Welcome to Chaos !!

It is sunny, warmish and nice outside. I am lapping up the sunshine on the deck with Chhaya, sipping on a cold beer. I do like a cold beer once in a while. If the bottle looks pretty, has a fun name or anything else interesting about it like a chocolate or fruit flavor I want to taste it. I do not like boring beer like Budweiser, Foster's or Coors. I am a light weight, half a bottle and I am loopy, a whole bottle and I am funny, two bottles and I am done. I think I am going to rest, maybe even take a small nap now. Then go for a run and later it is hair washing time and work.

I had a fun night at work tonight. I got home a while ago, right now I am in bed, freezing under the covers because I just had to eat some ice cream. How can ice cream taste so heavenly? I had Ben & Jerry Banana Split and yes I ate the whole container.
I always finish the whole thing. It tastes too good not to.
What makes work fun? The people I meet and the conversations I have. Tonight was a good night. I met quality people.
So I thought I would measure my heels just to make sure they really are 7" because I used to think that they were 6 1/2 but they are almost 7, right underneath the 7" mark. I am a little tempted to try the 8" heels. They look really high, like stilts, but they do wonders for the legs. I have seen girls with short, stubby legs put on some 8" heels and the transformation to a long, lean leg is instant. I have long legs but with my heels on they appear to be really long.



I like these two 8" heels by Pleaser (Bejeweled 801DM). Nice!



This is what I had on tonight. Those black things are leather cuffs with rhinestones, one around each wrist.



And when it was all said and done I had 225 dollar bill balls to unwrap (stage tips only). And one hot ball (the red thing) to suck on. Unwrapping all those dollars takes a long time. I finished about half and going to do the rest tomorrow.



But now I am going to sleep, my eyes are closing on me. I love sleeping.

I am feeling so bored and unmotivated.......I don't know why. Well, I DO know why.
I live in the most boring place ever. There is nothing going on here and my days look the same, everyday is the same. I can't wait to move. Maybe soon.
Yes, I might......MIGHT be leaving Alaska in the not so distant future.
So today when I pulled up to Coffee Roasters (my excitement for this afternoon, yippie!) I noticed a little lost girl dog. All alone, scurrying around and looking nervous. She had a collar. I got out of the car and tried to get her to come over to me but she got scared and took off running across the parking lot and towards the busy road. I felt so bad and scared that she would get hit by a car. I hope somebody will be able to pick her up and return her to her owner.
I saw a cat get hit by two cars a long time ago. It was awful, that poor thing tumbled across the road and I can still remember his face. It makes my stomach ache when I think back to that and I want to cry.
I know that some people around here let their dogs run loose but I would think twice about doing that. Some people shoot stray dogs that go in on their property, it's crazy but they do. Each year there is a discussion around here about people that shoot other people's dogs.
I am lucky with Chhaya, I can let her outside and she will stay close to the house.
Either lay right outside on the porch or in the grass. Or go sniff close by in the forest. She always comes right away when I call her. If I had an issue with her running away I would not risk it and keep her supervised at all times or on a long leash. If I would lose her it would be entirely my fault and I would be devastated.
One more thing about dogs. I have spoken to a few people in the last couple of weeks that got rid of their dog (euthanized) because the dog bit somebody else in a situation that could had been prevented. When I was a little, around three years old we had a dog and a cat in the household. The dog bit me and the cat scratched me. I pulled on the cats tail while it tried to get away from me under the bed. I was probably pestering it and naturally the poor cat turned around and scratched me. The dog bit me because I climbed on top of him and bounced up and down on his back. He growled, the baby sitter didn't react in time and the dog bit me on my ear. I remember a lot of blood and laying in bed when my Mom came home. Did my Mom get rid of her pets? Of course not. They were not viscous. They reacted in a normal way. My Mom had told me many times not to bother the cat or the dog but when you are a toddler you are a toddler. Therefore when you have small children around animals you should always pay extra attention to make sure to avoid situations like these. The bite from the dog healed and I learned my lesson and the scratch from the cat healed too. I would never let a small child be around Chhaya's food bowl when she eats. That is a given. You can have the friendliest dog but when there is food involved they react in a way that is natural for them. The pack mentality and hierarchy. I can stick my fingers in Chhaya's bowl and take it away from her if I want to, she lets me. I don't bother her like that on purpose, I leave her alone when she eats but I have been feeding her all her life and she feels secure with me and her food. I can put food in my mouth and she will gently take it.
But I would not let a child stick their fingers in her bowl, even come close to Chhaya when she eats, chances are she would bite and I would never get rid of Chhaya if that happened. Ever. A situation like that can happen in an instant but it can also be prevented. How sad to put down a beloved dog because you did something stupid that could had been prevented. It's not the dogs fault. In general small children should always be supervised with animals.
One more thing that popped up in my inbox today. Police shooting dogs. I have seen that a lot and it really bothers me. They seem to be way too trigger happy when it comes to shooting dogs. For no reason than some excessive barking in some instances. I don't want trigger happy cops out there. Cops are just as unbalanced and psychotic as the rest of the crazies out in society. It doesn't make me feel safe when I know that they have no qualms about shooting an innocent animal. What if this happened to your beloved dog? You should sign this petition. SIGN

I don't have much exciting to report today. I am tired because I woke up early.
Decided on staying in tonight instead of working. So I am going to spend the evening with taking a long bath, changing to this light pink nail polish on my toes and applying mud on my face. Those little packages contain mud face mask from the Alaska Glacial Mud Co.
Oh.....I should probably explain here that I was just JOKING about spraying Lysol on the guys before I dance for them. And honking that Barbie horn if I don't get enough money. But I should bring out that Lysol bottle tomorrow night and pretend to spray somebody down just to see how they react. I love joking around. I need to entertain myself somehow. My latest idea is to make a tampon fund for all of us at work and start a collection. I am going to find a large glass jar or plastic container. Write tampon fund on it and attach some (unused) tampons around the rim of the jar and put it out on the bar. I love to do things and say things at work that is not expected. Just to see people's reaction.

So are you curious to see what I have in my lockers at work? I suspect I have some readers (out of the 1100 - 1200 plus daily) that read my blog because my life and what I do is different from theirs and that makes some curios. I don't sit in a cubicle or by a desk, wearing the typical office attire. When I arrive at work I start with touching up my make up. That involves maybe applying a little more eye shadow and a black thin line of eye shadow on the bottom of my fake lashes to blend them in, a coat of mascara and maybe some lipstick and gloss for the evening. Lately I have been wearing a rose scented lip balm from DIOR. Back in the day I used to put on foundation and loose powder, I stopped with that a long time ago. I like my skin better natural and the foundation application took way too long. I never use blush or any kind of contouring techniques. Sometimes I apply a shimmery highlighter on my cheekbones. Then I change into whatever I choose to wear for the evening. I might add some bracelets, a necklace, earrings or my belly chain. A few spritzes of VIVA La Juicy or some lotion.
And I am done.
So I start with picking out a bra and panty. Here are all my bra's. They come from either Victoria's Secret (8), Fredrick's Of Hollywood (3) or Betsey Johnson (3).





Sometimes I choose a triangle top bra. I got those at various stores in Vegas that sell dancer attire. Like Strings By Judith.



Here are my panties. I only wear Honey Dew's at work, low rise boy short cut. I have duplicates of a few and I didn't bother including the duplicates in the pics. I am always on the lookout for a new cute bra and a new color/style of Honey Dew's. I can't have enough. Right now I only have 24 pairs to choose from.





I keep the stuff I wear at work separate from my panties and bras I wear outside of work. I prefer sports bras when I am not at work and Hanky Panky thongs.
Then I pick a shoe. I rotate between three pairs. The height? 7 inches. So yes, I appear to be very tall but I am 5'9 without heels.



I also have some boots. I have not yet used them at work but I have put them to use in some photo shoots. If you want to see some of the pics write the word boots in my search engine.



I have a large collection of earrings, necklaces, rings and bracelets. Too many to line up and photograph. I keep all of the shiny stuff like this.



Sometimes I wear leg warmers. I have a black pair and a light pink pair. I bought them in a store that outfits ballerinas. They are really long but I scrunch them so they reach a few inches over my knee. All of this I keep separated and organized in bins in my two lockers and all the shoes and my regular clothes (that I put in a bag) I keep in a third locker. I also have some small sweaters/cardigans (five I think) that I keep folded up in a box in the third locker but I rarely wear them so I didn't bother taking a pic of them either.



You can see some things hanging in the upper corner in one of the lockers, those are garters. We have to wear a garter on the main stage, it's some kind of a law.
Then I have all the small towels that I sit on. I never sit down on a chair with my barely covered behind without a towel. I don't want any germs. Also baby wipes. I clean my shoes with them and all kinds of other things....... A bottle of rubbing alcohol in case I do feel like I need to wipe myself clean, after being on a dirty stage for example.
Some Lysol. I spray down the guys with Lysol before I dance for them, like I said.......
I don't want any germs. They never object to being sprayed down, they are too busy admiring my fake eye lashes and all my other attributes.



And then of course my perfume, lotion, deodorant, gum. And a Barbie horn. If people don't throw enough money at me I pull that out and honk it in their ear until they fork up at least an additional $ 50. I am a tyrant. And I always get my way.



That is my inventory at work..........Now you know!

This is so typical. I am at work and there is one guy here. One! This is how it was last Monday too, so slow that I didn't even bother changing into what I wear at work.
And the nights when I choose to stay home always turn out to be the good nights, like last night for example I heard. It's always like that. You have to work every night to not miss out on the good nights or to even out the good nights with the bad. I only work every night when I go out of town to work. That is my only mission then, to work.
When I am in town I don't have the willingness to work every night. Staying at home......and I have a nice home by the way, with Chhaya and a book or a movie is just as necessary as working. So I am at work, sitting on the couch, wrapped up in a blanket, listening to music and waiting to go home. I am so not in the mood for this right now.
If nobody shows up and it is slow I get bored and absolutely not in the mood to be entertaining and chatty if somebody does decide to show up right before closing.
Then I just want to go home. I bet that if I don't show up here tomorrow I will hear later that it was a good night. Sigh........ I am hungry, cranky and wish I was at home. Bleh.