Welcome to Chaos !!

I have no inspiration for coming up with anything to say right now. I'm kind of moody and feeling a bit off. That will change soon. Maybe I go for a run before work tonight. Work has been so bad for the last two weeks that I feel like it is not fun being there, so I am definitely not inspired to work. If I would tell you what I have been making (rather NOT making) you would probably want to send me a donation! 🙂
I am dreaming of clubs where you are not allowed to do dirty dances and where being a classy girl is appreciated instead of frowned upon and misunderstood by people that do not possess any kind of refinement.
I have been eating pancakes for two days. And it's been sunny so I have been laying out. I am pale. The last time I went to a tanning salon was in 2006 when I was in Denver working at Shotgun Willie's. I got burnt and red and after that decided not to ever lay in a tanning bed again. The first time I started going I think I was in 8th grade. I absolutely regret that now because it really is bad for you but back then I thought it was great and I remember that I looked like I had been on a tropical vacation one winter in Sweden, very brown amongst my pale friends. Now I don't want to burn or get that dark. I do use self tanner once in a while, usually when I work out of town, I have more energy to bother with stuff like that then.
Well, that is all from me today.......

I am spending this nice evening at home. I was planning on working but then I started cleaning and doing other things, so I am at home. Me and Chhaya went for a nice long walk. This is her telling me that she does NOT want to participate in a photo shoot. Talk about looking miserable!



She is now looking very comfortable while sleeping in her upstairs bed. There is one downstairs too. She scratches the blanket and her lamb friend around until she is satisfied before she lays down.



Today while at PetCo I though that I should maybe switch Chhaya's dry kibble to a different dog food brand. I heard that Blue Wilderness is a good. Right now Chhaya gets Solid Gold's Sun Dancer. I did some research on www.dogfoodadvisor.com and according to that site Blue Wilderness is an excellent dry dog food, it received a top rating (5/5 stars), whereas the Sun Dancer didn't get as good remarks but almost, (4.5/5 stars.)
What they also told me at PetCo is that I should switch Chhaya over to a kibble for senior dogs because it contains less protein. Chhaya is eight and I guess considered a senior although she acts like a puppy most of the time. I did some research on that too and some people say to not give your dog less protein when they become older. That kind of makes more sense to me too. This is what the moderator at dogfoodavisor has to say, "After looking for a satisfactory answer to this common question, I've found the white paper published by Champion Petfoods (makers of Orijen and Acana products) to make the most scientific sense.
In a nutshell, the Orijen paper says... "Contrary to myths and popular beliefs, feeding a high-protein diet is healthy for dogs of any age, including puppies of all breeds and sizes, seniors, and overweight dogs. Studies have proven that protein does not cause orthopedic problems in puppies, nor does it lead to kidney disease in older dogs."
For the most part, I'm inclined to agree. If you get a chance, this Orijen report makes an excellent argument in favor of a high protein diet for all dogs... and it's certainly worth a read."
I want the best for Chhaya.....she is the love and light of my life. It's scary to make choices on the behalf of the pet in your life sometimes because they can't tell you what they need and want. You have to decide for them. Hopefully you end up making the right decision.

I think it is time for a shower now, then some reading in bed. Sweet Dreams from me!



Oh......one more thing. Of course I know that Hilary is not the Vice President, I said Biden (that's why I won the $ 10). But I like to joke around at times when I write here and I know that some of you might not catch on to all the stuff I say......

How is everybody's Sunday going? Another gray and gloomy day here, it's been raining for days now. I could had stayed home last night because work was bad.....well at least I made my latte money for the coming week. We had 20 girls and me and one other girl were the only two with no dances and the other girls complained that it was like pulling teeth, getting a dance I mean. It was pretty bad. Another said that unless you give out your phone number or promise to meet up it seemed like you were not getting any dances. So I lounged around,
I am too lazy to struggle for dances, either you want one or not......I don't think I should have to convince anyone to get one or promise things that won't happen anyways, so I went on stage and also won $ 10 because I knew the name of the Vice President whereas some of my other co workers didn't. The Vice President is me right? And when I am not in the mood (as of lately) I delegate the job to Hilary. Clinton that is.





This is BS. I never charge for dances upfront. I think it is rude. The reason they made that sign is that nobody besides the dancer will be responsible if the guy for some reason doesn't want to pay. "You are supposed to charge upfront honey", would be the response if there was a problem. It happens. That is what bouncers are for. I had that happen maybe twice at Crazy Horse Too in Vegas, all I had to do was to wave over a gorilla looking bouncer and the guys paid up real quick. I never cheat or overcharge when it comes to money. But you need to pay me for the dances that I do. Another time a guy misunderstood the cost. One dance was $ 50 and he thought I had said $ 15. So after he had three in a row I reminded him that he was up to $ 150 and he looked really surprised......he didn't have the money on him and I knew he made an honest mistake (and we all make mistakes so I didn't get mad). He left and came back with the money.
Here I would say that half of the time the guys just hand over the money before the dace starts but I never demand that. Haven't had any problems so far. As far as giving somebody a free dance due to not collecting the money is advance? ICH DON'T THINK SO! There is no "law" that says that, like I said, management does not want to deal with that problem should it happen. I should add here that a while back they had up a different sign that said, "The Law says that the table dance has to be paid upfront". LOL. Yeah, sure there is a law that says that, show me that law!
One more thing, we don't have table dances here, it's a "lap dance" for a lack of a better description. Table dance.....that is something that happened a long time ago.



Since I was raised properly I would never flush anything besides toilet paper down the toilet......I will not pay more in house fee because I happen to work with dumb and selfish girls. Sorry.

After the gym I felt much better. Especially after throwing some punches in this guy's face.
A great way to feel better and to be prepared for one day when I might actually have to defend myself. I would throw in a few good kicks too, long and strong legs can be useful at times.
I just thought of something funny.....the other day a girl at work told me that she caught FUGLY have a breakdown in the bathroom.....she was frantically ripping apart a roll of toilet paper while making angry sounds. That is funny! I know that FUGLY has lots of pent up anger, I can tell by watching her, it shows at times, like when she goes on stage and violently claws through the decorations hanging from the ceiling or furiously throws dollars at the stage when some guy give her tip money for the other girls. She is probably mad that the money is not staying in her pocket, some people just don't like to share. Yes, I do loose my temper at work sometimes, when dumb guys think they can boss me around......I mean I have to put my foot down, right? And I have been sad a few times due to work but sad and angry are two different things. Other than that, you would never catch me ripping apart roll of toilet paper or screaming into a towel. I'd rather go to the gym.

Today has started out BAD for me......now I am in a shitty mood and don't want to do anything. To top it off there are still so many mosquitoes out, it is GROSS. I thought about going camping but changed my mind because I do not want to deal with mosquitoes and DEET. When I take Chhaya out for a walk I have to swat them off us constantly. Every night before I go to sleep I hunt down the ones that are hiding in my house, kill them and some off them have blood in them, that is just so yucky!
Anyways, I think that I am going to force myself to go to the gym and see if I feel any better afterwards. Although.....I don't want to go. I want to lay down on the ground, kick and scream - tantrum style. This means that I am about to have my period soon. Yeay, FUN!
On the other hand, here are some very HOTTTT pics of me last time I went to the gym. I am so totally self -absorbed and take like hundreds of pics of myself daily. Then I carefully pic out ONLY the best ones to showcase. NOT.
Look, I am so gorgeous!



I love my new leggings!



I love my new shoes!



Well, I am not going to wallow in my self misery anymore. It is gym time.

Sitting here and finishing up my coffee.....I have to go and return some movies and get toilet paper, very glamorous. I will refer to this entry when people at work ask me what I do during the daytime. I do the same stuff like everybody else, sleep and run errands. Stuff.
Oh....I forgot to mention that last night some guy got fascinated with my feet and toenails and the funny thing is that my pink toenail polish is looking awful and I need to cut my toenails but I was going to wait until Monday, that is when I am going to get a pedicure. Anyhow, he kept on trying to inspect my feet and I kept on moving them away from him. I mean, first of all my feet look kind of bad right now, although he didn't seem to think so and second, that is a very specific fetish that people pay high dollars for. So no, you can look but you cannot touch!
Then while giving him a lap dance he tried to pull a fast one and touch my VAGINE. I quickly backed away and recomposed myself (my first instinct was to push him really hard but that could had injured him) and then I scolded him. Well, he sincerely apologized and the dance ended there. Of course I kept the money!

Sooooo.......here are a few things on my list of stuff that annoyed me today. First of all this article about a pregnant CHILD in Chile.

"SANTIAGO, Chile (AP) — The case of a pregnant 11-year old girl who was raped in Chile by her mother's partner has set off a national debate about abortion in one of the most socially-conservative countries in Latin America.
State TV reported that the girl is 14 weeks pregnant. Police arrested her mother's partner who confessed to abusing the fifth grader. Doctors say her life and that of the fetus are at high risk. But ending the pregnancy is not an option."

Abortion is illegal in Chile, no matter what circumstance. What utter BULLSHIT! I feel serious anger and sadness when I hear about stuff like this.

Then I read an online article about Channing Tatum and that he is now a Dad because his wife Jenna recently gave birth to a girl. He talked about how much he admired Jenna for giving birth and for women in general. Many women LOVE Channing because he is a hot hunk that showed off his fine physique in Magic Mike but he also seems to sincerely love and adore his wife and be a really good guy allover. I like men like that. That is a MAN. Hey guys, LOVE your woman! That is my advice for you! So following the article people chimed in with their opinions about child birth and their man/husband being there for them during that time. Some poor woman wrote, "a man only does this if he truly loves his wife. my husband made me go to a pizzeria with him on the way to the hospital, and I had to watch him eat a whole pizza before we went. I was so hungry, I'd been in labor for 3 days at that point, and couldn't have anything to eat. it was another 47 hrs. and 45 min. before I delivered. doctor didn't believe in C-sections, and then he sewed me up tighter for my husband's better pleasure. unbelievable. I had to have it re-done a couple of years later. how thoughtless and cruel they were."

What the fuck? I'd much rather be single than have a "man" like that. Nobody is free of fault and people make mistakes but that is just plain wrong on so many levels. All of it. The pizza, the sewing up the VAGINE for the husbands pleasure......really? REALLY?! I can't believe the stuff some people do.
Anyhow.....I need to go and get that toilet paper!