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I have been in a slump since Friday. I have been getting a lot done around the house and I have also been eating everything in sight. BUT there has been no work and no gym all week and it is Sunday evening now! I feel guilty, lazy and fat. Again.......
I have not been in the mood to work, get ready for work, talking to people ......none of that.
I get like that sometimes, usually for a few days each month. Then it passes and I feel normal again. I need to get myself together this next week because I am leaving soon, for work (out of state) and the last thing I want is to look and feel fat then. That would not be good. Anyways, having a "fat and feeling sorry for myself" day today......that has been lasting since Friday.......
Maybe tomorrow will be better?

I made pie yesterday, apple pie from scratch and it was soooooo good! I spent Thanksgiving away from home with some friends, food, game playing and unfortunately football on tv. Seriously, football bores me to death. I can understand watching maybe 30 minutes of it but after that it is totally meaningless. What a waste of time, if you are going to watch tv there are so many other things that are way more interesting and fun to watch than THAT. And that's my opinion. I didn't get home until late, brought home turkey for my Chhaya, I didn't have any turkey, although it smelled good.
Now it is Friday and 6 15 in the morning and I am up for some reason - it is pitch black out.
So GOOD MORNING! Maybe I should rush out and try to find a deal at Wal Mart or some other store? LOL. Noooooooo, there is nothing that I need that bad. What I do need is a pedicure, foot rub, massage and a facial, I don't think you can get that at
Wal Mart. Ok, I am bored, not sure what I am going to entertain myself with at this early hour, maybe I will try to go back to sleep......When does Coffee Roasters open again, I need a latte!

I am having a cuddly movie night at home. With a snoring puppy that has stinky farts.
Just watched Bound , I love that movie, one of my faves. Besides that I had a rather uneventful day.....when I went to get my latte at Kaladi I chose who I am going to be a Secret Santa to this Christmas. At Kaladi they have a Christmas tree with paper angels hanging from it with a name of either a boy or a girl written on them that I assume might not get any gifts this Christmas unless somebody helps them out. The boy and girl angels come with an age and a general wish list. I think I picked out a nine year old girl last year, this year I have a seven year old girl and she likes girly stuff. Since I am en expert on girly stuff I decided to be her Secret Santa, she is going to get lots of cute stuff in pink and purple. And just like last year there was a surprising amount of older "boys" and "girls" that had a paper angel in the tree with a wish list. Like 20 years old and older. One "girl" was 56. Hmmmmm.........ok? Maybe I should put my name on an angel and hang it on that tree. LOL. Tatiana. Wish list. Pay off my mortgages. Brand new truck, preferably a Toyota 4Runner. A whole day at a local spa.
I also always give toys to Toys For Tots or some similar organization. Also something for the animals, like the local shelter.
And those are my small contributions. It is fun to give. 🙂

This is a little story from last Friday night. It was a busy night for all of us. I made good money and could had made more but I turned it down. Why? Let me explain why. Three Russian Old Believer guys came in, not too old, about 25 - 28 I am guessing. First time in there for all three. After a while they all wanted dances. So while I am in the back room where we do the dances, explaining to one of them how it works and that I am going to wait for the next song and bla bla bla a girl comes into the room with another of the Russians. And when they walk past me, while I had my back turned, standing up still and slightly leaning forward as I was talking to the guy sitting down, the guy walking past me kind of grabbed my butt but also something else. Luckily I was wearing my panties. I have a VERY hot Polish temper......I know they were all intoxicated and that we were in a strip club BUT I am not ok with that, at all. So of course I yelled at him and then I was not in the mood to dance for his friend either so I walked out of the room and sat at the bar to calm down, feeling slightly traumatized. I almost hit the asshole but I didn't want to get in between him and my co worker getting dances, I knew how badly she needed the money.
The girl that walked in with the guy that grabbed me came right out with $25 and said that he felt bad and wanted to give me the money. I refused it. I told her to keep it.
It would be like me saying it is ok to do that if you pay. And to me, it is never ok to do that no matter what you pay. There are certain areas on me that are look but don't touch status only. And that's just how it is.
Later on when I was on stage he was sitting there with the same girl, I was ignoring him of course. He handed my co worker a bill and asked her to give it to me. It was a $ 100 bill. I did not want it. I told her to keep it for herself. $ 100 on stage is nothing that I am going to get ecstatic over, it happened many times before and without someone violating my personal boundaries.
I am a very stubborn and proud person, if you piss me off at work you can keep your money and yourself away from me. I don't need the money or the shitty company.

Later on the third of the drunk Russians had to sit down next to me while I was on the couch and talk my ear off about his recent awful break up with a girl he was kind of related to, the love of his life supposedly. And then he asked me if I would meet him after work! Imagine that. First crying about the love of his life and the next thing I know he wants some love from me.
ICH DON'T THINK SO!!! Like GROSS! I told him that I don't meet up with anyone after work, he had a very difficult time wrapping his brain around that, soooooo annoying. I hate that, people who REPEATEDLY ask me on a date or if I want to meet them after work even after I say NO. Did you not hear me? I said NO. I am not playing hard to get dumb ass, I am NOT interested. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Leave me alone. Thank You! BARF!

Today I went to a store called Save-U-More and I found some Swedish lingonberries and some other treats that I just love - kakao balls or like we say in Sweden "kokosbollar" or "chokladbollar" or "kakaobollar" LOL! What a nice surprise! And that of course made me feel a little home sick and miss Sweden.......Actually Save-U-More has a bunch of stuff from IKEA. No large items like furniture but smaller things like kitchen and household stuff and toys.
When I was little in Sweden, the kakao balls were actually called "negerbollar", to translate that into English would be "negro balls". Then it became politically incorrect to call them that and that's why today most people in Sweden say "kokosbollar" or "chokladbollar" or "kakaobollar".





Went for a walk with Chhaya, it is starting to get really cold now. I have on layers, gloves, a scarf....... What I need to do is get my winter jackets out this week and wash them. I need tennis balls. Why? When you put a thick fluffy jacket in the dryer the tennis balls will prevent the down from clumping. The tennis balls will keep the clothing fluffy.
Chhaya needs new boots, her little paws get frozen if it's too cold out and I put boots on her. Well, two of her boots have tears in them, therefore I have to get her boots this week too. What else am I doing this week? I think working. I thought of going in tonight but stayed home instead, I can always get busy with something at home. I really do need to go to the gym, at least twice this week. And I am going to bake an apple pie on Thanksgiving. I am going to spend Thanksgiving with some friends. And in the evening I want to relax at home with a movie or two.





Right now I am in bed. Earlier today I put coconut oil in my hair and scalp. I will leave it in overnight until I wash my hair tomorrow. I've heard good things about coconut oil and hair, never tried this before but the results are supposedly great.
Exciting day! I can't be writing about work all the time or put up half naked or naked pics every day. That would not properly describe my life.

Hi all my fans!
Tatiana is at home in bed, flipping through the latest ELLE magazine and watching Jay Leno. Jennifer Lawrence is on the cover of ELLE and also Leno's guest tonight. Tatiana thinks that Jennifer is a very good looking girl. Some people look so much better in a picture than live.
This morning for example, Katie Holmes was a guest on LIVE with Kelly Ripa and Michael Strahan, she does not look that great at all but made up and photo shopped in a picture she can actually look deceivingly pretty.
Speaking of tv shows, one of Tatiana's dream jobs would probably be to take over the job of either Kathie Lee, Hoda Kotb or Kelly Ripa. They seem to have so much fun, while in New York City of all places. Dream job in a dream location. And Michael Strahan is a giant teddy bear, Tatiana loves him as the new co host. You might wonder what Tatiana does watching the TODAY show and LIVE? Well, they come on at 10 and 11 am and that's when Tatiana usually wakes up, she doesn't like to jump out of bed as soon as she opens her eyes, unless she really has to be somewhere. Instead, she cuddles with Chhaya, watches tv with one eye and drifts in and out of sleep until she finally gets up and gets her latte somewhere. And she likes Kathie Lee and Hoda, they are fun to wake up to.
This was Tatiana's delicious dinner for the evening. Fruit plate - blueberries, strawberries, bananas, apples and Tatiana added cottage cheese on top. 4 %, Tatiana does not like the low fat or non fat foods, neither the sugar free foods.



Speaking of food. Thanksgiving is soon. Tatiana does not understand all the hysteria about NEEDING a turkey on the table. Sure it is a tradition in this country but really? Is is THAT important? Thanksgiving is supposedly about giving thanks but it seems to be more about the food and what deal you might score at some large chain store like Best Buy or Wal Mart.
Tatiana would never camp out some store for days in order to get some gadget. She would maybe camp out for some rave tickets though......
Seems like Thanksgiving is about gluttony big time. Tatiana thinks that turkey is tasty but hasn't had any in years. The poor turkeys are so mistreated their whole short life and shock fed hormones. How else do you think they get so big in such a short time? And that is what people want to eat.....HAVE TO eat, a bird full of growth hormones and probably antibiotics too. The best thing would be to get the turkey from some farm that raises them as "nice" and clean as possible or you can get one from Whole Foods, Tatiana fave store btw. Tatiana likes Whole Foods more than Nordstrom or Saks. Whole Foods is the best.
And what about all the places that feed Thanksgiving food to the "homeless and needy"? Turkey. They are already feeding a ton of people "in need" in Anchorage, some of them probably show up at the shelters so they don't have to buy their own Thanksgiving food, they don't want to spend their own money. After watching some the folks getting their free meals on tv today, that is the assessement Tatiana made. Seems like some of them were there for the free food and they will go back tomorrow and the next day and the next.......although they can afford buying their own food.
And maybe you shouldn't be popping out a kid once a year if you can't feed yourself? How about that?
Sure, it is important to feed the needy, hungry and homeless. Tatiana believes in helping.
But some people don't want to help themselves. Or don't do anything to improve their situation, sometimes make it worse. How is having a baby going to solve any problems? And if you think you have problems and a difficult economy having one kid, wait until you get another one -or even better a few more! Party time!
Tatiana doesn't think that turkey should be pushed so hard for Thanksgiving. They are always advertising that they need more turkeys donated to the shelters this time of year, how many turkeys do they need? It seems to never be enough. And if you are needy and homeless then whatever they serve at the shelter should be good enough. Eat potatoes and veggies and be freakin' happy and give thanks! Tatiana is happy when she eats her potatoes and veggies.