Welcome to Chaos !!

I'm at Kaladi right now, just finished my latte and went over old Nordic names with my friend Traci that works here. She has a baby Great Dane puppy and wants to give it an old Nordic name. The favorites right now are Saga and Torgny - cute! I love Saga. And if I had a horse I would name it Fjalar.
So I worked last night. I have no interest lately of even trying to make money in there, I guess I'm over it. For now. With me that can change from day to day. I could go in tonight and feel totally different but lately (since a while actually) I don't have any motivation. I just sit there and wait to go on stage. I'm over asking for dances. I'm not going to bend over backwards to get a dance. Really now! Either you want one or you don't. I don't do that whispering bullshit stuff in some guys ear and promising some dirty stuff to happen during a dance. YUCK. I did one dance last night. I made OK money still.....meaning OK for only having one dance, close to $200. That is not OK money when I travel for work but here it is. Some guy asked a few times if I would dance for him, I declined. Why? Well, I have danced for him before. Twice if I remember it right and I am not going to subject myself to his groping hands ever again.
I don't need the money. He is very grabby and in an aggressive way, I don't like that. In fact I prefer no touching at all. It makes it fair. I don't need some guy thinking that he can touch me ALL OVER (which is not going to happen anyways) because some other girl he did dances with let him do that to her. I don't need to live that nightmare for however many minutes the dance lasts until it's over. Torture! In fact me an another girl were wondering if he (the grabby guy) has a wife last night. If so, we feel sorry for that poor woman. We said that if that was our husband or boyfriend (cruel fate, I'd rather be without a man for the rest of my life than to be with somebody like that) we would have to kill him and make it look like an accident.
Oh, one more thing. This summer is predicted to be a slow one money wise. Boss Lady told me that herself last night. And the owner said it to somebody I know earlier this week.
He said that business is down 25% from last year.
When I got home I ate cherries and read my book about gnomes, trolls and princesses.
It's really good. Then I fell asleep with my lashes on. When I woke up I reprimanded myself for that crime, I have been so tired lately that I'm too lazy to wash my face after work.
Well, I'm off now. Need to get some food and spend time with Chhaya.

Phew.....I had a loooooong day today but I'm finally home, back from Anchorage......I had an errand to take care of there today. I got up at 7 am this morning with only about four hours of sleep, I didn't sleep well last night. Weird dreams and mosquitoes buzzing around. And I pulled into my driveway a little after 11 pm. I am tired. It takes about 3 hours to drive to Anchorage (give or take 30 minutes depending on the season, traffic, road construction, pee stops). It was GORGEOUS out today but I didn't take any pics of the mountains, water and the green hills. Instead here is the sandwich I had at Middle Way Cafe - the avocado melt.
Listen, you need to go there (if you ever visit Anchorage) and have that sandwich.....it is soooo good. I have fantasized about that sandwich since yesterday. I love Middle Way Cafe! When I lived in Anchorage I used to go there several times a week.



While enjoying my sandwich and sipping on my delicious Sattwa Chai I read the Savage Love column. I love Savage Love (I love all kinds of things in case you haven't noticed yet, I'm easy like that) and I learned about UNICORNS. See a unicorn is not only a horse with a horn projecting from it's forehead. It's also a woman that is willing to have sex with a couple (like a woman and man couple, not a man plus man couple or woman plus woman couple) fulfilling their threesome fantasy. I guess women willing to do just that are so rare they are called unicorns. I learned something new today! A new meaning for the word unicorn. I've been asked to be a "unicorn" (LOL!!!) a few times, I said no. I might say yes if Rihanna and Bradley Cooper team up and ask me, until then.....NO. Or Rihanna and Chester.....that's also a yes.
I know I'm tired cause I'm rambling now.....
So I believe in signs. I've been seeing so many signs lately.....that make sense to me. Last night I thought that the pink unicorn in the RAV4 Toyota ad was very cute, I thought that I needed that car because it had a cute pink unicorn on it's roof. If something is cute and pink, I need it. Then today I learned a new meaning of the word unicorn. My conclusion? It's a sign that I need a brand new RAV4 Toyota!



When I drove through Soldotna this evening I had to stop and get something to eat. I had acute cravings for yogurt and sauerkraut. No, I'm not pregnant, I am European. People were in line buying beer, soda and meat. It's 4th of July tomorrow after all. And I got this.....



When I got home I devoured some sauerkraut straight from the jar.....it's good for you!
My Mom makes sauerkraut soup, it is sooooo good. Kapuśniak it's called.
One more thing. Here are the strip clubs in Anchorage.....The Great Alaskan Bush Company, Fantasies on 5th and Sin Rock. Well, there is one more.....Crazy Horse. But they don't advertise in the Press (weekly free paper that comes out in Anchorage). Which one should you go to? Try all four. Then decide on which one you like the best. I used to work at the Bush Company. I might go back again for two weeks or so, I have been entertaining the thought......I think it would be fun. If I can deal with the schedule that is.....



Well, I have to take out my contacts now and go to sleep.....I am TIRED.

My friend Jim gave me a mosquito zapper the other day (Thank You!) and I put it up. I don't know if I have seen any reduction in the amount of mosquitoes yet, there are plenty out there still. I live in the forest with many areas of standing water surrounding the house, the water is a breeding ground for mosquitoes. When I let Chhaya out after sundown she comes back home with so many mosquitoes on her, it's absolutely gross, I swat her with a towel and then I walk around the house several times a day and swat the walls with the same towel, there are dead mosquitoes all over the house. BARF! First I felt bad for killing them, because I take out all other insects (even flies) but now I just kill them. I don't care anymore. I even got bit on my eyelid twice while sleeping in the last couple of months, woke up with a swollen eye. Sometimes I can hear them at night, the bzzzzzzz noise coming closer and closer. I think they are so gross!

I didn't get out of bed until 1 45 pm today. That's late.....even for me! I worked last night and I stayed until 4 I think and when I was driving home I was soooooo tired I had a hard time keeping my eyes open. I was going to work tonight too but I have to get up early tomorrow and take care of some stuff in Anchorage and I need to be out of the house by 8 am, so if I work tonight I won't get many hours of sleep and I don't like to drive long distances when I'm tired. So I'm staying in. Good, feel kind of sluggish anyways. Is it possible to have jetlag this long? I might go for a run later, might as well take advantage of the gorgeous weather and the late night sun.....in a few months it will be dark by 9 pm again.
This was me today. I did some errands in town earlier. Got groceries, food for Chhaya, checked my PO BOX, got a latte at Kaladi - the usual.


And this is my new purse for work. Pippi! And I have two Pippis hanging off it, decorations. Plus I have the exact same purse for outside of work too since my other purse now has a broken zipper. I still have my Hello Kitty purse for work, I'm going to alternate. Why not.



OK.....I have to change into some other clothes now and go running, I have to force myself but I know it's going to feel great afterwards. Then I'm going to enjoy a bath, scrub myself all over, slather on lotion and go to sleep. Oh I almost forgot, I have the latest issue of TIME magazine to devour also....it's going to be a nice and cozy evening at home!

It's a new day today and life goes on, right? And it's July 1! Like we say in Sweden....."Sommaren är kort, den nästan rinner bort." Last night I stayed at home and felt sad and lonely, I ate chocolate and read a bunch of blogs. Today I woke up feeling better, the sun was shining and although I miss everybody in Sweden and feeling homesick.....I have something to look forward to when I go back home again.
Today I met up with a friend at Coffee Roasters and then we went for a walk and went down to the beach......that was nice. And it was even warm enough outside that I could tan for a while when I got back home.

I am very very homesick today.....not feeling that great at all. I know that going somewhere on vacation is way different than actually living there because I was complaining and being bored with everyday life when I lived in Stockholm too. That's normal I think, especially when you are in the midst of winter. But NOTHING.....NOTHING is as boring as Kenai. At least for me. I'm sure Kenai is a perfectly fine place for a lot of people but not for me. I'm not going to expand on the Kenai is a boring place topic any more this time around. I am homesick and that's that. I miss my friends and actually DOING stuff because there are plenty of things to do in Stockholm and I also miss walking around in City. I put some new stuff from Sweden in the kitchen window......



What else can I write about? O yeah, I had to get a new passport while I was in Sweden. Therefore I had to get measured.....I was curious to see if I had shrunk since the last time but I I'm the same.



And I was also curios to see what I weighed in actual kilos. There is an old scale at the gym here in Kenai, the kind where you have to move the little weight around to balance it out.....
I don't know how to use that stuff and I don't know what I weigh in pounds either......so I stepped on my brothers scale and it said 61.9 kilos. Now I know.



Well.....I'm going to start my day now. I have a few things on my to do list.