely grateful for running hot water.


Then I got a craving for ice cream, I found this one recently and it is very addicting. I am warning you! But since I eat the whole pint and usually add some whipped cream to the bowl, I consume about 1000 cal in one sitting. No wonder my pants are feeling tight around my thighs, running 3.something miles once or twice a week won't help that......maybe limiting my ice cream intake to twice a month instead of twice a week would.


Anyways, I am shutting down my laptop for the night. About to curl up and slowly go to sleep with Coast in my ear.

I am taking Chhaya and going camping. So no blogging until I'm back, somehow you will have to survive without me for a few days.......
If the weather will be too bad, like too rainy and/or cold I will return home early to the warmth of my bed.