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Hi from me at work. I just finished singing along obnoxiously loud to Adele and Christina Aguilera. Who doesn't sing along to Adele? Besides that I am kind of bored, it has been boring and slow here lately. I am fantasizing about what I am going to eat tomorrow. Either a big sandwich full of veggies or some pizza. There is a girl that works here that is so pathetic. The way she works. How she is desperately trying to get that lap dance. Doing things that are embarrassing. I am watching and laughing. If I would put in all that "effort" (for a lack of a better word) I would expect to make at least $ 500 on a slow night. But I think, "You want a dance" should be sufficient. Or, "You need".
I also have some very original lines but I will tell you about them another time.
Original in a fun way, not in a desperate kind of way. Desperate = sad. I am glad that doesn't apply to me.

It was flip flop weather yesterday finally! So I dug out my pink Havaianas. I live in my flip flops during nice weather days but today we are back to gray and cold, typical.



So I went to Bottomless Lake for a walk the other day. Chhaya explored the forest while I followed her. There is still plenty of snow and ice here.







At the lake I was delighted to find a bunch of beer cans, a used tampon, a condom wrapper, all the usual stuff you expect to find in the forest, especially in such a remote place like Alaska. This is completely normal here btw. So I did some community service (as usual) not court ordered. Picked up all the beer cans and moved the tampon to a fire place by the lake. Like, "Let's go to the lake, get wasted and fornicate. I'll bring the condoms and you make sure to pull out yer tampon before I stick it in." People are so gross. Then I continued the community service yesterday at the road by my house, pretty much the same treasures laying around. Beer cans, condom wrapper, lots of tissue, many cigarette butts and an empty bottle of Jäger. Didn't belong to me, I would never litter. I feel it takes minimal effort and very little time to do this and I don't mind spending some time once in a while doing something for others, in this case my surroundings than do nothing at all. And I want to add here that I hate people that trash and litter, they just ooze low class and lack of refinement. Very selfish behavior.
I can't stand that.



I am not the only one picking up random idiot's trash around here. Other people volunteer their time too, I see them on the side of busy roads now that it warmed up a bit here and the snow melted somewhat. Some of them are old. If THEY can do it, so can YOU. But the best solution is, DO NOT litter. Yeah, this was another, in a string of many blog entries where I brag about how good I am. Get used to it. I can't help it, I really am this way. 100 % smug.
It's easy to feel good about yourself if and when you do something good. Try it!

I am sitting here at Coffee Roasters with my latte but I am so disgusted that I almost threw it up.
First of all from learning more about the three women in Cleveland that were held captive for ten years and the repeated physical, sexual and mental torture they had to go through. That there were more pregnancies than the one surviving six year old girl. Now police is going to dig up the backyard to search for possible remains from babies.
I am close to tears. This can happen to any woman. It can happen to me or you when we go to the grocery store or getting in and out of our car, some man deciding to kidnap us. Because I can with strong conviction make the statement that I do not think there are many (if any) women out there that would kidnap or rape men/boys.
For what? I am not the least interested in raping any guy. Yes, you read about women teachers having sex with their students. Whatever. You read about women mistreating and abusing their children and looking the other way when the husband or boyfriend molests the kid/s. That makes me fuming mad too. Those are the women that should had never been allowed to reproduce. But men are out there kidnapping, torturing, raping and murdering women all the time. I am so grossed out with those three fat ugly monsters that did this to those three women. I think I have decided on the proper punishment. Fist cut off their dicks. Of course! With a dull knife. Then about 30 minutes afterwards while they are in pain and shock, pour gasoline on them and light them on fire. In a public place with an audience. I would gladly take on the role of the executioner and not feel the slightest remorse afterwards.

One more thing that made me really disgusted this afternoon. Snoop Dogg or Snoop Lion as he now calls himself, since he supposedly got some revelation during a visit to Jamaica and decided to become a Rasta, came out that he used to be a pimp.
Just to quote him in the article, "I had a bus follow me with ten bitches on it. I could fire a bitch, fuck a bitch, get a new ho: It was my program. City to city, titty to titty, hotel room to hotel room, athlete to athlete, entertainer to entertainer. "It was never about the money; it was about the fascination of being a pimp … As a kid I dreamed of being a pimp, I dreamed of having cars and clothes and bitches to match. I said, 'Fuck it -- I'm finna do it." "A lot of athletes bought p---y from me," he added. His wife "had to take a backseat" to his business, the rapper admitted, and noted, "I love her to this day because she coulda shook out on a n---a, but she stayed in my corner. So when I decided to let it go, she was still there."

WHAT? Gross. Ghetto. Nasty. His wife knew , his wife that he has THREE kids with by the way, she knew but was OK with this shit? Because to me, if you stay with a guy through something like this then you are OK with it. What a dumb woman she must be, no backbone whatsoever. She is a ghetto trash person. And a "great" mother too. I think that he should be banned from every music related event. To me a pimp is a disgusting low life. The fascination of being a pimp? What is wrong with people in this country? Really. I never heard of any pimping when I lived in Sweden. You don't grow up wanting to be a pimp there. Only in America. Disgusting is what it is.

But now I am going to do some COMMUNITY SERVICE. Read about it later.

I love this guy! Charles Ramsey. If you don't know who he is yet.......look him up. What a cutie he is, I want to give him a hug! I hope he gets his moment to shine because he has star power, he is funny! I am a fan.



I read about this whole story yesterday and I am appalled of course that some freak took it upon himself to kidnap three girls and ruin their lives. What is wrong with people? I don't eye a boy or a man walking down the street and get some sudden urge to grab his ass and keep him at my house against his will for a decade or so. Like a slave. WTF. There needs to be harsher punishments for dudes. So they think twice before raping and kidnapping women. Cut their dicks off.

Look what I came across in the sand at the beach today. This pretty horse drawing. Horses were my first love. When I was little all I wanted to do was ride horses, brush them and be around them. I might start riding horses again one day. Today I had another day taking care of stuff, I cleaned my car, did more laundry, there is always stuff to do at home. A never ending project. Not feeling motivated to write any long blogs right now. I am in bed watching my boyfriend Sheldon (Big Bang Theory) and drinking tea. Soon a bath because I am dusty and grimy. Probably a mask again tonight. I will stay up until around 3 am reading other people's blogs and Wild . Then I will wake up around noon, go get a latte, maybe go for a run and perhaps work in the evening if I am in the mood. Talk to ya'll tomorrow at some point.

I had another one of those busy days again. Filled with much of.....nothing really besides that I got a lot done. You know like many loads of laundry, a bunch of cleaning, some necessary phone calls. I also went to Playa Azul, a Mexican restaurant in Kenai that I have never been to before and I was not too impressed, so I will not go there again. I do expect the food to be really good when I go out to eat, otherwise what is the point? I might as well stay at home and cook something instead. I don't think the locals here expect too much from the dining choices around here but if you have ever experienced dining in for example New York or Vegas then you know what food should taste like when you eat out. And I am so disappointed in the weather, heeeelloooo it is May and it's windy and freezing out. The weather here sucks right now. Where is the sun and warmth?
I took a late night bath. Right now I am rereading a book by Cheryl Strayed Wild , it is a good read if you are looking for something new. I have to get Camilla Läckberg's latest novel, The Stranger . Besides that, after plowing through the latest issues of ELLE and Marie-Claire, I decided that I probably need a pair of camo Hudson skinny jeans.
I have to try them on first, maybe I will find them when I am in Chicago in a few weeks. I also want some hair products, Peter Thomas Roth's Hair To Die For serum and Kérastase Initialiste. Both are scalp treatments supposedly good for getting healthy, shiny hair. I am going to try to take better care of my hair. Starting at the root of things, the scalp. But now I have to wash off the mud mask I have on my face and apply a honey mask. Having a "taking care of myself" evening at home.