Welcome to Chaos !!

It's so nice outside, full of fluffy snow. I took Chhaya out on a walk. She got a bed for downstairs today, she loves it. And a new toy to play with. My baby! She is so cute.



I am very happy because I have new books to occupy myself with for a while. The Hunger Games , so much better in book form than the movie. Although I did like the movie. And I even found traditional Swedish glögg and Julmust. Plus some toffee from Williams-Sonoma that I brought with me from New York. Very yummy!





I am going to eat and read. Hopefully I won't gain too much weight. I want to be able to fit in all my clothes after the holidays.



Merry Christmas!

I worked last night. Since I like many of the people I work with I got them some gifts.



I had on my new bra that I got at Victoria's Secret. I like the color combo red and pink, it also has small rhinestones on it. $ 58 in case you want to get one too. It's very pretty I think.
Work was good. I got there at 9 30 pm, was out on the floor by 10 and was home by 2 am.
I made better money than any of my nights in New York, lol. Even after tipping out $ 95 last night. And in half the time.
Well, I am off to get my latte and to do some last minute errands before Christmas tomorrow.
I am going to get some movies too. Can't wait to relax at enjoy my Christmas!

Brrrrrrrr! It's cold here! About - 15 °F or so. I have to go and do errands, of course. Chhaya is wearing her new pink sweater that I got for her at a swanky doggie boutique at Upper East Side.
I should had gotten her a 26' instead I got her a 24', it fits but the larger would had been better.
I am wearing my new blue yoga pants from Hard Tail, I love the yoga pants they have. And my new grey leg warmers from Aldo. Oh, and my new purple suede fingerless gloves with fake fur from Henri Bendel, sooooooo cute, I got them in pink too.
I want to get books to read for Christmas. I want to eat, watch movies and read. Sounds like a plan!

Had more stuff with me on my return trip than I had when I arrived in New York about two weeks ago. My friends will be very happy that they know me this Christmas......I love giving gifts! It makes me happy.
All the famous bloggers in Sweden always take pics of their food they get in first class, well I don't fly first class.......I am just a regular person that rather save my money than blow it on first class and get something that will last instead of a four hour "comfortable' plane ride, however comfortable that can be, even in first class. Actually the last three times I flew I had some very annoying neighbors.........I will write about that some other time.
Well, this was my snack in coach, very luxurious. And some reading material. I love the cookies they give you when you fly Delta, I had three packs.



I don't know if i will ever go back to New York for work. It has changed since last time I worked. More girls and less classy girls. When I worked we did air dances only at Flashdancers and Tens.
I even got in trouble once because my hair fell on a guy, that was considered touching! Now girls sit in guys laps and get groped, some I worked with were downright vulgar and I can't "compete" with that. Neither do I want to. I also think I worked with a few girls this time that were not even 18. At Flashdancers, New York Dolls and Private Eyes you don't need any legal papers to work, therefore the large influx of foreign girls mainly from Eastern Europe, Russia and former Russia. And sometimes they don't even ask to see proof of your age. There were some girls that looked about 15, super skinny with barely developed boobs, I don't think you can look that childish at 21. But I love New York as a city. I did have some amazing days on my trip. So I am glad I went, even if work kind of sucked and I was sick the whole time too.





And IF I do go back there to dance it's going to be at Flashdancers or some other large club.
Now I know not to go in December, there were so many girls working before the holiday that the large clubs didn't hire any new girls. So I ended up at New York Dolls.





I arrived in Kenai at 6 30 am after waiting in Anchorage for five hours for my plane to Kenai. But I made it and I'm home now. 🙂

Last night at work FINALLY over with......I'm free! I started feeling claustrophobic and like a prisoner in that club and I wanted to leave from the very beginning of the night. At one point I felt like the subject in The Scream pure despair, I just wanted to GO HOME! I only wanted to make back my house fee and some kind of a profit. It felt like it was going to be impossible but eventually I managed. And I left two hours early because I just couldn't stand it anymore. So happy to be out of there! We are not "allowed" to leave early. The dancers have to be there until the end, if you need to leave early you have to ask for permission. If I'm not mistaken it's illegal to have dancers be independent contractors, charge them $ 100 to work and then dictate a schedule for them. That makes you an employee and not an independent contractor and that means that once there is a schedule there should be a wage. No? That is why so many dancers are suing clubs now and WINNING, good for them! I hope they get a lot.

The first thing I saw when I sat down on the couch waiting to get on stage was the Swedish girl
I got to know a little last Saturday. Some guy was touching her boobs and sucking on them. WTF? Really? You need to do all that for $ 20 out on the floor? I sure wonder what she allows to happen upstairs in the "Champagne Room" or VIP or whatever you want to call it. It's $ 630 or something like that for 50 minutes of "fun". When I saw that I got disappointed, she seemed so cool and she mentioned to me that she is tempted to quit dancing because of her new boyfriend. That it feels wrong to get touched by different guys since she is into her boyfriend now. I would feel really WEIRD and wrong too if a bunch of people would be sucking on my boobs every time I would be at work. GROSS! Then some guy told me he used to date a dancer and that it ended because he couldn't deal with that she would give bj's in the VIP. Whaaaaat? And he said he wasn't going to go upstairs with me because a bj for $ 600 plus was out of his price range, although tempting.
I looked at him in disbelief. First of all I clarified to him that I don't EVER do anything remotely close to a bj at work, no matter how much money might be involved. And then I told him that his ex girlfriend definitely was taking things way too far and beyond dancing/stripping. A bj should NEVER happen in a strip club. Sorry. That is nasty! I am so happy to be out of there and that I am going home later today. I am very homesick. All I want to do is read and watch movies and cuddle with my Chhaya. In my own comfy bed.
Here are some pics from the bar stage. On that one we have to be in a matching top and bottom, the bra has to be triangle cut. There is usually nobody paying any attention to you at the bar stage, so I could sneak in a few pics.





And the me and my never ending self portraits.

Last day in Manhattan before I leave tomorrow! Met up with Bella and went to the Museum Of Modern Art, or MoMA. But first I went to Pret and had breakfast, I love the lentil soup there and today I had two almond croissants. My last almond croissants at Pret for a while.
We went to MoMA to view The Scream by Edvard Munch. If you want to go to MoMa, go on a Friday after 4 30 pm, it's free to get in there then, otherwise it's $ 25 and I think that's rather steep. Anyways, The Scream is.......well it makes me FEEL something at least, sadness kind of.
It really is an amazing painting and I am glad I had the opportunity to see it. It is probably my favorite.





There were other paintings by Munch there and I thought some were quite good. He made some interesting ones. And then I saw this which is quite fitting for the world we live in, at least my world.



After MoMA I took a last stroll around town before I took the subway to Brooklyn. I am in bed with Olive now, the super cute cat I share my place with. I have to get in the shower soon. Then I am going to squeeze out what's left of the self tanner on rub it in and go to work.
My last night at New York Dolls. GOOD! I am exhausted and SO over it. I miss home.