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While sitting on the couch at work I often read. And think. Sometimes I sleep. Other times I take a ton of pictures of myself, so I can put them on my blog and make you happy! If you are wondering why I am wearing almost nothing in the pics, bra and panties and some heels......it's because that IS what I wear at work. I am not going to hide under a blanket so I can look "decent". I am already decent thank you very much.
So I read that the brand Lactacyd has a vagina whitening product out that is selling very well in Thailand and India. I remember Lactacyd from when I lived in Sweden, they made intimate soap that supposedly restored the natural ph balance down there. I don't know about that, maybe it works great for women that have very sensitive private parts. Then of course I heard about anal bleaching cream, you know.......who doesn't want a nice "clean looking" butthole? I think it got popular with porn actresses and even actors, gay guys in general are kind of vain (the ones I know at least) and the ones that do porn most certainly are, being viewed and scrutinized by many.
So now women are using some wash that promises to "safely" whiten the vagina. Hmmmmmm, maybe I should try it and make a before and after report here on the blog? LOL. I wonder if that product is for sale here at the super market? I have to check at Fred Meyer next time I go.......
But really, I think the stress over keeping your vagina white and your butthole bleached is just too much. I am certainly not stressed out over it. And to market this product so hard core in Asian countries and India where the majority of women have a different skin tone than the white Europeans is just wrong, I think. What is so bad with your own color? Nothing! What if your vagina actually does get a few shades lighter and stands out against the rest of your darker skin color? That if anything must be strange looking.
Just think of all the crazy things women do for "beauty". Like breast implants. Those are so common that nobody really cares anymore but if you think about it, putting two large objects in your chest is a chock for the body. And butt implants, I have seen a few of those and it looks weird. I would definitely tell somebody thinking about getting butt implants to reconsider.
But I am getting tired now, I am home, in bed after some hours at work, I had a cup of tea and now I am going to wash my face and go to sleep. And yes, I am a slave to beautifying products too, I glue on fake lashes (as seen in pics) and I like my MAC eye shadows and I also love my nighttime face cream by L'Occitane!

Today has been a great day so far. Me and Chhaya just got back from a one hour walk outside in the sunshine. I make hearts in the snow around here, it's my message to others kind of and also I think the heart symbol is cute.
I think I am going into work tonight, I am missing my girls at work.





So......I just came across an article that I absolutely agree with. Some guy named David Attenborough calls human kind the plague on the Earth and says that population growth will outsource resources and there will be a lack of space. I have always believed in population control myself. Many think that limiting the amount of children you have is like being told what to do by the government, like in China and everybody is free and can do whatever they want, right? Well, at least generally speaking in countries like the US and Sweden, two places I can say that I have lived long enough so I can make statements like these and feel like I am making a valid point. You know, we think we are FREE but are we REALLY? That's another subject in itself, lets' get back on track and talk some more about the 7 billion plus people that exist on the planet today.
I think one child, MAX two per woman. Not per couple since people get together and have children with a bunch of different people, PER WOMAN. And since gay males also want children (some of them) I would say they can adopt as many as they want, if they can provide a good home for the kids or get a surrogate that can give them one, MAX two kids. Of course certain circumstances like the death of a child would allow you to have another........But if you want more "because you just loooooove being a Mom" or "just looooooove children soooooo much" or "want to give the little monsters you already have a sibling" then STOP and THINK a little.
Don't be selfish, think about your children's future, yes even YOUR future, have you though of what this place that we call Earth might look like 10 -20 years from now if all that we do is reproduce and consume? If you really looooooove children so much then maybe you should look into taking in a foster child or adopting a child. Plenty of unwanted children out there that long for somebody of quality to love them and give them a home. And with somebody of quality I mean, a family or a single parent that is willing to put in the time and effort it takes to be a good parent. People that reproduce and have no means to care for their children and rely on the state (welfare) for assistance or abuse their children I do not respect at all. Just because you squeeze out a child doesn't mean that you are a parent, you gave life - now take responsibility for it!
And to mention the article, some other guy name Paul Ehrlich says, "government propaganda, taxes, giving every sexually active human being access to modern contraception and backup abortion, and, especially, giving women absolutely equal rights and opportunities with men might very well get the global population shrinkage required if a collapse is to be avoided". Again......I absolutely agree.
And to quote another person from the same article, Jerry Karnas, "what's needed is not population control but a real emphasis on reproductive rights, women's empowerment, universal access to birth control and education, so more freedom for folks to make better, more informed family planning choices." Yes, ok he is mentioning reproductive rights. I do not think every idiot out there should have the right to reproduce, no I don't.......sorry. That goes back to that I do not think that every person is fit to be a parent. If you have no control over your own life, if it's spiraling out of control, if you are heavily addicted to drugs and/or alcohol, if you don't have an income then HOW are you going to be a quality parent? How? Shape up, get on track, make some positive changes and then think about having a baby.
I have a very good friend in Sweden, she is married and has two boys. A while back she mentioned that she would like to have another child, a girl because she wants a girl and also she misses the time when her boys were babies. So......I gave her some of my thoughts.......what I think about having what I think are too many kids and the present problem with what I believe is an over populated planet. If she wants a girl she can adopt one, I think. Then at least she will get a girl for sure.
And you know, having a difference of opinions and beliefs doesn't mean that you can't be friends. I welcome people into my life that are open to discussion, then I can learn something of value hopefully and keep and open and always evolving mind.
But you know.......the issue with over population......it is definitely a very important subject.
You might not think about it too much but you should. And I think that every adult has a responsibility to do something positive for the Earth, something. THINK a little, don't just barge through life like you don't care about anything or anyone but yourself. Don't take life on Earth for granted!

Read the article I am referring to here

So last week when I was at the gym on the elliptical about ten minutes into a 30 minute session, a guy comes over and gets on the elliptical right next to me. There are four elliptical machines downstairs, two of one kind and two of another and then there are some upstairs too. He said that the ones upstairs were taken, I was all alone in that room before he came in. Well, after about a minute into his workout he starts making these loud sounds, like a cross between porn movie sounds and being in pain. I was like.......WTF?! It was really annoying and kind of disgusting too.
I am not sure what level he set his elliptical on but if I can handle doing the hill option on level 16 (out of 20) without moaning then I think a skinny guy in his 30's (I'm guessing) should be fully capable of the same thing. Unless he is sick or something......or thinks that making sounds like that is somehow sexy. NOT! It even says in the gym that you should refrain from making loud and inappropriate sounds because it actually IS disturbing. Ok if you lift a heavy weight and make a grunt - whatever. This thing was on the elliptical next to me for 17 minutes moaning non stop. I finally had enough and cut my session three minutes short plus Angelica called me and I had to be able to hear her instead of his porno moans.
Ewwwwww........ would be the best way to describe that experience. If he ever comes around again I am leaving that area, I'd rather not listen to that and get PTSD or something.

So last night I painted my toenails.......I wanted to get the look of a french pedicure but with pink as the base color and gold as the stripe. Maybe not the best looking french pedi but hey I did it myself so it was FREE instead of $ 40. And not the best pic of my pedicure but that's all I got for now.......



Earlier today I went and got my vanilla latte and a blackberry muffin.......



Then when I got home I got my tickets for EDC.......in Chicago and I am going with Angelica! I am so looking forward to it, to sum it up, it's going to be wild, crazy and fun. I have never been to Chicago before and I miss my friend that I haven't seen for too long now.



After that me and Chhaya ventured out for a walk, then I went to the gym. Now I am going to relax with some yummy ice cream and later I am going to organize my closet......I'll probably stay up until 3 or 4 am. Just took a pic of my new pedi with Chhaya's cute feet, she is laying in bed with me.

It's still Monday here but barely, only a few minutes left until midnight. Before I headed out this afternoon I forced myself to make two phone calls that I had pushed aside for about a week, nothing special. One was to cancel a service I decided that I don't want and the other was to call about a charge on my phone bill. Simple but yet so difficult to deal with. Procrastination.....And since I was in the mood of getting things done I later decided to defriend some people on Facebook that in all reality I don't consider my friends anymore. Maybe they once were but I am a give and take kind of friend.
I believe in giving A LOT and I am very generous. If they need me for anything, I am there. Unfortunately, looking back "being there" for some people in my life turned out to be a huge mistake but that's life. I am still doing good.
But if a person is acting like they don't care, then why should I bother with them? So I defriended a few today, this is the second time I have done that, a while back I defriended some other "non worthy" fake Facebook friends.
I am not the person to collect hundreds of Facebook friends. I mean, do people even know the hundreds and sometimes more "friends" the have on Facebook personally?
I have 49. And a few of those I am not close with I have to admit but I do have some form of connection to them. I guess I could friend request every single person I went to high school with and then friend request all of their friends and end up with hundreds of friends on my Facebook profile too......to feel what? Special? Instead I am thinking about shaving off a few more. I think you can consider yourself a lucky person if you can pick up the phone and get assistance in a life crisis from 49 people. Or somebody that listens to what you have to say. Or even consider 49 people true friends is lucky.
And I don't think I could count on that from all of my 49 Facebook friends, many of them don't even live in the US. But a few of them I have known since I was eight years old and when I do go to Sweden we meet and catch up.
I should probably defriend a few people outside of Facebook also. My problem is that I am a very loyal person, so I stick around. But thinking about it, people that are "too busy" to be a friend are really not worthy of being my friend. And some of these people don't even work, so then what are they doing that keeps them so busy? Sleep?
Watch tv? Nothing? I work, not every day but I do work and take care of all kinds of things during the day and somehow I have never been "too busy" to call somebody back or pay attention to a friend when they needed something. Give and take.
I need to get rid of the ones that only take. The one day when they will need me I am not going to bother with them.
But now I think I am going to get busy with reading some magazines.......

Just checked my comments......and saw this one, "What should women do about the gray hair 'down there'? Shave it . . . try coloring . . leave it gray? Any advice?"
Recently I wrote a blog about what color I use for my gray hair on my HEAD that I discovered as a teenager. 18.
I am the first to admit this, I am vain and yes I do color my hair because I personally do not want to walk around with gray hair. It looks great on some older women but I am not that old yet and like myself more in my "real" color. I know many girls that color their gray hair but they would rather die than admit to it. As far as gray pubic hair goes and what you should do......
Well, that is up to YOU. I don't have the answer to that. Do whatever is right for you and not what somebody else wants. I don't have gray pubes. See, I'm not that old.....yet.
But I think that women should do whatever suits them when it comes to the hair on their head and body. If you want a bushy VAGINE, hairy armpits, gray hair, no hair etc then suit yourself.
I do not think you should shave, wax or color because society says you should.
I personally wax my thighs once in a while, right now I have long dark hairs all over my legs, it looks like spider legs. I have always trimmed and shaved the hair down there because to me, it seems cleaner and looks nicer. The same goes for my armpits. But I am talking about my personal taste now. To me it is also nicer when guys trim their fro's down there. The less hair you have down there the cleaner it seems. BUT if some guy (as in boyfriend) told me to shave, color, trim or whatever then I would probably dump him or do the opposite and grow out a bush then sit on his face to teach him a lesson.
I think coloring the hair down there light pink would probably look cute too.
I know that girls are subjected to the air brushed and hair free VAGINES in Playboy, Hustler and other magazines and think that all girls should look like that. Well, not even the girls in those pics look like THAT. They shaved, waxed, tanned and the pics got air brushed and retouched before getting published. In porn they use body make up, certain lighting and angles to create the look they want. Real life is REAL and full of "flaws" for a lack of a better word. But then again, you can't have a relationship with some girl in a magazine. Only in your fantasy.
I am glad I got that comment, even though I suspect it was meant as a joke. I didn't know what to say today and that comment gave me something to write about, so thank you whoever you are.......
With that said, I am getting dressed now and taking Chhaya for a walk.