Welcome to Chaos !!

Back home from work, laying in bed and listening to Coast to Coast AM (that I love).
Tonight's guest is Dennis McKenna (brother of Terence McKenna) and he is talking about plant hallucinogens, something I am personally very interested in.
Work was alright, I am glad I went in. I found some pink leg warmers in my sock drawer at home, they are really long, I got them in a store where ballerinas get their outfits. So I wore the pink leg warmers tonight.......

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After work I gave a coworker a ride home, she was supposed to stay the night at a friends house. Well, the friend was not home and the girl I gave the ride to thought it was going to be ok for her to wait outside in the cold with a blanket. I said no way. She didn't know when her friend would be back. What if she would fall asleep outside? You can die like that. I took her back to work,
I insisted. Anyways, it's 3 am where I am at. I am going to listen to Coast to Coast now and read some blogs.

It's a little after 9 pm and I am about to go to work. I am forcing myself to go......imagine if you had no work schedule to follow, felt fat and unmotivated, was on your period, it was cold and dark outside on a Sunday evening.......Would you go to work or would you stay at home in the warmth and cozy up in bed with a yummy cup of tea and your dog if you had one?
LOL - yep I am forcing myself.......
I am going to work instead of sitting at home, eating and adding an extra layer pf padding to my butt and thighs. One week at home with no exercise and lots of food works wonders for your figure! 🙂

I have been in a slump since Friday. I have been getting a lot done around the house and I have also been eating everything in sight. BUT there has been no work and no gym all week and it is Sunday evening now! I feel guilty, lazy and fat. Again.......
I have not been in the mood to work, get ready for work, talking to people ......none of that.
I get like that sometimes, usually for a few days each month. Then it passes and I feel normal again. I need to get myself together this next week because I am leaving soon, for work (out of state) and the last thing I want is to look and feel fat then. That would not be good. Anyways, having a "fat and feeling sorry for myself" day today......that has been lasting since Friday.......
Maybe tomorrow will be better?

I made pie yesterday, apple pie from scratch and it was soooooo good! I spent Thanksgiving away from home with some friends, food, game playing and unfortunately football on tv. Seriously, football bores me to death. I can understand watching maybe 30 minutes of it but after that it is totally meaningless. What a waste of time, if you are going to watch tv there are so many other things that are way more interesting and fun to watch than THAT. And that's my opinion. I didn't get home until late, brought home turkey for my Chhaya, I didn't have any turkey, although it smelled good.
Now it is Friday and 6 15 in the morning and I am up for some reason - it is pitch black out.
So GOOD MORNING! Maybe I should rush out and try to find a deal at Wal Mart or some other store? LOL. Noooooooo, there is nothing that I need that bad. What I do need is a pedicure, foot rub, massage and a facial, I don't think you can get that at
Wal Mart. Ok, I am bored, not sure what I am going to entertain myself with at this early hour, maybe I will try to go back to sleep......When does Coffee Roasters open again, I need a latte!

I am having a cuddly movie night at home. With a snoring puppy that has stinky farts.
Just watched Bound , I love that movie, one of my faves. Besides that I had a rather uneventful day.....when I went to get my latte at Kaladi I chose who I am going to be a Secret Santa to this Christmas. At Kaladi they have a Christmas tree with paper angels hanging from it with a name of either a boy or a girl written on them that I assume might not get any gifts this Christmas unless somebody helps them out. The boy and girl angels come with an age and a general wish list. I think I picked out a nine year old girl last year, this year I have a seven year old girl and she likes girly stuff. Since I am en expert on girly stuff I decided to be her Secret Santa, she is going to get lots of cute stuff in pink and purple. And just like last year there was a surprising amount of older "boys" and "girls" that had a paper angel in the tree with a wish list. Like 20 years old and older. One "girl" was 56. Hmmmmm.........ok? Maybe I should put my name on an angel and hang it on that tree. LOL. Tatiana. Wish list. Pay off my mortgages. Brand new truck, preferably a Toyota 4Runner. A whole day at a local spa.
I also always give toys to Toys For Tots or some similar organization. Also something for the animals, like the local shelter.
And those are my small contributions. It is fun to give. 🙂

This is a little story from last Friday night. It was a busy night for all of us. I made good money and could had made more but I turned it down. Why? Let me explain why. Three Russian Old Believer guys came in, not too old, about 25 - 28 I am guessing. First time in there for all three. After a while they all wanted dances. So while I am in the back room where we do the dances, explaining to one of them how it works and that I am going to wait for the next song and bla bla bla a girl comes into the room with another of the Russians. And when they walk past me, while I had my back turned, standing up still and slightly leaning forward as I was talking to the guy sitting down, the guy walking past me kind of grabbed my butt but also something else. Luckily I was wearing my panties. I have a VERY hot Polish temper......I know they were all intoxicated and that we were in a strip club BUT I am not ok with that, at all. So of course I yelled at him and then I was not in the mood to dance for his friend either so I walked out of the room and sat at the bar to calm down, feeling slightly traumatized. I almost hit the asshole but I didn't want to get in between him and my co worker getting dances, I knew how badly she needed the money.
The girl that walked in with the guy that grabbed me came right out with $25 and said that he felt bad and wanted to give me the money. I refused it. I told her to keep it.
It would be like me saying it is ok to do that if you pay. And to me, it is never ok to do that no matter what you pay. There are certain areas on me that are look but don't touch status only. And that's just how it is.
Later on when I was on stage he was sitting there with the same girl, I was ignoring him of course. He handed my co worker a bill and asked her to give it to me. It was a $ 100 bill. I did not want it. I told her to keep it for herself. $ 100 on stage is nothing that I am going to get ecstatic over, it happened many times before and without someone violating my personal boundaries.
I am a very stubborn and proud person, if you piss me off at work you can keep your money and yourself away from me. I don't need the money or the shitty company.

Later on the third of the drunk Russians had to sit down next to me while I was on the couch and talk my ear off about his recent awful break up with a girl he was kind of related to, the love of his life supposedly. And then he asked me if I would meet him after work! Imagine that. First crying about the love of his life and the next thing I know he wants some love from me.
ICH DON'T THINK SO!!! Like GROSS! I told him that I don't meet up with anyone after work, he had a very difficult time wrapping his brain around that, soooooo annoying. I hate that, people who REPEATEDLY ask me on a date or if I want to meet them after work even after I say NO. Did you not hear me? I said NO. I am not playing hard to get dumb ass, I am NOT interested. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Leave me alone. Thank You! BARF!